第1章生不如死

wobeirensichejianta,zhaichuqiguan,shoujinzhemoersi。

死后意识尚存。

woyezhongyudezhishiguimilianhenanyoujiangwomaidaomianbei。

yuanyinshi,tamenzhidaolewocaishigujiazhenqianjin,pawohuiguijiazuhouqiangletadediwei。

zhonghuoyishi,tamenhaiyaogujizhongshi。

kexi,zheiciwodeqinshengfuqin,gujiajiazhuyegenzhezhongshengle。

jirantaneimehaipashenfenbaolu,wodangranbuhuirutasuoyuanlou。

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sihou,wodeyishipiaodangzaixuwuzhong。

荒山野岭的草地上。

wobiantilinshangdeshentibeijigeshaqiandaodemianbeietufenchengqibakuaizhuangdaoheisuliaodaili,rengdaolebuyuanchudechoushuigouli。

恨啊!

yigeyueqian,nanyoudadianhuagenwosajiao,“wodouzhaonineimeduohuile,nijiulaiyunnanzhaowowanliangtianma。”

woyouyuleyitian,zhongjiushitongyile。

kedaodamudedihou,dengdaiwodequeshibeihouyiji。

xinglaihou,yuanbenpingdanxingfudeshenghuobiandeqicantongku。

beiqiujinouda,rumaqilingshichangtai,tangruomeiyeji,jiuhuibeineixiecanrendeemomenlunliuzhemo。

youyici,tamenjiangwoenzaidishang,yongtiezhishuazishuawodepifu。

yishuazixiaqu,suirouhengfei,zheihaibugou,tamenchenzhewotongkuzhiji,zaiwoshenshanglinshangguntangmaozheqipaodelayou。

neiyishunjian,shengburusi。

jiuzheiyang,wozaizheilihunhuneedeguoleyigeyue。

duanduangebayue,wojiucongyiduojiaonendehuaduo,bianchengkuzhilanye。

zaizheigemeiyourenxingdedifang,huozheyeshizhongtongku,woyoushishenzhizaixiang,buruzhuangqiangersiba,keyoubuganxin,wanyinenglianxidaoguimini?

zhengzhengjiacaiwanguan,shiquanguozhimingfushangguchengrendenver,ruguoyoutachumian,huoxuwonengyouyixianshengji。

zhidaoyouyitian,wozhendekandaoletaolidexiwang。

chenzhezhuguanrenyuanchulipantaorenyuan,woyongshoujijizuixinrendeguimiguzhengzhengdadianhua。

duifanghenkuaijiujietongle,wojibukenaideqiujiu,“zhengzheng,wo...wobeimengqimaidaolemiandian,jiujiuwo。”

dianhuaneitoutingdunlexia,piankehou,chuanlaiyishengchixiao,suihouerlaidebianshidiaokanyufengci,“ai,duoduoa,wojiubuleni,sheirangnineimechunni,zheiyiqiedoushiniyinggaichengshoude。”

tingdaozheifanhua,womanlianbukezhixin,yuduosuodewenhua,“zhengzheng,ni...nishenmeyisi。”

“he,shenmeyisi,nihaibumingbaima,nibujinsha,haiyanxia,kanshanglemengqineimegeweicaishimingdechunhuo,wojileta100wan,he,tajiubanijimaile,zhenshikexiao。”,tagenwangchangyiyang,shengyinwenrouruannuo,shuochudehuayuqueyouruyibagangdingzharuwodexinzang。

zaishoujinzhemoshi,shiguimizhichengzhewoyaonulihuoxiaqu,tayouqianyoushili,shiwozuiqinjinderen,woyizhixiangxinzhiyaoyoujihuiyidinghuilianxidaota,jiuwochuqu。

yuanlai,congshizhizhongdouzhiyouwoyigeshazi。

呵,可笑,可悲!

woyayizheshengyinwentaweiheyaozheiyangzuo,taquegaosuwoleyigetiandademimi,“gaosuniyewufang,fanzhengnizaineigeguidifangyehuobujiule。”