第一章
guimiduonianbuyun，feilazhewodaosimiaolishuanwawa，baoyoutanenggouhuaigejiankangdehaizi。
womenlianggeqianxinqidao，xiwangdechangsuoyuan。
keshiyigeyueyihouwodehaizimomingqimiaoyanleqi，lingyibianqueshoudaoleguimihuaiyundehaoxiaoxi。
shiyuehuaitai，guimishengxialeliujinsanliangdenanhai，hewoerzidetizhongyifenbucha，liantashenshangdetaijidouyimoyiyang！
woquzhaoguimideshihou，quebeiyilianghuochezhuangfei，beidayuchongjinlexiashuidao，hanhenlishi。
buyunbuyudeguimijiezhewodehaizijiarulehaomen，laogongyeruyuanyichangqulegehaomen**。
sihouwocaizhidao，lianggerenzaojiuxiangzhiwoyusidi，cailianheqilaibawochudiao。
zhonglaiyishi，wobahaizidediaosuwawahuanchengtuzide，zhuguimiyitaishengyiwo。
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“minmin，peiwoqushuangewawahuilaihaobuhao，tingshuokelingleni，niyezhidao，wonanpengyoushigefuerdai，ruguobuhuaihaizi，wozheibeizidoujiabujinqu。”
shenshangyinyuedebeizhuangjiganbawolahuixianshi，wocaizhidaozijijingranzhongshengle。
woxiayishibaoqichuangbiandehaizi，molemotadeqixi，caiqingxingdetanlekouqi。
“qumaquma，nibuxiangwojiaruhaomen，daoshihouyoufutongxiangma？”
ruguotazhendexianghewoyoufutongxiang，yebuhuiyongwohaizideminghuantazijidehaizi，gengbuhuigugehuocheyaolewodeming！
zheiciwokendinghuihaohaobaohuwodehaizi，rang**zishieguo。
我强装淡然：
“ninianjiqingqingde，lairifangzhang，heninanpengyoununulijiukeyihuaiyunle，hebixinzheizhongni，zaishuole，youbuyidinghuilingyan。”
xujiaojiaodelianmashangjiuheile，yibazhangdazaiwoerzidetoushang，liuxiagebazhangyin。
“你干什么！”
徐娇娇委屈地直哭。
“nikan，nidouxintengnideerzi，woxiangyougeerziyoucuoma？”
suiranxujiaojiaodedongzuohenkuai，danshiwohaishikanjiantashouzhitoushangniezheyigenwoerzidetoufa。
wogangyaozhaotalilun，jieguowolaogongzhangchaoyibalanzhulewo。
“nibangbangniguimi，jiupeitaquba，haizidayixiayoudabuhuai，zhiyufapiqima？”
heng，wokanzhezhangchaomanshenda**jitamaidemingpaijiuzhidao，tazaojiuyanelewoheerzi，zenmekenengzhiwangtaxintengerzini。
yanqiandezhananjiannv，chuantongyiqi，douxianwoaiyan，zhidaobawozuihoudeyidianjiazhizhagan。
zheibeiziwoyebuhuirangtamenhaoguo。
zheishihou，wobamuguangluozailejierziyangdedaheituzi，qianjitiangangshengleyiwobatai。
我低头笑了。
ranhoukanxiangmanyankewangde“haoguimi”，zuibayizhangyihe。
“haoa，mingtianyizaojiuqu。”
“zhunizaoshengguizi，jiaruhaomen。”
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shangyishi，guimijiushiqiuzhewoqupeitadaosimiaolimianshuanwawa，qiqiutayenengruyuanshengxiayigenanhai，shunlijiaruhaomen。
dangshijinrusimiao，zhikanjianxujiaojiaotaochuyizhiniwawa，yinyuejianjuedewawashenshangdetaijihewoerzishenshangdeyimoyiyang。
danshiwoyoumeiyouhenzaiyi，kenengzhishidiaosudeshihouhunjinqubiededongxile。
erqiewawadeshenshanghaibangzheyikuaihongbu，limianzangleyigentoufa，kanqilaiyehenguiyi。
dankanjiansimiaolimiandoujingqiaoqiaode，guimiyezaichengxinqidao，woyejiumeiyoushuoshenme。
keshiyigeyueyihou，shuimengzhongdeerziturankaishishoudengjiaobao，meiguoyihuijiuyidongbudongle。
woganjinbazhangchaojiaoqilai，ketazhishihuishenkanlekan，bianshuohaizimeijiule，yemeibiyaosongjinyiyuanle。
wogangxiangzhiwentaweishenmezheimehenxin，jiujiedaolelaiziguimidehaoxiaoxi。
“minmin！wohuaiyunle！”
“womashangjiuyaojiaruhaomenle！”
wobaozhemeileqixideerzixinlishengyi，buguzhangchaodezulanbaoqierzijiuwangganqu。
keshiyishengqinkougaosuwohaiziqueshimeileshengmingtizheng，yinggaizhunbeihoushi。
bishixujiaojiaochenjinzaidezidexingfuzhong。
shiyuehuaitai，tafaleyigepengyouquan，peiwen：
“liujinsanliang，taibangla！”
keshiwozenmekandoujuedetahewoerzigangchushengdeyangziyimoyiyang。
erzhangchaozhishuowoshishenjingbingfanle，lazhewoyaobawosongjinjingshenbingyuan。
“yaobunijiuqujingshenbingyuan，yaobunijiuqusi，neishirenjiadeerzi，henierziyoushenmeguanxi！”
wobuguzhangchaodezunao，daizhemanxindeyihuochulemenquzhaoguimi，quemeixiangdaohuibeidahuochezhuangsi。
erneiliangcheziwoyehenshuxi，shizhangchaohaopengyoude，mailejuebaoxian，zhuangsirendoubuxuyaopeichangde。
儿子和我先后死去。
xujiaojiaomeilewodedarao，xinanlidedaizhehaizijiaruhaomen。
erzhangchaozhuantoujiudanglehaomenzhuixu，guoshangjinyiyushidehaorizi。
daotoulai，shiwoheerzichengquanletamenlianggezhananjiannvdeguangmingweilai！
woqiangrenxintoudenuyi，yibianhongzheerzi，yibiantingxujiaojiaotaotaobujuede“bairimeng”。
dangtianwanshang，wojiujiezhechuqumaicaideshihou，daonisudianmaileyizhiheniwawachabuduodadetuzinisu。
zaibatuzidemaobaozaihongbuli，xizaituzinisushang，wenwendifangjinbaoli。
diertianyidazao，xujiaojiaojiukuangkuangdiqiaomen，cuizhewohezhangchaokuaiyidian。
“quzaoyidiancaiqianchengni，kuaidiankuaidian。”
daoleshandingshang，xujiaojiaobabaojiaojiwobaoguan，dasuansankoujiubai，jiuweilenengqiuyigehaizi。
kanlaitaweilejiaruhaomenyijingsangxinbingkuang，jinguanetoushangdoushixue，yezhaokebuwu。
wochenzhezhangchaobuzhuyi，balianggenisuwawazuolediaohuan，baoshanghongbu，genbenkanbuchulai。
xiangbixujiaojiaoduoshengjige，fujiagongzicaihuigengxihuantaba？
zongsuanbubukedaoleshandingdesimiao，xujiaojiaobabaolidenisuwawagongfengzaigongzhuodixia，shuanshanghongsheng。
tashuangshouheshi，chongmanleduihaizidekewang，haixiayishipielewoyiyan，zuijiaoluchudechengdexiaoyi。
wozhuyidaozhangchaoyeshiduiwobaichuyifubiyidezuilian，chongmanlexianqi。
zhishitamenbuzhidao，gongzhuodixiadeniwawa，shituzaizi，haibuzhiyizhi！
qidaowanbi，xujiaojiaoshenqingfuzadilazhuwodeshou，shuleyikouqi，daizhebuyichajuedeqingxing。
“敏敏，谢谢你。”
我只看着她笑了笑。
xiwangtashiyuehuaitaiyihou，hainenglazhewodeshoushuoxiexie。
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jisuanleshangyishixujiaojiaohuaiyundeshijian，wotiqianjixiaoshibaerzibaozou。
ranhouzhuangzuobeitongwanfendekuqiang：
“laogong，wogenhaizihaizaisanbuni，tazenmeturanyidongbudonglea，zheikezenmebana！”
genbenbuzaihuerzisihuodezhangchao，jiedaozheigexiaoxiyihouxianshichenmolebanke，sihushizaianxi。
但马上又指责我：
“kushenmekua，haizisilejiusile，nikuyouhuibulai，daoshihouzaishengba。”
wodeneixinkuxiao，zheijiushiwoqiantiaowanxuanchulaidenanren，tajianzhibupeiweiren！
zhangchaobabudeerziyaozhe，genbenbuguanshenme“houshi”，zhijiaowozijikanzheban。
erwozebahaizibaohuiniangjia，gaosuwoma，qianwanbunengbaozhehaizichuqu，renguozheiduanshijian。
wogangchuxiaoqumenkou，jiujiedaolexujiaojiaodehaoxiaoxi：
“minmin，wozhongyuhuaiyunle！”
“wotingzhangchaoshuonidehaizisile，zhenshitingwanxide，danshiwobaozheng，yihouwodehaiziyeshinidehaizi，zanmenshihaoguimima。”
wozaixinliwanju，neiduihaizi，haishitazijiliuzheba。
danwoyijiuzhuangzuotitaxinwei。
“womeiguanxi，nihuaiyunjiushihaoxiaoxi，yidingyaohaohaoyangtai，wokedengzhenijiajinhaomen，heniyiqixiangfuni。”
tingdaowozheimeshuo，xujiaojiaozaidianhualifachujianruibaomingdeshengyin，chayidianbengqilai。
“duiduidui，yiqixiangfu！”
wohuidaojiayihoufaxianzhangchaobuzai，kanleshoujicaifaxiantazaojiujiwofalegexiaoxi：
【今天加班。】
taziyiweiwomeikanjianguotameitianchuanhuilaidexinmingpai**，keshiwoquandoukanzaiyanli。
buguozheizhongzangnanrenwoyebuxihan。
yigemangzhechugui，yigemangzheyangtai，dandoumeifaxian，longziliyijingquanshenjiangyingdebazhixiaotuzi。
wodenianjibixujiaojiaodajisui，yebitachengshu，pingshitazuoshenmedouyilaiwo。
zheixiatazhijiebanjinlewojia，xiangyaowobangtahutai，zhidaolinchan。
“nishengguohaizima，youshiyisheng，wohaishibijiaoxiangxinni，xianzainidehaiziyijingmeile，zhenghaoyoujinglizhaoguzhaoguwo。”
suiranwozaojiuduitahenzhirugu，danhaishimianqiangxiaozhe，yikoudayingxialai。
buguoxujiaojiaohuaiyunzhihou，turanjiubiandeyichanglanduo，shenzhilianshangcesuodoulandeshang。
erqiexianglaijieshideta，weikoudaoshihaolebushao，chideyuelaiyueduo，genbenkongzhibuzhu。
gengtebiedeshi，gangganghuaileyigeyue，duzikanqilaijiuxiangshiwuliugeyue。
xujiaojiaodebiaoxian，yuelaiyuexiangtuzihuaiyundexixing。
“zheijitianwopanglesanshijin，meiguanxibaminmin？”
wozhishianfuleyixiatadeqingxu，ranhouwenroudikanzheta，shuo：
“nikeshiwodehaoguimi，nihaibuxiangxinwoma，doujiaojiwojiuhaole。”
xujiaojiaoxuyaoyangduzilidebagetaier，chuyumuxingyeyaofengkuangwangzuilimiansaidongxi，yuechiyueduo。
danshitananpengyouxiangyaochenzhetahuaiyunjubanhunli，xujiaojiaohaishikezhiziji，nulijianfeiweilezijinengchuanshanghunsha。
hunliqianxi，xujiaojiaodenanpengyouqiaokaiwojiademen，kanjiantadeyangzijianzhidachiyijing。
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“ninini......”
tananpengyoujianghanwennilebantian，doushuobuchulaiyijuwanzhengdehualai。
xujiaojiaoshunjianjiuhuangle，henbudezhaogedifengzuanjinqu，danshiyouzhinengmianduixianshi。
jimangshangqiansajiao，bajianghanwendeshoufangzaizijideyundushang。
“woxianzaisuiranpangleyidian，danshiwoguimishuowokenenghuaideshuangbaotai，daoshihouayikendinghuigaoxingde。”
jianghanwenzuijiaochoulechou，taitoukanwo。
woyetixujiaojiaojieshidao：
“jibaotaihaibuyidingni，danshijueduishizhengchangde，woshiyisheng，yeshijiaojiaodehaoguimi，fangxinba。”
suiranwohexujiaojiaodouzheimeshuo，danshijianghanwendelianseyijiubuhaokan，xianqidichehuilezijideshou。
xujiaojiaodetizhongzengjiaguoduo，yikaishizhunbeidehunshayebunengyongle，zhinengzaidingzuojiafeijiadadehunsha。
hunlidedangtian，xujiaojiaoqueshirangwokaileyan，shengdayoujingzhi，xujiaojiaoyeshijidongbuyi。
zaihunlihoutai，xujiaojiaofanfudiaozhengzhezijidexinqing，yilianxingfudifumozhezijidehaizi。
“nikezhenshigexingyundebaobao，mamajiuyaodaizhenijiaruhaomenla，gaobugaoxing？”
erwodeshixianluozailetadegebohetoufashang，caifaxiantahetuziyiyang，kaishibazijidemaofa。
geboyinyuefahong，ertoufayetuleyikuai。
woxinweidikanzhexujiaojiao，bangtazhenglizhenglitousha。
“nideyuanwangyijingshixianle，haizideshiqingbuyongdanxin，yiqiedoujiaojiwo。”
wokanzheyangyizhexiaorongdexujiaojiao，tadelianshangjingranmeiyouyisiduiwodekuijiu。
zheigengrangwoduizheigenvrenganjuedaozuoou！
woyijingjieguohun，bunengjixujiaojiaozuobanniang，zhinenghezhangchaozuozaitaixiakanzhezheiduixingfudexinren。
dangzhangchaozhanqilaihebierenhanxuandeshihou，wokanjiantadeshoujishangyouyitiaoxinxi。
【wohuijinkuairangtajinirangwei，wozuiaiderenshini，xiaohui。】
wokanzhezheitiaoxinxi，zhishilengxiaoleyisheng。
zheibeiziwohaihuineimeqingyirangtadechengma？woyaorangtashenbaiminglie！
wotaitoukanxiangtaishanglianggeren，shenqingjiaohuanzhejiezhi，xujiaojiaoroumadeshuozheqinghua。
danshiqueshibushifumozhezijidadekuazhangdeduzi，sihuyijingyoulebushufudeganjue。
dangxujiaojiaorenzhetongzhuanxiangtaixiadeshihou，buyoufenshuodichaoqianpudaole，rouyankejiantadeduzijuliedizhandong。
xujiaojiaodelianshangdoushitongkudebiaoqing。
台下一片唏嘘。
xujiaojiaoyijingzhidaozijichuxianleyiyang，zhongmukuikuixiatiqizijidequnbaiwangwaipao。
江瀚文不明所以。
“jiaojiao，nizenmele？”
keshixujiaojiaoyiludiediezhuangzhuang，haishitaolilehunlixianchang，basuoyourendoukanmengle。
hunlibuhuanersan，jiangjiachaozheyaotuihun，maxujiaojiaobukeliyu。
banxiaoshiyihou，wojiedaolexujiaojiaodedianhua，neibiandexujiaojiaoxiesidili，fengkuangnuhou：
“heminmin，woshuandewawazenmeturanjianbianchengletuzi！”
“nigaosuwo，woduzilihuaideshibushiquandoushituzi？！”