第1章
woheluchenyanqingmeizhumayiqizhangda，fuqishuzai，woaitarugu，quehuanlailetachuguiwobadesishengnv。
kedangwozaishoushutaishangpinlemingshengchandeshihou，tongfuyimudemeimeichuangjinlai，xiaodejifeng：jiejie，zhiyouwocaipeishengxiachenyangegedehaizi，niqusiba。
tayilianwenroulantaruhuai。
zhonglaiyishi，wobuyaotale，jiajilezhishoukeredelushijiazhu。
luchenyanquelangbeibukandiguizaiwomianqian，qiqiuwobuyaolikaita。
erwoneixinrenlaogongcongshenhoulanzhewodeyao，pinizhetongkuchanhuideren：“nigaichengtayishengxiaoshen。”
luchenyancanbaizheliandao：“xiao......xiaoshen”
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云城第一医院。
手术室。
xiaodushuideweidaozaibixijianweirao。
wochilidizhengkaishuangyan，ciyandedengguangrutongbinglengdexuesehuangdewoyanjingweimi。
erbianchuanlaiyidaokuaiyideshengyin。
“ruanyan，nizheige**，zhanzheluchenyanqizideweizhizheimeduonian，zaojiugaisile！”
“rujinweilewodehaiziyaoniyigeshen，yesuanshinilveweibuchangle。”
shuozheihuaderenshiwozhangfuluchenyandeqingren，wobadesishengnvsuyouyou。
wotangzaishoushutaishang，kanzhemianqiandenvren。
tazhangxiangqingchundongren，yishenbaiqungoulechujihaoshenxing，neizhisubaideshouqingqingfumozheweiweilongqidexiaofu，lingyizhishouzeshilinzhejiagebufeidegaoshebaobao，zhenggerenkanqilaichuchen、jingzhi、youguiqi。
zhishineiyanlidehenliheshayidaodihetadewaimaogegeburu。
erwozhisuoyitangzaishoushutaishang，shiyinweiwodezhangfuyongwomuqinyishengdexinxuezuoweiweixie，rangwojitamendehaizijuanyikeshen。
yexushiyinweibaoyingbushuang，neishiluchenyanhesuyouyoudediyigehaizi，gangshengxialaijiuxiantianbuzu，budaosansuijiuquezhenleshenshuaijie。
erwoshiweiyiyigehetapeixingchenggongderen。
bannianqian，woyijingzailiangrendeshejizhixia，beipojuanleyigeshen。
rujintamenxinhenshoula，youyaonazouwozuihouyigeshen。
woxiayishixiangyaozhengzha，quefaxianzijideshoujiaodoubeisisidibangzaishoushutaishang。
suyouyouzaiyipangxiaodeyinleng。
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tingdaozheihua，wozhijuedezhoushenyizhenlengyi。
直接取？
wokanzhemianqiandabanjingzhidesuyouyou，xinlituranturanyongqiyizhenbugan。
“suyouyou，woyaojianluchenyan。”
wobuganxinjiuzheimesile！
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tingdaowodehua，suyouyoujiuxiangshitingdaoleshenmexiaohuayiban，zhijiexiaolechulai。
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“keyishikeyi，zhibuguonibuyaohouhui。”
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“悠悠，怎么了？”
wokanzhetayijiushiyishendetidexizhuang，liluodeduanfayisibugoudeshuqi，biliangshangdejinsiyanjingzheshezheshoushushilidedengguang，huangdewoyouxieciyan。
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“你见我做什么？”
binglengdeshengyinbudaiyisiwendu，tayanlideyanetouguoyanjingzhigougoudeluozaiwoshenshang。
wocaihuangranjianfaxian，wohetazhijian，jiuzheimezoudaolexiangkanliangyandedibu。
wokanzheta，xinliyizhenqiliang。
“luchenyan，weishenme？”
luchenyanxianlexianyanpi，yuqizhongtouzhenongzhongdebunaifan。
“为什么？”
tazuijiaogouqiyisiwanweidechaofeng，muguangbinglengdeluozaiwoshenshang，“ruanyan，congyikaishi，woxihuanderenjiushiyouyou。ruguobushiyinweinimahenizaojiuleyouyoudebeiju，wocaibuhuiquni。quni，zhishiweilenazounihe**yiqie，tiyouyouchuqibale。”
tingdaozheihua，wozhijuedeyanqianyihei，youxiechengshoubuzhu。
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“去死吧！**！”
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“daleieryi，yanyanbupa，chenyangegehuiyizhipeizheni......”
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“颜颜！”
“颜颜！”
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zhouweishenzhelifuderenlailaiwangwang，datingzhongyangdepingmushangzhengshiwoheluchenyandezhaopian。
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我呼吸猛的一顿。
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我回来了！
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wocetoukanqu，lairenyishenjiuhongsedayi，mianrongjiaohao，kemeijianqueyinyinyousisiaoqi。
zheirenzhengshiluchenyandemuqin——zhangxueli。
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woyanzhonglengyiyishanjishi。
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tingdaozheihua，zhangxueliyanlishanguoyisideyi。
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“mama......”
tingdaowodeshengyin，liangrenxiayishichaowokanleguolai。
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