第4章 她是妈妈

qinluoxiangqiruyuqiandeyixieshiqing,tahaijidefuzhengmingduitashuoguodeneixiehua,jiusuantasi,yemibubulesuofanxiadecuowu。

tayaotasi,zhemozhisi!

tingzheerzihefuzhengmingdehua,qinluodedanyouwuxiankuoda,yanshendanyoujifenkanzheyanqianzheigenanren。

sihushichajuedaoleqinluokanta,fuzhengminghuanhuankanxiangqinluo,qinluolikeditoubugankanta。

“怕么?”

fuzhengmingzheihuidexinqingshuobushanghao,yeshuobushangbuhao,jiashangerzizhengzaitashenbian,taiduweiwanxuduo,dantashenshangqiangdadeweisheli,haishilingqinluohunshenkangju。

youyizhongpashizheibeizidougaibianbulede,neijiushiqinluoduifuzhengmingde。

cengjiheshi,takeyirangtapadaozhandou,neimerujinyousuanshenme?

“jintian……woxiangjianxiaoyu。”

qinluoxiangjieshi,xiangdaoneimechongdongdejiuqule,wanyifuzhengmingwanquyibu,tarenusongpeiqin,buzhiruhehouguo,wanyilelingtazaiyebuxujiandaoxiaoyu,tazenmeban!

tashuleyikouqi:“xiexieni!”

momingde,tayebuzhidaoweishenmeshuolezheimeyijuhua,shuowanhaishiyouxiehouhuide,taiguguaile!

danshixiayike,fuzhengmingfandaochaofengyixiao:“nizheishizaigenwofaxunxi,wanshangyaohaohaobiaoxian?”

qinluodelian,shunjianhongtou。

dangzheerzidemian,tadaodizaishuoshenme。

dengtataitouqukan,fuzhengmingyijingchuimouheerzizaishuohuale,erzidedayanjingyezhengzaidiliuliudekanzheta,takandaoerzi,tadexindouhuale。

zhishitahaibugankaojin,yebuganluanshuo,yinweifuzhengminghaimeiyougaosuxiaoyu,tajiushixiaoyudemama。

qinluojiaojidekanxiangfuzhengming,dengzhetahuida,jiuxiangshidengdaiyigeenciyiyang。

danshitahuanlaide,queshifuzhengmingdemoran,fangfogenbenwangleerziwendehua。

qinluochaoqiandongledong,zuodebushufuyiyang。

“fuzhengming……”qinluojiannankaikou。

fuzhengmingtaimou,neishuangyanmoushensuiruyuan:“jiaowoshenme?”

qinluoweiweizhandou,tajiushizheiyang,rubingshanyiyang,meicitamianduita,douxiangrulindadi,yaoguqishierfendeyongqi,haosishisiruguidemiandui。

yuanbenyiweijingliguoyici,tachulaihoujiukeyimianduitale,meixiangdao,yiqiehaishizheigeyangzi。

jiurutong,shenmedoumeifagaibian。

meilaiyoude,qinluoshuleyikouqi,yiqiedoushiweilexiaoyu。

“傅先生……”

fuzhengmingdelianshunjianheitou:“shenme?”

lenglengde,haoxiangyaobaoliedebingchuan,qinluoheleyitiao,kanzhetayiyanbufa,liandoubaile!

他要干什么?

qinluoyouxiewucuo,haoduanduande……

发火!

“qinluo,wozaijiniyicijihui,zuihaobuyaorangwoshengqi。”

qinluolianseyuefanankan,danyoudemuguangkanxiangerzi。

怎么办?

他又开始了。

qinluodenaohaibushoukongzhidexiangdaoliunianqiandeneigeyewan,tabeizheigenanrenzenyangdeduidai,tahehuaile,xinglaihouyizhibaozhezijiduozaijiaoluolisesuo,zhandoudeyachidouzaidajia。

neiyangdetianqibingbuleng,danshitadaijitadequeshibihandonghaiyaolengdejijie。

“……wogangganghuilai,naoziyouxiebuhao,buyaohehuaixiaoyu,ruguonibumanyi,wokeyigai!”

qinluoyijingnulirangzijipeihele,zhiyaoweileerzi,tashenmedouyuanyi。

fuzhengmingdelianseyijiubushihenhao,tadeyanshenyizhizaiqinluoneili。

lenglengde:“kanlailimiandekongqiqueshiyouwenti。”

qinluomeitingdong,kanfuzhengmingkanlejimiaozhong,jimiaohoutaxianrulewujindehuiyizhizhong,zhuanmiankanzhecheziwaimian,tazaiyebunengrenshou,jinjinwozhutadeshou。

xiaochenyufaxianbuduizaifuzhengmingdeerbianwen:“tazenmele?”

fuzhengmingdeshengyingewaibinglengfanzao:“nizaizuoshenme,nixiangrangxiaoyurenweishenme?”

qinluomeitingjian,tayijingbeiwujindelaoyushengyajinmeile。

“秦洛。”

fuzhengmingnuhou,qinluoduosuoleyixia,huranzhuanshenkantamenfuzi。

qinluokule,yanleiwangwangdekanzheyanqianderen。

记忆还在过去。

“你在干什么?”

fuzhengmingdemuguanggengleng,qinluoxiayishidehuiguoshen。

“我……”

“buyaozaiyouxiaci,xiaoyushinanhaizi,nizaitamianqiankukutiti……”

fuzhengmingdehuabingbuhenda,danshihenyanli,jiuxiangjiaoxunhaizi。

qinluoxiayishidecalecayanlei,baoqiandekanxiangerzi:“duibuqi。”

xiaochenyudaliangta,bushuohua,yanquanhonghongde。

qinluoyuefabushufu,dangzhehaizidemian,queshibukeyizheiyang。

tadaoqian:“duibuqi。”

“duibuqiruguoyouyong,haiyaofalvzuoshenme?”

fuzhengmingyijiulengzhelian,qinluoneixinyehenjiaozao,zheinanrenguoranhaishilaoyangzi,duitadehenyiyiranbujian。

keweileneichangsuoweidecuowu,liuniannandaohaishaome?

“……”

qinluobunengfanbo,yebuganfanbo,tazhihaokanxiangerzi,danerzibuquedingtadeshenfen,sihuyebuxiangguoqu。

qinluozhihaoguzuyongqizuodaofuzhengmingdeshenbian,zaitaerbianyongzhiyoutamentingjiandeshengyinhefuzhengmingshuo:“zuowannibiwozuodeshiqing,wokeyizuo。”

fuzhengmingdeshoudongleyixia,niutoukanqu。

qinluolengzhu,bupianbuxie,fuzhengmingdezuichuntiezailetadezuichunshang。

xiayike,qinluohededuodaoleyibian。

erzimianqian,zenmekeyi?

fuzhengminglengzheliankantaleyiyan:“guoran,nihaishixia……”

jianneigezifuzhengmingmeishuo,dantadehuabaizaineili。

erzizailiuleyifenyudi,qinluodeliandoubaile,yuanbendejinzhangsanqu,qinluozuohaobuzaishuohua。

她的内心一片荒凉。

menxinziwen,taconglaimeihaiguoren。

danshitamenzhengjuquezao,tabachengqiantuixialoule。

zicitalangdangruyu,shengxiaerziyebunengxiangjian。

shuota**,tashenmeshihouzhudongguo?

那次不是他的逼迫。

ganggangtayeshiyishiqingji,meixiangdao,tashizheimexiane!

qinluofadaifuzhengmingwen:“zenme?bushi?”

qinluotingchuxianwaizhiyin,zhuanguoqukanfuzhengming:“shi。”

fuzhengmingfandaomeihuakeshuode,beiqinluoyigezikengqiangyoulidedulehuiqu。

nuyibujiandelianduizheqinluo:“hao,jinwanjiukannizenmebiaoxian!”

shuowanfuzhengmingditoukanxiangerzi:“tashimama!”

qinluoruzaoleiji,yiqiedoutaituranle。