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shangyishi,womanxinhuanxijiajifuzhouzhao。
taxingzilengdan,wozhidangtashengxingshiran。
zongbeipomubaibandiaonanwoyeyinrenbufa,weitashengeryunv,jingtaaita。
zhidaolinsizhiji,wofaxiantahechulianliushizaidoubucengduanguodeshuxincaihuangran。
他从未放下过她。
zaizhengyanhuidaocongqian,woxuanzefangshouchengquan。
taquezhuazhewodeshouwan,xinghongleyan。
“yuruoying,shinishuoyaopeiwozouyibeizide,nizenmenengshiyan!”
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1992nian,xingchengdelongdong,jingdezhenluokewen。
wotangzaibangyingdemubanchuangshang,jiuweidexiangyeqixirangwojiujiuwufahuishen。
mianqianneizhangchaohongluohandelianyiran。
“傅舟钊?”
wobushisilema?weishenme,haihuikandaonianqingshihoudefuzhouzhao?
budengwoxixiang,shenshangrenmengranchenyao,daduanlewosuoyousixu。
fuzhouzhaobijianreqiguntang,moujianheichen。
“weilegehaizi,nijiwoxiayaodeshidougandechu,wojinijiushi。”
chuangwaiyuanshanbaixue,wuneihongzhangfangun。
fuzhouzhaofalehen,genbenmeiyoulianxiwodeyisi。
dongjingchixudaoshenye,wohunshensuantongyichang,naoziqueqingxingguolai。
wozhongshengle,huidaoliushinianqian,wohefuzhouzhaogangjiehundeneiyinian。
tamajizhebaosunzi,toutoujitaxialeyao,taquebazheibizhangsuanzaiwotoushang,benjiuduiwobusuanreqingdenanren,jingzheiyiwan,duiwoyuefamoran。
zenmepianpian,huidaolezheigeshihou......
wozhengzhengdingzheshencehuxijunyundenanren,fangmenhuranbeirenjiaojipaixiang。
“zhaoge!zhaogenishuilema?nikaikaimenhaobuhao?wohaipa。”
woxinyisuo,chuangshangyuanbenbiyandenanrenyijingqishen,bianchuanyibianwangwuwaizou。
tabeiyingcongcong,heshangbeizijihuzhongdie。
menkaihou,neidaonvshenggengjiakelian,tawuwuyanyanshuolexieshenme。
fuzhouzhaoyouzhehuilai,nalejianyuyichuqu,quanchengmeiyouduokanwozheigeqiziyiyan。
wohoulongfajin,shouzhangdouyaoqialan:“zheimewan!niyaoqu......ganshenme?”
“woyoushi,nixianshui。”
taduiwoyanjianyigai,duimenkouderenquenaixinshizu:“zou,wogenniqukankan,nibieku,shizaibuxingwolaixiangbanfa。”
mingxiandechaju,dudewohoulongzaishuobuchuyijuhua。
menwailengfengxiaose,bizherenqingxing。
wozaogaizhidaode......
qianshizijiajifuzhouzhao,woyixinpuzaitashenshang,nulizuohaoxianneizhuzaijiaxiangfujiaozi,weitaganyuanshoupomudecuomo。
shushiniandemoran,woyezhidangtashenglaidanmobuaiyurenqinjin,xinlizaikuwodoumeiyuanguota。
zhidaoneitianwojitashoushishufangkandaoleneigebeitashuzhigaogedelankuang......
litouyouyimeiyuzhuo,haiyoutayulingyigerenliushinianbucengjianduanguodeshuxinwanglai。
meiyizhangdeluokuan,doushiliumansheng。
neigechuanshuozhong,tabenlaigaiqudenvren。
erwoyutadeliushinian,woyongxinhehujingyingdeliushinian,zaineixinzhishang,juranzhishiliaoliaoyiju‘liushizailaoyanfenfei’。
neishihouwocaizhidao,tabenbushishengxinglengdanderen,zhishitadewenqingconglaibujiwo。
houlaiwoxinzangbingfa,dajishenweiwojinjilianxirendeta,dianhuaneitouchuanlaidequeshiliumanshengdeshengyin。
takuzhebaoyuantamenyouyuanwufen,baoyuanwoyufuzhouzhaokexiaodewawaqinzangsongtamenyuanbendeweilai。
wobuzhidaofuzhouzhaodehuiyingshishenme,keyebuxuyaole。
dishangneixiexin,jiushizuihaodezhengming。
biyandeneiyike,wocongweineiyangyuanguo。
keweishenme,laotianhaiyaorangwozhonglaiyici?zaizaoyibankutongma?
zheiyiyenanao,wuwaiyuxuefenfei,wosuozaibeizili,shentibinglengnanre。
一直到天光大亮。
woshoushihaochumen,caidaodayuanmenkoujiutingdaoliumanshengxinxijiaoxiudeshengyin——
“zhaoge,nizhendeyaorangwozhujinnidehunfangma?keshi......ruoyingjietahuitongyima?”