1houlonglifangfohaicanliuzhebeituixiatiantaishineizhixidefengguanrudebinglengchugan。
haiyoulinweineizhangzaiyesehenihongdengguangjiaozhixia，niuquyoudeyidelian。“shenzongjian，bieguaiwo。
yaoguaijiuguainidanglelizongdelu，yedanglewodelu。nidegonglao，nideweizhi，nideyiqie，
wodouhui‘haohao’jieshoude。”lizong……limingwei，neigewoshiweidaoshi，yishoutixiewo，
zuihouquemoxushenzhikenengzhudaolezheiyiqiedenanren。judadeyuanhenhebuganxiangyizhibinglengdeshou，
sisizuanjinlewodexinzang。mengdizhengkaiyan！juliedexintiaozhuangjizhexiongqiang，
cimudeyangguangtouguomingliangdebolichuangsazaishenshang，nuanyangyangde。dengdeng……yangguang？
wobushiyinggaizaibinglengdeshuinidishangma？caozaderensheng、kafeijidewengming、jianpandeqiaojisheng……shuxide，
chongmanleshengjideshengyin。wonanyizhixindiditou，kanzhezijideshou。baixi，xianxi，chongmanlenianqingdeliliang，
meiyouzhangqiaoyejiabanliuxiadexiweiwenluheneimeiyinweiwobitaijiuerliuxiadebojian。zheibushiwodeshou。
huozheshuo，zheishishinianqian，wogangruzhi“chuangxing”chuanmeishidewo，ershiersuideshenqingdeshou。
mianqianshiyibeihaizaimaozhereqidesurongkafei，
diannaopingmushangdakaideshiyifenloudongbaichu、youzhidekexiaodepptfangan——neishiworuzhidiyitian，
wodeshangsi，dangshihaishibumenjinglidelimingwei，suishoudiujiwo“lianshou”de“zhongyaokehutian”。“shenqing？
fashenmedaini？lijinglirangniqutabangongshiyitang。
”yigeqingcuiyoudaizhejifenkeyiqinqiedeshengyinzaiwoerbianxiangqi。womengditaitou。linwei。ershichutoudelinwei，
chuanzhelianjiadezhiyetaozhuang，lianshangdaizheganggangburushehuideqingseheyanzangbuzhudeyexin，zhengxiaomimidikanzhewo。
此刻的她，
woneige“zhongxingenggeng”、tiwofendanlewushugongzuo、zuihouquezaiwobeihoutonglezuishenyidaode“deli”xiashu。
shinian。wojingranzhendehuilaile。huidaoleemengkaishidedifang。judadezhenjingguohou，
shijihuyaopenboerchudekuangxihebinglengcigudechouhen。laotianyejilewoyicizhonglaidejihui。limingwei，linwei。
neixiecengjingcaizhewoshangwei，zhaganwosuoyoujiazhihoujiangwoxianglajiyiyangdiuqidezhazi。zheiyishi，youxiguize，
gaiyouwolaidingle。wohuirangnimenyidiandianshiquzuizhenshidedongxi，
rangnimenyechangchangcongyunduandieluo、shenbaimingliedeziwei。2woshenxiyikouqi，yaxiayandifanyongdetaotianjulang，
zaitaitoushi，lianshangyijingguaqileqiadaohaochude、shuyuxinrendemengdonghejinzhang。“haode，xiexieweiweijie。
”woshenzhimofangzhedangnianneizhonglvedaiqienuodeyuqi。zhanqishen，
zhenglileyixiashenshangneitaotongyanglianjiadexizhuangtaoqun，wochaozhelimingweidebangongshizouqu。qiaomenqian，
wocongboliqiangdefanguangli，zuihoukanleyiyanzijicikedemoyang——nianqing，chongmanchaoqi，
danyecuiruodebukanyiji。henhao。lieren，zongshiyiliewudexingtaichuxian。“qingjin。
”limianchuanlailimingweiwenhoudeshengyin。tuimenjinqu。limingweizuozaibangongzhuohou，
sanshiduosuidetakanqilaijinglichongpei，yifuyouweiqingniancaijundemoyang，
lianshangguazhezhaopaishide、jijuqipianxingdewenhexiaorong。“shenqinga，zuo。”tazhilezhiduimiandeyizi，
“gangruzhihaixiguanma？”“xiguande，lijingli，tongshimendouhenyouhao。”woguaiqiaodihuida，
shuangshoufangzaixigaishang，xiandejucubuan。“xiguanjiuhao。jiaoniguolai，shiyougerenwuyaojiaojini。
”tatuiguolaiyifenwenjianjia，“zheishiwomenzhengzaizhengqudeyigedakehu，‘zhenpinzhubao’deniandutuiguangan。
gongsihenzhongshi，woxiangrangniyeshishi，zuoyifenchubudefanganchulai，jiudangshilianlianshou，
yerangwokankannideqianli。”he，heqianshiyimoyiyangdehuashu。“zhenpinzhubao”deanzi，
dangshishilimingweiqinzifuzedehexinxiangmu，tazenmekenengzhendejiaojiyigediyitianruzhidexinren？
zheibuguoshitaguanyongdejiliang——yongkansizhongyaodexiangmudiaozhexinren，rangtamenpinmingbiaoxian，
fuchubaifenzhiliangbaidenulizuochuxielingsuidejichugongzuo，zuihougonglaoquequanbeitayigerenduzhan。qianshidewo，
jiushibeizheifen“zhongshi”chonghunletou，lianxuaoyeyizhou，chabianlesuoyouziliao，
jingranzhendezuochuleyifenjijuliangdiandekuangjiafangan。suiranqingse，danchuangyijingren。limingweinadaohoujingweitianren，
shaojiaxiugaiherunsehou，yizijidemingyitijiao，yijunaxialexiangmu，congcidiandingletazaigongsidediwei，
yeyingdele“shanyufajuehepeiyangxinren”demeiming。erwo，zhidedaoletayijuqingpiaopiaode“zuodebucuo，
henyouqianli，jixunuli”。dangshidewojingranhaiganendaide！xianzaixianglai，zhenshichundekelian。
wojieguowenjianjia，lianshangluchushouchongruojingyoutantedebiaoqing：“lijingli，zheimezhongyaodeanzi，
wo……wopawozuobuhao……”“meiguanxi，dadanquzuo。”limingweixiaoronghexu，“yudaorenhewenti，
suishilaiwenwo。wohenkanhaoni。”“xiexielijingli！woyidingnuli！”wozhanqilai，jugong，
biaoxiandexianggebeidalejixuedexinren。nazhewenjianjiazouchubangongshi，wozuijiaoneisiqienuodeweixiaoshunjianxiaoshi，
huazuobinglengdehudu。limingwei，nixiangyongwodechuangyijinipulu？zheibeizi，nixiangdoubiexiang。3huidaogongwei，
linweilikecouleguolai，yanshenlichongmanlehaoqihetanjiu：“lijinglizhaonishenmeshiya？
shibushiyoushenmehaoxiangmu？”kan，zheimezaojiukaishidatanqingbaole。woguyiyuyanyouzhi，zuoyoukanlekan，
yadishengyin，daizheyisixuanyaohebuan：“lijingliba‘zhenpinzhubao’deanzijiwole，
rangwoshishi……”“shenme？！”linweiguoranjinghuchusheng，suiranlikewuzhulezui，
danyanzhongdejiduhenanyizhixinjihuyaoyichulai，“zhenpinzhubao？neigedakehu？jiniyigexinren？
”tashangxiadaliangzhewo，fangfozaipingguwodaodiyoushenmeteshuzhichu。womanyidikanzhetadefanying。jiduba，
yuejidu，caihuiyuerenbuzhuxingdong。“woyebuzhidaoweishenme……kenenglijinglijiushixiangkaoyanwoba。
”wochoumeikuliandishuo，“weiweijie，woyidiantouxudoumeiyou，zenmebana……”linweiyanzhuzhuanlezhuan，
likehuanshangyifureqingdemiankong：“biedanxin，womendoushixinren，yinggaihuxiangbangzhu。zheiyang，nixianzhaoziliao，
youshenmebudongdelaiwenwo，womenyiqixiangbanfa。”kan，yuersaxiaqule，yueryepobujidaidiyaogoule。
qianshi，linweijiushiyongzheizhong“hubanghuzhu”dejiekou，taoqulewohenduochubudexiangfa，
shenzhizaiwoaoyezuofanganshi“haoxin”dibangwomaikafei、zhengliziliao，
shizebudongshengsedikuitanwodejinduhehexinchuangyi。zheiyishi，wodangranyaohaohao“peihe”ni。“zhendema？
taihaole！xiexieniweiweijie！”wozhuazhutadeshou，yanjibizhen，yanlichongmanleganjiheyilai。jiexialaijitian，
wowanmeibanyanleyigeqinfendanzizhipingyongdexinren。woqueshizai“nuli”zuofangan，
danzuochulaidedongxizaluanwuzhang，haowuliangdian，shenzhiguyifanyixiedijicuowu。
wopinfandi、“bujingyi”dixianglinwei“qiuzhu”。“weiweijie，nikanzheigeshujufenxiduibuduia？
wozongjuedeguaiguaide。”“weiweijie，zheigechuangyishibushitaiputongle？kehunengxihuanma？”“aiya，
woyoukazhule，yidianlinggandoumeiyou……”linweicongyikaishidereqing，daohoulaidefuyan，
zaidaozuihoujihuhaobuyanshitadeqingshi。tadagaijuedewoshigechetoucheweidecaobao，
zoulegoushiyuncaibeijingli“qinglai”，shijishanggenbengoubuchengrenheweixie。
tashenzhikaishilande“qiequ”woneidui“laji”chuangyile。zheizhengshiwoyaodexiaoguo。erzaiwurenzhuyideshenye，
在我的出租屋里，
ningjulewoshinianxingyejingyan、yuzhiweilaichaoliuqushi、wanmeiqihe“zhenpinzhubao”pinpaidiaoxingdedabaixingfangan，
zhengzaiwodediannaolikuaisuchengxing。wozhidaotamenmingnianhuituichude“guofengfuxing”xilie，
wozhidaosannianhoucaihuiliuxingdeyuanyuzhouyingxiaogainian，wogengzhidaoruheyongzuixiaodeyusuandadaozuidadechuanboshengliang。
limingwei，linwei，nimendengzheqiao。4jiaofangandejiezhiridaole。woguyituodaozuihouyike，
cainazheneifenjingxinxiushiguode“lajifangan”hezhenzhengfangandeupan，qiaoxianglelimingweibangongshidemen。
bangongshili，linweiyezai，zhengjilimingweihuibaogongzuo，yanshenlidaizheyisiqidai，sihudengzhekanwodexiaohua。
“lijingli，zheishiwodefangan，
kenengzuodebushihenhao……”woqieshengshengdibaneifendayinchulaidefeiandiguoqu。limingweijieguo，
suiyifankanlejiye，meitouyuezhouyuejin，lianshangdewenhexiaorongjianjianxiaoshi。“shenqing，
zheijiushininuliyizhoudechengguo？”tadeshengyindaizhemingxiandebumanheshiwang，“luojihunluan，shujuzhichengbuzu，
chuangyigengshilaodiaoya！nitairangwoshiwangle！”wodixiatou，jianbangweiweizhandou，xiangshizaihaipa。
pangbiandelinweizuijiaorenbuzhugouqiyisixingzailehuodehudu。“duibuqi，lijingli，
wo……wokenengnenglibugou……”woxiaoshengnieru。limingweibafanganrengzaizhuoshang，rouleroumeixin，
yifutongxinjishoudeyangzi：“ai，wobenlaihenkanhaoni，xiangjinijihui……suanle，nichuquba。
”jiuzaizheishi，woxiangshituranguqileyongqi，mengditaitou，
yanshenlidaizheyizhongguzhuyizhideguangmang：“lijingli！qishi……qishiwohaizuolelingyigebanbendesilu，
danshibuzhidaoxingbuxing，meiganfangzailimian……”“e？”limingweihuyidikanzhewo。linweiyelengzhule。
wocongkoudailinachuneigeupan，shuangshoudiguoqu：“zheige……zheigeshiwozijideyixiebuchengshudexiangfa，
kenengyoudiantianmaxingkong……”limingweijiangxinjiangyidijieguoupan，**diannao。diankaiwenjian。
jinjinkanlejifenzhong，tadebiaoqingconghuaiyibianchengjingya，zaidaozhenjing，zuihoushinanyiyizhidekuangxi！
neifenfangantaiwanmeile！shijiaozhidute，chuangyizhixinying，zhixinglujingzhiqingxi，wanquanchaochuletadeyuqi，
shenzhichaoyuelezheigeshidaipingjunshuipinghaojinianlai！zheijianzhishiweitaliangshendingzhidedengtianti！tamengdikanxiangwo，
yanshenhuore：“zhei……zheizhenshinixiangde？
”woxiusedidiandiantou：“shiwoaoyexiangde……danshibushitaibuqieshijile？”“bu！bu！feichangqieshiji！
taihaole！shenqing，nizhenshigetiancai！”limingweijidongdechadianzhanqilai，taqiangxingyaxiaxingfen，
xunsubaxiaupan，wozaishouxin，xiangshiwozhewujiazhibao。tazaikanwodeyanshenyijingwanquanbianle，
chongmanle“faxianbaozang”dejingxi，dangengshenchude，shitanlanhezhanyou。“shenqing，
nijilewoyigedadadejingxi！fangxin，zheigefanganwohuiqinzidamo，ruguocaiyongle，
jueduishaobulenidegonglao！”tayoukaishihuabing，heqianshiyimoyiyangdeshuoci。danzheiyici，
woqingxidibuzhuodaoletayandiyishanerguodesuanji——tajuebukenengbahexingonglaofenjiwo。“xiexielijingli！
”wozaiciluchuganendaidedebiaoqing。pangbiandelinwei，lianshangdexiaorongzaoyijiangzhu，liansebianhuanbuding，
kanxiangwodeyanshenlichongmanlenanyizhixinhegengjianongliedejidu。tabumingbai，yigetayanzhongdecaobao，
zenmehuiturannachuranglimingweirucishitaidedongxi。diyijieduandeer，yijingchenggongtouxia。jiexialai，
jiudengzhekantamenruheshangyangouyaogoudexima。5guoran，congwobangongshichulaihou，
limingweilikebalinweijiaolejinqu。gezheboliqiang，
wonengkandaolimingweibiaoqingyansudibawodeneigeupantuijilinwei，zuilishuozheshenme。linweixianshizhenjing，
ranhoushibugan，zuihouzhongzhongdidianlediantou。wozhidao，limingweizheigelaohuli，
genbenbuhuiwanquanxinrenwozheige“turankaiqiao”dexinren。
tayidinghuiranglinweizheige“zijiren”quanzhongheshifangandekexingxing，
shenzhirangtaqutoutoudiaochawoshibushichaoxihuozhezhaole**。tongshi，
tayehuiranglinweicanyudaofangande“xiugaiwanshan”zhonglai，shizeshifentanfengxian，bingjiangtabangzaizijidezhancheshang，
fangbianyihoukongzhi。ertabenren，zehuizhuajinshijian，jinkuaijiangfangandehexinsixiangjuweijiyou，
runsehoutijiaoshangqu，qiangzhantougong。zheiyiqie，douzaiwodeyuliaozhizhong。linweichulaihou，
kanwodeyanshengengjiafuza，duolejifenshenshihejingti，dangengduodeshiyizhong“pingshenmeshini”defenmen。
taguorankaishi“guanxin”wole。“qingqing，nizhenlihai，jurannengzuochuneimehaodefangan？
zhiqianhaigenwozhuangbudong，shenzangbulua！”tashitanzhewenwogousideguocheng。wozaojiuzhunbeihaoleshuoci，
zhenzhenjiajia，xuxushishi，
zhihejigeguowaigangxingqidexiaozhonganliwangzhan——zheiqiahaofuheyige“wudawuzhuang”zhaodaolinggandexinrenxingxiang。
linweichazhenghou，suiranrengyouyilv，dangengduodeshixiangxinlewo“yunqihao”zhuangdayundeshishi。