1978nian1yueqinjiacunhoushan
liuermuluyinxiedekanzhehundaozaidishangderen,tatunyanleyixiakoushui。
zhenggerendouyouxiezhandou……wanquanshijidongde。
meixiangdaotaliuerjuranhaiyouzheidengyanfu。
yaozhidaozheigerongyankeshizheishilibaxiangzuipiaoliangdenvzhiqing。
qiaoqiaozheipi,zheilian……guanghuashuinende,yidiandoubuxianggecunliguniang。
jinerge……tayaochangxianle,bingqiebaideyixifu。
xiangdaozheili,bianyouxienannaidejiekaiyifu……zhengzhunbeipushangqudeshihou。
huranbengaihunzhederenzhengkaileyanjing。
liuerweiweiyileng,suijiluchuyikouhuangbanyaxiaodao:“rongyan,nixinglaizhenghao,zheiyangcaihuidaijing,fangxin,wohuiqingdiande,congjinhou,nijiushiwoxifule……”
shuozhejiuchaozherongyanpuleguoqu。
rongyankanzhepushanglaideren,suiranhaimeimingbaiyanqiandaodishizenmeyihuishi,danshizheizhangexindelianrangtadefanyinglihaishihenxunjiede。
tazhijiejiuyijiaoyonglidechuaileguoqu。
liuermeifangbei,zhenghaobeichuaigezhengzhe,zhenggerenbeichuaidaozailedishang。
tayouxiemeng,meixiangdaorongyanzheigexiaoniangpijuranjingzheimeda,zheiduzibeichuaitongdebuxing。
dunshiqihuaile,dangjibiannaoxiuchengnudepokoudama:“rongyan,nige**,**ganchuaiwo?shibushixiangsile?”
容烟眼露寒光。
yongchulaidejiyirangtamingbaizijichuanshule。
shuzhong,yuanzhubeirendayundaidaozheili,suihoujiubeitongzhiqingdegulandaizhehaoduorenguolaizhuajian。
suirandangshiyuanzhubingweibeizheiliuerzenmeyang,danshitagenliuerjiuchansidazaiyikuai,haishibeiguolaizhuajiandeneixierenqiaogezhengzhe。
zheiduiyugangjiehuncaiyitiandeyuanzhulaishuo,neiwuyijiushimiedingzhizai。
zaiqianshi,yuanzhudemingshengjiucihuidiao。
tayinzheishibeinianluochenai,nongcundeliuyanbijiandaohaikepa,yuanzhuyigexiaxiangdexiaoguniangmianduizheixieliuyanfeiyuhezheigeliuerdejiuchan……zuihouyishixiangbukaitiaoshuierwang。
zhishimeixiangdao,xianzaishitalaimianduizheizhongsiwangkaiju。
duoyudexiangfaqiaduan,yinweitameiyouduoshaoshijian。
bijingdirenmashangjiuyaodaole。
taxianzaikebushidangchuneishashadeyuanzhu,sanliangbushangqian,bazhengyaopaqilaidarendeliuerzaicichuaidaozaidishang。
ranhoutaijiaojiushiwangxiachuai,yixiayouyixia……
houshanhuidangzheliuerdeaihaosheng。
xianqianliuershimadelihai,tameixiangguoyigeguniangjiajuranzheimedehen,haizheimedelihai,chuaidetahaowuhaishouzhili,
shizaidingbuzhule,tazhihaokuzheqiurao,“gunainai,zhushou……wocuole,wozhencuole……”
yaoshizhidaozheigenmulaohuyiyang,dasitayebuhuiquzhaorede。
jibianruci,rongyandoumeiyoutingshoudedasuan。
takeshixiandaishiqisuijiunaxiaguojisandabisaidetiancaisandawang,shijingguozhuanyedexunlian,suoyidayigeerliuzijiusuanshizhonghuanleyijushenti,neiyebuzaihuaxia。
专捡痛处踹……
liuertongdemandidagun,kehaishiduobukaineichuaiguodejiao,zheiyaoshizaidaxiaqudehua,neimetazheixiaomingdeguixi。
yushichezhesangzimailikuhan:“jiuminga……sharenle……”
rongyanjianchabuduole,zheicaitingjiao,danshizheijiaohaishicaizainanrendexiongtangshang。
tajurangaolinxiadenishizheta,muguangxionghen:“shuo,sheirangniguolaide?”
“mei,meishei,shiwoziji……”liuertongkuliuti,“gunainai,wocuole,wozhencuole……”
taniangde,yigejiaodidinvrendequantouweishenmezheimedeying?
rongyanzhengxiangbarenjibangledeshihou,kandaoshenhouyoujiaobusheng……tahaiyiweishineixierentiqianguolaile,jieguozhuantoukandaodequeshiyuanzhudexinhunlaogong……qinye。
shitadedaolaigaibianlejuqing?bijingyuanzhuneiyishi,zheilaogongbingweichuxianguo。
guoduandexuanzezheigelingyuanzhubuganyuanjiadenanren,xiaoyiyingying,“laogong,nilaijiewohuijia?”
秦野:……
当我眼瞎?
buguoduishangneixiaoyiyingyingdelian,tadeyanjinghaishibeishanleyixia,xindiyeshifenwaiqiguai,zuotian,tahaishipaichiyanetade,jintianqueduitaxiao……haijiaotalaogong?
yaxiaxinzhongdeyiyang,taweidianlexiatou,“ng。”
rongyanduitadeshiquhenmanyi,budengtazaishuo,zhijianneiyouxiechenmodenanrenshangqian……zailiuerdejingkongyanshenzhong,tadejiaowangxiazhongzhongyiya……qilidecanjiaoshengxiangqidetongshi,bianshixiaotuiguduanliedegabacuishengyin。
……
“daduizhang,neibianhaoxiangyoushengyin……”gulandeyanzhongyouzhezangbuzhudexingfen。
rongyan,nizheibeizikejiuzhendeyaowandanle。
xiangdaozheili,tajiaoxiadebuzigengshijiakuailejifen。
pobujidaidexiangyaokanrongyanyaozhuirudiyudeyangzi,yizhihulveleshengyindebuduijing。
daduizhangyetingdaolenanrendecanjiaosheng,haoxiangshi……erliuziliuerde。
liuer?qinyexifu?zheiliangren……?
kanzhewangqianchongderen,tayouzhonghenbuhaodeganjue。
kexizheihuier,xiangyaodiaotouhuiqudehua,youxiebukeneng。
bijinggulanshuorongyanshizongdeshihou,takeshidailedaduihaoduorenyiqichulaixunrende。
qizhonghaiyouyixiegulanzijijiaoguolaideren。
zhinengyingzhetoupiwangqianzou,taxiwangrongyanbuyaochushenmeyaoezi。
qitarenyekuaisudegenshang……
zhishidangxingchongchongdegulankanzhewanhaozhanzhederongyanhetangzaidishangbuduanaihaodeliuershi……tashayan。
zheiheyuxiangdechurutaida。
“rongyan,ni……”zenmemeishi?tabugaibeiliuerqifulema?
rongyankandaota,jiuzhidaozheishihaiyuanzhuderen,tadeyanlishanguohanguang,“nixiangshuoshenme?shiwozenmemeishima?”
gulanjiusuanshixinlizheibanxiangde,dantayemeishadaoshuochulai,jiangzhexiao,“woshitingshuonichushile,suoyijiudairenguolai……”
rongyantiaomei,“chushi?nitingsheishuode?nizheitingfengjiushiyudemaobingkeshiyidiandoubuhao,buzhidaodekandaonineigaoxingjing,haishiyiweinizheishipanzhewochushi。”
“……zenmehuini,womenshikeshitongxiang,yeshizhiqing……”
rongyanlengchiyisheng,suirantaxianzaimeiyourenhezhengju,danshi——zheibingbufangaitashoushizheigenvren。
shangqianjibu,zhijiechaozheneilianshuailejibazhang……zheikebagulanhegenguolaideneixierenjijingdaile。
“rongyan,nigandawo?”gulancuoezhihou,tazhenggerendouyaoqifengle。
tazuizuiaixidejiushizijidezheizhanglian。
rongyanjiaomeidelianshangyipianlengyi,“dadejiushini,kuiwohaidangnishihaoyou,qianheliangshidouhuifenni,meixiangdaonijuransuanjiwo。”
“……wosuanjinishenmele?nibuyaowumiewo……”gulangenbenbupataluanshuo,yinweizirenchulidehenhaohenyinmi。