第一章他为她而死
华国，帝城。
shenye，yinqisensendejingshenbingyuan。
di1103haozhenshiliruwangchangyiyang，chuanlainvrenqilitongkudebeiming，neitongchexinfeidehuhansixinliefei，fangfobeiliguichanshen，yizhijiaocaijinlediyuli。
昏黄的白炽灯下。
shenchuanpojiubaiqundenvrenbeidianjideyanyanyixi，taxiangyitiaogoubanbeirenshuanzaiqiangshang，luzailanlvyixiuxiadegankushoubeishangbumanzhenyan。
nalihaiyoudangnianguangmangwanzhangrenrenyanxiandemoyang。
neishuangkongdongdedayanjing，jingkongwuzhufangfokanjianlegui，“buyao......buyaoguolai......buyaodawo......”
“jiangwan，xiangguozijihuiyoujintianma？”
nvhushixiaodehuazhizhaozhan，dunxiashenzipailepaijiangwancangbaidelian，“dangnianniduofengguanga，quandichengdenanrendouweizhenizhuan，kexianzaini？nanrenkanjiannidouxiangtuba......”
nvhushixiaodezhengning，huanhuandezhaixialianshangdaizhedeyiyongkouzhao。
dengguanghunan，qingxieerxia。
jiangwanyanjingmodidengda，shayazhesangyinyaoya，“ren......susu......”
她的表姐任簌簌。
“henwoa，henwojiuduile。”rensusuhongchunyaorao，guangxianliangli，quemouguanghenlirudao，“nishuonidaodinalihao？wodoubaniguanzaizheilishinianlefengmoxiaohaizaizhaoni！nizhidaoma？taweilezhaonibawobishangjuelu！！”
“weilezhaoni，tahenbudejiangzhenggehuaguofanguolai！jiangwan，nishuonidaodinalihao！jingranlianfengmoxiaozheizhongnanrenaidedoushini！”
“fengmoxiao......”
jiangwanshenhuxi，shayazhesangyinnianchuzheigejiuweidemingzi，shenzhiduanzandeqingming，nanyizhixin。
怎么可能？！
shinianqiandefengmoxiao，shizhenggehuaguozuigaoguizuiduojindenanren，shiyeyecongxiaoweitadingxiadeweihunfu，gengshitadangnianzuitaoyanderen。
“nibuxin？zhidaodangnianjiuniderenshisheima？shifengmoxiao！”
“zhidaodangnianyunshengyizhideneikeshenshisheidema？shifengmoxiaode！shinizuitaoyandefengmoxiao！”
“taweileni，jiluyunshengjuanshen！”
“nini？nishizenmeduitade？！nirangtadiujinyanmian，chadianrangtajiaporenwang！niyiweihaisiyeyederenshita？cuole，shiwo，shiluyunsheng！”
jiangwanzhenjingdaoliansecanbai，“nishuoshenme？”
rensusuxiaodediankuang，shuangmouxinghongzheqiazhujiangwanshougulinxundexiaba，yinsensendechaofeng，“zenme？houhuile？kezheidoushinijiuyouziqu！jiangjiadeyiqiebenjiugaishiwode！shinidanglewodelu！”
“rensusu！nibushiren！”
jibianyijingshenzhibuqing，keneishigunaoxindehenyiheduifengmoxiaodekuijiuqueputiangaididefangun。
十年了。
tajingrancuoguailefengmoxiaozhengzhengshinian。
shinianqian，weilebaodaluyunshengdejiumingzhien，tarenxingdegenfengjiajiechuhunyue。
keshixiajialuyunsheng，jiushiemengdekaishi。
jiachanbeiduo，mingshengbeihui，beibeipan，beipaoqi，shenzhibeihaidaozhongshenbuyun，beiguanzaizheirenjiandiyushengburusi。
yuanlai，congshizhizhongdoushitadecuo！
“zhidaozheishinianwoyouduokaixinma？！meiyouni，yunshengshiwode，jiangjiashiwode！wocaishizhenggedidouzuirangrenxianmudenvren！keshizheiyiqie，quandoubeifengmoxiaojihuile！”
“doushiyinweini，woxinkudelaideyiqiequandoumeile！”
rensusubinglengdeshouzhihuaguojiangwandelianjia，neiyinhendeshayi，penboerchu，“xiangjiantama？biezheji，tamashangjiulaizhaonile！”
“niganshenme！”jiangwanxiesidilidezhengzha，kequezhengtuobule，taobudiao。
rensusuningxiaozhe，jiangqiyoupomanzhenggefangjian。
“tayijingzailaidelushangle，weilejiuni，takeshilianmingdoubuyaole！！”
tayinchendexiao，siwujidandeyibahuojiangchuangliandianran，“nimenquyincaodifutuanjuba！zheidoushinimenbiwode！”
zhenggefangjianshunjianbeilongzhaozaiputiangaididehuoguangli。
“rensusu！nifengle！！”
“dui！beinimenbifengde！”
rensusuyinchendemeiyanzaihuoguangzhongdeyiwangxing，buzaiduoyan，zhuanshenbianyaoliqu，tayebuhuishadaoyiqisongsi，keshijiaobuquebeikunzhu！
jiangwanchezhetielianbuyaomingsidebaozhurensusudetui，“woyaoshaleni！”
tasixinliefeidenahan，yongjinlesuoyoudeliqi。
huomiaozhuoshaoletadequnbai，tagubudeteng，zhixianggenrensusutongguiyujin！
tayaolazherensusuyiqixiadiyu！
“jiangwannizheigefengzi！nifangshou！nijiwofangkai！！”rensusujingkongdemiansezhengning，huitoufengkuangdexiangyaozhengtuo。
yankanzheliehuotunmei，taquepaobule，zhuaqiyipangdeshoushudao，huluandekanxiangzhuazhetabukensongshoudefengnvren！
“niganshenmejiangwannifengle！a！”
“buyao！jiangwannifangkaiwo！”
jiangwanwangzhedahuojiangrensusushaochengyituanhuoqiu，wangzherensusufengkuangdexiangtapuguolai，。
tabupasi，zhishiqianlejiarende，qianlefengmoxiaode，douyaoxiabeizicainenghaile。
nongliedeyanwumiman，zhengdongdaloudoubeitaotiandahuolongzhao。
突然，砰的一声。
chuanghusuilieyidi，xiangtapulaiderensusuqueturanbeirenyijiaochuaikai！
rensusubeirenzhijiechuaijindahuozuishenchu！
yuxiangzhongdetongkumeiyou，jiangwanzhengzhengtaimou，kandaoyishuguang。
yingjunrushendibandenanren，yishenheisefengyishaqitengteng，huoguangmingmie，chentuozhetayouheimingliangdeyanmoushenruhai，wangzheta，miansedichen，manyansushatonghong！
jiangwanpinmingdixiangyaorangtaliqu，keshiquefabuchushengyin，“fengmoxiao，kuaizou......nikuaizou！nibuyaominglema！”
她不值得。
turan，yidaofangliangzhuiluo，zhizhichongzhetazaxialai！
fengmoxiaoyayikongjudesihouhuapoyunxiao，buguyiqiedepushangqu，“wanwanxiaoxin！”
jihushishunjian，fengmoxiaobianhaobuyouyudejiangtahuzaileshenxia，tatingdaotamenhengyisheng，nanrenheisedefengyigaizaitadetouding，suizhierlaidenuanyijihushunjianbianjikuiletaxindizuihoudejianqiang。
neiduanshaohuidexiumuhenhendizazhongtadehounaoshao，yazaitadejiantou！
dadidadidexuegunluo，dizaijiangwandelianshang，taxintengdehuzheta，buxiangbiyan，xiangduokankanta。
fengmoxiaoxiangguowushucigentazhongfengdehuamian，keshicongweixiangdaozaiyujianhuishizheiyangdeshenglisibie！
taaileershiniandenvren，yijingbeizhemodebuchengyangzi，tabeitielianzishuanzhe，hunshenshixue，mantiandahuojiangtabaowei，taleiyanmenglongwangzheta，gantazou。
jiangwanhaotaodaku，“fengmoxiao......nishibushisha......”
nanrenyingjundewuguanzaihuoguangzhonghuanghu。
siweihuansan，neikushengyuelaiyueyuan，zhidaohuoyanjiangtamentunmei。