第六章自杀未遂
tangzairou.ruandechuangdianshang，xiafeiranshufudeshuileyijue。
zaijinglishangyishicantongderensheng，jijuewangdehuihenzhongshenghou，zheiyijuetasihushuidaoledilaotianhuang。
dansuizhierlaidehouguo，bianshitashangkeyaochidaole......
jiranchidouchile，tadaoburujilaizhizeanzhi，youzaidexishuhou，wuqitengtengjian，takanzheluodijingqian，beixiaofuguozheenayouzhideshenti，fen.nenchunbangouqiweixiao。
zaihuoxinshengdeganjuebangjile！
dengdengdeng，tacaizheyouyadebufaxialou，kegangzoudaoguaijiaochu，bianyinyuetingjianqiaoyingzhiyouyoudechouqisheng，buyongshuo，kendingyoushiweileqiaoyaweidaoqiedeshi。
guoran，dangtaxiazhiloutikoushi，qiaoyingzhiyanjiaoyuguangzhuyidaotahou，gengshilihuadaiyukudegengxiongle，“yaoshiweiweiyougesanzhangliangduan，neiwohuozhehaiyoushenmeyisi？”
“goule，daqingzaobieshuozheizhongsangqihua。”xiaweiguojianxiafeiranxialoulai，bianlijichushengzhizhiqiaoyingzhi，“niganjinshoushiyixia，zanmenxianqukankanqingkuangba。”
qiaoyingzhizaibeixiaweiguohechiyidunhou，zongranxinyounuqiyebuganguodufaxie，zhiyouyuandedenglexiafeiranyiyanhou，bianshouzuanzhezhijinlinbaochumenle，suihouhaibuwangcuicuxiaweiguokuaixiegenshang。
xiaweiguofuyantayihou，zhuanerwangxiangshenhoudexiafeiran，youxindelianshangmianqiangjichuyimoweixiao，“ranran，nichiwanzaocanjiukuaiquxuexiaoba，buyaodanwulejintiandekecheng，ruguoxuyaolingyongqianjiuqubabaqianbaolina，babaheniqiaoayidequtangyiyuan，jintiankongpabunengkaichesongnixuexiaole。”
“chushenmeshilema？”xiafeiranhuyi。
“meishenme，nizhiyaozhuanzhuxueyejiuhao，qitadeshibabahuichuli。”xiaweiguobingweizhengmianhuiying，zhicongcongdingzhujijuhou，biangenqiaoyingzhichumenle。
dengxiafeirandidaxuexiaoshi，shangwudekezaoguoleyidaban，buguoxingertadexuexichengjiyixiangbajian，erqiegaosandequanbukechengtadoutiqianwenxiguo，kuangkeyiliangjiedaoshimeishenme。
ketahaimeidengzuoding，jiqingqingjiupaoshangqianlai，latadaorenshaodejiaoluoli，liansetieqingwendao：“nizhidaozuowanqiaoyaweizaijuliusuolizishadeshima？”
“自杀？”
kanlaijinzaotaqichuangshi，qiaoyingzhizhisuoyikukutiti，butingyaosiyaohuodexingxingzuotai，dagaizhengshiyinweizheijianshile。
danbierenbuzhi，xiafeiranqueduiqiaoyaweiyinxianbeibidexinggeleruzhizhang，tajuebushigehuiyinkuihenxiukuierzishaderen，zhisuoyizheiyangzuo，dagaishilingyoutumouba！
“sidoumeisichengsuannamenzizisha？”xiafeiranlengxiao，chongqiliangbuguoshiyanyichukurouji，yiboqubierendetongqingba？jiuxiangshangyishi，tajiuhenshanzhangwannongzheizhongshouduan。
congzuorikaishi，jiqingqingbianjuedexiafeiranbiandeyouxieturan，zhiqianjiusuanqiaoyaweibeibierenbuxiaoxinpengyigenshouzhitou，tadouhuijinzhangxintengbantian，bingjiejinquanliweihu，kexianzaitadetaidugenzhiqianpanruoliangren。
jiqingqingzhoumei，shenshoufugaizaixiafeiranetoushang，yihuodenannanziyu：“xiafeiranniganmaofashaolema？yiqiannibushiduineiqiaoyaweichongniwudu，lianggerenshishikekedouzhanzaiyikuaima？”
“woyouma？yinggaishinijicuoleba！qiaoyaweishiqiaoyawei，woshiwo，congjinwanghouyongyuandoubiebawomenlianggelianxizaiyiqi！”xiafeirandandanyixiao，suihoubianyangzhangerqu，liuxiajiqingqingyigerenzhanzaifengzhonglingluan。
qishiduiyutachediaojiyuqiaoyaweidebaohuwang，jiqingqinghaishipoweijingxide，zongrantagenxiafeirandeguanxifeidifeiyou，keduiqiaoyaweitaquehenzhirugu，zheibujinjinshiyouyutadaoqieletazhenguidezhubaoxianglian，haiyintaxianqianbuzhiyicidazhexiafeirandehuangzi，zaixuexiaolizuoweizuofu，xinggeshuanglangzhilvdejiqingqingzaojiukanbuguanle！
dangbangwandeyuhuiqingsazaixiafeiranjiantoushi，tataitou，kanzheyanqianqishibangbodejianzhuwu，tingshuozheishiquanshiyiliaosheshizuiwanshandeyiyuan，gengshizuiangguide，jiagegaodaoputongjiatinggenbenchengdanbuqi，jushuozheiliyeshijijiachanyezhiyi。
“ding”bansuizhediantididaqiaoyaweisuozaidelouceng，xiafeirangangzouchuqu，quebeiyingmianerlaidenanrenhenzhuangleyixia。
qiangjingdezhuangjilisuishuoweijiangtazhuangdaozaidi，queyerangtachitongzhoumei，houbei“peng”shuaixiangbingliangdeqiangbi，tarenzhejuliedetengtong，zhongyukanqinggangcaizhuangtazhirendezhangxiang，jingranshichulian？
“niqinshoujiangweiweisongjinjuliusuohaibugou，rujinhaiguyipaolaiyiyuankantadexiaohuama？”zenzhi，chulianjiandaotahou，kaikouwendebingbushiguanxindehuayu，ershizhiwentalaiyiyuandemude？
ruguotarengranshiqianshineigeshoujinquru，zhemodekelianchong，dagaitazaimianduichulianlengmodetaidushi，huishangxinyujue，shenzhiganchangcunduan，ranertabingbushi！
lenglengyixiao，xiafeiranxienizhekaikoubianxingshiwenzuidechulian，hengdao：“wozaifushuyibian，qiaoyaweizhisuoyibeisongjinjuliusuo，shiyinweitatoudaojiazhilianchengdezhubaoxianglian，genwowuguan。”
shuoba，tayoushangqianyibu，genchuliansimuxiangdui，jixushuo：“daoshinichudage，zicongqiaoyaweichushihou，nibianmangzhepaoqianpaohou，shutongzhaogu，ruguobeibuzhiqingdewairenkanjian，shuobudinghaiyiweiqiaoyaweicaishinidezhengpaiweihunqiba？”
“nishaozaizheilihuyanluanyu，wozheiyangxinkubenboyeshiweileni，qiaoyizheisannianlaiduinishirujichu，nifeidanbuzhidaozhientubaojiusuanle，jingranjianweiweiluonanhouyebuzhidaobangyiba，ruguowoyeshierbujiandehua，qiaoyiheweiweiqibushijiugengguliwuyuanlema？”
jinguanduiyuxiafeiranbankaiwanxiaodezhiwen，chulianyiyinyinyoulexinxudemoyang，kexinjiposhendetaqueyinzangdehenhao，sanyanliangyubianpieqingletaheqiaoyaweizhijianjianbuderendeguanxi，bingjiangkuzhongtuijixiafeiran，chengsuozuozheiyiqiejieshiweileta。
“zezeze，qiaoyiduiwoshirujichu？zheidaoxiangshichudageniqinyansuojianside，keshimeijicuodehua，nixueyefanmang，liangenwoyuehuideshijiandoujibuchulai，zenmefandaoduizheizhongxiaoshihenshangxinni？gaibuhuishiqiaoyaweigaosunideba？”
xiafeiranzhendehenxiangduichulianjingzhandeyanjipaishoujiaohao，nanguaizhiqiantabeitapiandedishuibulou，jiusuanouertingjianshenbianpengyoudexianyansuiyu，shuocengqinyankanjianchulianheqiaoyaweijuzhiqinmi，yiqichurucantingjishangchang，taqueyigezidoubuxin。
kexianrujinkandaochulianjunlangshuaiqidelian，taquelianyidingdianxindongdeganjuedoumeiyou，shenzhizhijuedeexinzhiji！
“ranran，tingwoyijuquan，weiweibijingshinidemeimei，jiusuannimenzhijianmeiyouxueyuanguanxi，nandaonirenxinkandaoxiashushuheqiaoyiyouxinchongchong，beishangguoduma？”
chulianhuanleyifutaidu，shuangshouanzaixiafeirandejianbangshang，zhengyaoshunshijiangtadaijinhuaizhong，buliao，xiafeiranquelijifanshoujiangqituikai，dongzuoguoduanjuejue，bujitaliubandianyanmian！