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我死了。

beixianggongdexiaoqiezhemoshuri,sizaileangzangdechaifangli。

我不甘心。

tangtangzunguidegongzhu,beiyixiaoqiehaidediulexingming,shizaidiulian。

yuanqibusan,yidaobaiguangjiangwoxiru,zaizhengyanxiaoqiemeiniangchuanzheyishenxifuxiangwojingcha。

zheichangjingwojianguo,fangchenghuaiqiuzhewodiantourangmeiniangjinfu。rufuneiri,tabianshizheimewenwandemoyang。

sheizhi,jingshishexiexinchang。

wojieguochabei,qingminyikoujiangbeizizhongzhongrengdaodishang:“jishiqieshifengcha,zheibinglengdeshuishidasuandongsibengongma?”

meiniangheleyitiao,fangchenghuaiyeheleyitiao。

shile,yiguanwenwannuoruodechuyugongzhuruhehuiyouzheiyangdexingjing?

tamenbuzhi,jinridewoyifeicongqiandewo。

weilejinfu,meiniangwufa,renzhebuganxinyouhuanlechadijiwo。

wohele,zhudongtichuyaodaitaquzhudeyuanzili。

zaijingguohuayuandeshihou,woduoliulegexinyan。

cikedemeiniangyijinghuaiyoushenyun,anzheqianshifazhan,tahuidiaoruchitangliuchan,zaijiangzheijianshituidaowoshenshang。

erfangchenghuaiyeshiyinweizheijianshichediyanqilewo,jiangwoguanruchaifang,zhemozhisi。

厌弃?

wochixiao,buguoshikaozhequwocaizuoshangguandenanren,jingyoulianmianduiwoshuoyanqierzi。

zouguochitang,meiniangshangqianlawo。

jiuzaitachaohoudaoquyaodiaoruchitangdeshihou,woyibalanzhutadeyao,jiangtachaoshangyila,erwozijidiaorulechitang。

congjiahaizhe,bianchenglebeihaizhe。

woyikouyaodingshimeiniangjiangwotuirulechitangzhong,yangyanyaoqufuhuangmianqiangaozhuang。

fangchenghuaiweilelanzhuwo,jiangmeiniangguanleqilai。

wojiangmeiniangtuixiaqujiushiyiminghuanming,ertajiangwotuixiaqujiuzhishiguanleqilai。

这远远不够。

wojiekouguanhuaimeiniangdeshenzi,dailedafuqukanta,daopoletayijingyousangeyueshenyundeshi。

weirumenbianzhutaianjie,zheishizui。

wobugufangchenghuaidezulan,jiangtaguanjinlechaifang。

qianshiwozaizheishoujinzhemo,zongyederangmeiniangchichizheichaifangdeku。

wobuzhunrenjitasongchishi,dadingzhuyiyaotademing。

fangchenghuaizuobuzhu,nazhejingxintiaoxuandexianglianlaiqiuqing。

“xianggongjuedetameicuo?fuhuangruozhixiao,tabianshisiluyitiao。”

fangchenghuainianguoshu,zhidaowochaolvfa。

weijingzhumushouken,xianggongzaiwaidehaizijiushisishengzi,yunujinvzisuoshengshiyiyangde。

fangchenghuaishebudetadehaiziluorunuji,hualexinsidetaohaowo。

zaiqianshi,wopashihuigandongliuti。danjinsheng,woneixinhaowubolan。

zaielemeiniangwurihou,wodaizhechidelaikanta。

wuribujinshuibujinshi,meiniangshifenxuruo,lazhewodequnbaihanwojiuta。

wodunxiashen,songleshuibeiguoqu:“nikezhidao,zhutaianjie,wokeyaonideming?”

meiniangbuganhe,wuzheduziwanghoutao。

wobubujinbi,jiangshuiheshiwufangzaidishang:“danzheibijingshixianggongdehaizi,weilexianggong,wohuiliuzhenideming。”

likaichaifang,fangchenghuaicongyipangzoulechulaiyibabaozhuwo,poweigandong:“chuyu,wobianzhidaonishizuitiwozhexiangde。”

wojiazuoweiqu,kaozaitahuaizhongchouqi。womeiyoushenmeyanxidetianfu,danzheiyichangxidaoshiyanderangwozijidouxiangxinlejifen。