第4章 惭愧

yinweishihuangshangcidehun,qudeyoushijinzhiyuyedegongzhu,xianglaiweichaotingjugongjincuisierhouyidechulinghaojuranpotianhuangdededaoleyigeyuedejiaqi,jibuyongshangchaoyebuyongwenan。

tadezhuyaorenwujiushidaizaigongzhufulipeishuibuxingdegongzhushuoshuohua、liaoliaotian,ruguokeyidehua,dangranbaxinhundangyemeiyourudedongfangyeyibingrulezuihao,zongbuhaoranggongzhudouyijingshijiachuquderen、pochuqudeshuile,haibaochiyigechuzidewanbizhishenba。

ershuodaodi,zuiguanjiandeyidianzaiyudangniansuanmingdeneiweigaorencengshuoguo,weiyourucicaiyangbuyincaiyoukenenglinggongzhusuxing,yushi,suiranciyaoqiujiweibuya,danshizhuomolelaobantian,huangshanghaishijinkouyuyanrangbingbidetaijianbazheiyidiangewaishenzhongdexiejinleshengzhili。

yenanguaidangchuchulinghaoxiamianjigejiangjunkanjianshengzhi,baoxiaodeliansefazi,jianzhishifengtianchaolichaoyilaizuibiaohanzuiyougexingdeshengzhile,gujizheidaoshengzhiyichu,gaishiwushuang;ruoshiliutongdaoshimianshangqumaimai,neidaozhenchenglemingfuqishidetianjia,jiazhilianchengle。

neiyifandiaokanqidechulinghao“guang、guang、guang”zhaozhejigerende**yirenshangleyijiao。

haozai,suiranshengzhishanghuangdiheiziqingqingchuchudexiezhezaichulinghaoyanlikanlaishifenaiyandejigedazi,“yuanfangmanbaicifangbi”,danconggonglizhipaidaogongzhufu“jianshi”tamenfuqiyoumeiyouwanchengfuqiyiwudejigegongren,haisuanshixiangdeshouxialechudajiangjun“shang”deyibailiangyinzibeichenggongshoumai,zanshizhuanglongzuoya,zheigezhuangtaijibenshangkeyibaochisangeyuejiandingbudongyao。

zheiyangyilai,jinguanchenglehun,youlejiashi,chulinghaohaisuanziyou,meitianhuanshangxinyifu,hongguangmanmian、dayaodabaidemaichugongzhufu,qishangneipizaohongsedegaotoudama,xiangshangnaerqujiushangnaqu,xianghexiaojiujiutanglianghu,xiangtingxiaoqujiutingtaliangshou,zhiyaozao、zhong、wananshihuidaofulishanggongzhuneiwu,baozheyibenshijingsuyandexiaoshuo,wangchuangbiandeyizishangneimeyikao,yongtaziyiweihenshicixingdesangyinnianyiliangzhanggushijiuxingle,fanzhenggongzhuyetingbujian。

ruguoxiaorizizheimeguoxiaqu,chulinghaodaojuede,chengqinxiangtazheiyangyeshirenshengyidaxingshi。

laopoqule,yitianbuchaobunao,chengtianshuijue;

jiayoule,zhandipangdadegongzhufu,diaolianghuadong,beigeshouzaifuliguangbantianyeguangbuwan,nishuohuaniaoyuxia、jiashanjiashui、tingtailouxie,nageque?

renyeziyouwa!guantashijinerhedemingdingdazuihaishimingerhupenghuanyou,zhiyaotianhuanglaozibulaiweifusifangchaqin,jibenshangruodadegongzhufuli,tajiushiye!tahangyisheng,sheiganhangebuzi?

zheimehaodeqinshinalizhao?

私密的谈话

chengleqindechulinghaocaigankailaodiedangchushiduomeyingmingshenwudeyongyizhidawangjiangtazheimitutaopaodeerzijitaolehuilai。

zheijiang,haishilaodela!meicuo。

yeyinci,ganjilaodiedechulinghaomeishigesanchawudelinliangtanzishanghaodeniangjiupaochugongzhufu,chuleqianmendajiewangyouguai,guolejiaochalukouchaozuoguai,neihongsezhuqidedamenjiushiyuanbentadejiale。

jiangjunfudemenlianzhaopaidazheni,haodaiyeshihuguodejiangjun,laojiangjunkanzheerziyitianlehehedepaojinpaochu,xinlidangchudebutongkuaiyexiaosanyidian。

yeliangerduizhuozuozhe,chizhexiangcuidexiaochao,hezhechulinghaobuzhidaocongnasougualaidehaojiu,laojiangjunyishuangnongmeiweiweizhoulezhou,xiangyaogenerzitaolundianshi。

“chengqindouguobanyueyuleba?”

chulinghaoyongkuaizijialeyigehuashengdourengzuili,taiqitou,“chabuduole,zaiguojitianerzijiuyaoshangchaole,zaledie?”

laojiangjunjianerzixilihutudeyangshitanxingdewendao:“jiumeineisha?”

chulinghaoxialeyikouxiaojiu,beiqiangladechongjingzaleyikoushe,haimeitingmingbaitadiemeitoumeiweideyijuhuashishayisi。

“哪啥?”

laojiangjunyiweierzigentazhuanghutu,hengmeidaoli,“nizhuanghutuni!woshiwenni,nigengongzhujiumeizenmeyang?”

“nengzenmeyanga!tachengtianshuijue,wogaiganmaganmabei。”

“woshiwennigenmeigengongzhuyuanfang!!”jianerziyiranbizhongjiuqing,pilipiqideyangzi,laojiangjundedasangmenjiubuyouzizhudelakaile,redezouguodexiarenpinpincemu。

laojiangjunlianshangshanyisijiongpo,yadileshengyinjinggaoerzi:“bieyiweiwobuzhidaonisixialishuadexiaobaxi,niyiweinineiyibailiangyinzinengdingduojiu?yuanfangzhishishizaowandeshi,nitaodelechuyitaobuguoshiwu,paodeleheshanghailiuzuomiaoni;xianzainishixiaoyixiaolihainengshoumaizheixiegongren,yihouni?nanbuchengzheiyinianrenjiadoushoulenideyinzibangnibaomi?kenengme。qianshihaodongxi,neiyedexianyouminghuacaixing。”

“suoyini?”chulinghaobaichuyifuxuxinqiujiaodemoyanggentadiequjing,erzixiangbuchulaizhaokanlaozinengxiangchulaishenmehaozhuyi。

“suoyi?suoyiwowennia。nixiangmeixiangchulaiyihouzaban?”laojiangjunlisuodangrandejiekoudao。

bujiudongfangme,duodadeshier

chulinghao“puchi”penchuyikoujiu,“a,gaolebantian,die,ninlaoyeshimaquetaijiao,yagendandangbuqilaia。neinihaijiligualadeshuoneimeduo。”tashoubuledeyaoleyaonaodai。

laojiangjunqideyahuazidoumaoyan,“ze、ze、ze,wozenmeshenglenizheimegeerzi。”yaozhexiachunbujiehendeshenshouzhaoerzinaoguazijiushiyihulu。

“aiyou,die!wodefaguan!zuoercaimaideyuguanninlaobiejiwobodiaodishangsuile。”chulinghaowawazhijiao。

laojiangjuntongxinjishoudeduitianbaoquan,aitongdao:“wochurenhuaikuiduiliezuliezonga,zenmeshengchuzheimegeniezi,xinggexianglv,naodaixiangzhu,wocankuiya!”

“xingla,xingla!chengtiancankui,douhanleershinianle,laozuzongtingdeerduodoushengjianle,xiacizaihaojiuhuangexintaici。die,hejiuba?zheikeshijingchengzuididaodenanguoxiangle,nibuhe?nibuhewokequanheguanglea。”

“nijiwofangxia。”laojiangjunyibazhuaiguojiutanzinudao。

chulinghaofangxiakuaizi,“die,wogennishuo。nierziwoxinliyoupu,ninlaoafangyibaiershigexin,bujiushiyuanfangme,duodadeshiashibu!niqiaonierziwo!”shuohuajianhaixiangmoxiangyangdepailepaizijidexiongfu,yizaibiaomingzijishentibeierbang。

“jingshenbaoman,shenqianglizhuang,haodaizheixienianyechichengjiangchang,zhandiqianwan,zailihaidedirenwodoubuju,yigenvreneryi,fangxin!nierziwogaodeding,a!biedanxinle,bujiuyuanfangme,jinerhuiqu,wojiubazheishibanle。youshade,balazhuyichui,bayifuyituo,zaiwangchuangshangneimeyitang,xiaolianyila,dengdiertiangongjidaming,bujiuwanleme。hejiu,zanyelianghaohaohewanzheiliangtanzijiu,jiuzuizhuangrendan,jiezhezheijiujing,erzihuitoujiurangneigonglilaidegongrenzaineijilubenshanghuashangyibi。”

laojiangjunduanqierzizhenmandedejiu,xindao,nizhenbashierbanlezailaichui。

xiangguixiang,maguima,churenhuaiyezhidaoyouxieshijibude,yecuibude。

jiuxiangerzizheishiba,wangdaleshuo,neijiaoshijunzhiluweijunjieyou,shenweichenzi,nenggouwanjiugongzhuyushuishenhuorezhizhong,neizidangshifenneizhishi,erzishenzaichaotangzhishang,suishuoyouxiebuji,shiqingqingzhonghaishidianliangdeqilaide,buranyebukenengchengweifengtianchaozuiweishenwudejiangjun,tazheigedangdiedehuashuosanfenzhenghao,shuoqifenkejiuduole。