死里逃“生”
1.
wodedaxueluqutongzhishugangjidaojiali，jiubeiwomasilegefensui。
tarangwoqushilideliujinhuisuoshangban，quejibuchengqidedidiqiulaifududejihui。
shengsuotaozaiwobozishangdeshihou，wohaixiangbumingbai，wozhibuguoshixiangyaochuguoweizijihuoyicieryi。
bijinggaokaochuoxuehouwobiantingletade，quhuisuopeijiushangban，zheixienianjijialigailelou、maileche，dididehunfangcailiqianyeshiwozhengde，wowenxinwukuia。
danwodeqinbahanleishoujinleshengsuo，wodeqinmazaipangbiankuzhegenwojieshi：“xiaorua，nididideduzhaihaibulejiuhuimeimingde，womenjinimailejuebaoxian，maqiuqiunile，nijiudangzuihoubangbangnididiba！”
suoyi，wodemingjiubushiming？
woyanqianyihei，buganxindiyunsiguoqu。
2.
zaizhengyan，woshibeitongxingde，shoubeibeipaideshengteng。
“gennishuoguoduoshaoci，zhangbigandeyaoliuzhejinidixie，niyongzheibitoujianjiancaibuhuilangfei！”——erbianqinmadezebeishengrangwoyiduosuo！
shide，wozhongshengle！zhongshengdaoershinianqian，yejiushi2003nianwogangshanggaosandeshihou。
zhengshishenye12dian，mangwansuoyoujiawuhou，wodianlemeiyoudengbuzuoyequeleidehunhunyushui。
kexiaodeshi，zheihaishiwodita“banbatongxue”dezuoye。
meiyourenheguanhuai，fanerbeidaleshoubeijiaoxing，jiuyinweitafaxianwotanxinyonglezhangbiganxiezi。
meixiangdaozhongshenghoudetingdaodiyijuhuahaishizheimezhaxin。
shide，congxiaowomajiumawoshigetanxingui，tajuedetashengxialewozheigepeiqianhuo，wojiugaizhizule，zenmenengpeihedidiguoyiyangderizi？
yushiwocong5suiqijiukaishiganshubuqingdejiawu，daoxianzai，gezhucao、weizhuyangji、xiwanzuofan、saosatuodi、xiyijiaocai……haidebaobandidideyiqie，xiaodaoxiezuoye，dadaoqulaopo，doushiwo。
congxiao，wodizhiyaochongwomasagejiao，jiuyoutangguoheqinwen。
wojidexiaoshihouyouyicibierenjilejialiyibaoshanzhatiao，bamachileyiban，lingyibanjiledidi，didishenzhangshetouzaishanzhatiaoshanglaihuizabazhezuishuohaochi，wokanzhekoushuibuzijuedilexialai，
yushiwoguqiyongqiyexuezhedidipingchangdeyangzichelechemamadeyijiao，jichuwozirenweizuitianmeidexiaorong，meixiangdaowohaimeikaikou，tahuishenfaxianshiwo，yigedabazhangjiushandaowolianshang：“nigepeiqianhuoxiaoshenmexiao！chelaoniangyijiaowokannishimaniaoshangshensaodefahuang！”
neibushiwodiyicibeida，jishiqiwobeidashijiachangbianfan，youjicihaishishoubeikunzaichuangbianwobayongpidaichouwo，didizaipangbianbiankanbianxiao。
woyebutaimingbai，mingmingdidicaishichaoshengde，faqianyeshiyinweita，weishenmedouguaidaowotoushangleni？
3.
tingshuowomashigebicundecunhua，benlaiyixinxiangyaojiachenglirenmeijiacheng。
erwobazhangdeganbaaixiao，quheicubi。
chenghunyilaiwobajiujiantazhangdeqingxiuyoutinghua，jihumeidaguota，shengleerzihougengbuzaiduitadongcule。
talaidezheixienian，cunlijingkaozhefupinzhengcemanmanhaoleqilai，buzhidaotagenlaocunzhangshileshenmefangfa，rangtazaicunliweiyideyijianongjialedangguanliyuan。
dantabingmeiyouwenhua，zhishirenshidianzi，haijingchangcuhualianpian。
qishiwozhidaomamayougedemimi。
wanshangbanyedeshihou，tazongyongyigenzhangzhuganzaichuangbianbashuimengzhongdewotongxing，rangwojitakaimenjinwu……houlaiwocaifaxianyuanlaimeiwantadoujibabadeshuilijiaanmianyao，zhiyaoyidiandianjiukeyineigenanrenshuisidexiangtouchunzhu，ertajiukeyiliuqucunzhangjia……
但我从没有声张。
erzheiyishiwojuedingyaozuogebabade“daxiaonv”，gairangtazhidaocaishi。
jidewoganggaokaowandeshihou，bamajiuyaorangwojiajigebicunneigeyoutuyoufeideguanfu，jiuyinweitabibierenduochuleliangqiankuaidecailiqian。tingshuoneigeguanfuhenxionghan，wohaipadebuxing，toudoukepoleyemeiyong……tamenbawoguanzaiwulieleliangtian，xiangrangwoguaiguaijiufan。
houlaihaishididishuobawoliuzhe，kandaoshinengbunengjitahuangelaopo，tamencaikenbaxiu。
congneiyihoutamenchedisikaizhexiubu，bawoqianjilehuisuo，wobudeyipeijiushangban，meiyuehaideanshijitamenqianhua。
youciwoshengbinglelaibujinaqianhuiqu，tamenjiuchongdaohuisuolisapodagun，zaibujijiuduiwoshanerguang、haotoufa，shenzhiquanjiaodama。
zailiujinhuisuomaijiuzhuanyejiderizibuhaoguo，beikaiyoubukebimian，yikaishiwohaihuitoutoukuqi，houlaijiumamule；congxiaowojiuyingyangbuliang，hejiuhedaoweichuxuegengshichangshi，kewangwanggangdaoshoudeyejihexiaofeihaimeizanrehu，jiubeitamenyonggezhongliyouboxuelequ。
wozhensha，zhidaosi，woliantamendeyijuwenrouxiyudoumeidedaoguo。
zhongshenghouwomolemowodebozi，tawanhaowusuo，keshilehenjutongdekepaganjuehaoxianghaizai，juewang、beishang、fenhendengfenluandeqingxufanerrangwomimihuhushuiguoqule。
diertianzaoshang，woerbiannaohonghongde，yuanlaishitamenxinglaihoufaxianjialidezhumeiwei，momoyemeizuo。
mihuzhengleyanjiukandaowomajuzheshoujiuyaobawoshanxing，wodengshifanlegeshenduoleguoqu。
tadelidaoquemeishouzhu，yigeliangqiang，bazhangjiushuaidaoledidilianshang。
yushididikaishihaozhesangziku，babazaipangbianmaren，womashoumangjiaoluandihongzhedidi，chengnuohuijitamaizhenshangdemianbaodangzaocan，zheicaixiaoting。
kanzhedidilianshangwugehongzhizhangyin，woxinlilvegantongkuai！
erwozaojiubeishangluokuangjiazhuangyaoqugezhucao，touyebuhuidiwangshanshangpaoqu，zhiwotingdaowomazaishenhouzhoumadao：“sizhuyiyangdelanhuo！shuichilebiequshangke，maliudibajialishoushihao，wanfanmeizuokanwohuilaibubalenidepi！”
4.
woyikouqipaoshangleshan，tiaowangshanxia，wokandaoyuanchuxiaolushangmamacaizhezixingchesongdidiquxuexiao。
wohedidizaitongzhentongxiao，danmamadezixingchehouzuoyongyuanzhiliujididi。
yinian365tian，womeitianzaoshangtiangangliangjiudequhoushanshanggezhucao，ranhoufeibenhuilaiweizhu、taomizhuzhou，haideroumian、zhengmomo，yinweididixihuanchi。zuowanzheixie，zaitamenxingzhiqian，wohaidejitamendahaoxilianshui。
erwozaoshangzhinengchidianxiancaijiuxifan，congcongchiwanbangdidizhenglihaoshubaohou，wocaiyoukongshoushiziji，yilukuangbendaocunkou，daquwangzhenshangdebanche。
youyubanchezongshizaigegecunkouraolu，yushixialechewohaidezaiyilupaodaoxuexiao。
wozongshijidedidizaihouzuoshangdeyidichongwoxiaodeyangzi……nengshuangshouhuanzhuzijimamadeyao、baliantiezaimamabeishangyidingshihenxingfudeganjueba，danzheixiecongxiaojiubushuyuwo。
yanjianshanshangzhucaowangsheng，zaikanzijicucaodebuxianghuadeshou——genbenbuxiangyigeshiqisuinvhaideshou，shangmianhaiyouqiantiangezhucaobeiguadaodeshangkou。
wozenmejiumeifaxian，dangchuwoduizijizenmeyezheimehen！
jintianwobingbudasuangezhucao，yihouyebu！
wobaluokuangtidelaoyuan，zaishanshangjixuguancha，dengkandaowobatuobeijingbadeshenyinghuangchulemenkaishitazaicunliyoushouhaoxiandeyitian，wocaisisuozhebianxiashanhuijia。
suoweide“jia”xianzaihaishiliangjianxiaotufang，zheilimeiyoushuyuwodefangjian，zhiyoudidicaiyoudandudexiaogejian，erchufangmenkouzheizhangxiaomubanjiushipeibanlewoshijiniande“chuang”，duomefengci！
kanzhemanwudelangjie，wogenbenbuxiangxiangshangyishiyiyangzuogenubiqushoushi。
yushiwoqilezaohuo，jizijixialewanmiantiaochi，haizuolehaojigedabaimianmomo，renbuzhudangchangchileliangge，guoranyouxiangyouruan！
zheixienian，jialijiukaozhewomadangnongjialeguanliyuandegongziguohuo，rizijinba，danbufangaiwobabumoushengyebugannonghuo，zhengtianjiushigenrenhejiuchuiniushuapiqi。
erwodizaizhenlishangxuegenbenbuxuehao，panbidaoshixuehuile，womachongzheta，chichuanyongdoujinliangjitapeizuihaode，nashenmepeini？
dangranshinawomeixueqidedaodejiangxuejinheaixinrenshidezhuxuejin！
zheixieqianzaiwoshoulihaimeiwurehu，jiubeiwomanazou，yezhiyouzheigeshihoutacaihuiduiwoliansehaoyidian，zuishangshuozhe：“yangnihaisuanyoudianyong！”
nazouqianshitahaoxiangkanbujiannverdejiongpo，jibianwochuandexiezaoyimopo。
fanguandidichuanzhejibaidemingpaixie，nazheqianzaishitangrenyidianrouchi，erwoquedaizhejialidexiancaiquxuexiaohouchucengmifanchi，xiaofuyechenglewoqingchunqidezhexiubu……
yaobushiwoxuexihao，yizhibeixuexiaomianlexuefei，tamenzaoburangwodule。
xiangdaozheixie，wotedihuanshangzuipodeyitaoyifu，shangmianhaiyoubeidadebianhensuibu，youfanxiangdaojucaizhaodaojialidejikuailingqian，kanzhechoutilineizhangweiyideyibaiyuan，jinguanzhidaotamenwanshanghuilaijiuhuifaxian，wohaishiyaoyaoyanazoule！
woyouwangshubaolizhuanglehaojigemomo，beishangshubao，woyaoquzhenshangdexuexiaozhaoxiaozhang！
5.
zhongshenghoushouyaodeshiqing，jiushibaozhengwonengjixudushu。
zheiciwoyidingyaodudaxuezhangwozijidemingyun，yuanlineixiesuoweide“jiaren”！
zaiquwangzhenlidebashishang，cheshangderendouyongyiyangdeyanguangkanzhewo——mingmingwodelianshoushidehenganjing，wozhidaoshiyinweiwozheishenxiangqigaiyiyangdepolanyishang，danshimeiguanxi，yaodejiushizheizhongxiaoguo！
daolezhenshang，woxianqu2yuanhuazhuangpindianmaileyiheyanying。
wojizijidegebo、xiaotuidou“shanglecai”，kanzhejingzilideziji，xiaoguohenbucuo。
kuaidaoxiawushangkelewocaigandaoxuexiao。
menweibaoanshigegouyankanrendide，jianwochuandepopolanlan，zhangkoujiuyaoxunchi：
“wanxiaoru？yo，nihaizhidaolai！”
zheigeshiliyandebaoanhewotongcun，jianwomazhangdeqingxiutahengoutui，erwomataoyanwo，tabianyegenzheqifuwo。
tahenqingchuzhidaowodejiatingqingkuang，suiranwoxuexichengjiminglieqianmao，kexiwomeineimexingyun，dangwojiongpodeshihou、dangwoluqutongzhishubeisihuikuzheyaojinxiaomenzhaoxiaozhangdeshihou，tadoushilengyanpangguan，shenzhiyanyukebo。
wobuzaixiangpingshineibanduitaweixiaowenhao，ershizhijiewushileta，gezhemenlan，wochezhesangzidahan：“xiaozhangyeye！xiaozhangyeye！”
cishizhengshishangkeshijian，lurentoulaichayideyanguang，woquehaobuweiju，wodelianpishangyishizaihuisuolizaojiuduanlianchulaile，kuangqiedousiguoyicile，haiyoushenmehaopade！
laoxiaozhangxiawuyibandouhuizaixiaoneimenkoudezaojingxiaohuayuanliliudayihuier，tingdaohansheng，zhijianyigemianxiangyansuguban、chuanzhezhongshanzhuangdelaotouzoulechulai。
baoanjianzhuangjiwokailemen，manghelaoxiaozhangjieshidao：“zheigewanxiaorubuzhidaochoushenmefengni，chidaokuangkebushuo，haixiahanrenchaoledajia！”
“e？nijiushiwanxiaoru？jingchangkaoqiansandeneige？youhe，zheiwazimeichuanxiaofuhaizhenrenbuchulai！”laoxiaozhangsangmenhenda，shangyishiwojuedetayansubukeqin，yudaotaconglaidoushijinzhangdeditoujiuzou。
haojinianhouwocaizhidao，dangshilaoxiaozhangcengjingxiangbangwo。gaokaohoutadezhiwodaxuemeiqushang，cengnazheqianzhaodaolewojiali，xiangshuofubamarangwojixudushu，naihetaiwanle，dangshichenzheshujia，woyijingzaihuisuolishangbanliangyuele。
sijicishi，wobiaoxiandexiangzhuazhulejiumingdaocao，kuhandao：“xiaozhangyeye，nishidahaoren！qiuqiunibangbangwoba，woxianghaohaodushu！”
jianwojiuwangxiaozhangshenshangpu，baoanlianmanglazhulewo，zhenghewoyi——wodeyifubenbuheshen，shaoweilachexia，zhijiangebohexiaotuishangyidaodaokebudeshanghenruoyinruojian！
laoxiaozhangjianzhuangchileyijing，dengletayiyan，houdao：“bielale！nizixijiwaerlahuaile！”
baoanfangkailewo，bumandinieruzhe：“xiaozhang～，zheiwazibulaoshi，zhaoninshangyanyaoshuini。”
wotuikaibaoan，paodaoxiaozhanggenqian，yanbabadikanzheta：
“xiaozhangyeye，woyaodandugenninshuohua，wozhixinnin！”