第3章 没有了活下去的勇气

di3zhangmeiyoulehuoxiaqudeyongqi

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“tadaizenyang?”bairuolanshengyinyadebuchengyangzi,muzilingyijingduitazheiyangwuqingle,hainengzenmeyang,zuobuguoshishaletabale,tahuozheshoujinzhemowuru,shengburusi,sidaoyeshiyizhongjietuo。

“huangshangshigenianjiuqingde,teyijinishijiankaolv,ruguonizhimibuwuhaibushuochumuqingyedexialuo,renuhuangshang,caishikoujiushinibaijiajibaitiaorenmingzuihoudeguisu。”

“bukeneng!”tingwenmuzilingzhunbeiduibaijiajinxingchaojiamiemen,bairuolanyanzhongdoushijingjizhise,tafakuangdedajiao,“woyaojianhuangshang!woyaojianhuangshang!”

“huangshangbuxiangjianni!chufeininenggongchufeitaizixialuo!”

“wobuzhidao!wozhendebuzhidaoya!”bairuolanjuewangdedajiao。

suwanyuyinyinyixiao,“dongshouba,zhidaohuanghouzhaogongweizhi!”

jingenzhedegongrenmashangshangqian,xinyilundezhemoyoukaishile。

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muguangluozaibairuolandeshoushang,bairuolanbuzhishirongmaoyanjuetianxia,caiyiyeshidongjingcheng,dangjinshengshangzuiaidejiushihetaqinxiaohezou。

talenglengyixiao,muguangkanxiangpangbiandeyongren,duizhebairuolandeshoudianleyixiatou。

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jianbairuolanshizhijinduan,suwanyumanyidedianlexiatou,jugaolinxiadekanzhezhiyouweiruoqixidebairuolan。

“zezeze!meiyouxiangdaohuanghouhuizheiyangtanhumuqingyezheigeluanchenzeizi,jingranningsibuzhao,jiranzheiyangbengongzhiyouhuiqurushibingbaohuangshangle。”

“suwanyunibushiren!”bairuolanmuzhongdaixue,ehenhendedingzhesuwanyu,“wozuoguiyebuhuifangguonide!”

suwanyuyushouqingfufubu,“bairuolan,zhenzhengrangniluodaozheizhongdibudebushiwosuwanyu,ershihuangshang,baijiasanchaoyuanlao,gonggaogaizhu,zaichulenizheiyangyigehuanghou,neikeshibudeledeshiqing,ziguyilai,waiqiquanshiguodaganzhengdeliezishubushengshu,huangshangwotazhiceqierongtarenhanshui,wozhishituibozhulanchengquanlehuangshangeryi!”

“nihushuo,huangshangbuhuiruciduiwobaijiade!”

“bairuolanabairuolan,doudaozheigeshihoulenihaizhimibuwuma?”suwanyugegedexiaozhe,“huangshangyaoshixinzhongyounizenmehuizheiyangduini?suoweifeitaizimuqingyebuguoshigeyoutoueryi!”

“你什么意思?”

“shihuagaosuniba!huangshangzheiyangzhemonibizhenizhaogongzhishizhaoyigejiekou,tazhidaoniyagenbuzhidaomuqingyedexialuo,suoweidehemuqingyesishouwutianwuyezhishiyanrenermu,zuizhongbuguoshijienizhishouchanchuzhenggebaijia。”

“buhuide!buhuide!”bairuolannannande,xinzhongqueshixinledaban,ruruobushimuzilingdezhiyi,suwanyuzenmekenenghuizheiyangchangkuang。

suoyizheiyiqieshimuzilingweilechanchuyijibuzhidequantao,xiangmingbaizheiyidian,bairuolanyanzhongyijingshiyipiansiji。

muziling,nihaohendexina!