第6章畏罪自杀
ciriwushiweidaosuwanyudaizhejigegongrenhaohaodangdangdedaolelenggong，shuribujiansuwanyukanqilaibicongqianyouyanlilejifen。
tatuozheyaoshen，weizhebairuolanmantengtengdezhuanlejiquan，“woshuoqianhuanghouniangniang，nikezhenshimingdaa！douzheiyanglehaibusi？”
“meiyoukanjiannidebaoying，wozenmenengsi？”bairuolanzuozaidishang，duizhetaluchuyigelengxiao。
“jiribujian，nizheixingzijingranmeiyousihaogaibian，haishizheiyangganglie，zhishizaiganglieyouruhe？haishitaobudiaomanmenchaozhandemingyun，nibaishiyimenzhongjiushiluanchenzeizi，jintianwuhoucaishikoujiangxueliuchenghe，kelianbaijiashubaikourenjiangbianchengdaoxiawanghun......”
suwanyudunleyixia，yinlenglengdemuguangluozaibairuolanshenshang：“erzheiyiqiedoushinizaochengdea，bairuolan，shinihaisilenidejiaren，tamendousile，nizenmehaoyisijixuhuozheni？”
bairuolanxinbeitadehuajidadezhiliposui，suwanyushuodedui，zheiyiqiedezuikuihuoshoudoushita，shitaaicuoleren，shitazaojiulejintiandejumian，tazheigezuikuihuoshoushizuiyinggaiquside。
keshitabunengsi，tayaoshisile，sheijifumuxiongdibaijiashubaikourenshoushi？
muzilingneimehendu，yaoshizhenbabaijiashubaikourenshishoufangzaijietouranglieripushai，renyouniaoquezhuoshi，rihoujiuquanzhixiataruhemianduifumuqinren？
tashiyaosi，danshiyededengfumuluotuweianhouzaiqusi。
jianbairuolanduizijidehuazhiruowangwen，suwanyusihushimeiyouxiangdao，zheibairuolanxingzigaoao，yixiangdoushiningkeyusuibuweiwaquanzhiren，jintianzheifanyanyucijijingranmeiyourenhefanyingshishenmeyuanyin？
nandaohuangshangxuletashenme？xiangdaotingwengongrenshuoguohuangshangzuotianshenyecengdaocikanguobairuolan，taxinlibujinfanqiledigu。
zhengchenyinjian，menwaichuanlaijicujiaobusheng，yigegongrenjicongcongerlai，gelaoyuanjiudahan：“niangniang！niangniangchushile！”
“heshirucijinghuang？”suwanyulishengwendao。
“nucaiganggangtingwenbaixiangyijiazailaozhongzijinshenwangle！”
“cihuadangzhen？”suwanyulianshangshanguoyisixise，doushiyaosi，baijiarenshibeikantouhaishizijinduiyutalaishuodoumeiyouguanxi。
“dangzhen，baijiayiganrendengdoushifuduzijin，yuzufaxiandeshihoudouyijingsideyingbangbangle，shengshanglongyandanu，zhengqijiaganwangtianlao......”
gongrenhuahaimeiyoushuowan，zhitingjiandongdeyishengxiang，bairuolanwanghouyidaoyunleguoqu。
bairuolanxingguolaideshihouyijingshixiawushifen，canyangruxuezhaodepojiudegongmenhongtongtongyipian。
xiangdaoyijingshensideqinren，tabeicongxinqi，bugushentixuruozhengzhazhezuoqilai，touzhongjiaoqingdeyaowangwaizou，menkouzhanzhelianggehubeixiongyaodeweishi，kanjiantachulaishenshoulanzhu：“meiyouhuangshangxuke，niangniangbunengtachugongmenyibu！”
“woyaojianmuziling！woyaojianmuziling！”bairuolanpinmingdeyaowangwaizou，weishishenshouyituitapobaibukandeshenzijiushuaizaidishang。
wuzangliufudouzaiteng，wufazhanli，tajiuzaidishangpaxing，zuilinannanziyu：“woyaojianhuangshang，woyaojianwofumuxiongdizuihouyimian！”
“niangniangqingzizhong，xiangyejiangjunzaiyuzhongweizuizisha，wansuilongyandanuzhengzaichecha，yaoshiniangniangzheigeshihouqudajiao，renuwansui，kebushishenmehaoshiqing！”
bairuolanyixiazidunzhule，yaoshimuzilingqiannuxialai，duifuxiongshitijinxingwurutakeshiwansinanciqijiu。
tawulidezuohuidishang，muguangwushendekanzhegongmenwai。
bairuolanzheiyizuojiushishugeshichen，yemujianglin，waimianguaqilaidafeng，yizhanfengdengyinlutayaodengderenzhongyuchuxianle。
muzilingshenshangchuanzhedachang，daizhehanqipomenerru。
kanjianzuozaidishangdebairuolan，tachixiaoyisheng：“tingshuoniyaojianzhen？”
“qiuhuangshangrangjianbijianjiarenzuihouyimian！”bairuolanhuanhuanguixia。
zaizuorizhiqiantadezichenghaishichenqie，jintianjiubianchenglejianbi，tingjiantadezichengmuzilingmouseyijin，shengyinhanchetougu：“zhenruobuyunni？”
“qiuhuangshangrangjianbijianjiarenzuihouyimian！”bairuolanzaicifushentouzhongzhongdekezaiqingzhuandishang。
tayonglijimeng，pengdeyishengxiang，neixiangshengqiaodazaimuzilingdexinshang，taxinfangjingrankongzhibuzhudezhanleyizhan。
bairuolanmeiyoukantajixujixiedeketouqingqiu，muzilingmengdishenshoutuozhutadetouetouxianxuelinli，xueroumohu，muzilingbuzijindekanxiangtademouzi，simuxiangdui，bairuolandeyanzhongyipiansiji。