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chenxinglanbawodaidaotaqizhongyigefangzili。
wulichuchuzhangxianzhelianggerenyiqishenghuodehenji。
menkouyidayixiaoliangshuangtuoxie，zhuozishangbingpaifangzhedeqinglvshuibei......
yiqiedeyiqie，douzaitixingwo，zaiwobuzhidaodeshihou，chenxinglanzaiwaimianlingyouleyigejia。
jiangyuekandaowolianshangdeshishen，yanliluchuyimodeyi，taqingqingkaikou。
“zheiwulideyiqiedoushixinglangegezhunbeide，haiyouyingerfang，shitadingzhezhuangxiude，yinweibuzhidaoxingbie，tazhunbeileyifenyilanliangzhongfengge，tazhendehenxixinshibushi？”
jiangyueshuozheihuadeshihouyuqilimanshixuanyao。
woxinxiangwodangranzhidaochenxinglanyouduoxixin。
buranyebuzhiyuzaiwoyanpidixiagaozheixie，wodouyiwusuojue。
jiangyuejixushuodao：“qiaoyanjiejie，woyaoshini，woyidinghuihechenzonglihunde。tazheimexihuanhaizi，zhudingyibeizigenwojiuchanbuqingle，nikanzhebunaoxinma？”
zaichenxinglankanbudaodedifang，jiangyuebuzaizhuangzuoxiaobaitudeyangzi，ershibaoluchubenxing。
wozhidaotashiguyijinuwo。
woxiaolexiao：“woweishenmeyaolihun？zhiyaobulihun，tadeyiqiejiudoushiwode，baokuozheitaofangzi。chenxinglanneimeaiwo，xianzaiyouduiwomanxinkuijiu，zhiyaowoxiang，wosuishikeyibanisaodichumen。”
“ni......”jiangyuebeiwoqidizhichuanqi。
zhishiyimiao，tajiudiaozhenghaolebiaoqing。
tawangqianyibu，zaiwoerbiandiyu：“jiranzheiyang，neiwomenjiukankanxinglangegehuixuansheiba。”
woshangmeifanyingguolaitadeyisi，tajiushuailezhuozishangdeshuibei，youzijikeshangzhuobian。
“a......qiaoyanjiejiebuyaotuiwo。”
xiayimiao，chenxinglanfengyiyangchongdaotashenbian，jinzhangdiwentazenmele。
江月捂着肚子叫痛。
chenxinglanbatadahengbaoqi，congcongchulemen。
jingguowodeshihou，tapielewoyiyan，yanliyoushiwang。
“chenxinglan，”wojiaozhuta，“woshuowomeituitanixinma？”
陈星岚停顿了一秒。
zhishiyimiao，jiutouyebuhuidilikai。
wozhidaojiangyuedejimoudechengle。
wozaiwulidaidaidizhanlebantian，caimanmandunxiashen，xiangbadishangdebolisuipianjianqilai。
shouzhibeisuipianhuapodeshihou，caifanyingguolai，zheilibingbushiwodejia。
zheishichenxinglanhelingyigenvrendejia。
我从来，都没有家。
心终于彻底死去。
zaichenxinglanzhanzaishoushushimenkoujiaojididengdaizhejiangyuedehaizichushengdeshihou，woyetangzaileshoushutaishang。
qinshoushasilewomendehaizi。
zaitabaozhegangchushengdexiaoyingerhejiangyuetaolunxiangsheideshihou，
wonachuzhunbeihaodelihunxieyiheyiduanluxiang，
likailewoshenghuoleqiniandejia。
yiyuanli，chenxinglankanzhebaozhehaizixiaodehebulongzuidebama，xinliyouyishunjiandejietuo。
taxiang，tazhongyuwanchenglechuanzongjiedaiderenwu，yesuanshijibamayigejiaodaile。
yaoshuokandaozheigehaizi，buxinxishijiade。
zheibijingshitadediyigehaizi，shenzhiyoukenengchengweiweiyiyige。
taxiang，denghuiqujiugaosuqiaoyan，tamenchenjiayouhoule。
yihoutazaiyebuyongheneikudaorangtatudezhongyao。
zaiyebuyongquyiguanyicicidizuozhenjiu，
zaiyebuyongweileshiguanrenshouzhetengtongqudaculuanzhen。
tayijingrubamasuoyuan，jiletamenyigehaizi。
yihou，tamenhuiheyiqianyiyang，tayizhidouzhiaitayige。
xiangdaotabaoqijiangyuelikaishi，qiaoyanneijuewangdekouwen，tajiujuedebuan。
tayaogankuaihuijia，huijiagenqiaoyanjieshiyiqie。
bugubamadezulan，tapaochulebingfang。
taxiangtayaoxianqumaiyishuqiaoyanzuixihuandebaimeigui。
yiqiantameiciretashengqi，zhiyaomaihuazaigentamaigecantajiuhuiyuanliangta。
这次也一样的。
zaiyiyuandezoulangshang，tajiandaoleyizhijiqiaoyanzuoshiguandeyisheng。
yishenglazhuta：“ai，nilaoponi？tashanggeyueyunjianzenmemeilai？”
chenxinglandejiaobuyixiazidunzhu，naodaixiangshibeizaleyiyangwengming。
haobantiancaizhaodaozijideshengyin，tawenyisheng：“nishuoshenme？”