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duanzhendagaishiganleshenmererenjiaguniangshengqideshi。
zheihuierneinvshengzhenghongzheyanjuezhezui，yipinyidongdoushijiaochen。
neijiaochenyanshu，cengjingbeiduanzhenchongdeyoushiwukongdeshihou，woduizhetayeshizheiyang。
duanzhenhongrenshi，lianshangluchudebiaoqingshizaijiuwei。
tayebuzhidaoshuolejushuoshenme，neiguniangpieguonaodaijiuyaozou，tafanshoujiangrenlazhu，yebuguanshibushidatingguangzhong，niezhetadexiaba，qingshenjiuzaitachunshangluoxiayiwen。
zhouweidehuanhuhongnaociqibifu。
zhiyouworuzhuibingjiao，shoujiaobingliang。
pawomashikong，bawozuihoudetimiandousipo，woqiangchengzhecuokaishixian，shituganzaiwomakandaoqianlatazou。
kewozhongjiuhaishiwanleyibu。
我妈眼睛都气红了。
tachongjinrenqunyibazhuazhuneinvshengdetoufa，taishouluozhang。
neinvshenglianshangshunjianfuxianchuyigexianhongdewuzhiyin。
“nigechoubuyaoliandedongxi！nijiaoyangni！xiaoxiaonianjijiujirendangsan，nishudoudunaerqule？jintianwojiutinimahaohaoguanjiaoguanjiaoni！”
zhouweianjingdekepa，woerbianquezhishengerming。
womahaixiangzaidadierbazhang，duanzhenyijinghuishenlanzhutadedongzuo。
“bomu，wokanzaiwomenliangjiadeguanxishangzunniyishengbomu，danshiwoderen，hailunbudaonilaidong。”
tashengyinbingleng，yaozheyagen，mingxianshizaishengnudebianyuan。
woqialexiazhangxin，nulibaochizheqingxingpaoguoqu。
tasenlengdeshixiangenzheluozaiwoshenshang。
“jixia，nifeidezheimesipilailian？meilewonihuobuxiaqu？”
zheiyici，womashizhendechudaoletadenilin。
keshi，chuguideshita，beiqinuoyanpaoxiawodeyeshita！
tayouyoushenmezigechongwofahuo？
woshenxikouqi，yandigunguoliangbodexiaoyi：“suoyi，nijuedenizijimeicuo？nijuedenishenhoudenvshengmeicuo？shi，womadarenshitachongdong，keshiduanzhen，neiguniangjiushibuyaoliana，taqiangwoweihunfu，jiushidangzhiwukuidexiaosana。”
woyouyiyaozhonglezuihoujigezi。
guzhendepengyouhededaoxilekouliangqi。
“saozi，nikuaibieshuole！”
“sheitamashinisaozi！kanqingchu，nisaozizaiwobianshangzhanzhe！bietamajianlegebuyaolianwangshangpudejiuluanjiao！”
duanzhenyanjingxinghongyipian，tashizhenyidianmianzimeijiwoliu。
taxiaoxinbaneinvshenghuzaishenhou，quantouniedesijin。
womayanleigenzhejiuluolexialai。
“duanjiaxiaozi，zuorenzuoshibushizheimegeli，dangnianshinikan，koukoushengshengdangzhedajiahuodemianshuofeiwojiaxiaxiabuqude，wonvergennilenishinian，beinishuileshinian，nixianzaibatawanlanwantoulenijiuxiangtiqikuziburenrenle？zheishishangmeizheimehaodeshier！niyaomejiujitayibiqianrangtahoubanbeiziwuyou，buran，nijiubixujiwoquta！”
zheixiehua，zaipingchangwotingdeyebushao。
kewocongmeixiangguo，youchaoyiriwohuizaiwoqinshengmuqinzuilitingjian。
suoyi，zaitayanliwojiushigebeirenwanlandepoxie，wojiushishengyichangdexishengpin......ma？
我掌心都要扣烂了。
fashaoyinqidetoutongjihuyaolewobantiaoming，neixiehuochaofenghuojixiaodeshixiancongsimianbafangchuanlai，jihuyaobawoshaochenghuijin。
woyongjinquanli，caideyitaishouzhuazhuwomadeyixiu：“ma......goule，wobuyao，woshenmedoubuyao，womenzouba......”
“zoushenmezou！”womashuaikaiwo，tamingxianchaoshangletou：“jixianifeidezheimemeichuxishibushi？renjiabanidangbaipiaodexiaojie，nihaizhenshangganzhejirenjiashui，renjiatiqikuziyaonizou，nijiuzhenguaiguaidezou？woshengnishijirenjiabaiyongde？”
tazhuazhewodaodatingzhongyanghaixiangshuoxieshenme。
wolianshangdexueseyijingtundeyiganerjing。
“ma，dangwoqiuni，jiwokouchuanqidejihuiba。”
wujindenankanjihuyaobawoyanmei。
wochengzhezuihouyikouqilangbeidechezhewoma，bugutapitougailiandejiaomabatachechurenqun，ladaodamalushang。
binglengdekongqirangwotounaoqingxingjifen，woshitugentahaohaojieshi。
tameidachuqudedierbazhang，quejiejieshishiluozaiwolianshang。
“nigemeinaozidefeiwu！woshengnixialaijiushirangnijirenjiabaishuibaiwande？zijinanrendoushoubuzhu，nishizhua！”
“妈......”
“你别叫我妈！”
她狠狠甩开我。
womeizhanwen，yipiguzuozaixuedili。
xueshuihenkuaichuantoumianfutieshangwodepirou。
womaqueshuangmuxinghong，kanwodeyanshenhekanchourenwuyi。
“jintianzheilianyediuwanle！wozheibeiziyebupazaidiulian，jixia，wozaigennizhongshenzuihouyibian，zheishierbukennengfanpian，wobuguanniyongshenmebanfa，bixujiwojiadaoduanjiaqu！buran，nizheibeizidoubiehuilai！”
我眼前全黑了。
ermingcier，yixijian，wotingdaolewomajuejuedejiaobusheng。
我不明白。
bumingbaicengjingneimezaihuwodemamaweishenmehuibianchengzheiyang。
woxiangwenwenta，zaitaxinlinandaowohaimeiyougongsizhongyaoma？
napaduanzhenneiyangxiuruwo，woyedesipilailiandetieshangquma？
weilegongsi，wodeganshoujiudoukeyihulvebujilema？
kezheixiewenti，zhudingdebudaohuida。
wotongkudezuozaixuedili，renyouxueshuijintouwodeyiku。
bujideguoleduojiu，yourencongwomianqianjingguo。
那片阴影经久不散。
liangjiu，wotaitou，jiujianyizhangshuxidelianlengbingbingdekanzhewo。
“wohewolaopoyaojiehunle，niyaoshihaiyaodianlianjiudaizhenimagunyuandian，qianwoyifendoubuhuijini，haiyoujintiandeshi，wolaoposhanglelian，nizuihaolaolaoshishidaizhenimalaijiwolaopodaoqian，buran，wobuganbaozhengnijiagaosuhainengchengduojiu。”
tayikouyigelaopodehanzhe，quanranwangledangchutabawopengzaishouxinlidemoyang。
suoyi，tadexihuandangzhenjiuzheimelianjiama？
womamudedingzhetazouyuandebeiying。
yaoyuandeludengxia，tanaizulexingzibaozhegejiaoxiaodeguniangshangche。
zheiyike，‘ai’yu‘buai’neiyangjuti。
wochenmozhemusongneiliangchelikai。
bujidezaixuedilizuoleduojiu。
yishixiaosandezuihouyike，yidaoxiuzhangdeshenyingdangzhuleneizhanhunhuangdeludeng。
yizhixiuzhangbaijingdeshou，shendaowolianbian，tuozhulewodenaodai——
“haoxiangmeicijianmian，nidoubazijigaodehenlangbei，zaozhidao，dangchujiubufangshoule。”