第1章

lianaidi1000tian,wogenjianghuaitilefenshou。

yuanyinshiwokandaoletazaixiaohongshushangmeinimingdeneigedaan。

tashuo,tadangnianzuixiangqudenvhaijiao“yunqian”。

现在也是。

dangtian,wodiudiaoledinghunjiezhi,xiaosazhuanshenlikai。

ketaquehouhuile,shuotalikaiwo,genbenjiuhuobuxiaqu。

wokanzhetaleiliumanmiandeyangzi。

“那你就去死吧。”

1

nazhejianghuaidepingbanzhengzaikandianshi,xiaohongshuturanjieerliansandetiaochulaihaojitiaoxinxi。

jianghuaixianglaibuxihuanwanzheige,dangchuxiazaizheigeapphaishiwochanletahaojiu,tacaidayingde。

haoqixinqushiwodianlekailai。

zhuyeshiyizhangtupian,shangmianxiezheyigeresouhuati。

“qingdadandeshuochudangniannizuixiangyaoqudenvhaijiaoshenmemingzi?”

woweiweixiaoleyixia,shouzhisuiyidefankanzhexiafangdepingjia。

xinxiangjianghuaiguoranshigenwozaiyiqijiule,jiulianzheizhongbaguaxihaodoubeiwosuochuanran。

suizhegezhonggeyangdemingziyingruwodeyanlian,wozairenqunzhongqidaizhe,jianghuaihuibuhuiyejiangwodemingzixiezaishangmian。

kexiayimiao,zuijiaodeweixiaojiuzheimejiangzailianshang,woquezenmeyexiaobuchulai。

yinweiwodeweihunfu,jianghuai,yezaixiamianliuyanle。

keneigeren,quebushiwodemingzi。

他说。

tadangnianzuixiangyaoqudenvhaijiaozuo“yunqian”。

现在也是。

2

raner,haimeidengwoxiaohuahaozheitiaoxinxijiwodailaidezhenhan。

xiayimiao,wojiukandaojianghuaidexiaohongshushang,falaiyitiaosixin。

“ahuai,womingtianjiuyaohuiguole。”

jianghuaidexiaohongshuduijieshouji,henkuai,wojiukandaozheibianxianshiyidu。

他说。

“jidiandehangban,woqujieni。”

他说。

“huanyinghuilai,qianqian。”

ruguozhiqiankandaodeneitiaoxiaoxishiduitadeshiwang。

neixianzaidewoduita,jiuzhiyouxinsideganjue。

yinweimingtian,shiwogentayuedinghao,yaoqushihunshaderizi。

3

taiyanghuanhuanluoxia,gongyuhenkuaijiubeiheiansuolongzhao。

pingbanfangzaishafashang,yinweimeidian,yijingzidongguanji。

doushuorenzaiheiandeshihou,zongshixihuanyigerenhusiluanxiang,jiubiruxianzaidewo。

queshi,wodenaohailikaishiyuanyuanbuduandechengxianchulaicongqianwogenjianghuaizaiyiqidechangmian。

woshenzhihaiqingxidejide,dangnianwochuchahuilai,yinweiyutianbuhaodache,wojijianghuaidadianhuarangtaguolaijiewo。

dianhuajietong,dedaodequeshitapitougailiandezebei。

“xiayanan,woshibushigennishuole,wojintianyouyigehenzhongyaodehuiyi,rangnibuyaodaraowo!”

wojinminzhechun,shengpatabugaoxing,yuqizhinengzhujianweiwan。

“wozhidao,keshijintianyuhenda,wojiaoleyigexiaoshidechedoumeiyoufanying,ahuai,dengnihuiyijieshu,ninengbunengguolaidaiwoyixia。”

“wozheibianlinihenjin……”

haimeidengwoshuowan,dianhuaneiduanjiuchuanlaidududemangliusheng。

houlai,shiluguodesijikanwoyigerenzhanzaijichangmenkoulinzhexiangzihunshenlinshi,cangbaiwulidemoyangshizaiburenxin,caishunluzailewoyicheng。

他说。

“xiaoguniang,zheidayutiande,niyaoshimeiyounanpengyouneihaihao,burandehua,takezhenshitaibuchengzhile。”

我没有回答。

niezhebaodaideshouweiweizuanjin。

wohunshenshitouhuidaojia,jiusuanwomashangchongdaoyushiquxizao,yemeibanfabimiangaoshaodejieguo。

mimihuhuzhong,wosihukandaojianghuaizhanzaiwodemianqian,tajugaolinxiadekanzhewo。

“nikan,nizijidoukeyihuilaidehaiyaowoguolaijieni,nizhidaowoweileniteditiqianshifenzhonglichangma?!”

“zhenshilangfeiwodeshijian!”

房门狠狠的关上。

wobuzhidaoneitianwoshihualeduodadenulishuofuwoziji。

tazhibuguoshiyinweitaimang。

erbingbushiyinweibuaiwo。

kexianzaini,taquezhudongwenyunqian,jidiandehangban。

taduizheqianqianshuo“huanyinghuilai”。

我苦笑了一声。

yuanlai,manggenfuyan,conglaidoushilianghuishi。

erwo,yongyuandouzhihuishineigerangtafuyanderen。

woshenchushou,jiangdaizaizhongzhishangdedinghunjiezhihaobuyouyudenaxialai。

丢进垃圾桶里面。

4

jiandandeshoushihaoxinglihou,wozhanzaigongyumenkou。

zuihouhuitoukanleyiyanzijicengjingshenghuolesanniandedifang。

shuodaodi,wohaishishebudede。

woxihuanlejianghuaisannian,zhuiletaliangnian,tabazhanlewozhengzhengwuniandeqingchun。

congwoxihuantakaishi,wojiuzhidaojianghuaiyouyigeaierbudedeqingmeiyunqian。

tamencongxiaoyiqizhangda,shenzhizaizhangdahouyuedingyaojiajiduifang。

dantianbusuirenyuan,yunqianjiazhongpochan,tabeipowunaibeifuqinyongzuihoudejihuisongchuguo。

erjianghuaidefumu,yebuzhuntazaigenyunqianyourenhedelianxi。

原因很简单。

yinweineishihoudeyunqian,yijingpeibushangtale。

zaishangliushehui,jiecengyongyuandibuguosuoweideaiqing。

suoyi,dangjiangmuzhidaozuoweixiajiaqianjinda**dewoyexihuanjianghuaideneiyike,talimajiuyongjinyiqiebanfajiangwomencuohezaiyiqi。

woyiweizheimeduonianguoqule,jianghuaibuguanzaizenmexihuanyunqian,yehuibeiwodezhenqingsuodadong。

quemeiyouxiangdao,yuanlaizheiyiqiedoushiwotaiguoyuziyiweishi。

wojianggongyudeyaochifangzaixuanguanzuiweixianyandeweizhi。

guanshangmendeneiyike,woxiang,jianghuaiyongyuanyebuhuizhidao,shiquwo,yiweizheshenme。

5

jianghuailianxidaowodeshihou,shidiertiandezaoshangshidian。

hunshadianjiedaiwomendexiaoshoujitadadianhua,shuowohaimeiyouchuxian。

sangexiaoshihou,tazhongyuganjuedaolebuduijing,guolaiwodegongyulimianzhaodaolezhengzaishuijuedewo。

tajiangbeiwodiuzailajitonglidedinghunjiezhibaizaiwodemianqian,zhiwenwojiujingshishenmeyisi。

wolansandekanzheta,suihoubiandahaqian,bianzoudaoshafashang,yi**zuoxialai。

“xiayanan,wozaiwennihuani!”

“jintianshiwomenpaihunshaderizi,niyidazaodequexiyejiusuanle,xianzaihaiyifuzheimeyonglandeyangzibaizaiwodemianqian,nishibushibuxianggenwojiehunle!”

“niyaoshibuxiangjiehundehuajiuzhishuo……”

huayingangluo,wodiandiantoudaduantadehua。

“你说对了。”

“我不想结婚了。”

zaitayilianjingebuyiqiehuaiyideyanshenzhong,wohaobuliuqingdekaikougaosuta。

“womenfenshouba,jianghuai。”

“woyijingbuainile。”

6

liutangzaiwomenzhongjiandekongqikaishizhujianchenmo,zhouweianjingdezhinengtingdaoqiangshangnaozhongguilvzoudongdeshengyin。

buzhiguoleduojiu,zhanzaiwomianqiandejianghuaijiuxiangshizhongyufanyingguolai,turanliezuikaishidaxiaoqilai。

yanshenlimian,xishudoushiduiwohuayudebiyizhiqing。

keyuqiquebuzijuederuanlexialai。

jiuxiangshizaihongyigeyuchundesansuihaizi。

“yanan,nishibushiyinweiwozaoshangqujiedaikehusuoyiwandaoyibunaoxiaopiqile。”

“xingle,xianzaiwodouzhudongguolaizhaonile,nijiubienaole,tinghua,huanhaoyifu,womenquhunshadian,jiedaiyijingzaineibiandengwomenbantianle。”

wobujibuhuandenaqichajishangdeshuibeiheleyikou。

“jianghuai,nishibushitingbudongrenhua?”

“woshuole,womenfenshou,dinghunjiezhiwoyijinghaijinile,nimenjianaguolaidepinli,wozaoshangyeyijingdousonghuiqule,wodouzuodaozheigedibule,nandaohaibunengbiaodawofenshoudejuexinma?”

dagaishimeiyouxiangdao,xirizheiyangaitaderen,zheiyicihuirucijiandingdebiaodazijifenshoudejuexin。

danhenkuai,tajiufanyingguolai,shenzhiyouxienaoxiuchengnudejiangchajishangdedongxixishusaodaodixia。

qingcuidebolishengrangwofangandecumeikanta。

“xiayanan,nikebiewangjile,dangchukeshinizijiqiuzhe,yaogenwojiehunde!”

“nizheishizaiwannongwodeganqingma?!”

tingdaoganqingzheilianggezi,woturanganjuezhenshiexin。

dagaishiwobuxiedebiaoqingrenaoleta,takanshangquqingxugengjiajidonglexiexu,jiuzaitazhunbeikaikoudeshunjian,wozhijiefanwenta。

“jianghuai,nijintianzhendeshiqujiedaikehudema?”

tadebiaoqingyoupiankedetingdun。

微愣。

外加犹豫。

zaiyiqisannian,wotaiguoyumingbaitademeiyigedongjing,yemingbai,tazaibeirenchuochuanhuangyandeshihou,jiushizheiyangdebiaoqing。

他没有回答。

tadangranyehuidabuchulai。

“jianghuai,yunqianhuilaileduibudui?”

“nijintian,jiushiqinziqujichangjietahuilaideba。”

闻言,他眉头紧蹙。

“nizenmehuizhidao……”

wocongshafashangzhanleqilai,zoudaotademianqian。

tadeshenshanghaidaizhenvrenteyoudexiangshuiwei,exin,yourangrenganjuewubideangzang。

wocongqianzhenshimeiyoufaxian,yuanlaitayebuguoruci。

“yinwei,wokandaonixiaohongshushangmiandeliuyanle。”

“nishuo,nidangnianzuixiangyaoqudeneigenvhai,jiaozuoyunqian。”

suizhezheihuachuanrutadeermo,tadetongkongkaishiweiweifazhan。

shenzhi,xiayishidaizhexiexuhuangzhangdeqingxugundongleyixiahoujie。

wokanzhetacanbaizheyizhanglian,jixukaikou。

“现在,也是。”

7

jianghuaimeiyoufanbowodehua。

zheiyici,tazhishijinminzhechun,jiuxiangshibeirenchuozhongmimibandexinxu,lianshangkaishifanqiyizhenzhenzheyanbuzhudehongyun。

“xiayanan,jiuyinweizheige?”

我轻笑了一下。

jianghuaidaoxianzaidouhaibumingbai,yunqianzhibuguoshiyadaoluotuodezuihouyigendaocao。

zheixienian,woduitadehao。

ertaduiwobinglengdeneixietaidu,yijingzhujianxiaomodiaowoduitadeneifenganqing。

jianwobushuohua,taminleminchun,weizijibianzhileyigekanchengwanmeiyouyuchundeliyou。

“zheibuguodoushizaiwangluoshijieli,xuanxieyixiazijideqingxubale,youshenmehaorangnizheimezaiyide?!”

“genghekuang,niyaohaohaoxiangqingchu,dangchunizhuilewoliangnian,ninandaozijibuzhidao,niyouduomeaiwoma?”

jianghuaishangqianjiuxiangyaowozhuwodeshou,quebeiwohoutuiyibuzhijiebikai。

jianciqingxing,tadenaixingjinshi,shouqiweishandexiaorong,luchutayuanbendezhenmianmu。

“wogaosuni,likaiwo,zhipadaoshihoukuzheshuohouhui,huilaiqiuwodeneigeren,yehuishini!”

wopingjingdekanletayiyan。

“是吗?”

jiuxiangshiyiquantoudazaimianhuashang,wodefanyingrangjianghuaiganjuehenshimeimianzi。

“xiayanan,nibiehouhui。”

gongyumenbeihenhendeguanshang,liandaizheyiqibeiguanshangde,haiyouwozheiwuniandeaiqing。

8

jianghuailikaihou,wojiangmenfansuo。

yigerenjingjingdetangzaichuangshang。

zhidaozheigeshihou,wocaifaxian,yuanlaigentafenshou,bingmeiyouxiangxiangzhongdeneiyangtongku。

xiangfan,woshenzhiganjuedaoyizhongyouneierwaideqingsonggan。

zheixienian,wodeshenghuoyitian24xiaoshijibendoushiyitaweizhongxin,jiuerjiuzhi,aitasihuduiwolaishuo,buzaishiyizhongkuaile,gengduodeshiyizhongfuyanheyali。

haipatabumanyi,suoyiwozongshixiayishidejiangyuanbendezijizheyanzhu,ranhouweizhuangchengtakouzhongxihuandeneizhongmoyang。

raner,dengwoqingxingguolaizhihou,wocaituranmingbaiguolai,guimicengjinggaosuwodeneijuhua。

她说。

“yanan,aiyigeren,zhihuirangnibiandegenghao。”

“keweishenmexianzaideni,fanerbiandebuxiangyuanlaideneigenileni?”