lianaidi1000tian,wogenjianghuaitilefenshou。
yuanyinshiwokandaoletazaixiaohongshushangmeinimingdeneigedaan。
tashuo,tadangnianzuixiangqudenvhaijiao“yunqian”。
现在也是。
dangtian,wodiudiaoledinghunjiezhi,xiaosazhuanshenlikai。
ketaquehouhuile,shuotalikaiwo,genbenjiuhuobuxiaqu。
wokanzhetaleiliumanmiandeyangzi。
“那你就去死吧。”
1
nazhejianghuaidepingbanzhengzaikandianshi,xiaohongshuturanjieerliansandetiaochulaihaojitiaoxinxi。
jianghuaixianglaibuxihuanwanzheige,dangchuxiazaizheigeapphaishiwochanletahaojiu,tacaidayingde。
haoqixinqushiwodianlekailai。
zhuyeshiyizhangtupian,shangmianxiezheyigeresouhuati。
“qingdadandeshuochudangniannizuixiangyaoqudenvhaijiaoshenmemingzi?”
woweiweixiaoleyixia,shouzhisuiyidefankanzhexiafangdepingjia。
xinxiangjianghuaiguoranshigenwozaiyiqijiule,jiulianzheizhongbaguaxihaodoubeiwosuochuanran。
suizhegezhonggeyangdemingziyingruwodeyanlian,wozairenqunzhongqidaizhe,jianghuaihuibuhuiyejiangwodemingzixiezaishangmian。
kexiayimiao,zuijiaodeweixiaojiuzheimejiangzailianshang,woquezenmeyexiaobuchulai。
yinweiwodeweihunfu,jianghuai,yezaixiamianliuyanle。
keneigeren,quebushiwodemingzi。
他说。
tadangnianzuixiangyaoqudenvhaijiaozuo“yunqian”。
现在也是。
2
raner,haimeidengwoxiaohuahaozheitiaoxinxijiwodailaidezhenhan。
xiayimiao,wojiukandaojianghuaidexiaohongshushang,falaiyitiaosixin。
“ahuai,womingtianjiuyaohuiguole。”
jianghuaidexiaohongshuduijieshouji,henkuai,wojiukandaozheibianxianshiyidu。
他说。
“jidiandehangban,woqujieni。”
他说。
“huanyinghuilai,qianqian。”
ruguozhiqiankandaodeneitiaoxiaoxishiduitadeshiwang。
neixianzaidewoduita,jiuzhiyouxinsideganjue。
yinweimingtian,shiwogentayuedinghao,yaoqushihunshaderizi。
3
taiyanghuanhuanluoxia,gongyuhenkuaijiubeiheiansuolongzhao。
pingbanfangzaishafashang,yinweimeidian,yijingzidongguanji。
doushuorenzaiheiandeshihou,zongshixihuanyigerenhusiluanxiang,jiubiruxianzaidewo。
queshi,wodenaohailikaishiyuanyuanbuduandechengxianchulaicongqianwogenjianghuaizaiyiqidechangmian。
woshenzhihaiqingxidejide,dangnianwochuchahuilai,yinweiyutianbuhaodache,wojijianghuaidadianhuarangtaguolaijiewo。
dianhuajietong,dedaodequeshitapitougailiandezebei。
“xiayanan,woshibushigennishuole,wojintianyouyigehenzhongyaodehuiyi,rangnibuyaodaraowo!”
wojinminzhechun,shengpatabugaoxing,yuqizhinengzhujianweiwan。
“wozhidao,keshijintianyuhenda,wojiaoleyigexiaoshidechedoumeiyoufanying,ahuai,dengnihuiyijieshu,ninengbunengguolaidaiwoyixia。”
“wozheibianlinihenjin……”
haimeidengwoshuowan,dianhuaneiduanjiuchuanlaidududemangliusheng。
houlai,shiluguodesijikanwoyigerenzhanzaijichangmenkoulinzhexiangzihunshenlinshi,cangbaiwulidemoyangshizaiburenxin,caishunluzailewoyicheng。
他说。
“xiaoguniang,zheidayutiande,niyaoshimeiyounanpengyouneihaihao,burandehua,takezhenshitaibuchengzhile。”
我没有回答。
niezhebaodaideshouweiweizuanjin。
wohunshenshitouhuidaojia,jiusuanwomashangchongdaoyushiquxizao,yemeibanfabimiangaoshaodejieguo。
mimihuhuzhong,wosihukandaojianghuaizhanzaiwodemianqian,tajugaolinxiadekanzhewo。
“nikan,nizijidoukeyihuilaidehaiyaowoguolaijieni,nizhidaowoweileniteditiqianshifenzhonglichangma?!”
“zhenshilangfeiwodeshijian!”
房门狠狠的关上。
wobuzhidaoneitianwoshihualeduodadenulishuofuwoziji。
tazhibuguoshiyinweitaimang。
erbingbushiyinweibuaiwo。
kexianzaini,taquezhudongwenyunqian,jidiandehangban。
taduizheqianqianshuo“huanyinghuilai”。
我苦笑了一声。
yuanlai,manggenfuyan,conglaidoushilianghuishi。
erwo,yongyuandouzhihuishineigerangtafuyanderen。
woshenchushou,jiangdaizaizhongzhishangdedinghunjiezhihaobuyouyudenaxialai。
丢进垃圾桶里面。
4
jiandandeshoushihaoxinglihou,wozhanzaigongyumenkou。
zuihouhuitoukanleyiyanzijicengjingshenghuolesanniandedifang。
shuodaodi,wohaishishebudede。
woxihuanlejianghuaisannian,zhuiletaliangnian,tabazhanlewozhengzhengwuniandeqingchun。
congwoxihuantakaishi,wojiuzhidaojianghuaiyouyigeaierbudedeqingmeiyunqian。
tamencongxiaoyiqizhangda,shenzhizaizhangdahouyuedingyaojiajiduifang。
dantianbusuirenyuan,yunqianjiazhongpochan,tabeipowunaibeifuqinyongzuihoudejihuisongchuguo。
erjianghuaidefumu,yebuzhuntazaigenyunqianyourenhedelianxi。
原因很简单。
yinweineishihoudeyunqian,yijingpeibushangtale。
zaishangliushehui,jiecengyongyuandibuguosuoweideaiqing。
suoyi,dangjiangmuzhidaozuoweixiajiaqianjinda**dewoyexihuanjianghuaideneiyike,talimajiuyongjinyiqiebanfajiangwomencuohezaiyiqi。
woyiweizheimeduonianguoqule,jianghuaibuguanzaizenmexihuanyunqian,yehuibeiwodezhenqingsuodadong。
quemeiyouxiangdao,yuanlaizheiyiqiedoushiwotaiguoyuziyiweishi。
wojianggongyudeyaochifangzaixuanguanzuiweixianyandeweizhi。
guanshangmendeneiyike,woxiang,jianghuaiyongyuanyebuhuizhidao,shiquwo,yiweizheshenme。
5
jianghuailianxidaowodeshihou,shidiertiandezaoshangshidian。
hunshadianjiedaiwomendexiaoshoujitadadianhua,shuowohaimeiyouchuxian。
sangexiaoshihou,tazhongyuganjuedaolebuduijing,guolaiwodegongyulimianzhaodaolezhengzaishuijuedewo。
tajiangbeiwodiuzailajitonglidedinghunjiezhibaizaiwodemianqian,zhiwenwojiujingshishenmeyisi。
wolansandekanzheta,suihoubiandahaqian,bianzoudaoshafashang,yi**zuoxialai。
“xiayanan,wozaiwennihuani!”
“jintianshiwomenpaihunshaderizi,niyidazaodequexiyejiusuanle,xianzaihaiyifuzheimeyonglandeyangzibaizaiwodemianqian,nishibushibuxianggenwojiehunle!”
“niyaoshibuxiangjiehundehuajiuzhishuo……”
huayingangluo,wodiandiantoudaduantadehua。
“你说对了。”
“我不想结婚了。”
zaitayilianjingebuyiqiehuaiyideyanshenzhong,wohaobuliuqingdekaikougaosuta。
“womenfenshouba,jianghuai。”
“woyijingbuainile。”
6
liutangzaiwomenzhongjiandekongqikaishizhujianchenmo,zhouweianjingdezhinengtingdaoqiangshangnaozhongguilvzoudongdeshengyin。
buzhiguoleduojiu,zhanzaiwomianqiandejianghuaijiuxiangshizhongyufanyingguolai,turanliezuikaishidaxiaoqilai。
yanshenlimian,xishudoushiduiwohuayudebiyizhiqing。
keyuqiquebuzijuederuanlexialai。
jiuxiangshizaihongyigeyuchundesansuihaizi。
“yanan,nishibushiyinweiwozaoshangqujiedaikehusuoyiwandaoyibunaoxiaopiqile。”
“xingle,xianzaiwodouzhudongguolaizhaonile,nijiubienaole,tinghua,huanhaoyifu,womenquhunshadian,jiedaiyijingzaineibiandengwomenbantianle。”
wobujibuhuandenaqichajishangdeshuibeiheleyikou。
“jianghuai,nishibushitingbudongrenhua?”
“woshuole,womenfenshou,dinghunjiezhiwoyijinghaijinile,nimenjianaguolaidepinli,wozaoshangyeyijingdousonghuiqule,wodouzuodaozheigedibule,nandaohaibunengbiaodawofenshoudejuexinma?”
dagaishimeiyouxiangdao,xirizheiyangaitaderen,zheiyicihuirucijiandingdebiaodazijifenshoudejuexin。
danhenkuai,tajiufanyingguolai,shenzhiyouxienaoxiuchengnudejiangchajishangdedongxixishusaodaodixia。
qingcuidebolishengrangwofangandecumeikanta。
“xiayanan,nikebiewangjile,dangchukeshinizijiqiuzhe,yaogenwojiehunde!”
“nizheishizaiwannongwodeganqingma?!”
tingdaoganqingzheilianggezi,woturanganjuezhenshiexin。
dagaishiwobuxiedebiaoqingrenaoleta,takanshangquqingxugengjiajidonglexiexu,jiuzaitazhunbeikaikoudeshunjian,wozhijiefanwenta。
“jianghuai,nijintianzhendeshiqujiedaikehudema?”
tadebiaoqingyoupiankedetingdun。
微愣。
外加犹豫。
zaiyiqisannian,wotaiguoyumingbaitademeiyigedongjing,yemingbai,tazaibeirenchuochuanhuangyandeshihou,jiushizheiyangdebiaoqing。
他没有回答。
tadangranyehuidabuchulai。
“jianghuai,yunqianhuilaileduibudui?”
“nijintian,jiushiqinziqujichangjietahuilaideba。”
闻言,他眉头紧蹙。
“nizenmehuizhidao……”
wocongshafashangzhanleqilai,zoudaotademianqian。
tadeshenshanghaidaizhenvrenteyoudexiangshuiwei,exin,yourangrenganjuewubideangzang。
wocongqianzhenshimeiyoufaxian,yuanlaitayebuguoruci。
“yinwei,wokandaonixiaohongshushangmiandeliuyanle。”
“nishuo,nidangnianzuixiangyaoqudeneigenvhai,jiaozuoyunqian。”
suizhezheihuachuanrutadeermo,tadetongkongkaishiweiweifazhan。
shenzhi,xiayishidaizhexiexuhuangzhangdeqingxugundongleyixiahoujie。
wokanzhetacanbaizheyizhanglian,jixukaikou。
“现在,也是。”
7
jianghuaimeiyoufanbowodehua。
zheiyici,tazhishijinminzhechun,jiuxiangshibeirenchuozhongmimibandexinxu,lianshangkaishifanqiyizhenzhenzheyanbuzhudehongyun。
“xiayanan,jiuyinweizheige?”
我轻笑了一下。
jianghuaidaoxianzaidouhaibumingbai,yunqianzhibuguoshiyadaoluotuodezuihouyigendaocao。
zheixienian,woduitadehao。
ertaduiwobinglengdeneixietaidu,yijingzhujianxiaomodiaowoduitadeneifenganqing。
jianwobushuohua,taminleminchun,weizijibianzhileyigekanchengwanmeiyouyuchundeliyou。
“zheibuguodoushizaiwangluoshijieli,xuanxieyixiazijideqingxubale,youshenmehaorangnizheimezaiyide?!”
“genghekuang,niyaohaohaoxiangqingchu,dangchunizhuilewoliangnian,ninandaozijibuzhidao,niyouduomeaiwoma?”
jianghuaishangqianjiuxiangyaowozhuwodeshou,quebeiwohoutuiyibuzhijiebikai。
jianciqingxing,tadenaixingjinshi,shouqiweishandexiaorong,luchutayuanbendezhenmianmu。
“wogaosuni,likaiwo,zhipadaoshihoukuzheshuohouhui,huilaiqiuwodeneigeren,yehuishini!”
wopingjingdekanletayiyan。
“是吗?”
jiuxiangshiyiquantoudazaimianhuashang,wodefanyingrangjianghuaiganjuehenshimeimianzi。
“xiayanan,nibiehouhui。”
gongyumenbeihenhendeguanshang,liandaizheyiqibeiguanshangde,haiyouwozheiwuniandeaiqing。
8
jianghuailikaihou,wojiangmenfansuo。
yigerenjingjingdetangzaichuangshang。
zhidaozheigeshihou,wocaifaxian,yuanlaigentafenshou,bingmeiyouxiangxiangzhongdeneiyangtongku。
xiangfan,woshenzhiganjuedaoyizhongyouneierwaideqingsonggan。
zheixienian,wodeshenghuoyitian24xiaoshijibendoushiyitaweizhongxin,jiuerjiuzhi,aitasihuduiwolaishuo,buzaishiyizhongkuaile,gengduodeshiyizhongfuyanheyali。
haipatabumanyi,suoyiwozongshixiayishidejiangyuanbendezijizheyanzhu,ranhouweizhuangchengtakouzhongxihuandeneizhongmoyang。
raner,dengwoqingxingguolaizhihou,wocaituranmingbaiguolai,guimicengjinggaosuwodeneijuhua。
她说。
“yanan,aiyigeren,zhihuirangnibiandegenghao。”
“keweishenmexianzaideni,fanerbiandebuxiangyuanlaideneigenileni?”