我不是一个好妈妈。
yinweishuangbaotaierzishentibuhao,wogengpianaitamen,congerhulveledanverdexinqing,daozhidanverbeiyigebaoliruanfannanqipian,zuihoubeihuohuodasi。
woqianquzhaobaolinantaogongdao,jieguobeisuozaidixiashi,tuoshuiersi。
sihou,wofangbuxiaerzimen,yilinghunzitaipiaoqukantamenzuihouyiyan。
却听到他们说:
“neigechunnvrenzhongyusile,jialidecaichandoushiwomendele。”
“aolezheimeduonian,xiaoxinyiyide,shengpawomendeshenfenbaolu,xianzaitagentanverdousile,womensuanshikujinganlaile。”
yuanlaitamenbingfeishiwodeqinshengerzi。
ershilaogongchuguishengxiadesishengzi,yijipopolaobangshengzhudeyezhong。
tamenwandeshilimaohuantaizi,yijimoucaihaiming。
我含恨无法升天。
zaizhengyan,kandaodeshinverguizaiwojiaobian,kuhanzheyaogenruanfanjiabaonanzaiyiqi。
1
“mama,woqiunile,linyutarenshiqiongdian,dantashangjinshanliang,ruguotabushidushengzi,tashenzhiyuanyidangshangmennvxu,taaiwodaozheigedibu,nihaiyoushenmebumanyide?”
nverkudeshengyinshaya,qiaocuidexiaolianmeiyoubandianxuese。
yipang,daerzichongdangheshilao,“ma,nihebibangdayuanyang?jiejiexihuanshei,shitadeziyou,womenyinggaijiyuchongfendezhufu。”
xiaoerzijiehua,“jiushia,jiejiedouzheimedale,nizongshufuzheta,burangtazhuiqiuzijidexingfu,tahuihennide。”
kanzhegenqiandesanzhanglian,kansipannidenver,kansidongshichengshudedaerzi,kansiguaiqiaotinghuadexiaoerzi,wozhongyumingbailerenxingedupizheijuhua。
nverzhouyingyingcongxiaodaodadougenwobuqin,queshiwoyishoutuikaide,caidaozhitaqueai,yigeruanfanbaolinanjiubatahongdetuantuanzhuan。
zhouhaorangenzhouxinranxiongdiliangrenchushengdeshihoushentibuhao,liangrenzaibaowenxianglizhulekuaiyigeyue,woyiweishiwodecuo,duitamentengaiyoujia,shenzhidaolechongnidedibu。
quebuzhidao,suoweideshuangbaotaishijiade。
dangnianwohuaiyun,laogongzhoumingfeiyaowoqutaxiaoyoudesirenyiyuanzuojiancha,shuosirenyiyuanfuwugenghao。
wotingletahua,conghuaiyundaoshengchan,doushizaineigesirenyiyuan。
kewomeixiangdao,zheishizhoumingtayijiajiwoshedeju。
wohuaidebingbushishuangbaotai,shenzhiliannantaihaishinvtaidoubuzhidao,jiubeitamentouzoulewodeqinshenghaier,huanshanglelianggeyezhong。
daerzizhouhaoranshizhoumingchuguibaiyueguang,shengxiadebuzuyueyezhong,suoyitayichushengjiuyaozhubaowenxiang。
xiaoerzizhouxinranshipopolaobangshengzhudeyezhong,bingfeigonggongdehaizi。
wozuomengdoumeixiangguo,zheizhonggouxueshihuifashengzaiwoshenshang。
gengmeixiangguo,zhoujiarenrucidaiduexin!
“mama,tashizheigeshijieshangweiyiaiwoderen,ruguonishizaibuxihuanta,wokeyigenniduanjuemunvguanxi,fanzhengni……niyebuxihuanwo……”
nverzhandoudeshengyinxiangqi,xiaoxinyiyidemoyang,xiangjileyizhimeirenyaodeliulangmaoer。
2
“zhenshidanibudao,niyiweininaduanjuemunvguanxilaiweixienima,womenjiuhuipama?wokannishichibangyingle,womenguanbuzhenile,yaogunganjingun,yihoubiehuilaile!”
zhoumingcongerlouxialai,dashenghechinver。
nveryanlidezuihouyidianxiwangmiequ,taliangqiangzhezhanqishen,jiuzaitayaolikaishi,woyibazhuaizhutadeshouwan,jiangtalazhu。
nverhuitou,jianshiwo,yanmoujianmanshijingyagenxiyue,danhenkuaiyouxianrushiwang,manmanchuixianaodai。
zhidaozheiyike,wocaixiangqi,buguannverzuoshenme,wohaoxiangdoumeiyoujiyuguozhichi,conglaidoushifanduiyijian。