第1章

我不是一个好妈妈。

yinweishuangbaotaierzishentibuhao,wogengpianaitamen,congerhulveledanverdexinqing,daozhidanverbeiyigebaoliruanfannanqipian,zuihoubeihuohuodasi。

woqianquzhaobaolinantaogongdao,jieguobeisuozaidixiashi,tuoshuiersi。

sihou,wofangbuxiaerzimen,yilinghunzitaipiaoqukantamenzuihouyiyan。

却听到他们说:

“neigechunnvrenzhongyusile,jialidecaichandoushiwomendele。”

“aolezheimeduonian,xiaoxinyiyide,shengpawomendeshenfenbaolu,xianzaitagentanverdousile,womensuanshikujinganlaile。”

yuanlaitamenbingfeishiwodeqinshengerzi。

ershilaogongchuguishengxiadesishengzi,yijipopolaobangshengzhudeyezhong。

tamenwandeshilimaohuantaizi,yijimoucaihaiming。

我含恨无法升天。

zaizhengyan,kandaodeshinverguizaiwojiaobian,kuhanzheyaogenruanfanjiabaonanzaiyiqi。

1

“mama,woqiunile,linyutarenshiqiongdian,dantashangjinshanliang,ruguotabushidushengzi,tashenzhiyuanyidangshangmennvxu,taaiwodaozheigedibu,nihaiyoushenmebumanyide?”

nverkudeshengyinshaya,qiaocuidexiaolianmeiyoubandianxuese。

yipang,daerzichongdangheshilao,“ma,nihebibangdayuanyang?jiejiexihuanshei,shitadeziyou,womenyinggaijiyuchongfendezhufu。”

xiaoerzijiehua,“jiushia,jiejiedouzheimedale,nizongshufuzheta,burangtazhuiqiuzijidexingfu,tahuihennide。”

kanzhegenqiandesanzhanglian,kansipannidenver,kansidongshichengshudedaerzi,kansiguaiqiaotinghuadexiaoerzi,wozhongyumingbailerenxingedupizheijuhua。

nverzhouyingyingcongxiaodaodadougenwobuqin,queshiwoyishoutuikaide,caidaozhitaqueai,yigeruanfanbaolinanjiubatahongdetuantuanzhuan。

zhouhaorangenzhouxinranxiongdiliangrenchushengdeshihoushentibuhao,liangrenzaibaowenxianglizhulekuaiyigeyue,woyiweishiwodecuo,duitamentengaiyoujia,shenzhidaolechongnidedibu。

quebuzhidao,suoweideshuangbaotaishijiade。

dangnianwohuaiyun,laogongzhoumingfeiyaowoqutaxiaoyoudesirenyiyuanzuojiancha,shuosirenyiyuanfuwugenghao。

wotingletahua,conghuaiyundaoshengchan,doushizaineigesirenyiyuan。

kewomeixiangdao,zheishizhoumingtayijiajiwoshedeju。

wohuaidebingbushishuangbaotai,shenzhiliannantaihaishinvtaidoubuzhidao,jiubeitamentouzoulewodeqinshenghaier,huanshanglelianggeyezhong。

daerzizhouhaoranshizhoumingchuguibaiyueguang,shengxiadebuzuyueyezhong,suoyitayichushengjiuyaozhubaowenxiang。

xiaoerzizhouxinranshipopolaobangshengzhudeyezhong,bingfeigonggongdehaizi。

wozuomengdoumeixiangguo,zheizhonggouxueshihuifashengzaiwoshenshang。

gengmeixiangguo,zhoujiarenrucidaiduexin!

“mama,tashizheigeshijieshangweiyiaiwoderen,ruguonishizaibuxihuanta,wokeyigenniduanjuemunvguanxi,fanzhengni……niyebuxihuanwo……”

nverzhandoudeshengyinxiangqi,xiaoxinyiyidemoyang,xiangjileyizhimeirenyaodeliulangmaoer。

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“zhenshidanibudao,niyiweininaduanjuemunvguanxilaiweixienima,womenjiuhuipama?wokannishichibangyingle,womenguanbuzhenile,yaogunganjingun,yihoubiehuilaile!”

zhoumingcongerlouxialai,dashenghechinver。

nveryanlidezuihouyidianxiwangmiequ,taliangqiangzhezhanqishen,jiuzaitayaolikaishi,woyibazhuaizhutadeshouwan,jiangtalazhu。

nverhuitou,jianshiwo,yanmoujianmanshijingyagenxiyue,danhenkuaiyouxianrushiwang,manmanchuixianaodai。

zhidaozheiyike,wocaixiangqi,buguannverzuoshenme,wohaoxiangdoumeiyoujiyuguozhichi,conglaidoushifanduiyijian。