第1章 求你,给我一点希望

江城,中心医院。

yishengkanzheshoulidehuayandan,mianseningzhong,“shixueai。”

yizishang,qinchuxiazuanjinleshouxin,zhidaogujiefabai,caipingwenfazhandeshengxian,“haiyouduoshaoshijian?”

yishengminleminchun,“leguanguji,zhiduobannianzhiyinian。”

半年至一年……

qinchuxiapibeidebishangyan。

qizeyu,zheihuishinixiangyaodema?

……

回到家,一室寂寥。

shizhongxianshishierdianhaichawufenzhong。

meidaozuihouyike,qizeyubuhuihuide。

kongdangdangdefangziheiyayaxiangshiyigeheidong,jiangqinchuxiajinshengdeyidianyishixilejinqu,tatidiaojiaoshangdegaogenxie,kaozheqiangbi,wulihualuo,suihoushuangshoujiangshenziquanzhu,jianglianmanmanmaijinhuaili。

meiguoduojiu,“pa”deyisheng,menbeidakai,yigexiuzhangdeshenyingguozheyishenliangyimailejinlai。

heisexizhuangku,baisechenshan,shouliwanzhewaitaodenanrenjinmenkanjianzheifuchangjing,yandishanguoyisiqingchao。

“zheiyoushiyannachangxi?”

hunanzhong,suochengyituandeqinchuxiazhongyuyoulefanying,nanrenshenxinggaoda,tazhinengyangqiliancaikanqingtadeshenqing。

“nibuwenwofashengleshenmeshima?”taqingshengwen。

qizeyuyanshenzaitacangbaideliansexunshilejiyan,xiazhangdemouzimilemi,lianseyipaiguadan。

“有这个必要?”

qinchuxiazuijiaoyangqikuxiao。

tamenbenlaijiushixinghunfuqi,shangyelianyin,shijijiushitongzhuwuyanxiadelianggemoshengren,tashisishihuo,taqueshimeiyouguanxindebiyao。

qinchuxia,nidaodishizaixijixieshenme。

qizeyuyueguota,zhangtuiyimai,zhunbeiwanglizou,guishishenchatalazhuletadekutui。

“wenwo,qiuni,zhiqiunizheiyici。”

tazhende,xiangyaotadeguanxin,jishi,shihuangyan,shiqiulaide,tayexiang。

“放开。”

nanrendeshengyinyijingyoulebuyue。

tadeshouzhiquexiayishizuandegengjin,“wobufang。”

bijianwendaoyigujiuwei,qizeyuyanshenzhongyoulejifenweixian,“nihejiule?”

xiangshiyigediaopidexiaohai,qinchuxiachaozhetazhalezhayanjingbujindiantou,qingqingqianqianfuqiyigexiaoyi,“ng,hele,helehenduo,nicaicai,woweishenmehe?niwen,wojiugaosuni。”

tabihualeliangxia,daizhejiuhouderenxinghewuwei。

qizeyuheimoudingding,lianseyufayinchen,“suoyi,nixianzaishijiezhejiufengjiwozaizheinao?”

闹?

qinchuxiawulikuxiao,shenzikaozheqiangbizhibuzhuqingzhan。

zhidaoqizeyuzaitadeyanli,bianchengleyiyigegeposuidehuanying,caitingzhu,tatanruanshenziyangtou,nanguodeyaoleyaotou,anchuochuodezhilezhizijimianqiandenanren。

“nibuxiangrangbierenzhidaowomenyijingjiehundeshi,wozaimeitishangyicidoumeiyouchuxianguo,yanhuishangyujianniwojiuzhuangburenshi,bierenwenqiniwokejiuyongqixianshengdaiti,gongzuoshangdeshiqingbuxianghewoyoujiaoji,wojiurangbierendaitiwoqutangongsidehezuo,nibuxihuanwolianxini,wojiuyigedianhuameidajiguoni……”

tayongshouzhijiaozheqizeyudekujiao,“womomogenzainihoumiangenlesannian,nirangzoudongwobuganzouxi,nibuxiangjianwo,wojiujinliangbuchuxianzainidemianqian,zhizheiyici,yiciguanxinnidoubujiwoma?”

qinchuxiagengyanle,liangxingqingleibushoukongzhideluolexialai。

“qizeyu,wobingle。”

病?

zheigeziyanrangqizeyuyanshenzaitadelianshangqunxunleyibian。

nvrenliansebipingshicangbailehenduo,shenziyirujiwangdeshouxue。

meitouweiweizhouqi,tabuxihuanzijiduizheigenvrenyouguanzhudeganjue。

zheishi,waitaolidedianhuaxiangqi,tazhuanshenditoujieting,neitousihushuolehenzhongyaodeshiqing,tademeifengzhujianningjin,jiandanyinglejijubianguaduan。

tahaobuliuqingdeyitaijiao,piechuqinchuxiashoulidekujiao。

“gongsiyoushi,woxianzaiyaoquchuli,nixiangzenmenao,suini。”

dayuqingpen,heisedebenchiyijingtingzaiyuanzimenqian,zhulizhouqiangdaqisanzhanzaimenwai。

qizeyumianwubiaoqingzouleguoqu。

“zongcai。”zhouqiangchaotashenhoushiyileyixia,

qizeyuhuitou,kanjianyulizhanzheyimojueqiangxianxideshenying。

julijibuzhiyaodedifang,yushuidazaiqinchuxiadeshenshang,jiqizhenzhenshuihua。

yiguwumingdefanzaoyongleshangle,tachaoqinchuxiahoudao,“nixianzaishijiwofashenmefeng?jiwohuiqu。”

qinchuxiameiyouhoutui,ershijixiedechaozhetazouguoqu,qingqingdilazhuletayifudeyijiao,aiwanerbeiwei,“biezou,jiuyiwan,yiwanjiuhao……”

tadehoutouyijingrenbuzhuyouxiegengyan,jichudehuayuyebiandeposui。

bingtongdechenzhong,rangtaxinshenjupi,tayexiangyaoyigejianbang,jiusuanzhishiyiwan。

zheigenvrendaodishizaifashenmefeng?qizeyuturanyoudiankanbudongtale。

yaxiaxinlixiangyaotanjiudexinqing,tapojushenyidekanletayiyan,bianzuanjinlecheli,lenglengrengxiayijuhua。

“youshenmeshidengwohuilaizaishuo。”

biansuizheheisedecheshen,xiaoshiyuli。

zhouweidunshiyouzhishengyipiansiji,qinchuxiaerbianzhishengyusheng。

zhanzaiyuandi,tayangqitou,jueqiangdeburangleishuiliuxia。

kanlai,zheigeshijiemeiyourenhuiyinweitadelikaiershangxin。