第4章挫败
jiangwanyebunao，tiaoxinchaotayixiao。
jieguoxiayike，tadejiaojiubeifushengyanzhongzhongtuikai。
sanfanwucibeijujue，jiangwandaodiyouxienaole。
狗男人。
穿上衣服就不认人。
tamengdicongcanzhuoshangzhanqishen，dongzuotaida，xiyinlesuoyourendemuguang。
“dajiamanyong，wochihaolechiqutoukouqi。”
shuowan，jiangwanzouchucanting。
chuanguoketinghoumenjiushiyidapianhuayuan，fujiahenda，yigebieshuqunzuchengdezhuangyuan，huayuanjiugengbuyongshuo。
xianzaizhengshibaihuazhengyandeshihou，jiangwanzoudaohuayuanli，xinqingquebingbuzenmehao。
hefushengyanzaiyiqizhiqiantajiuyijingxiangguohuiyouzheiyitianle。
tanbushangnanshou，dadizhishibugan。
xunleyichupijingrenshaodejiaoluozuoxia，congsuishendebaolitaochuyigenyandianshang。
tacongqianhenbuxihuanyanwei，yebuzhidaoshicongshenmeshihouaishangde。
yanbeidianran，likeshengqiyiguenadewuqi。
jiangwanxiyikou，cibideyanweizaikouqianghebiqianglimanyankai。
有些难受。
yikouyanwutuchuqu，youyouzhongshifangde**。
zhishihaimeilaidejixidierkou，yizhixiuzhangdedashoujiujiangtazhijiandeyanchouzou，ranhouhaobuliuqingdirengzaidishangcaimie。
jiangwanfanzaodicumei，jieguoyitaitoujiuduishanglefushengyanneishuangqinglengdemouzi。
tayileng，chunjiaojiuranshangleyimoxixuedexiao。
“原来是傅总。”
“buzaiwulipeijiangsiyun，laizhaowozuoshenme？”
tazhanqishen，jiaoxiaodeshenzikaojinfushengyan：“nanbucheng，haishijuedeshebudewo？”
talifushengyanjijin，jindaofushengyankeyiqingxidiwendaojiangwanshenshanghaowendeweidao。
gentazongshidabandechengshudewaimianhenbuxiangfu，tashenshangdexiangweibingbunonglie，shiyiguqingxindanyademolixiangwei。
fushengyanmuguangluozaitadehongchunshang，houjieweiweihuadongyishun。
danxiayike，neishuangconglaiqinglengdeyanshenbianyidiandianchenxiaqu。
talenglengdingzhejiangwan：“jiangwan，buguannixiangganshenme。”
“woquannixiaotingdian，buranxiaoxinzaijingchengdaibuxiaqu。”
napazhidaofushengyanzheigerenconglaidoushimeiyouxinde，danshiqinertingdaotazheimeshuo，jiangwanxinzangdaodihaishinanshouleyixia。
buguoyejiushiyishun，jiangwanjiuyangmeizaiduchaofushengyanbijin。
“是吗？”
“neiruguowoshuo，wojiubuxiaotingni？”
tahenshaoyouweinifushengyandeshihou，zaiyiqiyinian，conglaidoushifushengyanshuoshenmetajiuzenmezuo。
fushengyanchuitoukanzhejiangwanjiaoyanyudidehongchun，yiduifengmeijiujinjinzhouzaiyiqi：“jiangwan，buyaobushihaodai。”
“zuotianwanshangwoshuodehuahaiyouxiao。”
“nitiyigetiaojian，ranhouwomenliangqing。”
fushengyanyuqiliangbo，fangfomianqianzhanzhedebushigentaerbinsimolejinyinianderen。
ershiyigeganggangrenshibujiudemoshengren。
jiangwantaimouqiaozheta，weiweiyixiao：“tiaojiana？”
“daoshiyou。”tadiantou：“nibugenjiangsiyundinghun，zenmeyang？”
tayishuowan，jiukandaofushengyandelianserouyankejiandiguashangyimochaofeng。
“jiangwan，nibuhuiyiweijiangsiyunbujiajiwo，nijiuyoujihuiba？”
fushengyandemuguangtaiguo**luo，napajiangwandelianpiyixiangtinghoude，danhaishimeirenzhuxinzangbeicitongleyixia。
jiangwangenzaifushengyanshenbianzheimejiu，zaozhidaofushengyanzheirenyixiangbujiangqingmian。
“ruguoniyuanyiwoyebushibukeyi。”jiangwanweiweiyixiao。
“he。”kanzhejiangwanmeilianmeipideyangzi，fushengyanmeilenaixin：“jiangwan，womeineimeduonaixin。”
tayishuowan，doulideshoujihuranjiuxiangleqilai。
tanachulaideshihou，jiangwanqingchudikandaotashoujipingmushangdemingzi。
姜思云。
fushengyantaishoujieqilai，yipangdejiangwanhuranjiuqiledianzhuonongrendexinsi。
dianhuagangjietong，jiangwanhuranjiudianqijiaojianwenzhulefushengyandechun。
fushengyangujimeixiangdaotazheimedadan，yishijianlengzhu。
jiangwanchenjizaitadechunchijiangongchenglvedi，genfushengyanzaiyiqizheimejiu，taxianglaizhidaofushengyanxihuanshenme。
“wei，ayan，wei！？”
zheilianjing，jiangwannenggouqingchuditingdaodianhualijiangsiyunjiaozhuodeshengyin。
tajiugengbuyuanyifangkaifushengyanle。
fushengyanqingtiaoleyixiamei，daoshimeiyoutuikaita。
zhishiduanzandilikaitadechun，lengxiaoyishengtiaomeikanzhejiangwan：“nizizhaode。”
huayinluo，bianfankeweizhudiwenshanglejiangwandechun。
tadewenyuanmeiyoujiangwandewenrou，daizhetashenshangneiguteyoudebadao。
mingmingzuikaishishijiangwanxianliaobode，danzuihoushijiangwanxianzhaojiabuzhu。
tameiduo，rouruowugudexiaoshoupanshangfushengyandejingzhuangdeyao。
fushengyandeshencaihenhao，jiangwanshizhidaode，zheigedifangpian，xianshaoyourenlai。
jiangwankanmeiren，danzijiuyufadaleqilai。
xiaoshoujiekaifushengyandekouzishunzhefengxizuanjinqu，jiusiwujidandizaifushengyandefujishangyouzou。
youyishuoyi，fushengyanjiroudeshouganhenbucuo，tachangnianduanlian，bulunshitilihaishishencaidoushiyidengyide。
jiangwanyixiangchantadeshenzi。
jiuzaijiangwanyiweifushengyanhuigengjinyibudeshihou，sheizhidaotaqueyingshengshengtingxiadongzuo。
jiangwanyidun，jiutingdaobuyuanchuchuanlaiyizhenjiaobusheng。
gangcaitataitouru，meiyoutingjian。
“ayan。”shijiangsiyundeshengyin。
jiangsiyunyilai，fushengyanjiuhuifuletaneiyiguanqinglengdexingzi，liandaizhemeiyandoulengjunlebushao。
talengyanqiaozhejiangwan，jinggaota：“zaizheiliduohaobuyaochuqu。”
“fouze。”tabinglengdemuguangzaijiangwanbeizijiwendexianhongdechunshangtingliujimiao。
然后转身离开。
buduoshi，waimianjiuchuanlaijiangsiyundeshengyin：“ayan，nizenmezaizheiera？”
fushengyandandandidao：“chulaitoukouqi，chougenyan。”
jiangsiyunbutaixiangxin，muguanghaishibuyouzizhudichaotashenhoukanguoqu，xiangzaiwangqianyibudeshihou，fushengyanyijinglazhetadeshouwangbieshuketingliqule。
“外面热，进去。”
jiangsiyunzhoulemei，zhidezuoba。
danyixiangdaojiangwanyegenfushengyantongshixiaoshi，jiangsiyunxinlijiuyouxienanshou。
tahenqingchufushengyanbuhuixihuanjiangwanneiyileixing，kenanmianjiangwanhui......
xianglexiang，tahaishichenfushengyanbuzhuyideshihou，jijiangwanfaleyitiaoxinxiwen：“niqunaerle？”
zoulanghoumiandejiangwankandaoxinxi，dandandilengxiaoyisheng。
“我先回去了。”
kandaoxinxi，jiangsiyunzongsuanfanglexin，wanzhefushengyandeshoubeijinleketing。
tingzheliangrenzhujianyuanqudejiaobusheng，jiangwanzaizhandingyihuier，taibulikai。
tameihuijiangjia，ershizhijiequlezijidegongzuoshi。
zheigegongzuoshishitadaxuedeshihougenshiyouyiqinongde，tazaishejishanghenyoutianfu，xuedeyeshizhubaosheji。
zheijiangongzuoshisuiranbuda，danzheiliangnianjianjianyoulexiemingqi，zhuandeqianjiugouzijishenghuohaichuochuoyouyule。
burankaozhejiangpuheneidiankelianxixidelinghuaqian，tazaoesile。
ruanqingmeiyouxiangdaotahuilaizheimezao，xiayishitaishoukanleyiyanwanbiao，ranhoujingyadikanzhejiangwan。
“wanwan，nizenmelaizheimezao？”
“bushishuowanshangcaijucanme？”
jiangwanbashoushangdebaowangshafashangyireng，jiangzijirengdaoshafashang。
“meidifangqu，jiuxianglaizheierqingjingqingjing。”tarouroutaiyangxue。
jintiandeshiqing，haishirangtaganjuetingcuobaide。
benyiweiyiniandeshihouzenmeyenengrangjiangsiyunhefushengyandehunshihuangle，sheizhidaohaishimeicheng。
她有些烦躁。
ruanqingqiaota：“buhuishiyinweifushengyanba？”
“wotingshuotayaogennineibailianhuajiejiedinghunle？”
“nihaizhenxihuanshangtale？”