第一章
jiehunwuzhounianjinianri，woquqizidegongzuoshijieta，quekandaoxuyandemennei，wozizhubaniandepinkunshengyazheshuxidenvti。
“xiangshenyanzheimewuqudenanren，zuodeshihouhuilimaowen‘wokeyidakainidetuizuoma？’”
qizijiaoxiaozhekaikou：“tabuguoshiwodeyitiaogoueryi，meiyoupengwodezige。”
“buguotashenbiandemeiyigerenwodoushuilegebian，shunizuilihai。”
weilejierziyigewanzhengdejia，wozhidangzuobucenglaiguo，zhuanshenliqu。
quebuxiangdangwan，pinkunshengjiezhewanyouxidemingyibangjialewoheerzi，jiangerzituixialelou。
woqiuqizijiujiuerzishi，taqueyilianlengmo
“bujiuwumigaodelouceng，hainengshuaisiren？”
“zaishuole，ashenzhishidiaopilexie，heerzinaozhewande，nizhiyushanggangshangxianma？”
hualuo，taqinqiedijiaolepinkunshengyijuxiaodiaopi，touyebuhuidilikai。
erzizeyinkedaolenaosui，qiangjiubujishiqushi。
banwanerzidezanglihou，wojianglihunxieyishuliujileqizi。
cisheng，wohetabufuxiangjian。
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“ze，nikule？zenmeban，keshikandaoniku，wohehuoshenhaoxianggengxingfenleni。”
qizisongniandalaidianhuashi，wozhengkuzhejierzibuzhilingtang。
tingzhetadehua，zaikanzheshipinlitahezizhubaniandepinkunshenghuoshenxiangtengheshuchanraozaiyiqi，wozhijuedezijixianggexiaohua。
yuanyiweisongniandalaidianhuashiguanxinerzi，meixiangdaoshiwogaoguletadeliangxin。
wocadiaoleyanlei，zhengyaokaikoushi。
songnianlakaizhensibei，gouzhuhuoshendebozi，“zenmebukulea？nikudeyuedashenga，ashenta，jiuyueyoushibuwandejinger。”
“wotedidashipinlai，jiushipanibuzhidaozenmezuonanren，rangashenhaohaozhidianyixia，nibuhuishengqileba？”
hualuo，huoshendongdegengjiazanjing，duiwotiaomeidao。
“haoshimu，neiwojiutilaoshihenhenainijihui，yesuanshibaodatazizhuzhienhezhiyuzhien。”
kanzheliangrenchuangshanghuangtangdeyangzi，woxiangqierziqiliangdecanzhuang。
erzishiguweihan，ketadeqinshengmuqinquehehaisitadexiongshougunzaileyiqi。
真讽刺啊！
wobilebiyan，huanghuzhongwohuranxiang，ruguodangchuneijianshimeiyoufasheng，songnianbuhuiyincijihenwo，erzishibushiyebuhuisi？
可是没有如果。
neishi，wohesongnianshiyiduihenenaideqinglv。
kejiehundangtian，tadezhumazaiwomendehunlixianchangzifen，songnianyiweishiwoguyi**haisileta。
congneitianqi，takaishibaofuwo，pinfanheqitananrenyuehui，lianwomendehaiziyebukenduokanyiyan。
我总以为她会回头。
kewomeixiangdaozijishouwonangqiyeyaoweihudehunyin，huichengweierzidecuimingfu。
jiuzaizheishi，songnianfengcideshengyinlahuilewodesixu：
“nidiesile？balingtangdoubuzhishangle，kenibushiyigeguerma？”
wenyan，wozhongyukongzhibuzhudichongtadahou。
“songnian，nizhibuzhidaoerzisile！tabeinihenishenbiandeneige**jihaisile！”
tasideshihou，zuilihaijiaozhemama。
我紧紧咬牙：
“songnian，niyaoshiyouliangxin，jiuhuilaisongtazuihouyicheng！”
wobuxiangyutaduobaiche，zhijieguaduanledianhua，shengxiadeshijian，wozhixianghaohaopeizheta。
kebuxiangbanye，songniandaizherenqishixiongxiongdizoujinlingtang，yilaijiushuailewoyibazhang。
wobenjiulimiweijin，zheiyibazhangzhijiebawoshandaozaidi。
simuxiangshi，talenglengdikanzhewo：
“wonangfei，niganzuzhouwodeerzi，huogaiaida！”
我垂眸苦笑了一声。
“yaowobaerzideshitilachulaijinikanma？”
songnianzhenglengleyishun，zheishi，huoshenhuanshangtadeyao。
“laoshi，woyiweinisuiranwuneng，danshideshiyoude。”
“meixiangdaoweilechisongjiaderuanfan，lianzijierzidesidounenghubianluanzao，nikezhenbushigenanren。”
yikandaota，wojiuxiangdaoleerziqiliangdesizhuang。
wozaiyeannabuzhu，chaotayiquanzouleguoqu。
buxiangsongnianyijiaojiangwotifei，“kezhenshixianzhenile，shenyan，dangzhewodemianhaigandongwoderen？kanwobujiniyidianjiaoxun。”
“nibushixihuanzaojialingtangma？neinijiujiwohaohaotihuidangsirendeganjue。”
shuozhe，tazhaohushouxiajiangwoanzhu，dakaileguancai。
guancaikongkongruye，songnianweibukechadisonglekouqi，yibazhangshuaizaiwodelianshang。
“bushishuoerzisile，shitini？guyipianwoshiba？neijintian，nijiujiwogunjinqudangshiti！”
“songnian！fangkaiwo！buyao！”
woyouyoubikongjuzheng，tashizhidaode。
tatingdunleyixia，woyiweitahuiduiwohaiyouyisideaiyi，kexiayimiao，tamingrenfengzhuwodezuiba、kunzhusizhi，xiangdiusigouyiyangdiujinleguancaili。
“shenmeshihoufanshenghao，shenmeshihoufangnichulai。”
“chulaiguaiguaijiashenguishanggesantiansanye，nilvmaoguyedeweizhihaizuodezhu。”