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dantadexinli,quezaiyongyizhongwocongweitingguode、qijibaihuaideyuqi,mazhe。【jiangcheng,
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】2qinruoxuedexinsheng,xiangyiketouruhunshuitandeshizi,zaiwohunluandexinzhong,jiqileyiquanqiyidelianyi。
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【jiangcheng,huangquanlushang,nijiwodengzhe。】【zheipanqi,womenxialebeizi,zaijixu。
】3qinruoxueliuxianeijumeitoumeiweide“zhanshu”hou,jiulikaile。wozuozaijiankongpingmuqian,
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duiyigenvren,chanshengleruciqiangliedehaoqi。qinruoxue,nidaodi,shigeshenmeyangderen?4shijian,
shizuihaodezhaoyaojing。zaimeiyouwoderizili,jianghaihelinshu,douxunsudi,
luchuletamenzuizhenshi、zuichouloudeyimian。jianghaidangshangceohou,zuodediyijianshi,jiushi“paichuyiji”。
tayonggezhongmoxuyoudezuiming,bizouleyiliufuzongweishoudejiweigongsiyuanlao。ranhou,
tibaleyiqunzhidongdeayufengchengdeqinxin,anchazaigegezhongyaogangweishang。zhenggegongsi,
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kanzhetayibubudi,jiangwoxinkudaxiadejiangshan,tuixiangshenyuan,neixin,haowubolan。bupo,buli。
woyaorangta,qinshou,bataziji,pengdaozuigao、zuiweixiandeweizhishang。ranhou,zaiyouwo,qinshou,
jiangtachuaixialai。erlinshu,zeyinglailetade“shenpanri”。neitian,tayuelejigeguimi,
zaiyijiashechipindianli,kanzhongleyigebashiwande**kuanbaobao。taxiangwangchangyiyang,xiaosadi,
dichulewodefushuka。“shuaka。”raner,posjiquechuanlailebinglengdetishiyin。“duibuqi,
nvshi,nindekayidaxiaofeishangxian。”linshudelianse,shunjianjiubianle。“bukeneng!”tajianjiaodao,
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haishiyiyang。zhouweidekeren,hetadeguimimen,doutoulaileyiyangdemuguang。neiyike,linshudelian,
zhangchenglezhuganse。taganjuezijisuoyoudetimian,doubeibaguangle,rengzaidishang。taqichongchongdi,
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zongxinyongeduweiwubaiwan,muqian,yiquanbuxiaofeiwanbi。”wubaiwan!duanduanbangeduoyue,tajingran,
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“linnvshi,guanyuninxianshengjiangchengxianshengderenshenyiwaixian,womengandaofeichangyihan。danshi,
genjujiangxianshengshengqianqianshudezuixinyifen《shouyirenbiangengxieyi》,gaibaoxiandequanbupeifujine,
jiangjuanzengji‘xingguangertongcishanjijinhui’。suoyi,ninzheibian,shiwufahuoderenhepeifude。”linshu,
dangchangjiumengle。duzhaihaimeihaiqing,weiyidezhiwang——baoxianjin,yefeile。xianzai,
lianzuihoudetikuanji——wodefushuka,yebaole。ta,yiyezhijian,congyigegaogaozaishangdekuotaitai,
bianchengleyigejijiangpochande、fuzhaileileidedutu。tafafengyiyangdi,chonghuilejia,bajializadeyipianlangjie。
ranhou,tazhaodaolejianghai。taweiyidejiumingdaocao。wotongguojialidejiankong,
xinshanglezheichangjingcaide“gouyaogou”daxi。“jianghai!nibixubangwo!nigedeqianni?gongsideqianni?
nijiwonayiqianwanchulai!buran,wojiuqudongshihui,banizuodeneixielanshi,quandoutongchuqu!
”linshuxianggepofuyiyang,xiesidili。jianghai,yebushishengyoudedeng。tazaojiunuoyonglegongsiyidabizijin,
qutiantaneigevryouxidewudidong,zijinalihaiyouduoyudeqian。【chouniangmen,haixiangcongwozheilinaqian?
zuomeng!】talengxiaozhe,yibatuikailinshu。“saozi,nigaoqingchu。xianzaigongsishiwodangjia。
nihaixiangnaqian?keyia,banishoulideguquan,**jiwo。buran,yifenqiandoumeiyou!”liangren,
chedisipolelian。congzui“qinmi”deshusao,bianchenglebugongdaitiandechouren。kanzheyanqianzheijingcaideyimu,
woxinzhong,shengqiyigubingtaidekuaiyi。wodaoleyibeihongjiu,yaoyaodi,duizhepingmu,jingletamenyixia。
zheicaizhishigekaishi。nimendechoutai,nimendetanlan,nimendeyuchun,doujiangchengwei,wofuhuoguilaishi,
xianjinimende、zuishengdadezangli。wokaishizhixingwodedierbujihua。woxuyaoyige**ren。yige,
nengbangwo,zaitaiqian,zhixingwodeyizhideren。wodemuguang,luozaileliufuzongdeshenshang。
tabeijianghaibizouhou,yizhifuxianzaijia,xinzhong,chongmanleduigongsidedanyouheduijianghaidefenmen。
tashizuihaoderenxuan。woyongyigejiamideyouxiang,jitafaleyifengyoujian。youjianli,
womeiyoutouluwodeshenfen。wozhishi,jingzhundi,zhichulejianghaineigevryouxixiangmuzhong,
yigezhimingdejishuloudong。bingqie,wogaosuta,yigexingqihou,zheigeloudong,jianghuijigongsi,
dailaiyichanghuimiexingdezainan。zuihou,wojiletayigejianyi。——zuokong‘chengtiankeji’degupiao。
5liufuzongshoudaowodenimingyoujianshi,diyifanyingshizhenjinghehuaiyi。youjianlitidaodejishuloudong,
jiqiyinmi,chufeishixiangmuzuihexindeyanfarenyuan,fouzegenbenbukenengzhidao。【zheishishei?
nandaoshigongsineibuyouliangzhideren,zaixiangwoqiuzhu?】taneixinzhengzhalehenjiu。yifangmian,
shitaduigongsishenhoudeganqing,burenxinkandaotazouxianghuimie。lingyifangmian,shitaduijianghaidejidushiwang,
heyizhong“kantaqigaolou,kantayanbinke,kantaloutale”defuzaxintai。zuizhong,lizhizhanshengleqinggan。
tameiyoushengzhang,ershixuanzelemomoguancha。erjianghai,duiciyiwusuozhi。
tazhengchenjinzaizijijijiangchenggongdehuanxiangli。tahuazhongjin,qingledanghongdemingxingdaiyan,weitadevryouxi,
jubanleyichangshengshihaodadeneicefabuhui。fabuhuishang,takuaxiahaikou,
xuanchengzheikuanmingwei《shenyu》deyouxi,jiangkaiqiyuanyuzhoudexinjiyuan。gongsidegujia,yeyinweizheichangfabuhui,
erbeituidaoleyigexugaodegaodian。wushudeguminhetouzijigou,douduizheikuanyouxi,chongmanleqidai。
jianghaizhanzaiwutaishang,xiangshouzhejuguangdenghehuanhusheng,neixinpengzhangdaolejidian。【kandaolema,dage!
zheicaijiaopoli!nineitaowenzhawendadeguoshililun,zaojiugaibeitaotaile!】【dengyouxizhengshishangxian,
gongsidegujia,zhishaohainengzaifansanbei!daoshihou,wojiushixindekejijiaofu!】wozuozaishiyanshili,
lenglengdikanzhetazheifuxiaorendezhidezuilian。woanxialeshouzhongdeyigeanniu。
yigeweixiaode、zaoyibeiwozhiruzaiyouxifuwuqilidehoumenchengxu,beijihuole。fabuhuideyazhouhuanjie,
shimingxinghexingyunwanjia,xianchangshiwanyouxi。yiqie,doujinxingdehenshunli。jingmeidehuamian,liuchangdedongzuo,
rangxianchangdejingtansheng,ciqibifu。jianghaidelianshang,duimanledeyidexiaorong。
jiuzaiyouxijinxingdaozuiguanjiandeshike——wanjiatiaozhanzuizhongbossshi。yibian,fashengle。
suoyouwanjiadepingmu,shunjian,kazhule。jinjiezhe,yigejudade、xuehongsedebugdanchuang,
chuxianzailedapingmushang,zhanjulesuoyourendeshixian。danchuangshang,
zhiyouyixingbuduanshanshuode、chumujingxindedazi:【xitongbengkui!shujusunhui!
yonghuyinsicunzaiyanzhongxielufengxian!】quanchang,yipiansiji。suoyoudejizhe,doujiangjingtou,
duizhunlezheigejudadebugdan-chuang,hewutaishang,neigelianseshunjianbiandecanbaide,jianghai。
jianghaidedanao,yipiankongbai。【zenmehuishi?zenmehuizheiyang?bukeneng!ceshideshihou,mingmingshihaode!
】houtaidejishurenyuan,luanchengleyiguozhou。tamenfengkuangdiqiaojizhejianpan,shituxiufuzheigeloudong,danyiqie,
douwujiyushi。neigehoumenchengxu,xiangyigewudideheidong,zhengzaifengkuangditunshizhefuwuqidesuoyoushuju。
zheichangbeijiyuhouwangdefabuhui,zuizhong,yiyichangzhibofangsongde、shishijidejishuzainan,ergaozhong。diertian,
gushiyikaipan。“chengtiankeji”degujia,haowuxuanniandi,yizidieting。konghuangxingdepaoshou,kaishile。
wushudegumin,xuebenwugui。gongsideshengyu,yiluoqianzhang。jianghaineige“kejijiaofu”demeimeng,
suidebifuwuqideshuju,haiyaochedi。erliufuzong,zaimudulezheiyiqiezhihou,duiwoneifengnimingyoujian,
zaiwuyisihuaiyi。tazaigujiabaodiedeqianyitian,yongzijibishengdejixu,jiashangganggan,zhongcangzuokong。
yitianzhinei,tazhuandaoletazheibeizi,doubuganxiangdecaifu。takanzhezijizhanghushangneichuanjingrendeshuzi,
neixin,quechongmanlejingweihekongju。【zheiwei‘shenmiren’,daodishishei?tabujinnengyuzhiweilai,shenzhi,
younengli,qinshouchuangzaoweilai……】tazhidao,ziji,zhishiduifangqipanshangdeyikeqizi。danta,
xinganqingyuan。wojitafaledierfengyoujian。【gongxi。xianzai,shishihou,yongnishoulidezijin,
qushougouneixiebeikonghuangpaoshoude、lianjiadesangule。】【dongshihui,henkuai,jiuyaobiantianle。
】6gongsidejishuzainan,yinfaleyichangqiansuoweiyoudexinrenweiji。jianghaijiaotoulane,
sichuqiuyeyegaonainai,shituwanhuijumian,quechuchupengbi。neixiecengjingduitaayufengchengdeqinxin,
cikedoubianchenglesuotouwugui。dongshihuiyeduita,chedishiqulenaixin。erwo,
zetongguoliufuzongzheige**ren,zaianzhong,qiaowushengxidi,jinxingzhewodebuju。
liufuzongliyongzuokongzhuanlaidejuezijin,zaierjishichangshang,fengkuangxinazhe“chengtiankeji”degupiao。
dangjianghaihaizaiweixiufuneigeyongyuanyexiufubuledebugerjiaotoulaneshi,liufuzongshouzhongchiyoudegufen,
yijingqiaoranchaoguolejianghai。linshuzaizheichangfengbaozhong,yechedixianrulejuejing。taqianxiadejueduzhai,
ligunli,yijingdaoleyigetawufachanghaidetianwenshuzi。cuizhaidedianhua,ershisixiaoshibuting。
shenzhiyoujigexiongsheneshadenanren,zhaodaolejiali,yonghongsedeyouqi,zaitajiamenshang,
xiexiale“qianzhaihaiqian”sigedazi。tahedelianjiadoubuganhui。tazuihoudexiwang,zhiyoutashouzhong,
neibaifenzhishide,zuowei“yishuang”jichengdegongsiguquan。tazhaodaojianghai,xiangbaguquanmaijita,
huanyibijiumingqian。dancikedejianghai,zaoyishinipusaguojiang,zishennanbao。【chouniangmen,
xianzaizhidaolaiqiuwole?wanle!woxianzaiyifenqiandounabuchulai!】taduilinshu,jijinxiuru,
jiangzijisuoyoudeshibaiheyuanqi,doufaxiezailetadeshenshang。linshu,zhongyu,beibishanglejuelu。
tazoutouwuluzhixia,zuochuleyigejueding——zaishichangshang,gongkai**shoutashouzhongdeguquan。
tayaoyongzheizuihoudezichan,huanqupaoludeziben。erzhei,zhengshiwozaidengdaidejihui。worangliufuzong,
yiyige“shenmitouziren”deshenfen,lianxilelinshu。zaiyijiakafeiguanli,
liufuzongjiandaoleneigecengjingfengguangwuxian,cikequeqiaocuibukandenvren。“linnvshi,”liufuzongjiangyifenhetong,
tuidaotamianqian,“wodelaoban,yuanyiyishichangjia,shougouninshouzhongquanbudeguquan。”linshukanzhehetong,
xiangzhuazhuleyigenjiumingdaocao,yanjingdouzaifangguang。【taihaole!zhongyuyourenkenjiepanle!guantashishei,
zhiyaojiqianjiuxing!】tahaobuyouyudi,qianxialezijidemingzi。zaitaluobideneiyike,taqinshou,
jiangzijiyuzheigediguo,zuihoudeyisilianxi,yechedizhanduanle。tanadaoqian,
likejiudinglefeiwangguowaidejipiao,xiangyizhisangjiazhiquan,canghuangtaoli。wonahuilebengaishuyuwodedongxi。
xianzai,tongguoliufuzongdaichidegufen,jiashangwozijiyuanyoudemimigufen,woyijingzhongxin,
chengweile“chengtiankeji”de,jueduikongguren。jianghai,haiduici,yiwusuozhi。tahaiyiwei,ziji,
rengshizheijiagongsidewang。shishihou,rangtacongmengzhong,xinglaile。worangliufuzong,yi“diyidagudong”deshenfen,
xiangdongshihui,tiqingzhaokailinshigudongdahui。huiyideyiti,zhiyouyige。——bamianceojianghai。
jianghaishoudaotongzhideshihou,zhenggerendoushale。tachongjinliufuzongdebangongshi,xiangyitoubeijinudegongniu。
“xingliude!nishenmeyisi?ninalaidegufen?”liufuzongzhishipingjingdi,jiangguquanzhengmingwenjian,
shuaizaitamianqian。jianghaikanzheneishangmiandeshuzi,ruzaoleiji。tazenmeyexiangbutong,
zheigebeitaqinshouganchugongsidelaojiahuo,shizenmezaiduanduanyigeyuenei,bianchengletadedingtoushangsi。
“nibeihouderen,daodishishei?”jianghaisihoudao。liufuzongzhishilengxiao,buyu。【shishei?shineige,
beiniqinshou‘maizang’de,zhenzhengdewang。】gudongdahui,ruqijuxing。jianghai,
xiangyigejijiangbeisongshangduantoutaideqiufan,liansehuibai。tazhidao,dashiyiqu。bamianyian,
haowuxuanniandi,quanpiaotongguo。zaitabeibaoan“qing”chuhuiyishideneiyike,takandaoleliufuzongshenhou,
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