我活着，却成了她的墓碑
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neishishenyanzhoudezi，tarende，gangjingyouli，daizhetateyoudeliluozhuanzhe。“2008nian，
11yue17ri。yin。”“jintianzaiyiyuanzoulang，zhuangjianyigenvhai。tadunzaineiliku，jianbangyichouyichoude，
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’……tataiqitoucayanleideshunjian，wolengzhule。neishuangyanjing……taixiangle。shilulude，yanweiweiweixiachui，
neizhongmangranyouwuzhudeyangzi……jianzhihewanqingdangnian，yimoyiyang。”linwandehuximengdiyizhi，
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bieyigeren……niyaohaohaode，
yaoxingfu……buranwozouyezoubuanxin……’”“xingfu……”linwanwushengdijujiaozhezheilianggezi，
weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohaidebingliang。tazhandoudifanguoyiye，zhizhangfachucierde**。“2009nian，
3yue5ri。qing，danfenghenda。”“you‘ouyu’lelinwanjici。zaikafeiguan，tasihuchangquneilikanshu。
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”linwandexintiaoshengzaisijideshufanglileigubanfangda，zhendeermowengwengzuoxiang。takandaoxiamianneixingzi，
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linwan……wan……jiranwanqingyaowoxingfu，ertayouyouzhewanqingdeyanjing……neijiuzheiyangba。wojuedingquta。
zhishao，kanzheneishuangyanjingdeshihou，tongkuhuishaoyidian？huoxu，wanqingyenenganxinxie……”“weng”deyisheng，
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tajideneigexiayudewuhou！tateyiqumailezuihaodepuer，zhaozhewangshangdejiaocheng，xiaoxinyiyi，
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tafengkuangdiwanghoufan，zhizhanghuahuazuoxiang，xiangjicuertongkudechuanxi。“2012nian，9yue3ri。menre。
”“tahuaiyunle。bengaigaoxingde。keweishenme……weishenmewonaozilihuizhibuqude，
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zaiduode‘xin’，yetianbumanneigedong。”linwandeshoumengdiwuzhuxiaofu，
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shentiyinweijidudebeitongerjuliedizhandou，quansuozaikuandadeyizili，xiangyigebeiquanshijieyiqidepojiuwanou。
xinbeitaokongle，zhishengxiayigejudade、guanzhebinglenghanfengdeheidong，huhuzuoxiang，tunshizheyiqiecancundewendu。
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neixiejiluzhetatidaipinshengyadequruwenzizhongyufanguoqule，luchulehoumiankongbaidezhiye。
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sisididingzhuneijixingzi。meiyigezidouxiangshaohongdetieqian，henhentangluozaitadeshiwangmoshang，
liuxiajiaoheide、yongbumomiedeyinji：“2023nian，10yue19ri。wanqinglikai，diqinian。
”“qinianle。shijianzhenkuai，youzhenman。linwanjiushuizaigebifangjian。zheigejia，youtadalidehenji，
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zaiyewubure。”“qinianle，linwan……tahenhao。nulidibanyanzhe‘shentaitai’，nulidixiangkaojinwo。
keneishuangyanjing，yuekanyueqingchu，zhongjiubushiwanqing。tapaodecha，zuodecai，tashuohuadeyuqi，
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”“qinianle……”linwankandaozheili，huxiyijingwanquantingzhi，xiongtangjulieqifu，quexibujinyisikongqi。
takandaozuihouyixingzi，neimojisihubiqitadifanggengzhong，gengyongli，litouzhibei，
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”“hong——！”fangfoyidaowushengdejingleizaitalinghunshenchuzhakai！
zuihouneidiancancunde、yaoyaoyuzhuide、mingwei“huoxutaduiwoyeyouneimeyidiandianzhenxin”dehuanxiang，
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tamengdiyongshouwuzhuzui，shentijuliedijingluanleyixia，queshenmeyetubuchulai，
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