我成了绝望本身，万物得以喘息
《我成了绝望本身，万物得以喘息》 小说介绍
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《我成了绝望本身，万物得以喘息》 第4章 免费试读
yusihunzhewuqizazailianshang，lengdexiangbingchazi，meiyididoudaizheguixubianyuanteyoudeyinhan，zuanjinyilinglishunzhejizhuiwangxiahua。wobaozhexieyunshuaizaidishangshi，nishuijianjinleyanjing，shiyeliyipianmohudexinghong——shixuejiayishenchudezhanchouzhiye，haishigangcaibeixingshizhuazihuapodeetouliuxiadexue？shegenchangdaotiexiubandexingtian，fenbuqingshizijidexuehaishicongjiayilingkoucengdaodeshiyouwei。
“咳…咳咳…”
xieyunzaihuailiqiangleliangsheng，weiruodeqiliufuguowodebojing，daizhetatiwenteyoudetianxiang，quetangdewoxinkoufajin。tadejiemaozhanlezhan，luchudixiafanzheqingheideyanwo，yanbaishangpamanleximidehongxuesi，xiangzhuwangchanzhulebinsidefeichong。xuejiayideqinshibiwoxiangdegengkuai，tahoujingneidaobeirenlianguainiaosixianhuaguodeshangkou，yijingzhongqiximidexuepao，bantoumingdepaobixiayongdongzheanhongsedeyeti，xiangmouzhongbuxiangdelinpianzhengzaichengxing。woyongzhifuqingqingpenglepeng，xieyuntengdesesuoleyixia，xuepaojingweiweishousuo，xiangshihuowuzaihuxi。
“把她给我。”
xiaodeshengyinturanzaitoudingxiangqi，daizhehuxiguolvqidemenxiang，xiangtaijingmidejiqizaifabuzhiling。womengditaitou，yushuishunzheejiaodeshangkouliujinyanjing，citongrangshixiangengjiamohu，quezhenghaoduishangtazhanshumujinglitiaodongdeyoulanguang——neiguangxiansaoguoxieyundelianshi，xiangchaoshisaomiaoyihuaguoguantoubaozhuang，lengjingdiduquzhe“baozhiqi”he“wurandengji”。
“滚开！”
wobameimeiwanghuailijinlejin，zhijiexianjintadanbodehoubei，nengqingximodaojizhuidexingzhuang。houbeidizhebinglengdeguzhaimenban，yushuishunzhemenbandeliefengwangxiatang，zaiwojianjiaguchuhuichengxiliu，dongdepiroufama。woxiangtoubeibidaoqiangjiaodeyegou，houlongligundongzheweixiededihou，yanjiaodeyuguangpiejianjimiwaidezhuangjiayueyechehaizaidihou，yinqingdezhenzhantouguonishuichuandaoxigai，xiangmouzhongjushoudexintiao。liangmingtsuduiyuandeqiangkoushizhongduizhewo，humujingfanshezheguixubianyuanneipianniuqudecanbaiguangyun，tamendeshouzhidazaibanjishang，zhijiewendingdemeiyouyisizhandou。tamenkanwodeyanshen，hekancitanglineixieyaoyaohuanghuangdezhirenmeishenmeliangyang，doushi“daichulideyichangti”。
“nimenbatadangyouerdiujinzanghongcunshi，zenmemeixiangguoyaota？”wodeshengyinyadexiangbeishazhimoguoshengxiudetieguan，meishuoyigezidouqianchezhexiongkoudeyuanyangluoyin，tengdelenghanzhiliu。xuejiayituranhaowuzhengzhaodishoujin，ledewoleigu“gezhi”zuoxiang，fangfoyaobawodexiongqiangyasui，“xianzaiyaodaitaquna？jiepoutaihaishipeiyangcang？yongtadegutouaochengziyangguinengdetang，haishibatadepiboxialaizuochengxindexuejiayi？nimenzheiqunpizherenpideguaiwu！”
xiaoshenchudeshoutingzaibankong，zhanshushoutaodezhijianfanzhelengguang，neishiteshuhejindamochudefenglibianyuan，nengqingyihuakaigangban。“shourongtiaolidi17zhang：gaoweiwuranzhexuqiangzhigeli。zheishichengxu。”tadeyuqipingwendexiangzainianguantoushuomingshu，meigezidoujingzhundiqiaozaiwodeshenjingshang，“tatineideguinengcanliuzhiyida41%，chaoguoanquanyuzhi19gebaifendian。zaibujinghua，72xiaoshihouhuichediyihua——xianshipifujiaozhihua，ranhouguanjiefanxiangniuqu，zuihouyishibeiliuhongyandeyuanniantunshi，bianchenghecitanglineixiexingshiyiyangdedongxi。”
“jinghua？”woxiaochusheng，xiongqiangzhendongqianchezheshangkou，kechudexuemojianzaixuejiayishang，yunkaiyixiaoduoanhua，xiangjilexieyunzuixihuandechujubeiranshangledu，“jiushibatabangzaishoushutaishang，yongneixiedaizhedaocideyiqi**tadexueguan，chougantazuihouyisitiwen？nimensuoweide‘anquan’，jiushibarenzhachengzuihouyidinengyongdeyou，zaitiezhebiaoqiandiujinxiayigeguixudangyouer！wozaishourongsuojianguonimende‘jinghua’——neigejiaoalingdenvhai，buguoshipenglexiafeiqiyiyuandeshuyeguan，zuihoubeinimen‘jinghua’chengyitandaizhetoufadexueshui！”
zuihouneijuhuajihushihouchulaide，zhendewoermofateng，houlongliyongshanggengnongdexuexingwei。xiaodeshouturandunledun——bushijixieguzhangbandekadun，gengxiangbeishenmedongxizheleyixia，zhijianweiweiquansuo。tazhanshumujinghoudemuguang，diyicizhenzhengluozaiwolianshang，chuantouleneixiexuewu、fennuhejuewang，xiangshizaikanmouzhong…beiyiwangzaijiaoluodejiulingjian。
“ren？”tazhongfuzhezheigeci，shengyinlituranchanjinyisijidandedianliuzayin，xiangshixinhaoshoudaoleganrao，“niduishourongsuodeluojiyouwujie。”
yuxiadale，zazaizhuangjiacheshangpipazuoxiang，xiangwushugenxizhenzaicijijinshu。xiaohuanhuanshouhuishou，zhanzhishi，zuozhanfudejianjiazaiwuqilifanzhelengguang，shangmiankezhedeshexingwenlubeiyushuichongshuadegewaiqingxi——neishitsuteyoudebiaoji，xiangzhengzhe“youzouzaidushechaoxuedelieshou”。
“womenbingfeibubanimendangren。”tadunledun，zhanshumujingdelanguangturanshanshuodekuailexie，xiangshichuliqizaigaosuyunsuan，“womenzhishi…bubazijidangren。”
zheijuhuaxiangbacuilebingdezhuizi，henhenzhajinwozhakaidenuhuoli，shunjianjiaomielesuoyousihoudeliqi。
zhouweidekongqituranninggu，lianyusidouxiangbeidongzhule，xuanzaibankongweiweifazhan。zhuangjiachedeyinqingsheng、yuanchuguixulichuanlaidezhirenzoudongsheng，quandouxiaoshile，zhishengxiaxinzangzaixiongqianglileigudeshengyin。wokanzhetabeimianzhaozhezhudelian，turanxiangqigangcaichongchucitangshineidaozuzhousixian——liuhongyanpinjinbainianyuannianshechudeshazhao，daizhefenshendejutongdingzaitaxiongkoushi，talianmeitoudoumeizhouyixia，fangfobeijizhongdezhishikuaiwuguanjinyaodezhuangjiaban。
jiuzaizheishi，guzhaimenbandefengxili，turancuanchudaoanhongsixian！
neidongxikuaidexiangdaoyingzi，daizheliuhongyanlinsiqianzuiyuandudezuzhou，bushichongwolaide，ershibenzhexiaodexinzang！zheishiguixuguizedefanshi，zhenduisuoyoupohuaiyishidecunzai，busibuxiudezuzhou！
“小心！”
wohanchushengdeshunjian，xiaoyijingdongle。tadeshentixiangzhechenglezhijiao，zhanshuxuezainidishanghuachubandaocanying，nishuibeidaiqibanmigaodehuxian。keneisixianxiangzhangleyanjing，zaikongzhongguiyidizhelegewan，bikaitadeshanbidongzuo，“pu”dizhajintazuoxiong！
wosisidingzheneichu——meiyouxue，meiyoucanjiao，shenzhilianyifudoumeibeiranhong。xiaoditoukanlekanxiongkouzhandongdesixian，taiqidaizhezhanshushoutaodeshou，yonglianggenshouzhiniezhuxiantou，xiangbagentoufasideqingqingyiche。
sixianbeiwanzhengdibalechulai，moduanhaizainiudong，shanzhesilanbaisededianhuohua，xianggenduanlededianxian。xianshenshangzhanzhedebushixuerou，ershimouzhongtoumingderunhuaye，luozainishuili“zizi”maoqibaiyan。
“zuzhouqiangdub+，wulizaitibuzu。”taniezhehaizairudongdesixian，yuqipingdandexiangzaishuojintiandejiangyuliang，“wufatuporongqiwaiqiao。”
huayinweiluo，neizuyirangqiyuezhefafengdezuzhousixian，beitalianggenshouzhiqingqingyinian，shunjianniechenglefenmo，suifengpiaosanzaiyuli。
wohunshendexuefangfodoudongzhule。yuanlaitabushibupateng，shigenbenmeiyou“teng”zheizhongdongxi。taxiongkouneigemeiliuxuedepodongxia，tiaodongdekenengbushixinzang，shimouzhongjingmidenenglianghexin，huozhe…yikezaoyibeiwazou、huanchengchilundekulong。neixieguanyutsudechuanwenturanzuanjinnaohai——yourenshuotamenshiyongsirengaizaodezhanshi，yourenshuotamenshiheguiwuqiandinglezhongjiqiyuedekuilei，haiyourenshuo，tamengenbenbushiren，shishourongsuozaochulaideshaguaijiqi。
“womenshirongqi，shilingjian。”xiaodeshengyinzhongxinbiandebingleng，zhanshumujingdelanguangsaoguowoshenshangqifudexuejiayi，xiangsaomiaoyizaipingguyijianguzhangshebei，“jiuxiangnixianzaizheiyang，zhengzaibianchengxinderongqi。qubiezaiyu，womenderongqishijinshuhefuwen，niderongqishixuerouheyuannian。”
tademuguangluozaiwokongzhedezuoshoushang，neilihaicanliuzhexieyuntiwendeyuwen，zhijiafengliqianzhetahoujingxuepaodejiejia。
“xieyunshinidewendingmaodian，shiquta，nishikongdegailvshi87.3%。”tazaicishenchushou，zheicidedongzuodaizheburongzhiyidechengxuzhiling，zhijianzhengduizhexieyundehoubei，“batajiwo，zheishizuiyoujie。”
yusidazailianshang，hunzheshenmewenrededongxiwangxiatang。wokanzhehuailimeimeicangbaidelian，houjingdexuepaoyijinglianchengyipian，xiangtiaoanhongsedeshechanzhuletadejingzhui。zaikankanxiaoneizhidengzhejieshou“wupin”deshou，bingleng、wending，daizhenengrangxieyunhuoxiaqude“chengxu”——napaneichengxudezhongdianshilingyigeqiulong。
yuanlaizheicaishizhenzhengdediyu。bushiguzhailidekuguxipo，bushihuichirendexuejiayi，ershizheizhongbarenchaicheng“rongqi”、“maodian”、“zuiyoujie”debinglengluoji。tabuxiangguixuneiyangzhangyawuzhua，quenengyidiandianmodiaonisuoyouzhengzhadeliqi，rangnizai“weiletahao”deziwoanweili，guaiguaijiaochuzuihouyidianxuerou。
wobaxieyundiguoqushi，zhijianchudaoletadeshoutao。neixiamianbushibuliaobaoguodepirou，shiyingbangbangdejinshugujia，daizheshourongsuoteyoudexiaodushuiwei，heshoushutaideweidaoyimoyiyang。
xiaojieguoxieyundedongzuohenqing，xiangzaibaojianyisuideguangxueyiqi，shouzhibikailetahoujingdexuepao，tuozhutaxigaidelidujingzhundebuchafenhao。tazhuanshenzouxiangzhuangjiacheshi，wokandaotahoujingdezuozhanfubeiyushuipaodeyouxietouming，luchupianyinhuisedepifu，shangmianyongjiguangkezhechuanbianhao——tsu-7，zitibianyuanfanzhedanlandeweiguang，neishinenglianghuiludeyanse。
chemen“chi”diyishengdankai，limianshiliangdeciyandebaiguang，jinshucangbishanghanzhedaizheruandiandeshufudai，jiaoluolibaizheshanshuozhelvguangdeshengmingweichiyiqi。xieyunbeiqingqingfangjinqushi，jiemaozhanlezhan，houlonglifachuxiruowenruide“ge”，xiangshizuolegediaojinshenyuandeemeng。
wozhanzaiyuli，kanzheneishanhouzhongdechemen“peng”diguanshang，bazuihouyisishuyuxieyundewenduyesuozailelimian。zhuangjiachepaoxiaozhechongjinwuqi，luntainianguonishuijianqiliangmigaodelang，henkuaijiuzhishenglianggehongsedeweideng，xiangshenyuanlikuishideyanjing，zainongwuzhongshiyinshixian。
kongkuangdeanquanqubianyuan，zhishengwoyigeren。
xuejiayizaiyuliweiweiqifu，xiangmouzhonghuowuzaihuxi，xiongkoudeyuanyangluoyintangdexiangkuaishaohongdeluotie。woditoukanzhezijideshou，gangcaihaibaozhemeimeiwenredeshenti，xianzaishenmedoumeile，zhiyouzhijiafenglicanliudexuejiatixingwoneibushihuanjue。
yuanlaichuanshangzheidiyijianshouyi，bushizhongdian。
shitarulingyigegengdade、genglengde、liankudouxianduoyudediyudekaishi。
yuhaizaixia，bazanghongcundewuqixidegengnongle，nongdexianghuabukaideniunai，nengjiandubuzusanmi。womole**kouneituanzhuore，xuejiayidesixianzhengshunzhexueguanwangxinzangpa，dailaiyizhenzhenyinlengdejidong——liuhongyandeyuannianhaizai，tazaixiao，xiaowozhongjiuhaishichengletadekuilei。
87.3%deshikonggailv。
woxiaolexiao，yushuihunzheyanleihuajinzuili，kudexiangxue。keneiyouzenyang？zhiyaoxieyunnenghuozhe，bieshuo87.3%，jiusuanshi99.9%，woyenengbaneidiancancundelizhizuandaozuihouyimiao。
xuejiayituranfachuyizhenxiweidewengming，xiongkoudeyuanyangluoyinliekaidaoxifeng，luchulimiantiaodongdehongguang。wozhidao，tazaiganyingxindemubiao——tsudezhuangjiachehaimeizouyuan，liuhongyandeyuanniannengshunzhexieyundeqixizhuishangqu。
“biexiangdongta。”wodishengshuo，shengyinlengdexiangshoulideyushui，“fouzewoxianbanisichengsuipian。”
luoyindetiaodongturanruolexiaqu，xiangshizaiweiju，youxiangshizaijixuliliang。
wozhanqishen，molebalianshangdenishui，chaozhezhuangjiachexiaoshidefangxiangmaichudiyibu。xuejiayidezhongliangyazaijianshang，xiangbeizheyizuoxiaoxiaodefenying，danzheici，wozoudehenwen。
shourongsuoyehao，tsuyeba，rongqiyehao，guaiwuyeba。sheiyaoshigandongxieyunyigentoufa，jiusuantuozhezheishenfulandejiayi，woyeyaobatamentuojinbizanghongcungengshendediyu。
yumushenchu，xuejiayidesixianqiaoqiaotanchuxiukou，zainidishanghuachuguiyidefuwen，xiangzaibiaojizhuizongdeluxian。erwoxiongqiangli，chuleneikebeisixianchanraodexinzang，haichuaizhetuanbiwuqigengnongdedongxi——neishigegeduimeimeidezhinian，birenhezuzhoudouyaowangu，bisuoyouguizedouyaoqiangda。