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《wochenglejuewangbenshen，wanwudeyichuanxi》shikouyisongjizizaiyuanchuangdexuanhuankehuanleixingxiaoshuo, xiesixieyunshi《wochenglejuewangbenshen，wanwudeyichuanxi》dezhujiao，xiaoshuomiaoshudeshi:“ge……jiayi……tazaiyaowo……”xieyundaizhekuqiangduanduanxuxushuo。wotaitou，jianjiayilingkouzhengmanmanshoujin，jiaoheibian……

精彩章节

hongzhudehuomiaotanlanditianzhezhuxin，bacitangzhaodehuminghuan，guangyingzaibanbodeqiangbishangtouxianiuqudeyingzi，xiangwushuzhishouzailuanwu。womengdizhengkaiyanshi，zhengguizaibinglengdeqingshidishang，xigailuozhekuaituqidezhuan——lengjiaojianrui，hegangjinzheiguidifangshiguizaitongyigeweizhidechuganfenhaobucha，fangfoshijianzaizheilidalegesijie，bawozhongxintuohuileqidian。

fumuhunzheshiyoudetianniweizuanjinbiqiang，nongdehuabukai，xiangshiyoukuaijinlemidefeirouzaifulan，xunderentouyunmuxuan。zhizhaxipojiulizaigongzhuopang，canbaidezhilianshang，liangtuoguiyidehongyunbizhiqiangengyanle，hongzuichunliedaoergen，luchuliangpaijianxidezhiya，shangmianhaizhanzhejilvwuheidetoufa。tashoulidehongchoupazishang，sixianzhengyigengenwangzhanglechou，xianghuodequchongzairudong，pazibianyuandeliusuchuidaodishang，zaijihuideqingzhuanshangtuochuqianqiandehenji。gaotangzhishangdekuguxinlangyouzaidong，jingzhui“kaba”zuoxiang，meiyijiegutouzhuandongdeshengyindouqingxikewen，xiangshizaishuwoqiantadeshichen，neikongdongdeyanwoduizhewo，fangfozaishuo“nipaobudiaole”。

“哥……”

xieyundeshengyindoudexiangqiufenglideyezi，meiyigeyinjiedouguozhekongju。womengdizhuantou，xueyixiachongshangtouding，taiyangxuetutuzhitiao——tajiuguizaiwoshenbian，xigaitongyangyazheneikuaituqidezhuan，tengdetaxiaotuiweiweifazhan。shenshangneijianxuejiayizhengsuizhetadehuxiweiweiqifu，xiangshizaihuxidehuowu，lingkouderenlianguainiaozhengzheyan，xinghongdesixianyanzhuzhigougoudingzhewo，chibangweiweishandong，fachuxiruoyouside“shasha”sheng，xiangshizaichaoxiaowodewuneng。

erwoshenshangdejiayi，meile。

bushipingkongxiaoshi，shixiangshuiyiyangshunzhepifuliudaoletashenshang，liandaizhepifuxianeixieyouzoudehongsi，douzhengxiankonghoudizuanjintadexueguan。xiongkouneizhuoredeyuanyangwenyegenzheyilewei，cikezhengluozaitaxinkou，hongdefahei，xiangkuaishaohongdeluotietangzaitapiroushang，meiyicitiaodongdourangxieyundeshentiqingqingchouchu。

“bu……”woxiangpaguoqu，sizhiquezhongdexiangguanleqian，gutoufenglixiangshisaimanlenijiang，meidongyixiadoufachu“gezhi”de**。liuhongyandeyuannianxiangkuaijushiyazaixiongkou，rangwochuanbuguoqi。citangdehengliangshangshenchuheixue，zhanchouruqi，shunzhediaohuademuzhuwanyanliuxia，dizaidishang，huichengxixiaodexiliu，daizhetiexiuwei，chaozhewomenjiaobianliulai，suoguozhichu，qingzhuandoubeifushichuximidexiaokong。

“die……niang……”xieyundeyanleizazaijiayishang，neibuliaojingxianghuowubanzhangkaiwushuxifeng，bayanleixilejinqu，liuxiayigegeshensedexiaodian，henkuaiyouxiaoshibujian。tadeyanshenkaishifakong，tongkongliyingchudebuzaishiwodeyingzi，ershigaotangzhishangdekugu，zuijiaomanmangouqiheliuhongyanjiyiliyimoyiyangdelengxiao——jiayizaitunshitadeshenzhi，yongtaduidieniangdesinianzuoweiyouer。

luanzanggangdejiyituranzhakai，xiangbeidianrandehuoyaotong：liuhongyanbeidieyongmashengkunzhujiao，shengzilejinpirou，liuxiashenshendexuehen。takanzhediebaneiershikuaidayangchuaijinhuaili，yanshencongaiqiubianchengzhenjing，zuihouchedisiji。yuanlaizheijiayizuidudeguize，bushidaijia，shirangzhiqinqinshoubanituishangjitai，yongzuitengniderendeshou，banisongjindiyu。

zhizhaxipodejianxiaoturanbagao，xiangzhijiaguaguoboli，cierderangermoshengteng：“ji——shi——dao——！”

kuguxinlangdexiaheguzhangdenengsaijingequantou，kongdongdeyanwoli，lvhuo“teng”dicuangaobanchi，zhaoliangletasenbaideyachi。yiguwuxingdelilianganzhuwodehoujing，daizheburongkangjudeguizezhili，biwowanyao——tayaowohexieyunbaitang，yaotatiwo，tiliuhongyan，tisuoyoubeixuanzhongdexinniang，yongyuankunzaizheicitangli，chengweiziyangguixudefeiliao。

xieyundeshentikaishiqianqing，xuejiayishangdeanhongxianghuoguolaideshe，shunzhetadeshoubeiwangshangpa，zaitashouwanshangpanchengquan，yueshouyuejin，lechushenshendehonghen。tafachuyayidewuyan，yanleilihunzhexuesi，neishishengminglibeijiayixigandezhengzhao，tadepifuyirouyankejiandesudubiandecangbai，zuichunshiqulexuese。

就是现在。

wodingzhegongzhuoshangneidingmengzhehuidexinlanggaitou——xiulandehongchouxia，haizhanzhejigenkugudetoufa，sanfazhechenfudeqiwei。liuhongyanyaodeshi“tishen”，yongyigehuoshengshengderendaititawanchengyishi，ketameishuo，tishenbixushixinniang。

tahendeshibeipodaijia，hendeshizheizhongshenbuyoujidemingyun，neiwojiujitahuange“dai”deduixiang，huangexinganqingyuandejipin。

“yunyun！”womengdipuguoqu，yongjinquanshenliqi，zaitajingedeyanshenli，chediaotatoushangneidingbingbucunzaidegaitou——neishijiayiqiangjiajitadehuanjue，shiyishideyibufen。gongzhuobeiwozhuangdeyihuang，xianglushuaizaidishang，“kuangdang”yishengsuilie，xianghuisalewomanshen，hunzhelenghan，zaipifushangjiechengyingkuai。

zaizhizhaxipodejianxiaokaqiaodeshunjian，zaitaneizhangzhilianshangluchukunhuobiaoqingdechanei，wozhuaqineidingxinlanggaitou，henhenkouzaizijitoushang。

meiweihunzheshichouduzhukoubi，xiangbeisaijinlefulandeguancai。shiyeyipianqihei，danwoneng“kan”daoliuhongyandeyuannianzaifanteng，xiangfeitengdexueshui；neng“ting”daotaneibainiandehenyizaijianjiao，chongmanlebujiehefennu——tabudong，weishenmehuiyourenqiangzhedangzheijipin，weishenmehuiyourenyuanyiyongzijideminghuanbierendehuolu。

“wodaita！”wohouchusheng，gaitouxiadeshengyinmendexiangcongfenlichuanchulai，daizhenitudehouzhong，“liuhongyan！wotizheikuguquni！fangtazou——！！！”

zuihousangezishiyonglinghunhande，daizhexieyunxiaoshihouzuanzhewodeyijiaohan“ge”dewendu，daizheshourongsuobinglengdejinshuwei，daizhehongsilejinpiroudeteng，daizhewoduimeimeisuoyoudezhinian。

wonengganjuedaotineideyuannianzaifeiteng——bushiliuhongyande，shiwozijide。wohenshourongsuobaxieyundangyouer，xiangdiuqilajiyiyangrengjinguixu；henzheishidaorongbuxiayigezhixianghuzhemeimeideputongren，feiyaobarenbichengguaiwu；genghenzijiwuneng，zhinengyongzheizhongfangshihuantahuolu。zheihenyixianghuoyan，shaodewolinghundouzaifatang。

citanglideyinfengturantingle，xiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouezhulehoulong。

anzhuxieyundeliliangxiaoshile，tadeshentihuanglehuang，yanshenlishanguoyisiqingming。shenshangdexuejiayixiangbeichouzoulehun，yansexunsubiandan，conganhongtunchengqianfen，zuihoujiejinbaise，lingkouderenlianguainiaoyebishangleyanjing，chibangdalaxialai，shiquleshengqi。tamangrandikanzhewo，yanshencongkongdongmanmanningju，zuihoubianchengchegudekongju：“ge！niganshenme！”

“pao！”wohouzhe，gaitouxiadeshiyeli，kuguxinlangdeshoutingzaibankong，guanjiehaibaochizheqianshendezishi，zhizhaxipodejianxiaokazaihoulongli，zhilianyinweijingeerniuqubianxing。liuhongyandeyuannianzaiwotineichongzhuang，xiangtoubeikundeyeshou，“quzhaoxiao！tazhidaozenmelikaiguixu！jizhu，biexinshourongsuoderenheren！tamenzhaodeshiwanmeirongqi，nibunengluozaitamenshouli！”

wodezhijianchudaotadepifu，neilihailiuzhexiaoshihouwodaitapashucengdeba，yuanyuande，xiangkexiaodouzi。xuejiayidehongsiturancongzhijiancuanchu，chanshangtadeshouwan，youxunsutuihui，liuxiayidaoqianqiandehonghen——neishiliuhongyanzaijinggao，yeshizaifangxing，tayongzheizhongfangshigaosuxieyun，zheishizuihoudejihui。

xieyunliangqiangzhehoutui，jiaobiandexuexizidongrangkaiyitiaolu，xiangshizaiweitasongxing。takanzhewo，zuichunduosuozhe，yanleixiangduanlexiandezhuzi，zuizhongyaozheya，zhuanshenchongchumenwai，danbodebeiyingzaicitangdeyinyingliyishan，jiuxiaoshizainongwuzhong。tadejiaobushengyuelaiyueyuan，zuihoubeiguixudenongwutundiao，lianyisihuiyindoumeiliuxia。

citanglizhishengxiawo，kugu，hezhiren。

“he……hehehe……”

liuhongyandexiaoshengcongsimianbafangyonglai，buzaishijianxiao，ershidaizhezhongniuqudemanzu，xiangbingkuaihuaguoboli，lengdeciguyoudaizheyisiguiyideshiran。gaotangzhishangdekuguturansanjia，gutou“huala”luoleyidi，xiangbeidafandejimu，lvhuozaiguduilimingmingmiemie，zuihouhuazuowushuguangdian，quanzuanjinlewotoushangdegaitouli，dailaiyizhenbingliangdezhuoshaogan。

zhizhaxipozhongxinjianqipazi，jianshengchangdao：“yi——bai——tian——di——！”

yigujulianzhuwodehoujing，zheiciwomeifankang。gaitouxiadeshiyeli，yingchuliuhongyandeshenying——tajiuzhanzaiwoduimian，chuanzhezhanxindehongjiayi，zhenjiaoximi，xiuzhezhenzhengdeyuanyang，buzaishirenlianguainiao。banzhanglianbeihuoshaodejiaohei，luchusenbaidegutou，lingyibanquebaidexiangzhi，weiduneishuangyanjing，liangdeheren，limianyingzhebainianqianneichangdahuo，yeyingzheluanzanggangdegufen。

wochaozheta，shenshenwanxiayao。etoukuaiyaopengdaodimianshi，wowendaolegaitouwaiyangguangdeweidao，neishixieyunzhengzaibenxiangdefangxiang，daizheziyoudeqixi。

“er——bai——gao——tang——！”

gaotangdeweizhikongzhe，zhiyouneiduisanjiadekugu，zaidishangpinchuyigeniuqudexingzhuang。woduizhekongqiwanyao，naozilishanguoxieyunxiaoshihouzuozaiwojiantoudeyangzi，tadexiaoshoujiuzhewodetoufa，xiaodexiangtoudaotangdemao；shanguodienianglinzhongqianrangwohuhaomeimeideyanshen，tamendeshoudazaiwohexieyundeshoushang，wenduhaizai；shanguoxiaozuihouhuazuoguangdianshi，zhanshumujinglishanguodeyisifuzaqingxu。tamenbuzaile，danwozhidao，tamenjuebuhuiyaoxieyundangjipin，juebuhuiyunxuzheizhongcanrendeguizejixu。

“fu——qi——dui——bai——！”

liuhongyanchaowozouguolai，xiuhuaxiecaizaigutoushang，fachu“gezhi”dexiang，neishengyinlidaizhejietuo。tadeshoudashangwodejian，binglengcigu，daizhebainianqianjinjiandaodehanqi，yedaizheyisibuyichajuedezhandou。

wochaozheta，wanxiadisanciyao。zheiyici，wobuzaishibeipo，ershixinganqingyuan——weilexieyunnenghuoxiaqu，weileliuhongyandehennengyougeguisu，yeweilezheigaisideguizenengbeidapoyici。

jiuzaietoukuaiyaopengdaodimianshi，xiongkoudeyuanyangluoyinturanzhakai！bushizhuotong，shizhongsixinliefeideronghe——wodejuewang，liuhongyandeyuannian，xiaoliuxiadeguizesuipian，xiangbeirouchengyituandezhi，zaiwolinghunlizhongxinpincou，fachu“pipa”deshengxiang，xiangshizaizhongsuyigexindelinghun。

“轰——！”

citangdeliangzhuturanbenglie，muxiesijian，huichenmiman。zhirenshunjianhuaweifeihui，hongchoupazizaikongzhongshaochenghuijin。hongzhudehuomiaodaozheshao，layouniliuershang，zuihou“pu”diximie，liuxiayilvqingyan，zaikongzhongniuchengyigeguiyidefuhao。woganjuezijideshentizaibiandetouming，xiangyaoxiaosanzaikongqizhong，youzaibiandechenzhong，xiangtongshichenrushenhaihezhuiruliehuo，liangzhongjiduandeganjuejiaozhizaiyiqi，dailaiqiansuoweiyoudeqingming。

liuhongyandeshengyinzhijiezuanjinlinghunshenchu，daizheyisiqiyidewenrou，buzaishiyuandudejianxiao：“congjinwanghou，nijiushiwo……wojiushini……womenyiqideng……”

dengshenme，tameishuo，danwozhidao。dengxieyunzhenzhenganquan，dengshourongsuodeyinmoupochan，dengsuoyouxiangwomenyiyangderendounengzhaodaoguisu。

gaitouxiadeshiyechediheilexiaqu，zhiyouxiongkoudeyuanyangluoyinhaizaifatang，yibanhong，yibanyin，xiangliangkejiuchanzaiyiqidexin。wozhidao，xieyuntaochuqule，zheijiugoule。

绝望值：80.0%

zheishuzizailinghunlishanzhehongguang，xiangkuaishaohongdeluotie，tixingzhewotineihaiqianzangzhehuimiedeliliang。wozhanzaitantadecitangli，toushangdaizhexinlanggaitou，shenshangchuanzhebanhongbanheidejiayi——hongdeshiliuhongyandexue，heideshiwodejuewang。liuhongyandeyuannianxiangjianpifeng，guozhewo，yehuzhewo，rangwonengzaizheiguixulilizu。

zanghongcundeguixuturananjingxialai，liannongwudoutingzailebankong，xiangshizaijingwei，youxiangshizaidengdai。yuanchuchuanlaishourongsuojinghuachedeyinqingsheng，yuelaiyuejin，danwobupa。

wozhidao，zheibushijieshu。

zheishiwotixieyun，tiliuhongyan，tisuoyoubeipodaijiaderen，qianxiadezhai。yeshiwoxindeshiming——shouhuzheiguixudebianjie，burangtazaishanghaixiangxieyunyiyangderen，yeburangshourongsuoderenqingyidedaotamenxiangyaode“shuju”。

gaitouxia，woqingqingxiaole。xiaoshenglidaizheliuhongyandebingleng，yedaizhewozijidewendu。

xingqi，caiganggangkaishi。danzheiyici，wobuzaishibeipojieshou，ershizhudongchengdan。