我叫谢祀。
dieshuozheizihanjingweitiandiyi，kejishiqi，tajiuxiangkuaishaohongdeluotie，zongzaiyinyutianfatang。cikecitangliangshangdeheishuishunzheejiaotangguo“si”ziduiyingdeweizhi，tangdetaiyangxuetutuzhitiao，xiangyourenzainaoziliqiaoluo，zhendeyanqiufazhang。
citanglimeiweiguozhetianxing，xianglanguohunleshaotongyoudeqi。wotianletianganliedechun，changdaotiexiusidese——yayinzailiuxue。jiaoxiaqingshibanhuadexiemen，xiedinianguodeyouliangnianye，zhanzaixiegenlachuxisi，xiangzhugangjiedewang。
“ge……”xieyundeshengyinxirufasi。wozuanjinxiukoudeqingtongshaozi，zhifucengguoshangmianjiaochanruchongdewenlu，liangsousoude，sizairudong。zheishishourongsuojide“fu”，shuochuixiangnengrangguixuzhiwurenwowei“tonglei”。keshanghuizaifeiqiyouleyuan，woqinyanjiangenanrenchuileshao，beixuanzhuanmumademuouchaichenglingjian，muouguanjieliquanshizheizhongqingtongsuixie。
hongzhanshangdexieyunhaizaizheng。taneijianjiayihongdefahei，bengaixiuyuanyangdedifang，liangzhirenlianguainiaoyongxinghongsixiandengzhebici。worendetamen——qunianzaishourongsuodanganshitoukanguo1927nian《shenbao》，shuozanghongcunyouxinniangchuanxiurenmianniaodejiayiziwen，shaodaoyiban，yourenjianshishenfeichuliangzhizhangrenliandeniao，jiaodexiangyingerku。
cikeneiniaochizhengmanmanshandong，sixianmoca“shasha”xiang，xiangwushumayizaipa。xieyundeshouwanbeihongzhanxiadeheitengchanzhe，tengshangxidaocifanqinghei，meidongyixiajiuwangroulizuanshenyifen。tadeleihunzhexuetangzaihongzhanshang，neizhanzixiangejile，xuezhushenjinquzhayanjiumei，zhiliugegengshendehongyin，xiangkuaixibaoxuedehaimian。
“bieluandong！”woyadishengyinhou，houlongganteng。xieyunheleyitiao，suikudegengxiong，quezhenbudongle。zheihaizicongxiaopawoyounianwo。xiaoshihoutabeiyegouzhui，wonagungangoufanbeiyaoshang，tabaozhewogebokuleyixiawu，shuozhangdaleyaodangyisheng，zhiwosuoyoushang。
xianzaitayangzhetoukanwo，yanlideguangyuelaiyuean，xiangfengzhongzhuhuo。woxinkouxiangbeizuanzhu，tengdechuanbuguoqi。
gaotangzhishang，chuanhongchoudekuguyou“kaba”xianglesheng。tunsehongchouguozaigutoushang，xiangpaofadefurou，suidongzuodiaozha。shougutaiqi，zhijiechuhongchoulanlegedong，senbaigutoudezhijianzhengduizhexieyungoudong。zuihairendeshitadetou，jingzhuizaoduanle，quewaiwainiuniuguazaibozishang，kongdongyanwoliliangtuanlvhuohuminghuan，zhaodegongzhuopaiweifanqinghui。paiweishangdehongzixiangmeigan，coujinkan，meigezidouzaiweiweirudong，siyonghuorenxuexiejiu。
“ji——shi——dao——ge——”
zhizhaxipodeshengyinxiangdundaoguatiepi。talizaigongzhuozuo，zhihudelianbairunizi，saihonghongdefazi，xianggangcongxuelilaochulai。heiniukoufengdeyanjing，zongxiangzaizhuan，dingzhewozangzaixiuzilideshou。tashoulihongchoupazhanzhenianhudongxi，shuaidongshijianchujidiluozaizhutai，“zi”dimaobaiyan，zhuhuocuangaobanchi，huomiaoshiguiyideqinglvse。
woqiaoqiaowanggongzhuonuoleliangbu，jiaoxiaqingshibanturan“guji”xiang，xiangcaisuileruandongxi。ditoukan，shibanfengshenchuanhongyeti，shunzhewenluliuchengxiaoxi，zaijiaobianhuichengshuiwa。shuimianhuangchuzhanglian，yuwoqifenxiang，queyanshiheidong，zuijiaoliedaoergen，zhengduizhewoxiao。
womengditaijiao，shuiwashunjianganle，shibanfenglikongkongruye。kebijiantianxinggengnong，xiangyoudongxicoudaolegenqian。
“ge……jiayi……tazaiyaowo……”xieyundaizhekuqiangduanduanxuxushuo。wotaitou，jianjiayilingkouzhengmanmanshoujin，jiaoheibianyuantiezaitabozishang，xiangtiaohuoshewangroulizuan。tasuoguchupifuyiqingzise，xingzhuanghezhizhaxipodesaihongyimoyiyang。
shourongsuoderenbaxieyuntuijinlaishi，tabozishanghaimeizheiyin。neibangchuanbaidaguade，lianshangguazhebeiminxiao，shuoxieyunshi“tianxuanrongqi”，tizhinengyinlaizanghongcunde“xinlang”。tamenjiwokanwenjian，1927nianneigezifendexinniang，hexieyunshengchenbazizhichayitian。shuozhiyaoxieyunchuanshangzheijiayi，“xinlang”jiuhuixianxing，tamenbiannengshoujiguixuhexindenengliangshuju。
“biyaodexisheng。”daitoudezhangyanjiuyuantuiletuijinsiyanjing，yuqiqingdexiangshuotianqi，shoulibawanzhebankuaixiutongjing，“weilequanrenlei。”
quanrenlei？wopei。tamenbaxieyunrengjinzheiguidifang，jiuxiangbayuerrengjinshayuchi。jiwodeqingtongshaohebankuaitongjing，buguoshirangwozhei“gege”yetiaoxiaqu，jitamendeyanjiutiandian“guanceshuju”。
neibankuaitongjingzhengchuaizaiwohuaili，bingliangjinshutiezhexiongkou，shibushichuanlaicitong，xiangyouzhenzaizha。shourongsuoshuozheishi“meijie”，nengrangwozanjie“xinlang”liliang，daijiashi……chengweiqiyuezhe。wojianguoqiyuezhedexiachang：gebilaowangjianlekuaiguixuhuaibiao，sangeyuehoupifubianshupi，gebozhangchilungeda，zuihousuochengkuaixiutie，rengzaiqiangjiaozijikadaxiang。
kexieyunhaizaikanwo。tazuichundongledong，meichusheng，danwokandongle——tazaishuo“kuaizou”。zheishayatou，congxiaojiujue。xiaoshihoutabazanbanniandelinghuaqiansaijiwomaimoxing，zijiquechuandabudingdexie。xianzaidouzheishihoule，haixiangzherangwozou。
gaotangzhishangdekuguturanjuliedoudong，hongchousuichengpian，luchusenbaigutou。taxiongqiangli，duoleketiaodongdeanhongsedongxi，xianglandiaodexinzang，meitiaoyixia，citangzhuhuojiuanyifen。tamanmanzhuanguolai，kongdongyanwoduizhewo，liangtuanlvhuomengdiliangqi，yingdewoyingzizaiqiangshangniuquchengguaiwu。
zhizhaxipochaowomaileyibu，zhituizaidishangtuochu“shasha”sheng。tadelianmanmanzhuanguolai，niukouyanlishenchuheinianye，shunzhelianjiatangdaoxiabajian，yankanjiuyaodiaoxialai。
“xin——lang——ye——lai——ge——”
tadeshengyinturanbianle，buzaishiguatiepi，ershixiruonvsheng，xiang1927nianneigezifendexinniangzaiku。womengdixiangqijiubaozhishangdehua：xinniangshaosishi，zuiliyizhihanzhe“xinlangjiuwo”。
huailidetongjingturantangqilai，xiangkuaishaohongdeluotie。jingmianxiujitunqu，luchugechuanheizhangshandenanrenbeiying，zhanzaihuohaili，shoulijuzheshenmezairanshao。
xieyundejiayilingkoushoudegengjin，suoguchuqingzisemanyandaoxiaba。tasuogudepifuweiweiqifu，xiangyoudongxiyaozuanchulai。neiliangzhirenmianniaodeyanjingturanliangle，xinghongsixianshunzhetagebowangshangpa，suoguozhichupifuhongzhong。
不能再等了。
wotaochuqingtongshaozisaijinzui，weidaoyouxingyouse，xiangjiaolekoushengrou。shenxiyikouqi，fuchoukongqiqiangdehoulongfajin，kekanzhexieyunqiujiudeyanjing，wohaishiyaozheyachuixiangleshaozi。
没有声音。
shaozihaowufanying，citanglideyiqiequeturanjingzhi——kugutingzaiyuandi，zhizhaxipobaochizhemaibudezishi，lianxieyunlianshangdeyanleidouxuanzaibankong。zhiyouneiliangzhirenmianniaohaizaidong，chibangshandegengkuai，sixianmoca“wengweng”xiang，xiangwushuwenzizaifei。
huaile。shourongsuoderenpianlewo。zheishaozigenbenbushi“ruchangquan”，ershi……
huailidetongjingbaofachuciyandeguang，tangdewochadianrengchuqu。jingzhongdenanrenmanmanzhuanguoshen，lianjinghewoyimoyiyang，zhishiyanlitiaodongzhelvseguihuo。tataiqishou，woyegenzhetaishou，shoulibuzhiheshiduolebaxiudao。
“gaibaitangle。”jingzhongnanrenkaikou，shengyinquecongwohoulonglifachulai。
wokanzhezijideshoumanmantaiqi，daoshenyingchuxieyunjingkongdelian。hongzhanxiadeheitengturanfengzhang，chanzhuwodejiaohuai，daocizhajinrouli，zuanxindeteng。gaotangzhishangdekuguxiongqiangli，neikelanxinzangtiaodeyuelaiyuekuai，citangdimiankaishizhendong，qingshibanfengxilimaochugengduoheiteng，xiangwushutiaoshezaipa。
zhizhaxipodezhilianturanliekai，luchulimianmimimamadeheichongzi，chongzipachulai，luozaidishang“shasha”xiang，chaozhexieyunyongqu。
“bu——！”wosihouzheduikangshentilideliliang。tongjingtangdexiangyaoshaochuanxiongkou，jingzhongnanrenxiaodezhengning，wodezuijiaobushoukongzhidishangyang，luchuguiyidexiao。
xieyunkanzhewo，yanleizhongyudiaoxialai，zazaihongzhanshang，zheicimeibeixigan。neidileiluozaihongzhanwenluli，manmanyunkai，bianchengyiduoxiaoxiaodebaisechuju——neishitazuixihuandehua，xiaoshihouwozongzaifangxuelushangzhaijita。
jiushizheiduohua，rangwoturanzhaohuiliqi。womengdibiyan，henhenyiquanzazaixiongkou，tongjing“kuangdang”diaozaidishang，lieledaofeng。
citangdejingzhibeidapo。kugufachucierjianxiao，chaowopulai。zhizhaxiposhenshangdechongziyongdegengkuai，yipadaoxieyunjiaobian。
wojianqitongjingsuipian，bianyuangeposhouzhang，xuedizaishangmian，jingmianturanliangqihongguang。wokandaole1927niandezhenxiang——bushixinniangzifen，shicunminbatabangzaizhuzishang，yinweitabuyuanjiaji“xinlang”。nei“xinlang”genbenbushiren，shizanghongcunjisiguixudejipin，meigebainian，jiuyaozhaogeshengchenbazixiangtongdexinniang，wanchengzheichangxuexinghunli。
erneigechuanheizhangshandenanren，shi1927nianxinniangdegege，tachongjinhuochangxiangjiumeimei，quebeicunmindasi，shitijiumaizaizheicitangdeqingshibanxia。
yuanlaisuoweide“xinlang”，conglaidoubushineikugu。
wowojindaixuedetongjingsuipian，chaogaotangchongqu。kugupudaomianqian，lvhuoyanwolishenchuliangtiaoheichuxucixiangwoyan。woceshenduokai，suipianhenhenzhajintaxiongqiang，neikelanxinzangfachuqilijianjiao，huazuowushuheifeichongsisanbentao。
kugudaozaidishang，suichenggutouzha。zhizhaxipofachuaiming，shenshangdechongzituranhuxiangsiyao，zhuanyansiguang，zhishengkongdangdangdezhiqiao。
hongzhanxiadeheitengmanmansuohuidili，xieyunshouwanshangdelehendanle。takanzhewo，yanlideguangyouliangle，xiangxiaoshihouwobaxiuhaodewanjudijitashineiyang。
wozouguoqujiekaitadejiayi。jiayiyilikaitadeshentijiumaoyan，zhuanyanshaochenghuijin，zhiliukebaisechujuxingzhuangdebupianluozaidishang。
wobaxieyunloujinhuaili，tadeshentibingliang，quezaifadou——shijidong。“ge……wojiuzhidaonihuilaijiuwo……”
womozhetadetou，shouzhangshangkouhaizailiuxue，dizaitatoufashang，nuannuande。tongjingsuipianzaiwoshoulimanmanbianliang，zuihouhuazuoyilvqingyanxiaoshi。
citangwaichuanlaijiaobusheng，shishourongsuoderen。wobaxieyunhuzaishenhou，jianqiqingtongshaozi。zheiciwozhidao，zheibushiruchangquan，shi1927nianneigegegeliuxiadezhinian，tayizhizaidengyigenengjiumeimeideren。
wochuilechuishaozi，haishimeishengyin。keshourongsuoderengangtajincitang，jiuturanjianjiaoqilai，jiaoxiamaochuheiteng，xiangdangnianchanzhuneigegegeyiyang，batamenjinjinchanzhu。
wolazhexieyunzouchucitang。yangguangzhaozaishenshang，nuannuande。tadeshouhenliang，woyonglizuanzhe，xiangbatiwenchuanjita。
“哥，我们去哪？”
“huijia。”wokanzhetaxiao，“gedainihuijia。”
shenhoudecitangmanmanbeiyinyingtunshi，heiteng、qingshiban，liantongshourongsuodecanjiaoyiqixiaoshi。wozhidao，guixuhaizai，“xinlang”deguizehaizai，wodexingqihuoxucaigangkaishi。
kezhiyaoxieyunhaizai，wojiubuhuipa。
yinweiwojiaoxiesi，jisidesi。bushijisiguixu，shijisineixieyongyuanbuhuifangqidezhinian，shijisiyigegegeduimeimeidechengnuo。
zanghongcundehong，shaobujinrenjiandebai。jiuxiangneiduokaizaixuezhanshangdechuju，zaiheiandedifang，yezonghuiyouguang。