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xiandaiyanqingxiaoshuo《duanleqinqinghou，wobeipianzhizongcaiqiangzhichong》shi“hualuoxiayiliang”deyuanchuangjiazuo，gaishuzhuyaorenwushishenyaolinshijie，shuzhonggushijianshushi：”menkouturanchuanlaijiaobusheng，wangzhenzhenbaozheyiluobiaobenkuangkanzhewomen，lengzhule，wotaiyankanzheta，huranxiaole。“shenzongdexue，bikouhonggengchenwo，xiacizaiduoji……

精彩章节

linshijiewuzhebeifuermalinfushidetonghongkuilandeyouyan，

jiangranxuedebolisuipianzaicichaowogaoju：“xiazhihengbuyaodelanhuo……laoziyebuxihan！”turan，

cangkudamenyishengjuxiang，beixiaofangfuhenhenpikai，niguangzhongshineidaoshuxideshenying。

shenyaodexizhuangxiabaibeiyushuijinchengshenhei，lingdaisongkuadiguazaibozishang，shoulilinzhedexiaofangfuhaizaidishui。

“shenyao！”woyongjinliqidahanyisheng。linshijiewenyanjiuyaotao，quebeishenyaokuaisushangqianyibu，yiquanjidao，

xiaofangfudefubinggenzhezazaitadewangu，tatongdefabuchurenheshengyin。“tangxinran，

xiacizaiganbazijisongjinlangwo……”shenyaodieguizaiwoyanqian，

huranfushenyaozhuwodaizhexuejiadexiachun：“wojiuxiandaduannidetui！

”wochixiaozhetuikaita：“shenzongdejiushizhuximayaogaizoubiantailuxianle？”01“qianleta，qiannimennazou，

goujitangyiranhuansancishenle，congci，wohezheigejiabuzaiyourenheguanxi！”“pa”deyisheng，

wobayizhangniedezhoubabade“300wan”zhipiaoheyifen《duanjueguanxidexieyi》dalipaizaichajishang。

muqinlengleyimiaohouzhuaqizhipiao，muguangluozaineichuanshuzishang，xiayishidiwuzhulezui。“xinran，

zheimeduoqianshicongnaerlaide？”zheiyiwen，wochadianxiaochulesheng。“zhongyaoma？”wozhanshengdao。“jie，

nizheibuhuishifeifasuodeba？biedaoshihouqianlianwomen？”tangyirantingdaoshengyin，congfangjiantanchutou，

daizhefumujitaxinmaidelanyaerji，qisehaodewanquanbuxiangshiyigezhongbingzhiren。“zenme？nibuyaoma？

”wozhuantouhenhendidengletayiyan，taxuanjipiezhezui，“peng”diguanshangmenhoufanshoujiusilanlewotongniandezhaopian。

daiwohuitoushi，fuqinyijingpobujidaididaiqilaohuajingzailuokuanchuqianshanglezijidemingzi，

dongzuoliluodejiuxiangxiaoshihoujujuequjiwokaijiazhanghui，yaoqiujiazhangqianmingshiyiyang。muqinkanleyiyanfuqin，

zuizhonghaishijieguobiduanzandexuankonghouqianxialezijidemingzi。woyiweineiduanzandeyikehekaishideneiyiwen，

taduoshaohaiduiwoyoudianguanxin，kexiayimiao，quetingjiantazuilishuzhe“1，2，

3……”yuanlaitashizaifanfuquerenshuzi“3”houmiande“0”jiujingyouduoshaoge。zhenkexiao，

wojuranhaihuiqidai！bishangyan，erduoliyouzuanjinfuqindadianhuadeshengyin：“yisheng，

womenyiranyaoyongzuihaodeyao！qian，buyongdanxinle……”“hehe”wolengxiaoyishengzhengkaiyan，

yidaoshandianturanpijinwu，zhaoliangleqiangshangguazhedeneizhangquanjiafu。zhaopianli，fumulouzhexiaoyeruhuadetangyiran，

erwozhanzaizuibianyuan，xiangshibeiyingsaijinqudejuwairen，xiandegegeburu。duitameneryan，

wocunzaijiazhijiushinengjitangyiranhuanshoushufeiba，tamenzishizhizhongliange“xie”zidoulinsejiwo。dangwan，

wosihuiquanjiafuhoujiubanchulejiamen。02woyiweizijiqianle《duanjueguanxidexieyi》hou，

jiuzhendenengzuodaobuzaiguowenzheigejiale，dandangdezhitangyiranzaijinxingshoushuqiandequanmianjianchashi，

jinghaishitizheyilanshuiguolaidaoleyiyuan。yiyuanzoulang，dengguangcanbai，xiaodushuideweidaohunzheshengxiademenre，

rangrentoubuguoqilai。“bingyangziyepeizaiwomenban？”yigejianruidenvshengcijinermo，

“tingshuonixiazhouyaozuoshoushu？woqidaoyishengshouyidou，rangnizhijiesizaishoushutaishang。

”tangyiranyayidekushenggenzhejiucongbingfanglichuanchu。womengdituikaimen。zhijiantaquansuozaibingchuangshang，lianseshabai，

shouzhijinjinjiaozhebeidan。3gedabanshishangdenvhaizhengweizaitachuangbian，

qizhongyigenvshengzhengfushenduizhetangyiranlengchaorefeng。“zenme？yabale？pingshibushitingzuiyingdema？

”nvshengtuzheliangjingjingchungaodezuiyizhangyihe，“niganjinsiledele，feiwuhuozheyeshilangfeiziyuan。

”tangyirandezuichunyoushiyizhenzhandou，danzuizhonghaishiyijuhuayebuganhui。wozaiyetingbuxiaqule，dabushangqian，

yibazhuaikaineigenvsheng：“zuibafangganjingdian！”“nisheia？”nvshengshuaikaiwodeshou，

xiaopaishanggaoerwuban“xiawei”demingziqingxikejian。“woshitajie！”“yo，bingyangzijingranhaiyoubaobiao？

”shuozhe，tajiuchaozhelingwailianggenvshengyizhendaxiao，sangerensuijixiaochengyituan。“xuyaowojiaobaoanma？

”wozhuaqichuangtouhujiaoqi，yanjingzhizhididengjintayandi。“qie！”。nvshengmenxingxinglikaihou，

tangyiranjingzhuaqishuyejiachaowoshuaiguolai：“gun！zhuangshenmehaoren！nishibabudewozaosi！”gangjiacaguoejiao，

tengtonglikechuanlai，xiaweideshengyincongzoulangpiaojinlai：“yijiazidoushifenggou！”wenredeyetihuadaozuijiaoshi，

wochangdaolehunzhexuexingweidetiexiuwei。wofangxiaguolan，zhuanshenchongchuyiyuandamen，

sangenvshengyezuanjinleyiliangyanshudeheisejiaoche。03chuchahuilaidediertian，

shoujipingmutuisongleyitiaocaijingxinwen——“zhihengmaoyidongshizhangxiazhihengyuqizizhengshifuhun，

xieshouliangxiangcishanwanyan”。zhaopianli，nanrenxizhuanggelv，qinnidilanzheqizideyao，xiaoyiwenrun，

hechuyushikuawo“chunjierutianshi”shidebiaoqingyimoyiyang。qiaomenshengshishixiangqi。

xiazhihengdezhulizhouyangzhanzaimenwai。meiyouhanxuan，

tazhijiediguolaiyifenwenjian——《guanxizhongzhijibaomixieyi》。taguyituiletuizijidejinsikuangjiayanjing，

zhijiankansiwuyidihuaguotiaokuanzhongjiacudebufen“budeyirenhexingshitijihuoanshiyujiafangdeguowangguanxi”，

tingdunshumiaohou，tahaobuyanshidijiqiao，

“bijing……nindejiamayejiubihuisuoneixiemingmabiaojiadegaoyidianeryi。”wojiangzhule，

yanqianshanhuidaochuchaqianyitiandechangjing。muqindadianhuashuohaiyouxiedongxirangwohuiquna。

wotuikaimenjiukanjianxuanguanchuduimanletangyiranshuhoukangfudebupin。muqinzhengdunzaidishangdabao，

touyebutai：“jiranmeiyouguanxile，jiubanidedongxinazouba，yihouyebielaile，**meishuhouyaojingyang。

”fuqinzezuozaishafashangjindingdianshi，dangwoshikongqi。wochongjinzijidewoshi，

faxianlianqiangzhidouhuanchengletangyiranzuixihuandefense。duanduanyigeduoyuedeshijian，

tamenjiupobujidaiyaobawocunzaiguodehenjiquanmoganjing。“haole，xianzaininhexiazongjiuliangqingle。

”wogangluoxiazijidemingzi，zhouyangjiubaxieyichouzoule，haoxianghaipawofanhuiside。“duile，

xiazonghairangwozhuangao——‘youxijieshushi，wanjujiushimeiyongdelajile’。”tajiangweiyinguyituodehenzhang。

shushangdechanmingturantingzhile，tiankongpiaolaiyidaduowuyun，yichangbaoyujijianglailin。

shangzhouzaichuchademoshengchengshi，yigebaoyuye，wogaoshaodaole39du，mihuzhongbotongmuqindedianhua，

jietingdeshitangyiran，tingshuowofashaohou，tachixiao：“zhuangkelianshiba，douduanjueguanxilehaidashenmedianhua？

”suihou，tingtonglichuanlaimuqinjiaozhuodixunwen：“yiranxueyameiwentiba？zenmehuituranjiuyundaoleni？

”guadiaodianhuahou，wohenchoulezijiyibazhang。shenyedejiubajiushiyizuobuyecheng。

wosisui《guanxizhongzhijibaomixieyi》，caizhe8limigaodehongsegaogenxie，

guozhejiuhongsebaotunqunjiuzoujinlejiuba。liezhidexiangshuiweierhunzhegezhongyanjiuqipumianerlai，

yimoshengnanrenyingshanglailouzhuwodeyao：“meinv，heyibei？woqing。”womeiyoujujue，

shenshoujieguotadilaidelongshelan，yangtouguanxia，jiuyeshunzhebojingliujinlingkou。wuchidexuanmudengguang，

diankuangtuntuzhechizhongdehongnanlvnv。wosuoxingshuaidiaogaogenxie，jiangqunbaifanjuandaoxigaiyishang，chijiaotajinwuchi。

buyihuieryouyourenjiangchaopiaosaijinwodeyiling。wo“gegege”xiaozhechouchu，

chaopiaozaishouzhongyixiajiubianchengleshubuqingdesuipian，xiangdianshijuzhongyandeyiyang，woyongliyipao，

fenfenyangyangdechaopiaoyujiuxialeqilai，zuihouyizhangkazaileshouwanshangdaizhedelianjiashoulianfengxili。

zheitiaoshoulianshiqunianmuqinjimeimeimaishoulianshidezengpin。wolenghengyisheng，queshebudechediao，

napabeitayazhedepifucishiyoufanqiyizhangchuanguomindehongban。04jiubajieshang，

yiliangheiselinkenchetingzhibuqian，chezaidaohangbuduantixingzhe“qianfangdaoluyongdu”。kuaguohuiyijieshuhou，

sijibeidaohangwudao，guaijinlejiubajiededanxingdao，youzaoyuqianfangqichezhuiwei，

jiuzheiyangtingzaijiubajieyiyouhaojifenzhongle。“shenzong，baoqian！”sijidishengdaoqian，touguohoushijing，

takandaoshenyaozuozaichehouzuoshangrouzhezijidemeixin，tazhidaozheiweinianqingdeceozuiyanehaowuyiyidedengdai。

“meishi，zaidengdengba”。shenyaoannazhuneixindefanzao，anxiachechuanghouyousongkailelingdai。

“mitu”jiubadenihongzhaopaishanzhewuyanliusedeguangzhaoliangleheisedeyekong，

zaoredefengguozhecongjiubachuanchudegezhongweidaoyongrubiqiang，shenyaomengdiwuzhuxiongkou，suijiyaoshanglechechuang。

zhuantoudeshunjian，tapiejianyimoxinghongsecongjiubademenfenglouchu，

tadejiyishunjianhuidaole16suineiniandemouyitian。neitianshizhoumo，tahemuqinyiqiguangshangchang，quemeixiangdao，

zhengmianzhuangshanglefuqin。bishidefuqinzhenglouzheyigetongyanghongqunguoshendenvren，

nvrenzaifuqindebeiwanlixiaodehuazhiluanzhan，neiqunbaijiuxiangyitanposadexianxue，zaibaiseshuijingdiaodengyingzhaoxia，

cideyanjingshengteng。tahaotaozheshangqian，jiuzhefuqindeyiling，sihouzhezhiwen：weiheyaobeipantamen？

fuqinchenmole，muqinzeshilengyankanzhe，diernian，biandaizhetayuanzouyingguo。daxuebiyeqianxi，

muqinxinzangbingfazuo，qiangjiuwuxiaolishi。zanglishigumabangzhecaochide，fuqinlianmiandoumeilu，zanglihou，

gumayedingjuzaileyingguo。biyehou，taxuanzehuiguochuangye，jinjinyongleliunianshijian，

xingqiongkejijiujishenxingyeqian10ming，tayeshunlichengzhangchenglekejijiedexingui。

danghongqunzaicicongjiubamenfengshanguoshi，tamengdituikaichemenxiache，jingzhizouxianglejiuba。

shuodadewuchilijimanlewushudenannannvnv，toudingdeleishedengxiangjileposuidewanhuatong，

touxiawushubanbodeguangying。zheneryulongdeyinxiangshengyizhenzhenguzaozheermo。shenyaomeitoujinzhou，

lianshangxianchunanshoudebiaoqing，xianrantabuxihuanzheiyangdehuanjing。

ercishidewozhengchijiaogensuizheyinledejiezoukuazhangdiyaobaizheshenti。

youyimoshengnanrendilaiyibeihuposedeyeti，wojieguo，yikouguanxia，

houjiandetunyanshengyanmeizailexuanxiaodedianyinhecaozaderenshengzhong，genzhe，

tayechouchuyizhangfensedechaopiaoxiaofangzhecharuwodelingkou。woduizhetameixiaoyizhenhou，ditouchouchuchaopiao，

zhechengyizhifensedezhifeiji，“sou”deyishengfeichu，zhifeijizaikongzhonghuachuyidaoyoumeidehuxianhou，

wenwendiluozaibataishang。zhongrendezhangshengxiangleqilai。“genwozou！”shenyaotuikaiyongjiderenqunzhandaowomianqian，

yibakouzhuwodeshouwan，lidaodadejihuyaoniesuiwodewangu。“nisheiya？”wozhengzhazhehoutui，

zhouzaodeqihongsheng，jianruidekoushaosheng，qizuibashedeyilunshenghunzazaiyiqi，yourenhaigaojushoujipaizhaoluxiang。

tamoshizhouweideyiqie，songkaishouhou，haimeidengwozhanwen，jiujiangwolanyaokangzailejianshang，

wowendaoyigudandandemuzhixiang。wodeshuangtuizaikongzhongbutinghuangdong，

woshijingerpaidazhetadehoubei：“fangwoxialai，**deshenjingbingya！”nanrenwushiwoderenhedongzuo，

tayijiaochuaikaianquantongdaodemumen，houxiangyeshishaokaotandetanhuoweihelajiaoweizhengxiangyongjinbiqiang，

wozhibuzhuyizhenkesou。heiselinkencheyigejichatingzaileyanqian。nanrenlakaichemen，

jiangwocubaodisaijinchehouzuo，chesuosuijiluoxia，gejuelechewaidexuanxiao。“fengzi！

”wohongzheyanfennudikanxiangta。taquedandingdinaguoyipingkuangquanshuidijiwo，

fujiashizuoweiqianlizhedeyifulanshandiehuaturanhuangjinlewodeyandi，woshouqilexiangyaoshuaidaotalianshangdeshou，

zhuanerchixiao。“hudiechibangdewenlucuodelipu，huahuaderenpashiconglaimeijianguolanshandieba？

”nanrendeshouzhijiangleyixia。“bierangwozaizaijiubakanjianni！”tahuafengdouzhuan，yuqiqiangying，

yinyinglidelianxiangzunbingdiao。“shenzong”。chezitingzaileyijiajingpinxiedianmenkou，

dianyuanxiaopaozhegongjingdidishangyigejingpindai。nanrenjieguo，zhuanshousaijiwodetongshiyejiangwonianxialeche。“xiansheng，

xiacixiangdangjiushizhu，zhijiejiqian！”wozhuaqidaizizaxiangtayuanqudechezi，

daizilidekuangquanshuiliantongyishuanghongsedegaogenxietongshigunluozaidi。

05xingqiongkejigongsidingcengdeceobangongshi。shenyaozhanzailuodichuangqianruoyousuosidikanxiangyuanfang。

tabuzhidaozijiweishenmeyaohezheigemoshengdenvrencheshangguanxi，

zheizhongziganduoluodenvrenzaijiujingyuyuwangdeazixia，liangufenglidoushenzhefuxiuwei。“bugaiguande！

”tazaixinlifanfujinggaosuziji，

queyourenbuzhudiertianjiurangzhuliwangzhenzhenheijin“mitu”jiubadejiankongxitong。tapatabeizuijiudenanrenjiuchan，

shenzhihaiyilugenzongtadaojia。neitian，nvrenbeiyigeguangtounanrenjiuchanshang，jiuhedaoyiban，tashuaimenerchu。

tadachehuijia，taqizhejicheyiluweisui。neidongchengjiaodezijianfang，lianmenjindoumeiyou，

tazaiheiandejiaoluokanzhenvrenshuxidiguaijinqiheideloudao，buyihuiersanloudedengjiuliangleqilai。

zhengdangtazhunbeiquchelikaishi，nvren“a”deyishengjianjiaozhaxiangzaitadeerbian。tazhuanshenshanglou，

pomenerrudeshunjian，duishangyishuangjingkongdeyanjing，nvrenjuzhebiaobenzhen，diezuozaidishang，

jiaobianshidafandegezhongpingpingguanguan，yizhiheimaocongchuanglianyinyinglicuanchu，“miao”deyishengcaguotadejiao，

kuaisuxiaoshizaiheiyezhong。“heimaodingshicongchuangwaitiaojinlaide”tazhuyidaoweilashangdeshachuanghaipolegedadong。

“nishishei.......”heisekouzhaohekeyiyadideyashemao，xianran，nvrenmeiyourenchuta。

tameiyouhuida，houtuiliangbuhou，mochuqianbaolisuoyoudexianjinfangzaixuanguanchudexiejushang，

yazhesangzijiaodai：“mingzaohuiyourenlaihuanmen，jinwannixianzhujiudian！”，zhihoubianxunsulikaile。“shenzong，

zuixinjiankongjilu。”wangzhenzhentuimenerrudeshunjiandaduanleshenyaodehuixiang。shenyaojieguowangzhenzhendilaidepingban，

muguangluozaileyouxiajiaodehuamianshang。“tazaishaoshenme？”huamianli，

wochuanzheziselianyiqunzhengdunzaihouxiangdelajitongpangshaozheyizhangzhanghuikuandan，

bojingshangzizhideqiaojiachongguazhuizaihuoguangjianhuangdong。neishiwoshiersuishengrishi，

yongzanleyigeyuedezaocanqianzaijiuhuoshichangtaodaodeqiujiachongbiaobenzizhierchengde。dangtian，

woxiaoxinyiyidipengzheqiujiachonghuijia，gaoxingjingerhaimeiguo，jiubeidangzaimenkoudemuqinyibaqiangguo，

chaoqiangjiaohenshuaiguoqu，duanliedeshangedanqihouzhijiezhajinlewodezhangxin，xianxuezhimao，muqinqueshierbujian，

fanerduizhewoyidunzema。“**meishengbingzaichuang，nihaiyouxinsiwanchongzi！”tamenyanlizhiyoumeimeitangyiran，

genbenbujidejintianshiwodeshengri。tangyirandangnian6sui，zi5suishibeijianchachuhuanshangshenbinghou，

jiuchengleyijiarendexintourou，erwochengleyigediebutengniangbuaidetoumingren，shenzhizhiyaotangyiranyiku，

jiudoushiwodecuo，nengpeiwowan，budamawodezhiyouhouyuandegezhongchongzi。neiwan，chendajiadoushushuihou，

woqiaoqiaopaqilaiconglajitongjianhuileqiujiachongdecanhai，yongtiesichanzhuduanjiao，jiandanzhichengxianglianzangjinyiling，

houlaidaxueshizhongxinjiagong，bianchengleyigemingfuqishideqiujiachongxingzhuangdiaozhui，dangchenghushenfujiuyizhidaizhe。

“shiyidiehuikuandan”。wangzhenzhenbahuamianfangda，“shenbingertongjijinhui”jigezizhengzaihuoyanzhongmanmanjuanqu。

“shenbingertongjijinhui？”shenyaozhoulezhoumei。“tang**demeimei2geduoyueqianniaoduzhengganggangzuolehuanshenshoushu。

”wangzhenzhentingleyixia，youjiezhebuchong：“lingwai，

tang**zaidaxueshijiuyi‘jingjiniao’demingyijubanguokunchongbiaobenyimai，shankuanyedoujuanjilezheigejijinhui，

sannianlai，tayigongjuanle22ci。”shenyaoyibiantingzhe，yibianzaipingbanshanghuadong，

zhijianzuizhongtingzailewobozishangyaohuangzhedeqiujiachongdiaozhuishang。shisannianqiandehuiyiyongchunaohai。zhoumo，

tayoulaidaolegumajia，tazhanzaigumajiaerloudeyangtaishang，

zongnengkanjiangebiyuanzilishiyiersuimoyangdeshaonvhechongziwan，mayi、chan、qiuyin、maomaochongdeng，

zheixienvhaizidouhaipadaojianjiaodekunchong，taqueyichangdixihuan，cishi，

shaonvzhengdianqijiaojianjiangyimeijianloudeqiujiachongdiaozhuiguazaihuangjiaolanshudeshuzhishang。

jiyizhongneigediaozhuidemoyangzaitadegaobeiwangyuanjingxiahexianzaihuamianzhongdezheichuanshifenxiangsi。“zheishiqiaohema？

”“haishishuotajiushidangnianneigenvhai？”haowuzhengzhaodi，shenyaodezhijiezhongzhongdizazaipingbanshang，

jiankonghuamianzhongwokuazuozaiyigekuaiyaotudingdenanrentuishang，molvsezhangqundelingkouxiahualeyicun，

shoulidemagelitezaidengguangxiafanzheguiyidelvse。nanrendaizheyubanzhideshouyouzouzaiwodehoubei，

woyangtoudaxiao，suoguxiadeneigeyanbajishipulehouhoudefendihaishizaileishedengxiayichangzhengning。

shenyaotuikaijiubamenshi，wozhengheyigediaozhexueqiedenanrenzhengmianjintie，

woxiangshuizuandezhijiahuaguoduifangdehoujie：“xianshengdeshoudoudezheimelihai，buruwoweinin？”wohuahaimeishuowan，

yanqiandenanrenjiuzhongzhongdidaozailedishang。“woshuoguode，bierangwozaizaizheilikanjianni。”shenyaomianluxiongguang，

siyitoubeijinudeshizi。“pingshenme？wozaizheiligongzuo！”jieshulehexiazhihengdeguanxihou，

wobiankaishizaizheijianjiubamaijiu。wodadiaoshenyaoshenguolaideshou，yibushangqian，

gaogenxiexiejiannianshangtazengliangdepixie，taitouyingshangtayandidenuhuo。“nidangjiushizhushangyinle？

”xueqienanrenqishenhou，dalibawotuidaoyibian，fennudibijinshenyao，“**dongbudongguiju？

”huiqidequantouyanjianzhejiuyaozadaoshenyaodelianshang，quebuliaobeishenyaoqianglexian，

nanrendequanguyingshangshenyaodezhongquanhoushunjiandaodi，tongshidaifanlelinzhuoguopanlideyingtao，

hongsedezhishuiliuchujiuxiangsaleyididexue。jiezhe，shenyaozhuaiguowojiuwangmenkoutui。nanrenliangqiangpaqilaihou，

suishoucaoqiyigepijiupingshuaiguolai，shenyaoxiangshihounaoshaozhangleyanjing，yigefushenjiangwohuzhu，

pijiupingzuizhongzasuizaileduimiandeqiangshang。nanrenyijiubufuqi，danhaimeidengtamaikaitui，

genzheshenyaojinlaiderenjiubatasisidianzhule。“daitaquyiyuan！

”shenyaohuitoujiangyitafensedechaopiaoshuaidaonanrenyounidelianshang。jiubadamen“peng”deyishengguanshang。menwai，

wokuangxiaozhepanshangtadejian，jiuqikeyipenzaitadeerjian，“shenxianshengfazheimedadehuo，shichicule？

nishibuxiangwomaijiu？haishibuxiangwomaijiujibiedenanren？”wojiangzhijianchuoxiangtaxinkou，

zhuanshuntigaolesangyin：“neinibazheiermaixialaia！maixiazheipojiuba，maixiawo，

wojiuguizhezhisihouniyigeren……”tatuikaiwohou，youyibazhuaiguowo，yanshenxionghen：“niyiweiwobuganma？

”06yizhouhou，“mitu”jiubadezhaopaiguoranjiubeitihuanchenglegengbinglengde“jian”。

womengdituikaibolidamen，shenyaozhengzuozaiyigaojiaodengshang。“shenzongyaobuyaozaijiwotaoshanggexiangquan？”shuozhe，

wozhandaotamianqian，jiangyilingchedaojianxia，suogudeyanbayouxinzengyige，tuzaihoudefendiyeyangaibuzhu，

xinghongdekepa。“haokanma？”shenyaodetongkongzhouranshousuo，

neixiezhongdiedeshanghenbijiankonghuamianlikanqilaigengzhengning。tacheguodazaibataidexizhuangguozhuwo，

xiukoucaguosuoguxiadebahen，wobuzijuediyaojinleya。“nizhenshifengle！”“bibushangshenzong，

maijiubazhuangshengren？nihexiazhihengyoushenmequbie？niyexiangyaowoma？”“meiwenti，

jinzhudarendasuanchuduoshaobaoyangfeiya？”shuozhe，wocoujinta，zhijianhuaguotagundongdehoujie，

zhengyaowangshanghuaxiangtadechun，buliaotagujizhongshi，youjiangwokangshanglejiantou。wopazhehenyaozhutadehoujing，

xuexingweiyixiazijiuzaichunchijianmankai，neigushuxidemuzhixiangyouzuanjinlebiqiang，

neitianyingchuangjinwochuzuwudenanrenshenshang，yeshizheigeweidao。nanrenzuijindouliuxingzheizhongweierdexiangshuima？

woyishizhijianyouxiehuanghu。“fangwoxialai！”shenyaowudongyuzhong。

woxuanjimochukudoulidemeigongdaodizhuzijidejingdongmai，neishiwo**kunchongbiaobenshishunshouchuaijinqude。

“xinbuxinwosijinikan？”“yaosiyedengzhihaobingzaisi。”“**caiyoubing！”shenyaofangxiawo，

yitaishou，meigongdaobiandaoletashouli，lirenfuzaizhangxin，tayiwo，xuejiushunzhezhangwendilexialai。

wodingzhediluodexuezhu，turanjiumeiyouleliqi。tachexialingdaikunshangwodeshuangshou。

henkuaiwobeidaidaoleyigejiaozuo“jingjieliaoyu”dexinlizhensuo。baisedeqiang，baisedetianhuaban，baisededeng，

wanruyizuobaisedelongzi。jiaoluolibaizhedeyipenlvluoniantoubanaode，yepianbianyuanfanzhekuhuang，

xiangjilebeiyiqidekunchongbiaoben。haimeidengwozixidaliangwanzheijianwuzi，shenyaojiubawoanzuozaileshafashang，

yigejiaochenmodexinliyishenggenlejinlai。“fangkaiwo！”“nimenpingshenmeguanwo？wotamameibing！

”woduizhechenmosihou。tamianbugaisedituiletuiheikuangyanjing，jingpianhouneishuangshenruhantandeyanjingkanderenfachu。

“tang**，nishangyicilianxushuimianchaoguosanxiaoshishishenmeshihou？”takaikouwendao，

gangbijianzaibinglibenshanghuachushashasheng。“guannipishi！”wodengzheta，zhengzhazhechouchuyizhishou，

zhuaqichajishangdetaocibeijiuzaxiangta，tapiantouduokai，beizizhuangzaiqiangjiaodeyiqishangsuichengjifen。“tangxinran，

nilengjingdian！”shenyaodeshuangshouzhongxinqianzhuwodejianbang，

zhangxinshenchudexuezaiwodebaisechenshanshangranshangyidaodaoxuehen。“lengjing？”wolengxiaoqilai，zhijiakoujinzhangxin，

“shenzong，nihuaqianmaixiajiuba，xianzaiyouxiangmaishenme？wodemingma？”chenmozoujinwo，dunxia，

wenroudikanxiangwo：“nishouwanshangdeguominhenji，shiguyidaizheneitiaolianjiashoulianmochulaide，duima？

”“haiyousuoguxiadeyanba，”tazhilezhiwolingluandelingkou，“nizinvezicanhou，

jiuhuiqujiubazhaorenxiuruziji，yongtengtongzhengmingzijihaihuozhe。”“pei，nibizui！”wonuduita。

chenmowushiwodenuhuo，jixushuodao：“nihendebushibieren，shiniziji。”“bu……bushide……bushi！

”chenmoheiseshenmouyingchuwoniuqudelian，ruzhaoyaojingbanyezhaochulewosuoyoudeweizhuang。

tianhuabandingdengtoushexiarouhedebaiguang，neixiebeifumubuwenbuwenderizi，

xiazhihengbieshudixiashichaoshiyinandehuanjing，tafumowoshiniannideshouzhi，

tangyiransisuidewotongniandezhaopian……gezhonghuamianzailuneizhakai，wokaishizhandou，

tougenzhejulietengtongqilai......shenyaojianzhuangfangkailewo，zhuanerzuozaishafashang，lanworuhuai。

chenmozhangtanyikouqi，quchuyizhizhenjingji：“nixuyaoxianxiuxiyixia。”zhenjianfanguangdeshunjian，wozhengtuoshenyao，

tifanchajihou，suodaoleqiangjiao。“biepengwo！nimendouhexiazhihengyiyang……zhixiangbawodangwanwu！

”“nicengjingzaishuxiajiuneizhikuyedieshi，shuoguoshenme？nihaijidema？”shenyaogenguolai，dunshen，

muguangrouhediwangzhewo。womengranxiangqi，12suineiniandemouyitian，wozaiyuanzilipengzheyizhiduanchidekuyedie，

yanleizazaibiaobenheshang：“tatengdefeibudongle，dantahaihuozhe，woyaobangtabachibangzhanhao，

wobuyaonatadangbiaobenle……”“kuyediezuihoubeinijiuhuole，xianzailundaonibeijiuzhile。

”shenyaolaguowodeshou，qingfuzhe，wojianjianpingjinglexialai。zhenjiancirupifudechanei，

woyousihouzheyaozhushenyaodejianbang，xinjiushangkoudiejiazaiyiqi，tayidongbudong，yaoyezaixueguanlimankai，

heiantunshiyishiqian，chenmodeshengyinpiaojinermo：“fuzaxingchuangshangyingjizhangai（c-ptsd），

zhangqiqingganboxuedaozhideziwoyinmie……”07bolimenwai，“jian”dejinshuzhaopaixiangkuaigangdamoguodedaopian，

fanzheqinglengdeguang。bangeyueqian，zheilihaishipiaodangzhejiujingyuqingyuqixidemilankongjian，

xianzaiquebeidazaochenglechunbaidekunchongbiaobengongzuoshi——zhengmianqiangdemuzhizhanjuli，gezhongkunchongbeidingzaimukuangli，

songxiangyufuermalindeqiweicibi。shenyaotizhegongjuxiangzhanzaiwoshenhou。“shenzongzhenshizaomenggaoshoua？

”wozhuanshenkanta。tabikaiwodemuguang，meiyouhuida。wotuikaimen，

henhentasuitangzaidishangdeyigegechengxingdebiaoben，boli“hualala”suiliedeshunjian，

lanshandie、qixingpiaochong、qingtingyebeiniandefensui。shuozhe，

woyoushangqianliangbubagongzuotaishangdegezhongpingpingguanguanyigegejiezhezachumenqu，

qizhongyigebupianbuyizazaileshenyaodeejiao，tahaowufanying，mianbugaisedikanzhewo，

huoxiangkanzheyizhizhamaodeyemao。“nishuohuaa！”woshangqianchezhutadelingdai，

jingzhibatabixiangshenhoudebiaobenqiang。“zheixiebeidingzaikuanglidewanyier？shenzongjuedeyouquma？”“tangxinran，

niyiqianshilianzhimayidoubushedecaiside。”tafanshouzhuazhuwodeshouwan。“yiqian？”wodanshouchekaiyiling，

luchusuoguxiadeyanba，“yiqianwotamadehaiyiweizheishijieshigetonghuashijie，meizheni！”suihou，

woshuaikaitadeshou，gongzuotaishangde5haokunchongzhenzhuanyanjiubeiwozhuazaishouli，shenyaojianzhuang，yibaduoguo。

woqihongleyan，buyoufenshuodiyouyaoshangtadegebo，taquebawolajingujin：“yaogoumei？bugouzaijiabajinger。

”menkouturanchuanlaijiaobusheng，wangzhenzhenbaozheyiluobiaobenkuangkanzhewomen，lengzhule，wotaiyankanzheta，

huranxiaole。“shenzongdexue，bikouhonggengchenwo，xiacizaiduojidian。”songkouhou，

woyongzhijianzhanzheshenyaoshoubeidexuemozaizuichunshang。jianshenyaomobuzuosheng，

wangzhenzhenfangxiabiaobenkuanghouzhuanshenmomolikai。yizaigongzuotaipiankezhihou，

woyoucoudaoshenyaoerpan：“laoyanjiushizhu，nizhendebunima？”shenyaochenmodituikaiwo，

wanyaoqushoushidishangdeyipianlangjie。tayierzaizaiersandechenmozaicijiqilewoxindidenuhuo，woraokaita，

duizhebiaobenqiangkuangpenjiujing，dahuojide“kada”shengxiangqihouhuomiaocuanleqilai。shenyaotaitou，zhanqishenzi，

liangbubingzuoyibushangqian，yibazhangdafeiwoshoulidedahuoji，quemeixiangdaoqingjizhixia，dahuojichaoxiangdefangxiang，

zhengshibiaobenqiang。zaijiujingdecuihuazuoyongxia，biaobenqiangshangdebiaobenyigegeranleqilai，

yanwuchufadetianhuabanpenlintouchouchubanjianchujidishuizhuhoujiuzaiwufanying，

xiaofangjingbaoyezhifachujishengduanduanxuxudefengming，xiangbeiqiazhuhoulongdechuisizhiren。kanzhehuoshishangsheng，

wochedihuangle。“miehuoqi！”wojimangchongxiangqiangjiao，buliaojiaodibeisuiboliyihua，jiuzaikuaiyaodaodidechanei，

shenyaoxunsuzhuaiguowo，woxiangqianyipu，zhizhidiyazaitashenshang，tadaoxiadeshunjian，

yididebolisuipianzhajintahoubei。gubushangtengtongdetanuliyongshouchengqishenzi，

woyoutingjiantafachule“si”deyisheng，suihou，tayonglijiangwotuixiangmenwai。wozhuanguoshen，

fanshouzhuazhehaiyaohuiquqiangjiubiaobendeta，“nifengle？biequ！”“tangxinran！”shenyaoyonglibaizhewodeshou。

wobusongkaiyidian。talengzhule，danbiaobenqiangdehuoshiyuelaiyueda。jiuzaiwoheshenyaolachezhijian，

wangzhenzhendaizhegongrennazheshugemiehuoqiganlaile，huobeipumieshi，qiangshangdebiaobenyisuoshengwuji。

woyuanyiweiwozhendebuzaihule，kemeixiangdaoyanleihaishidakedakedigunluoxialai。

neixiebiaobenshiwohualedabanniandeshijiancai**wanchengde。“shenzong”。wangzhenzhenjianjiaoyisheng。

wozheicaizhuyidaoshenyaohoubeidexuebabaichenshandouranhongle，zhangxindexinshangkou，yezaiwangwaishenxue，

woganjinshenshouanzhushenxuedeshangkou，zhijiannianhu：“tengma？”“meiniteng。”tajingwangzhewoxiaole。

womengdichouhuishou。“shenzong，yijiaojiuhuchele。”wangzhenzhendawandianhuahou，dingzheshenyaodehoubeixujiu。

shenyaohuazuozaichaoshideditanshang。turan，wopiejianyizhifengdiepazaishilinlindeditanyijiao，

banbianchibangyimeiyoule。wojianqihuangdaoshenyaomianqian，niansui，diefenzhanzaizhifushangxiangcenghui：“shenyao，nikan，

landiaodedongxishizenmedoujiubuhuode。”“jiubuhuo，neijiuyiqilandiaoba！”talaguowo，muguangjiandingdishuo。

wokanzheta，ejiaodeshangkoubeimiehuoqiganfenranchenglehuibai，

tashayazheshengyinkanzhezijilangbeideyangzi：“tangxinran，xianzaiwoheniyiyangmanshenzangwule？

”“nizhenshibiwohaifeng！”woshuaikaitadeshou，xindimomingfanqiyisinuanyi。

weiliangdefengjuanqihuijinpuzaitalianshang，tadelianseyuexiancangbai，zhangxinhehoubeidexuesihuyueshenyueduo，

wochexiazijichenshandexiabai，dunshenguozhutadeshouzhang。zhijianxiangpengdeshunjian，taxiayishidihuisuoleyixia，

xuezicengzaiwowanjianposundepifuchu，woyeyizhan，malibaohaohouwoganjinfangkailetadeshou。08taitoushi，

chenmotizheyiliaoxianglvxiandaodalexianchang。yangguangtouguobolimen，zaimanshilangjiezhongtouxiabanbodeguangying，

jiujingranshaohoudecibiqiweihaifuzhezaikongqizhong。taxianshudidakaiyiliaoxiang，zhouzhemeidaliangzhemanshenshishang，

lianshangquehaiguazhexiaodeshenyao，ranhouyaoleyaotou，jiezhebanguizaishenyaoshenpang，

yiyongniezijiachuyikuaiqianzaijianjiagufujindebolisuipian，“shangkouxuyaofenghe，”tayouzhuanyankanlekanwo，

“zhishaowuchushenducishang，baokuozhangxin。”shenyaoquexiangmeitingdaoside，

muguangshizhongkanxiangqiangjiao——neilihaiyoulianggewocongdixiashibanlaidebiaobenxiang，xiangjiaohaitiezhe“diannanyulincaiji，

2023.4.28debiaoqian。“chengyingxiongdeziweiruhe？”wotikaijiaobiandejiujingping，zhandaotamianqian，

“shenzonggaibuhuiyiweilaiyizhao‘kurouji’wojiuhuiganjitilingba？”“xianchulitadeshou。

”tadangkaichenmojialaidejiujingmianpian，dichenzhesangyinshuodao。wobuzijuediyongyoushougaizhuzuowanchuposundepifu。

“bizui！”wocubaodizhuaguojiujingmianpiananzaitaetoudeshangkoushang，lidaodadetarenbuzhumenhengyisheng。

chenmokanxiangwohoumuguangzuizhongdinggezaileshenyaodezhangxin：“tang**debaozhahenbiaozhun，shixueguojijiu？

”womeiyouhuida，xiangqilecengquzhaoxiazhihengdemoutian，zaitabieshuwaideguanmucongli，

wocengyongfadaibaozhaguoyizhijiaoshoushangdeheimao。“wangzhuli，shenzongsongyifengheshangkou，jianbeihezhangxindouxuyao。

”jianwomeiyouhuida，chenmozhuanyilehuati。“tang**，nideshouwanxuyaolijiqingchuang。

”chenmodaizhexiangjiaoshoutao，nazheyiyongjiandaozhuanxiangwo。“biepengwo！”chenmodeshouhaimeipengdaowodeshouwan，

wojiusuolehuilai，erbianxiangqimuqindehua：“nizhipeidaibianyihuo！”yihurenyuanjiuzaicishigandaole，

tamenxunsutaizouleshenyao，jingguogongzuotaishi，taranxuedeshouzhibujingyihuaguo，

zaishimubiaomianliuxialeyidaoxianhongdehenji，wojiujiudidingzheneidaoxuehen，huiguoshenlaideshihou，

chenmoshoulideyiyongjiandaoyibeiwozhuazaileshouli。yishengxiweide“ding”shengxiangqihou，

wanjianzuihouyidianhepirouxiangliandeshoulianyingshengzhuidi。09shenyaobingfangdemenxuyanzhe，touguomenfeng，

wokanjiantabankaozaichuangshang，houbeichanzhebengdai，shouzhangguozheshabu，zhengditoufankanyifenwenjian，

suizhedongzuodeqifu，tashierzhoumei，shierfachu“si”deshengyin。

etoudeneichuyuqinghaoxiangmisandemianjigengdale。tingliuleyixiaohuierhou，wotuikailemen。

“woyiweinibulaile”。taheshangwenjian。“laikankannisilemei，zhuangxiugongrendeweikuanhaidengzhefuni？

”shuozhewojiangshouliyongjiubaozhiguozhedeyishuyoushenzisedefenglingcao、gankudeciqin，jizhianhongdeqiangwei，

zhongjianyiduolanziseyuanweidezizhiyehuahuashurengdaotamianqian，ciqindezhigandanqishi，

yipiankuyeluozaitashoubeishang。tameiyoushengqi，fanerzuijiaodaixiao。tafushenxiangqian，naguohuashu，

suijijiemaoxiachui：“zheihuashizailubianjiande？”“bu，shilajitonglifande。”tawenyan，xiaochulesheng。

“shoulianzhaile？”tadezhijiantingzaiyuanweihuadehuaruishang，muguangquekanxianglewodezuoshouwan。woyijiang，

xiayishibashouzangdaoshenhou。“yuniwuguan！”talakaibeizixiachuanglai，congshenhounaguowodezuoshou，

wenredezhangxinfushang。wochouhuishou：“shenyao，zhende，biezongbazijidangjiushizhu，

nibuyeshixiangbawoniechengnixiangyaodexingzhuangma？”“bu，wozhixiangyaonihaohaodihuozhe。”“huozhe？

huozheyeshifeiwu！”wolengxiaoyisheng，bieguotoubuzaikanta。“yiyaofeiwohuihainide。”shuowan，

wodabuchaomenkoujizou。“tangxinran。”tajiaozhuwo。turancongzhenxiamochuyigelvzhibiaobenhe，

hemianbeixundefahei，bianyuanhaizhanzheganfen，“wangzhenzhenconghuochangbachulaide，

yuanbenshidasuanjinidingzaibiaobenqiangzuidicengde。”wojieguohezi，

hegaishangwaiwainiuniukexiadezijiyibeiyanxundemohu，

danrengnengbianchu“jingjiniao2017.7.23”deziyang，

neishiwozhenzhengyiyishang**chudiyijianbiaobendeshijian。

biaobenshiyizhibeimuqinshaohuiyoubeiwojianhuilaitoutounianhedelanshandie。wozhandouzhedakaihezi，

yuanbenpoliedelansediechishangfugaizhezhanxindetoumingboshuzhi，liefengjiantianzhejinbo。wotaitoukanleyiyanshenyao，

biqiangwulaiyoudisuanse，yanjiaomanmanbeirunshi。“mingtianquchenmodezhensuo。”shenyaosixunwenyousimingling，

“wopeini!”“niyiweizheidianrenqingjiunengbangzhuwo？”wo“pa”deheshangtiehedegaizi，

yangshoujiuxiangqiangbizaqu，quezaitiehejiuyaozhuidiqianyoumengpuguoquwenwenjiezhu。shenyaohaobuyanshidixiaoleqilai，

dongzuoqiandonghoubeishangkoushi，ta“a”demenhengchusheng，woganjinzhuanshenshangqianfuzhutadejian。“huogai！

”tafanshouzhuozhuwodeshou，“dayingwo，peihezhiliao。”yuqiwenrou，yanshenqueyichangzhuoren。tuikaibingfangmen，

chenmobuzhiheshiyizailezoulangdelanganchu，tayiweishenzhangdikanzhewo，woquemeiyoulita，jingzhijinledianti。

zengliangdediantijingmianliyingchuwosuoguxiaxinshengdedanfensepifu，tongkonglibuduanhuangzheshenyaohoubeishenxuedeshabu，

zhangxinbeicishangdezhengningshangkou，haiyoutaguizaihuochanghuijinlijiangezhongbiaobensuipiandeshenying。ganggangneiju“dayingwo，

peihezhiliao”dehuayebuduanhuixiangzaierbian。“hao，jiudangshihaitagerenqingba！”10diertian，

wochuxianzailechenmodezhenliaoshi。shenyaozhengzuozaikaochuangdepizhishafashangditoufankanzheyibenhouhoudeshu，

chenshanlingkousongkaileliangkeniukou，jianshangchanzhedebengdaiqingxikejian，zhangxinhuanshanglexindeshabu。

“chidaoleershifenzhong。”tameiyoutaitou，sihududingwohuilai。chenmoshiyiwotangshangdanlansedeshafa，

shafazhidirouruanruyunduo，pangbiandechajishangbaizheyizhanxunyicaoweixiangxundeng，danziyanwuzhengniaoniaoshengqi，

yangganjuchadewenrunqixiyekaishimisankailai。“tang**，jintianhaishijixuwomendebaoluliaofa”。“ng。

”wopeihedidiandiantou，manmanbishangleyanjing，kezhijiahaishiwuyishidikoujinlezhangxin。

chenmohuanhuantankaibingliben：“nicengshuowendaofuermalindeweidaoshi，

huixiangqixiazhihengbieshudedixiashi……”“xiazhiheng”“dixiashi”deziyanzaicicongchenmodebochuntuchushi，

womengdizhengkaiyanjingzuoleqilai。“nimenfeiyaojianzuitongdedifangsikai，kandaolimiandenongxuema？

”“tang**……”wanjiandejianceshouhuanfachucierdefengming，

wohongzheyankuangzhiwen：“nimensuoweidezhiliaojiushibawo**luodidingzaijiepoutaishangma？

”shenyaoheshangshuzouxiangwo，wozhanqishen，mianduimianhenshuailetayierguang。

“pa”deyishengcuixiangzhakaizaimibidekongjianli，chenmodegangbijianzaizhiyeshangyunchuyituanmozi。

“bazheigechile。”shenyaobashufangdaochajishang，budongshengsedicongxizhuangneidaimochuyaoping，

danlanseyaopiantangzaitaguozheshabudezhangxin，xiangbeiniansuidelanshandiedechibang，

zheishiwokanqingletafangdaochajishangdeneibenhoushu《fuzaxingchuangshangzhiliaozhinan》。wodadiaotashouxindeyaopian，

youfengkuangdishangqianqiazhutadebozi，zhijiashenshenxianjinpifu，jianceshouhuandejingbaoshengjianruidaojinhusilie，

taquemeiyouyisikangju。“tengma？tengjiutuikaiwoa！”woconghoulonglipinmingjichuzheixiehua，

tayiranyishengbuhang，quejiangyipianwenreluozaiwodehoujing，cucaodeshabujiechupifudechanei，woweiweizhandong，

zaitayibianyouyibiandiqingfuxia，jianceshouhuandejingbaoshengyuelaiyueruo，zuihou，

wotingjiancongzijihoulonglilouchuleyoumaobandewuyan，wosongkaileshou。“shenyao，nidaoditushenme？