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xiandaiyanqingxiaoshuo《fuzong，nidenanbaobiaoshinvren》，daibiaorenwufushenyanshenruowei，yanyiguanyuchouhenheaiqingdejingcaigushi，zuozhezuiyiheqiaoxyjinqiwanchengbianzhu，zhuyaojiangshudeshijiangkuzihezuihoudeshushenbeixinyiqixunsutuoxia，ranhouzaitakandaowoxiongqianmimizhiqian，kuajinleyugang。wenredeshuibaoguozhuwodeshenti，woqueganjueruzhuibingjiao。“……

精彩章节

sannianqian，fushenyanqinshoubawosongjinjianyu，rangwojiaporenwang。sannianhou，wojiandiaozhangfa，chuanshangxizhuang，

chengletatieshendenanbaobiao。xiansheng，zheichangfuchouyouxi，womenmanmanwan。wobujinyaonideqian，haiyaonidexin，

zuihou，zaiqinshouniesui。diyizhang：xiansheng，woshinidegou“jiaoshenmemingzi？

”nanrendichendesangyinzaikongkuangdebangongshilixiangqi，daizhejinshuzhigandelengyi。wodizhetou，

shixianlishitaangguidedingzhipixie，yichenburan。“jiangye。”wohuida，shengyinshikeyiyadideshaya。

“jiangye？”tasihujujiaoleyixiazheigemingzi，qingxiaoyisheng，“taiqitoulai。”woshuncongditaitou。

yanqiandenanren，fushenyan。beichengjinrongquandediwang，yeshiwohenrugusuidechouren。tazuozaijudadebangongzhuohou，

biliangshangjiazheyifujinsiyanjing，jingpianhoudeyanjingshenbujiandi，xianghantan。tashenshizhewo，muguangxiangshoushudao，

yicuncundiguaguowodelian，wodehoujie，wozangzaikuandaxizhuangxiadeshenti。woqiangrenzhexindideexinhezhanli，

zhandebizhi，xiangyikedengdaijianyuedesongshu。“weishenmexiangzuowodebaobiao？”tawen，shentixianghoukaozaiyibeishang，

shizhijiaochafangzaifubu，yigequanranzhangkongdezitai。“weileqian。”wozhibaidihuida。“e？

”talailexingqu，“youduoqueqian？”“quedaokeyiweinizuorenheshi。”wokanzhetadeyanjing，yiziyidun，

“baokuozuonizuizhongxindeyitiaogou。”tadezuijiaogouqiyimowanweidexiao，sihuhenmanyiwodehuida。

tazhanqishen，duobudaowomianqian。yimibabadeshengao，dailailejudadeyapogan。gulongshuidelengxiang，

hunhezhetashenshangduyoudeqixi，zuanjinwodebiqiang。neishiwocengjingwubimilian，rujinquezhixiangoutudeweidao。

tashenchushou，bingliangdezhijianhuaguowodexiahexian，ranhoushiwodehoujie。wonengganjuedaozijihoujiedegundong，

shentizaiyishunjianbengjin。“dequeshigenanrengaiyoudeyangzi。”tashouhuishou，yuqipingdan，

fangfoganggangzhishizaiquerenyijianhuopin，“danwobuyangmeiyongdegou。”“wohuirangnijuedezhi。

”woqiangpozijiyingshangtademuguang。“zhengmingjiwokan。”huayingangluo，bangongshidemenbeimengdituikai。

yigeshencaigaodadenanrenchonglejinlai，shoulinazheyibashanzhehanguangdebishou，mubiaozhizhifushenyan。“fushenyan，

nihaiwoxuehanqian！”yiqiedoufashengzaidianguanghuoshizhijian。womeiyousihaoyouyu，jihushibennengdizhuanshen，ceti，

duoren，fanjianshuangshou，yiqihecheng。zhenggeguochengbuchaoguowumiao。gaodadenanrenbeiwosisidiyazaidishang，

bishoudejianduandizhetadehoulong。bangongshilihuifulesiji。woweichizheyazhidaitudezishi，

taitoukanxiangfushenyan。tazhanzaiyuandi，dongdoumeidongyixia。jinsiyanjinghoudeneishuangyan，meiyouyisibolan，

fangfoganggangdeyiqiezhishiyichangwuliaodeyuyan。takanzhewo，banshang，bochunqingqi。“congjintianqi，

ni24xiaoshigenzhewo。”tadunledun，buchongdao，“zhuwojia。”woxinlideyeshouzaipaoxiao，

lianshangquepingjingwubo。“shi，fuzong。”fuchoudeqipan，zhongyuluoxialediyikezi。fushenyan，wohuilaile。

zheiyici，wohuinahuishuyuwodeyiqie，ranhou，kanzhenizhuirudiyu。benzhangdegouzi：tanachuleyifenheyue，

shangmianxiezheyixingzi：“yifangjiangye，ziyuanchengweijiafangfushenyandezhuanshuwupin，wutiaojianfucong，wudixianfuwu，

zhizhiheyuejieshu。”dierzhang：tadewoshi，wodeqiulongfushenyandejia，zaibanshanyaodeyizuozhuangyuanli，

yuqishuoshijia，burushuoshiyizuobijianyugenghualideqiulong。wodefangjianbeianpaizaitazhuwodegebi，

yiqiangzhige。qiangshangshenzhizhuangleyigeneibutonghuaqi。tagaosuwo，zhiyaotaanling，

wobixuzaishimiaoneichuxianzaitamianqian。“zheishinideheyue。”tajiangyifenwenjianrengzaizhuoshang，

zijizeyouyadijiekailingdai，chesonglechenshanzuishangmiandeliangkekouzi，luchuxinggandesuogu。wonaqineifenheyue。

“yifangjiangye，ziyuanchengweijiafangfushenyandezhuanshuwupin，wutiaojianfucong，wudixianfuwu，zhizhiheyuejieshu。

”tiaokuanxiamian，shilongfeifengwudeqianming：fushenyan。wodezhijiajihuyaoqianjinzhangxin。sannianqian，tayeshizheiyang，

yongyifenheyue，jiangwobianchengtadejinsique，wannongyuguzhang。rujin，lishizhongyan，zhishiwodeshenfencongqingren，

bianchenglenanbaobiao。“qianleta。”taminglingdao。wonaqibi，zaiyifangdeweizhixiexia“jiangye”lianggezi。

bijianhuaguozhizhang，fachushashadeshengxiang，xiangdushezaituxin。“henhao。”tamanyidishouhuiheyue，

suojinbaoxianxiang，“qujiwofangxizaoshui。”wozoujintadeyushi，biwodangnianzhudezhenggegongyudouyaoda。

judadeyuanxingyugang，zuyirongnasansigeren。wodakaishuilongtou，wenredeshuiqihenkuaimimankailai，

mohulejingziliwolengjiaofenmingdelian。woshizheshuiwen，naoziliquezaifeisupansuan。woyaozenmefuchou？

zhijieshaleta？taibianyitale。woyaoxiangboyangcongyiyang，yicengcengbokaitadeweizhuang，rangtazhongpanqinli，

rangtayiwusuoyou，rangtazaijuewangzhong，pinchangwodangnianshibeibaibeidetongku。“jiangye。

”yushimenkouchuanlaitadeshengyin。wohuitou，tayijingtuodiaolexizhuangwaitao，zhichuanzheyijianbaichenshan，lingkoudachang，

kaozaimenkuangshang，shouliduanzheyibeihongjiu，zhengsixiaofeixiaodikanzhewo。“shuiwenzenmeyang？”“zhenghao，fuzong。

”“nilaishishi。”tashuo。wolengzhule。“shenme？”“woshuo，nituoleyifu，jinqushishi。

”tahuanglehuangshoulidejiubei，yanlidewanweigengnong，“woxiangkankanwodexinbaobiao，

shencaishibushiyexiangtadeshenshouyiyang，neime‘zhi’。”zheishiyizhongxiuru，**luode，

shuyushangweizhedeequwei。wokanzheta，tayezaikanzhewo，muguanglichongmanleshenshiheburongzhihuidemingling。

wozhidao，wobunengjujue。zheishiyouxidediyiguan。woshenxiyikouqi，

kaishiyikeyikedijiekaiwochenshandekouzi。wodedongzuohenman，xiangdianyinglidemanjingtou。

wonengganjuedaotademuguang，xiangyoushizhidehuoyan，zhuoshaozhewo**chudemeiyicunpifu。

dangchenshancongwojianshanghualuo，luchuwochangnianduanlian、xiantiaofenmingdeshangbanshenshi，woqingxidikandao，

tayandishanguoyisibuyichajuedejingya，suijiyoubeigengshendewanweisuoqudai。“jixu。”taqingshengdao，

shengyinshaya。wokaishijiepidai。jinshukoujiekaideshengyin，zaizheianjingdeyushili，xiandegewaiqingxi，

yegewaiseqing。wobunengrangtakanchuwoxiongkoudeshufu。wozhuanguoshen，beiduizheta，

jiangkuzihezuihoudeshushenbeixinyiqixunsutuoxia，ranhouzaitakandaowoxiongqianmimizhiqian，kuajinleyugang。

wenredeshuibaoguozhuwodeshenti，woqueganjueruzhuibingjiao。“zhuanguolai。”tazaiwoshenhoumingling。wobishangyan，

zaizhengkaishi，yandiyishiyipianpingjing。wozhuanguoshen，kaozaiyugangbianyuan，shuimianganghaomeiguowodexiongkou，

zhezhulezuihoudemimi。wotaiyankanta，shenzhihaichechuleyigetiaoxindexiao。“fuzong，xianzaiduiwozheijushenti，

haimanyima？”tademuguangchenlexialai，neishiyizhongbeimaofan，

youjiazazheyisibeigouqide、gengweixiandeyuwangdeyanshen。benzhangdegouzi：tameiyouhuida，ershifangxiajiubei，

yibubuxiangwozoulai，ranhou，dangzhewodemian，kaishijietazijichenshandekouzi。disanzhang：gongyu，

weixiandeshitanfushenyanyikeyikedijiekaitadechenshankouzi，dongzuobujinbuman，chongmanleyouyadeyapogan。

jinsiyanjinghoudeyanjing，xiangying，sisidisuodingzheyuganglidewo。wokanzheta，xinzangzaixiongqianglikuangtiao。

taxiangganshenme？nandaotafaxianleshenme？bukeneng，wodeweizhuangtianyiwufeng。tatuoxiachenshan，suishourengzaidishang。

luchulejingzhuangdeshangbanshen，jirouxiantiaoliuchangerchongmanliliang，bisannianqiangengjuqinlvexing。takaishijiepidai。

woqiangpozijilengjingxialai，naozilifeisuyunzhuan。zheishiyizhongshitan。tashengxingduoyi，zheishizaishitanwodedixian，

shitanwozuowei“nanren”defanying。wobunengtuisuo，gengbunengbiaoxianchurenheshuyunvxingdejinghuanghuoxiuse。

**zaiyugangbishang，huanlegegengfangsongdezitshi，shuangbeizhankaidazaiyugangbianyuan，shenzhiduizhetachuileshengkoushao，

yuqiqingtiao。“fuzong，zheishibaobiaoheyuelideyinzangfulima？meixiangdaofuzonghaiyouzheizhongaihao。

”tadedongzuodunleyixia，taiyankanwo，muguangyoushen。“nibujieyi？”“jieyishenme？”woxiaole，

“dajiadoushinanren，yiqipaogezaoeryi。haishishuo，fuzongduiwoyoushenmefeifenzhixiang？

”wobawentipaolehuiqu。talenghengyisheng，buzaishuohua，tuodiaozhangku，yekuajinleyugang。

judadeyugangyinweilingyigerendejinruerxiandeyouxieyongji。reshuimanleshanglai，daizhehualadeshuisheng。

womenmianduimianzuozhe，xigaijihuyaopengdaoyiqi。shuiqizhengteng，qifenaimeidaolejidian。

wonengwendaotashenshangyuelaiyueqingxidegulongshuiwei，kandaotaxiongkoudeshuizhushunzhejirouwenlihualuo，meirushuizhong。

wodehuxiyouxiebuwen，buzhidaoshiyinweireqi，haishiyinweijinzhang。“jiwodaojiu。”taminglingdao。

wonaqifangzaiyugangbiandehongjiu，jitadaoleyibei。tajieguojiubei，quemeiyouhe，zhishifangzaishoulibawan。

“jiangye。”taturankaikou。“ng？”“niyiqian……genguobierenma？”tawen，

muguangkansisuiyidiluozaijiubeishang。wodexinmengdiyichen。“dangran。”wolikehuida，

yuqiqingsongdexiangzaitanluntianqi，“ganwomenzheixingde，budouzheiyangma？sheijideqianduo，sheijiushilaoban。buguo，

”wohuafengyizhuan，zhishizhetadeyanjing，“fuzongshiwogenguodezuidafang，yeshizuiyoumeilideyige。

”qianchuanwanchuan，mapi**。youqishiduifushenyanzheizhongjiduzifudenanren。guoran，

tazuijiaodehudurouheleyixie。“shima？”taminleyikoujiu，“shuoshuokan，tamendourangnizuoxieshenme？

”tazaitaowodehua。“wufeijiushineixie。”wosongsongjian，biaoxiandexianggejingyanfengfudelaoshou，“peichipeihe，

peiliaopeishui……e，baoqian，shuoshunzuile。”woguzuojinghuangdiwuzhuzui，“fuzongfangxin，wohenyouzhiyedaode，

zhidaowomenzhijianzhishichunjiedeguyongguanxi。”“peishui？”tamiqiyanjing，weixiandeqixizaicimimankailai，

“niyegennanrenshui？”laile，zheicaishitazhenzhengxiangwende。wokanzheta，huranxiaole。woshenchushou，

zhijianzhanlexieshui，ranhouhuanhuandi、daizheshizudetiaoxin，dianzailetaxinggandehoujieshang。“fuzong，

”wodeshengyinyadegengdi，daizheyisiqiyin，xiangqingrenjiandeninan，“nishizai……yaoqingwoma？

”benzhangdegouzi：tadehoujiejuliedigundongleyixia，yibazhuazhulewozaitahoulongshangzuoluandeshou，

lidaodadejihuyaoniesuiwodeshouwan。tadeyanjingli，

shiyayidenuhuoheyisiliantazijidoumeichajuedaode……huangluan。disizhang：baiyueguang，

zhimingdehuiguifushenyandeliqidadejingren，wodeshouwanshunjianchuanlaiyizhenjutong。“bietiaozhanwodedixian。

”tacongyafenglijichujigezi，yandifanyongzhewokanbudongdefuzaqingxu。youbeimaofandenuhuo，

youzhangkongbeidongyaodefanzao，haiyouyisi……beiwokanchuandelangbei。womeiyouzhengzha，fanershunshikaojinta，

lingyizhishouchengzaitadexiongtangshang，ganshouzheneiguntangdepifuheyoulidexintiao。“fuzong，”wotuqirulan，

jihushitiezhetadeerduoshuohua，“nideshenti，binidezuichengshiduole。”tadeshentimengdiyijiang。

jiuzaizheijianbanuzhangdeshike，yushiwaichuanlaiyigewenroudenvsheng，xiangyibacuiledudemitang。“shenyan，

nizailimianma？”shita。shenruowei。fushenyandeqingmeizhuma，mingyishangdeweihunqi，

yeshidangnianjiangwotuirushenyuandezuikuihuoshouzhiyi。wodebaiyueguang，wodesidi。

fushenyandeshentishunjianfangsongxialai，tasongkaiwodeshou，yanlidesuoyouqingxudoushouliandeyiganerjing，

huifuleneigelengmojinyudefuzong。tashenzhimeiyoukanwoyiyan，zhijiecongyuganglizhanqilai，

naqiyujinguozhuxiabanshen。“dengzhe。”tadiuxialianggezi，jingzhizoulechuqu。shuizhucongtashenshangdiluo，

zaiwomianqiandedibanshangliuxiayigegeshensedeyinji。woyigerenpaozaijudadeyugangli，shuiyijingkaishibianliang。

wonengtingdaowaimianketingli，shenruoweijiaodidideshengyin。“shenyan，nizenmexizaoxizheimejiu，

wohaiyiweinichushenmeshileni。”“gongsiyoudianshi。nizenmelaile？”fushenyandeshengyintingbuchuxinu。

“xiangnilema。wojinidaileqinshouaodetang。”“fangzheba，wodenghuierhe。”“biedenghuierya，

xianzaijiuhema，buranjiuliangle。”wobishangyanjing，jiangzhenggeshentichenrushuizhong，zhiluchubizihezuiba。

neixieshengyinbeishuigejue，biandemohubuqing。sannianqian，shenruoweijiushizheiyang，yongtaneizhangwenrouwuhaidelian，

shuozhezuiedudehua。“qinghuan，nizhidaoma？shenyantazuitaoyandejiushinizheizhongbuganbujingdenvren。

tagenwoshuo，meicipengni，tadoujuedeexin。”“niyiweitaaini？tabuguoshiwanwanbale。

nizhishiwobuzaishi，yigewuliaodexiaoqianpin。”“zheigehaizi，bunengliu。yinweinibupeishengxiafujiadehaizi。

”ranhou，woshiqulewodehaizi，shiquleyiqie，beisongjinleneigerenjiandiyu。wocongshuizhongmengdizuoqi，

dakoudakoudichuanzheqi。chouhenxiangtengman，jinjindichanraozhewodexinzang，rangwojihuzhixi。buxing，

wobunengjiuzheimebeidong。woxunsucaganshenti，chuanshangwode“nanzhuang”，shuhaoxiong，zhenglihaoyisibugoudefaxing。

dangwozouchuyushishi，woyijingyoushineigelengjingzichidenanbaobiaojiangye。ketingli，

shenruoweizhengqinnidiaizhefushenyan，yaoweitahetang。fushenyanweiweicuzhemei，sihuyouxiebunai，

danbingmeiyoutuikaita。kandaowochulai，shenruoweidemuguanglikeluozaiwoshenshang。tashangxiadaliangzhewo，

yanshenlidaizheyizhongshuyunvzhurendeshenshihebuyichajuedediyi。“shenyan，zheiweishi？”“wodexinbaobiao，

jiangye。”fushenyandandandijieshao。“baobiao？”shenruoweijiaoxiaoqilai，“shenyan，niyetaixiaoxinle，

zaizijijialihaidaizhebaobiao。jiangxiansheng，nihao。”taxiangwoshenchushou。

wokanzheneizhibaoyangdeyi、tuzhefensezhijiayoudeshou，meiyoudong。“baoqian，shen**。

”woyonghaowuqifudeyudiaoshuo，“wodeshou，zhiyonglaibaohufuzong，huozhe，sharen。”kongqishunjianninggu。

shenruoweidexiaorongjiangzailianshang。fushenyandejinsiyanjinghou，shanguoyisikanhaoxidexingwei。

benzhangdegouzi：shenruoweiliansebianleyoubian，zuihouqueweiqudikanxiangfushenyan，yankuangyihong：“shenyan，

nidebaobiaohaoxionga，tashibushibuxihuanwo？”diwuzhang：tadetiaoxin，

wodefanjishenruoweizheiyizhao“erenxiangaozhuang”yongdeluhuochunqing。taneifuxuanranyuqideyangzi，

zuyirangrenhenanrenxinshenglianxi。wojingjingdikanzhefushenyan，xiangkantahuishishenmefanying。shihuixiangsannianqianyiyang，

weiletadebaiyueguang，haobuyouyudijiwoyibazhang，haishihui……fushenyanduanqizhuoshangdetang，heleyikou，

ranhoucaimantiaosilidikaikou。“tabushixibuxihuannidewenti。”tafangxiatangwan，kanzheshenruowei，

yuqipingdanquedaizheburongzhihuideweiyan，“tashiwodebaobiao，tadezhizeshibaohuwo，bushitaohaoni。dongma？

”shenruoweidelianseshunjianshabai。woxinlilengxiaoyisheng。fushenyan，nihaishineigefushenyan，zisidaolejidian。

nibushizaiweiwoshuohua，nishizaiweihunizijidequanwei。renherendoubunengtiaozhannidesuoyouwu，

napazhishikoutoushangde。“wo……wozhidaole。”shenruoweiyaozhechun，yifushouletiandaweiqudeyangzi。

tabuganduifushenyanfazuo，bianjiangsuoyoudeyuanqidouzhuanyidaolewoshenshang。tazoudaowomianqian，keyitingletingxiong，

yongyizhongxuanshi**dezitai，tifushenyanzhenglileyixiabenjiubuluandelingdai。“jiangxiansheng，

niyaojizhunideshenfen。”tayadishengyin，yongzhiyouwomenlianggerennengtingdaodeyinliangshuo，

“nizhishishenyanshenbiandeyitiaogou，erwo，shizheiliweilaidenvzhuren。”womianwubiaoqingdikanzheta。

“shen**，”woyeyongtongyangdideyinlianghuiying，“gouyoushihou，yeshihuiyaorende。youqishi，fenggou。

”“ni！”taqidefadou。“ruowei。”fushenyandeshengyinbuda，quedaizhejinggaodeyiwei。

shenruoweilikeshoulianlesuoyouqingxu，youbianhuineigewenrouxianshudemoyang，zhishikanwodeyanshenli，cuimanledu。

“shenyan，buzaole，wojinwan……liuxialaipeinihaobuhao？”tayaozhefushenyandeshoubeisajiao。

zheishizaixiangwo**。woxinlihaowubolan，shenzhiyouxiexiangxiao。fushenyanquezhouqilemei：“buxing，

wojinwanhaiyougongzuo。”“wokeyidengniya。”“wogongzuodeshihou，buxihuanyourendarao。

”tachouhuizijideshoubei，yuqiliyijingdailexielengyi，“jiangye，songshen**huiqu。”“shi，fuzong。

”woshangqianyibu，duizheshenruoweizuolege“qing”deshoushi。shenruoweidelianchediguabuzhule。

tahenhendidenglewoyiyan，youweiqudikanlekanfushenyan，zuihouhaishibuganxindinaqibao，caizhegaogenxiezoule。

wogenzaitashenhou，songtadaomenkou。zaidakaichemenqian，taturanzhuanshen，coudaowoerbian。

“bieyiweishenyanrangnisongwo，nijiuyouduotebie。”tadeshengyinxiangdushetuxin，

“wojianguotaiduoxiangpashangtachuangdenannannvnv，nidexiachang，huibitamensuoyourendoucan。”“shima？

”woqingxiaoyisheng，“neiwomenshimuyidai。”wotitaguanshangchemen，kanzheneilianghongsedepaochexiaoshizaiyeseli。

huidaoketing，fushenyanzhengkaozaishafashang，bizheyanjing，sihuzaijiamei。jinsiyanjingfangzaiyipang，

shaolejifensiwen，duolejifenyexing。“fuzong，rensongzoule。”tameiyouzhengyan，

zhishidandandi“ng”leyisheng。“guolai。”taturanshuo。wozoudaotamianqian。“jiwoanantou。

”taminglingdao。wozoudaoshafahoumian，shenchushou，zhijianqingqingluozaitaliangcedetaiyangxueshang。tadetoufahenying，

daizheyisiliangyi。wodezhifubuqingbuzhongdianyazhe，shituhuanjietadepibei。ketinglihenanjing，

zhiyouguazhongdedidasheng。tadehuxijianjianpingwenxialai，sihushishuizhele。wodezhijian，manmandi，

congtadetaiyangxue，huaxiangtadebojing，zaidaotacuiruodehoulong。zhiyaowoshaoweiyongli……jiuzaizheishi，

taturankaikou，shengyindaizheyisigangshuixingdeshaya。“jiangye。”“wozai。”wodeshouyidun。“nijuede，

shenruoweizenmeyang？”benzhangdegouzi：tawendesuiyi，woquexiudaolexianjingdeweidao。wodunledun，

yongzuipingjingdeyuqihuida：“henmei，hefuzonghenxiangpei。shiwanmeidebaiyueguang。”taqueturanzhengkaiyan，

yibazhuazhuwotingzaitahoulongshangdeshou，yanshenbinglengcigu：“baiyueguang？sheigaosunide？

”diliuzhang：jianyudeemeng，tademimifushenyandeyanshen，xiangliangbacuilebingdeliren，yaojiangwodongchuan。

wodexinzangloutiaoleyipai。“baiyueguang”zheigeci，shiwoxiayishishuochulaide。yinweizaiqianshi，

zhenggebeichengdouzhidao，shenruoweishifushenyanbukechupengdebaiyueguang。wozenmewangle，xianzaidewo，

zhishiyigegangdaotashenbian，duitayiwusuozhidebaobiao。wobaolule。lenghanshunjianjinshilewodehoubei。

danwolianshangyijiupingjing。woshenzhifanshouwozhutadeshou，jiangtadeshouzhangcongwodeshouwanshangnakai，

ranhouyongzhifuqingqingmosuozhetadeshoubei，dongzuoaimeiyoutanran。“fuzong，zheihaiyongbierengaosuwoma？

”wofuxiashen，coujintadeerbian，shengyinyadejidi，xiangmoguideyouhuo，

“xiangshen**neiyangjiashihao、rongmaomei、youduininyiwangqingshendenvren，

bujiushisuoyounanrenxinlizuiwanmeide‘baiyueguang’ma？nandao……ninbuzheimerenwei？

”wobawentiqiaomiaodipaolehuiqu，haijiang“baiyueguang”zheigeci，jieshichengleyizhongfanzhi，erfeitezhi。

fushenyandingzhewo，yanshenlidebinglengheshenshicuncunjiashen。shijianfangfoninggule。

jiuzaiwoyiweitayaochaichuanwodeshihou，taqueturansongkailelidao，yikaileshixian。“youqianghuadiao。

”talenghengyisheng，zhongxinbishangyanjing，“jixuan。”woanansongleyikouqi，zhidaozijizanshiguoguanle。

wodezhijianzhongxinhuidaotadetaiyangxue，lidaoqueburugangcaipingwen。zheigenanren，biwoxiangxiangzhonggengminrui，

gengweixian。wobixuwanfenxiaoxin，bunengzaichurenhechacuo。“a——！”taturanfachuyishengtongkudedihou，

shuangshoubaozhuletou，shentizaishafashangquansuochengyituan。“fuzong？”wobeizheituruqilaidebianguheleyitiao。

tadeliansezaishunjianbiandecanbai，etoushangbumanlelenghan，shentibutingdizhandou，

xiangshixianrulemouzhongjudadetongkuzhizhong。“gun……doujiwogunkai……”tahuluandihuiwuzheshoubei，

zuilifachuyiyibumingdeyiyu，

“biepengwo……zang……”zheishi……chuangshanghouyingjizhangai（ptsd）dedianxingzhengzhuang。wolikeyishidao，

tazhengzaibeiemengqinrao。erqie，kantadefanying，zheiemeng，sihuhe“zang”、he“chupeng”youguan。

wogubushangduoxiang，likezhuazhutadeshouwan，yongjinquanshenliqijiangtaanzaishafashang，fangzhitashanghaidaoziji。

“fuzong！xingxing！fushenyan！”wodashenghantademingzi，shitujiangtacongemengzhonghuanxing。

wodeshengyinsihuqileyidianzuoyong。tadezhengzhajianjianbianxiao，jinbideyanjingweiweizhandong，sihuyaozhengkai。

“biepa，meishile，zhishigemeng。”wofangrouleshengyin，xiangzaianfuyizhishoushangdeyeshou。wodelingyizhishou，

xiayishidiqingqingpaizhetadehoubei。jiuzaizheishi，tamengdizhengkaileyanjing。neishiyishuangzenyangdeyanjinga，

meiyoulewangridebinglenghesuanji，zhishengxiawujindekongju、cuiruohemimang，xiangyigezaiheianzhongmiludehaizi。

tazhengzhengdikanzhewo，yanshenkongdong。ranhou，tazuoleyigerangwoshiliaoweijidedongzuo。tashenchushou，

yibajiangwolajintadehuaili，jinjindibaozhu。tadetoumaizaiwodejingwo，wenredehuxipenzaiwodepifushang，

daizheyisizhandou。“biezou……”tayongjibukewendeshengyinshuo，xiangzaiqiqiu，

“bieliuxiawoyigeren……”wozhenggerendoujiangzhule。zheigehuaibao，meiyouqingyu，zhiyouyilaihekongju。

zheishifushenyan？neigegaogaozaishang、shisuoyourenweilouyidefushenyan？tadaodi……jinglileshenme？

wodenaohaili，turanshanguoyigehuangtangdeniantou。sannianqian，wobeisongjinjianyu。neimetani？

tabawosongjinjianyuzhihou，youfashengleshenme？tadezheigezhengzhuang，

kanqilaidaoxiangshi……yejingliguoleisijianyuneiyangdedifang。zheigeniantourangwobuhanerli。worenyoutabaozhe，

meiyoutuikai。wodeshou，shenzhihaitingliuzaitakuankuodehoubeishang。fuchoudehuoyan，zaizheiyike，

sihubeijiaoshangleyipenbingshui。yanqianzheigecuiruodexianggehaizidefushenyan，

hewojiyizhongneigeqinshoujiangwotuirudiyudeemo，jianjianzhongdie，youjianjianfenli。womenzhijian，

daodihaizangzheduoshaowobuzhidaodemimi？benzhangdegouzi：tajianjianzaiwohuailipingjingxialai，huxibiandepingwen，

sihuyoushuizhele。wogangxiangqiaoqiaotuikaita，taqueturanzaiwoerbian，yongmengyibandeshengyin，

hanchuleyigemingzi：“qinghuan……”diqizhang：qinghuan，sheidetishen“qinghuan……”zheilianggezi，

xiangyibashaohongdeluotie，henhenditangzailewodexinshang。jiangqinghuan。zheishiwoyuanlaidemingzi。

yigeyijingbeiwoqinshoumaizang，liantongneiduanyuchundeaiqing、neigeweichushidehaizi，

yiqimaizangzaisannianqianneizuojianyulidemingzi。tazenmehui……zaiemengzhihou，hanchuzheigemingzi？

wodeshentizaiyishunjianbiandebingleng，xueyefangfodouninggule。tashizaijiaoshei？shizaijiaowoma？bu，bukeneng。

tabukenengrenchuwo。wodeyangmao、shengyin、qizhi，quandoubianle。xianzaidewoshijiangye，yigenanren。

neitashizaijiaoshei？nandao……shishenruowei？bu，shenruoweibujiaozheigemingzi。wodenaoziluanchengyituan。

tabawodangchengleshei？yigehewotongmingdenvren？haishishuo……tabawodangchengleyigetishen？zheigerenzhi，

bitazhijierenchuwo，gengrangwogandaoquruhefennu。wopingshenmeyaozuobierendetishen？！

yiguwuminghuocongxindicuanqi，womengdituikaita。fushenyanbeiwotuideyigeliangqiang，congshafashanggunlexialai，

shuaizaiditanshang。tasihubeijingxingle，mimangdizhengkaiyan，kanzhewo。“ni……”“fuzong，qingninzizhong。

”wojugaolinxiadikanzheta，shengyinlengdexiangbing，“woshinidebaobiao，bushinidebaozhen。heyueli，

kemeiyoupeishuizheiyitiao。”woguyiqujietadeyisi，yongzuishangrendehua，laiyanshiwoneixindejingtaohailang。

tayanlidecuiruohemimangxunsutunqu，zhongxinbeibinglengdehanshuangsuofugai。tacongdishangzhanqilai，

zhenglileyixialingluandeyifu，youhuifuleneigegaogaozaishangdefuzong。“baoqian。”tadandandituchulianggezi，

yuqilitingbuchurenheqingxu，“wogangcaizuolegeemeng。”“kandechulai。”wolengxiao，

“nengrangfuzonghechengzheiyangdeemeng，yidinghenjingcai。”tameiyoulihuiwodechaofeng，jingzhizouxiangjiuju，

jizijidaoleyibeiweishiji，yiyinerjin。“jintiandeshi，buzhunduirenherenshuoqi。”tafangxiajiubei，

kanzhewo，yanshenlidaizhejinggao，“baokuoshenruowei。”“fuzongfangxin，”wochelechezuijiao，

“woduilaobandesishenghuo，buganxingqu。”“neijiuhao。”tadunledun，youjizijidaoleyibeijiu，“chuqu，

rangwoyigerenjingyijing。”“shi。”wozhuanshenlikai，meiyousihaoliulian。huidaozijidefangjian，wofansuoshangmen，

zhenggerenkaozaimenbanshang，wulidihuazuodaodishang。qinghuan。taweishenmehuihanzheigemingzi？nandaotaduiwo，

zhendeyouguoyisiganqing？bu，bukeneng！ruguotayou，jiubuhuineimecanrendiduiwo，

buhuiqinshoushasiwomendehaizi！neishiyizhonggengedudekeneng——tazailiyongwo，

jiuxiangtaxianzailiyongjiangyeyiyang。jiangqinghuanzheigemingzi，duitalaishuo，huoxuyezhishimougejihualideyihuan，

yigetaxuyaoliyongdeqizi。youhuozhe，tazhishizaishuomenghua，erwo，zizuoduoqingle。

wofanzaodizhualezhuatoufa。buxing，wobunengzaizheiyangbeidongxiaqu。wobixugaoqingchu，sannianqian，

daodihaifashengleshenme。fushenyandeptsd，taheshenruoweizhijiankansiqinmiqueyoushulideguanxi，

haiyoutatuokouerchudeneigemingzi……zheiyiqiedebeihou，yidingzangzheyigejudademimi。erzheigemimi，

henkenengjiushiwofuchoudeguanjian。wozhanqishen，zoudaochuangbian。chuangwai，shichenchendeyese。fushenyan，

buguannixinlizangzheshei，buguannixiangwanshenmebaxi，wodouhuifengpeidaodi。zheichangyouxi，

zhudaoquanbixuzaiwoshouli。wonachushouji，botongleyigehaoma。“wei，bangwochageren。”“shei？

”“fushenyan。”wodunledun，buchongdao，“woyaotasannianqian，congliuyuedaoshieryue，suoyoudexingzonghejilu，

yuexiangxiyuehao。youqishi……tayoumeiyouquguohuozhejiechuguorenhegen‘jianyu’youguandedifang。

”benzhangdegouzi：dianhuaneitouchenmolepianke，ranhouchuanlaiyigedichendenansheng：“da**，niquedingyaochata？

sannianqiandeshi……”“woqueding。”wodaduanta，“lingwai，zaibangwochayigeren，shenruowei。woyaozhidao，

tahefushenyande‘heyue’，daodishishenme。”dibazhang：jiudianbaoxiang，zhimingdexianjingsantianhou，