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精彩章节

junquzongyuandingceng，kongqilixiaodushuideqiweinongdehuabukai，queyabuzhuneiguwushengde、jianbanuzhangdejinzhanggan。

jiangxunyishenbaidagua，bulvdaifengdizouzaizuiqian，shenhougenzheyizhongshenqingningzhongdezhuanjia。

tagangcongguojiyixuefenghuihuilai，meiyujiandaizhekuayueshiqudejuanse，danneishuangyanjingliangdejingren，

xiangcuilebingdedaofeng，nengpoukaiyiqiexuwang。“jiangboshi，huanzhedeqingkuang……henjishou。”yuanzhangqinzipeitong，

yuqishiqiansuoweiyoudeshenzhong，“lujin，‘leiting’tujiduideduizhang。yizhouqianbianjingrenwu，

weiyanhuzhanyoucheli，zuotuibeidaotadezhongxingjiegounianya，kaifangxingguzhe，shenjingjijianyanzhongsunshang。

zhiqiandehuizhen……renweijiezhishizuiwentuodefangan。”jiangxundejiaobumeiyousihaotingzhi，

zhiconghoujianyichuyigedanyin：“ng。”yuanzhangtuikaileneishanhouzhongdebingfangmen。fangjiankuanchang，

guangxianbeidiaoandechuanglianguolv，rouhediluozaizhengzhongyangdebingchuangshang。nanrentangzaineili，

gutongsedepifuyuchunbaichuangdanxingchengqiangliefancha。tabizheyan，duanfaliluo，mianbuxiantiaorufuzaodaoke，

jibianchuyujueduidejingzhi，zhoushenyesanfazheshuyudingjilveshizhedeyapogan。

jiangxundemuguangzaitalianshangyilveerguo，jingzhun、lengjing，budairenheduoyuqingxu。

tajingzhinaqiguazaichuangweideyingxiangpian，duizheguangyuan。lengbaideguangxianchuantoujiaopian，

qingxidizhaochuzuotuijingfeiguchucuozongfuzadejinshuguding，yijizhouweineipianyijiuchumujingxindesunshangyinying。

jiuzaizheishi，chuangshangdenanrenhaowuzhengzhaodizhengkaileyan。neishiyishuangyingsunbandeyanjing，shensui，ruili，

chendianzhexiaoyanyuxuehuomolichudechenjing。tadeshixian，shunjianyujiangxundezaikongzhongxiangyu。

kongqifangfoningguleyishun。lujindetongkongjibukechadisuoleyixia，yandiyoumouzhongjuliedeqingxufanyong，

youbeitaqiangxingyaxia，guiyuyipianshenbujiandidemohai。takanzheta，chenmorushan。

jiangxunnengganjuedaozijiniezhejiaopianbianyuandezhijianweiweishoujin，danyejinjinshiyishun。

tamiansewubodijiangpianzifanghuiyuanchu，zoudaochuangbian，naqiguazhedeshenjingkouzhenchui。“lujinduizhang。

”tadeshengyinhetaderenyiyang，lengjing，pingwen，budaisihaosirenganqing，“woshijiangxun，congjintianqi，

youwoquanmianfuzenidekangfuzhiliao。”tayibianshuo，yibiandongzuobiaozhundijinxingjichushenjingjiancha。

bingliangdejinshuqiaojizaitadexijian、genjian，guanchazheneixieweiruodaojihuxiaoshidefanying。

lujinyilingxingshi——changshitaitui，dongjiaozhi。meiyigeweixiaodedongzuodouyichangjiannan，

ejiaoxunsushenchuximidehanzhu，dantajinminzhechun，yishengweihang。jianchawanbi，jiangxunzhiqishen，

yingshangtashenshidemuguang，rutongzaijinxingyichangjunshipinggu：“qingkuangwolejiele。nidejidihenhao，zheishiyoushi。

dankangfuguochenghuifeichangjianku，yuanchaonidexiangxiang。”lujinyingzhetademuguang，shengyinyinjiuweikaikouershaya，

quedaizheburongzhiyideliliang：“wozhidao。”tadunledun，yanshensuozhuta，“jiangyisheng，

wodeyaoqiuzhiyouyige——baozhuwodetui，rangwonengzhongxinpaoqilai。”jiangxunyutaduishizhe，

bingfanglianjingdezhishengxialiangrenjiaocuodehuxisheng。jimiaohou，takaikou，yudiaomeiyourenheqifu：“keyi。

danqiantishi，zaizheili，meiyou‘duizhang’，zhiyou‘bingren’。wodemeiyigezhiling，nibixuwutiaojianfucong。

zuobudao，”tamuguangruili，“xianzaijiukeyihuanren。”zheishixuanzhan，yeshiqueliquanwei。

lujinshenheideyandilveguoyisijidande、leisibeitiaoxindaodeguangmang。tachenmodishenshizheta，

hengliangzheyanqianzheigekansiqinglengdenvyisheng，guzilijiujingyunzangzheduodadenengliang。zuizhong，tahoujiegundong，

tuchuyigezi：“hao。”jiangxunjibukechadidianlexiatou，liluozhuanshen，

duiyuanzhanghezhuanjiamenshuo：“zhiliaofanganwohuizaixiawuchulai。xianzai，woxuyaohewodebingrendandutantan。

”zhongrenqiaorantuiqu，fangmenqinghe。kongjianlizhishengxiatamenliangren。yangguangdeweilizaikongqizhonghuanmanfudong，

fangcaigongshigongbandejinzhangfenweisanqu，yizhonggengweimiao、gengningzhidedongxikaishiwushengmanyan。jiangxunzoudaochuangbian，

diaozhengleyixiachuanglian，rangguangxiangengjunyundisaru。shenhou，chuanlailujindichendeshengyin，

bigangcaiduolejifennanyiyanyudefuza。“jiangxun，”tashenglvelesuoyoutouxian，zhihuqiming，

“nizheijinian……guodehaoma？”jiangxunzhengzhunbeijilushujudeshou，zaikongzhongweibukechadidunleyicha。

tahuanhuanzhuanguoshen，yingshangtaneishuangshenchendefangfonengxizousuoyouguangxiandeyanjing，lianshangyijiumeishenmebiaoqing，

zhishichunjiaojidandigouleyixia，fenbianbuchushilimaohaishibiedeshenme。“henhao。”tayuqishuli，

“bulaoluduizhangguaxin。”tajiangbinglijiaheshang，fachuqingcuideyishengxiang，

fangfoweizheichangduanzandejiaofenghuashangjuhao。“haohaoxiuxi。xiawukaishi，meiyouqingsongrizile。”shuowan，

tabuzaikanta，jingzhizouxiangmenkou，baidaguadeyijiaohuachuyidaojuejuedehuxian。bingfangmenzaiciguanshang。

lujinningshizheneishanmen，jiujiumeiyouyikaishixian，jinbengdeshentijibukechadisongchixialai，huanhuanbishangyan，

yimoshenkedetongchuzhongyucongtajianyidemeiyujianxieluchulai。ermenwaidejiangxun，zaizoulangjintoutingxiajiaobu，

huiwangneishanjinbidefangmen。yangguangtouguobolichuang，zhaoliangtayijiupingjingdecelian。weiyoubaidaguakoudaili，

qiaoranzuanjinde、zhijiefanbaideshou，xielulepingjingbiaoxiangxiadebolanzhuangkuo。xiawuliangdian，

fujianshidedengguangmingliangdeyouxielengjun。lujinbeihushituirushi，jiangxunzhengbeiduizheta，zhenglizhezhiliaochuang。

tayijiuchuanzhebaidagua，danxiukouliluodiwanzhixiaobei，luchuleyijiebaixierxiantiaoliuchangdeshouwan。

tingdaolungusheng，tazhuanguoshen，shoulinazheyijuandanlidaihejigexiaoqiaodechuanganqi，

lianshangmeiyourenheduoyudebiaoqing。“jintiandemubiaoshiling。”takaikou，shengyinpingwendixuanbu。

lujinmeitoujibukechadicuqi，daizheguanyoudeshenshi：“ling？”“ling。”jiangxunzhongfu，zoudaotamianqian，

jiangyigexiaoxingjidianchuanganqitiezaitazuotuidatuijiroushang，bingliangdechuganrangtajirouweiweiyibeng。

“jihuonizuotuidegusitouji，rangpingmushangdejidianxinhao，conglingbianchengyi。”tazhixiangyipanglianjiedexianshiping，

neishangmian，daibiaotazuotuideboxingxian，jinhuyitiaosijidezhixian。eryoutuijiankangdeboxing，zezaiqingweidiqifu。

zheikansiweibuzudaodeyaoqiu，duiyuyitiaoshenjingyanzhongshousun、haibeishigaogudingdetuilaishuo，

buyayuyichanglinghunyuroutideboli。lujinminjinchun，muguangsuodingpingmu，

quanbuyizhidoujizhongxiangneitiaomamuerchenzhongdezuotui。yongli。zaiyongli。ejiaodeqingjinyinyinfuxian，hanshuishenchu，

danpingmushangdeboxing，yijiuwanguditiejinjixian，meiyousihaobodong。cuobaiganrutongbinglengdechaoshui，

wushengdimanyan。tayinyiweiaode、nengwanmeizhangkongshentideyizhili，zaicikexianderucicangbaiwuli。

“nidedanaozaifachuzhiling，danshenjingtongluduanle，xinhaowufadida。”jiangxundeshengyinzaiyipanglengjingdixiangqi，

rutongjieshuoyichangyujiwuguandezhandou，“fangqiniguanyongdebaofali，changshiyongzuixiweideyinian，quganshou，

quxunzhaoneiyisilianjie。”tadehuaxiangyigenzhen，jingzhundicipoletaqiangchengdeyingqiao。lujinbishangyan，

buzaiqukanneilingrenjuewangdepingmu，quanbuxinshenxiangneishoulian。shijianzaijijingzhongliushi。

jiuzaitajihuyaobeineipiansijideheiantunshishi，pingmushang，neitiaopingtandexian，

jiqiweiruodi、jihunanyichajuedi……tiaodongleyixia！suiranzhuanshunjishi，danneiqueshishiyigexiangshangdemaichong。

lujinmengdizhengkaiyan，chihongdeyandifanyongzhenanyizhixindezhendong。“kandaolema？”jiangxundeshengyinyijiupingdan，

quefangfodaizhemouzhongliliang，“lianjiehaizai。zheizhishidiyibu。”tameiyouchengzan，meiyouguli，

zhishichenshushishi。suiji，tajiangdanlidaideyiduanguding，lingyiduandijita：“xianzai，changshiyongyoutuidaidong，

zuokangzushenzhan，jianlijiroujiyi。”zheishikuzaozhijidezhongfu。yixia，youyixia。lujinchenmodizhixingzhe，

hanshuizhujianjinshiletabinghaofudelingkou。zhenggefujianshizhishengxiaqixieqingweideshengxianghetacuzhongdehuxi。turan，

tatingxiadongzuo，taiqihanshidelian，muguangruilidikanxiangyizhizhanzaipangbianjilushujudejiangxun。“jiangyisheng。

”“ng？”“niduifusuoyoubutinghuadebingren，douyongzheizhong……momieyizhidefangfa？”jiangxunbijianweiting，

touyebutai：“bu。”tazhongyutaiqiyan，yutaduishi，muguangqinglengruquan。

“wozhiduifuhaiyouyizhikemodeqiangzhe。”lujinhuxiyizhi，suoyoudehuadouduzailehoulongli。

takanzheyanqianzheigenvren，talengjing、zhuanye、daoqiangburu，jiangtasuoyouyinhuideshitanhezaodongdouqingyihuajie。

tamengdizhuanguotou，buzaishuohua，zhishigengjiayonglidi、jinhuzinvebandiladongneigendanlidai。

jiangxunkanzhetajinhupianzhidebeiying，heshangshouzhongdejiluben，fachuqingweide“kada”sheng。

“jintiandeqiangdugoule。guodupilaohuishideqifan。”shuowan，tabuzaitingliu，zhuanshenlikai。lujintingxiadongzuo，

kaozaiyibeishang，pibeidibishangyan。ganguanzaijijingzhongbeifangda，zuotuidatuijirouchu，

yinguoduzhuanzhuheshiyongerchanshengde、jiqixiweidesuanzhanggan，cikequewubiqingxi。neishixiwangdechugan。

yeshi……tadeshouzhicanliude、binglengdechugan。zheichangfashengzaiweiguanshijiedezhanzheng，diyidaobaolei，

yibeiqiaorankoukai。shenyedejunquzongyuan，chenjidexiangyizuokongcheng。lujintangzaibingchuangshang，

zuotuimianyanbujuededuntongrutongchaoxi，jingzhundipaidazhetadeshuimian。tasuoxingfangqi，caokonglunyilaidaochuangbian，

wangzhelouxiakongkuangdetingchechang。jiuzaizheishi，tapiejianxieduimianneidongxingzhenglou，sancengdeyigechuangkou，hailiangzhedeng。

neishijiangxundebangongshi。tajidebaitianhushisuikoutiguo，jiangboshidebangongshijiuzaineibian。zheimewanle，

tazaizuoshenme？yizhongshuobuqingdaobumingdeqingxu，qushitazhuandonglunyi，qiaowushengxidihuachulebingfang。

zoulangzhiliangzheyedeng，tadelunyigunguoguangjiededimian，fachuxiweideshengxiang。zhiyedehushikandaota，

youxiejingya，tazhishibailebaishou，shiyizijisuibianzhuanzhuan。talaidaoneishanliangzhedengdebangongshimenwai。

menmeiyouguanyan，xiechuyixianguangliang。touguomenfeng，takandaolejiangxun。tafuzaikuandadebangongzhuoshang，shuizhele。

taidengdeguangyungoulechutapibeidecelian，pingriliqinglengruilidexiantiaozaishuimengzhongbianderouhe。tadezuoshoubian，

tankaizhehouhoudeyixuewenxianheyingxiangpian，youshouhaisongsongdiwozheyizhibi。erzuiranglujinhuxiyizhide，

shitamianqiandebaibanshang。neishangmian，mimimamaxiemanlezi，huamanlejirouyushenjingdejiepoutu。zhengzhongyang，

shitademingzi——“lujin”。mingzixiamian，

shifenmenbielei、xizhidaokekedekangfujieduanmubiao、fengxianpinggu、yijibeixuanfangan。

jigeciyandehongsedazibeiquanlechulai：“shouyaomubiao：jihuoshenjingxinhao，dujuejirouweisuo！”pangbian，

haitiezhetazuixindejidiantu，neizhangjinhusijideboxingtubeifangda，

shangmianyonglansejihaobibiaozhuzhejigeweixiaodebodongdian，pangbianxiezhe：“xinhaodiana，b，

c……youfanyingqianli，xuzhongdian**。”yigujudade、qiansuoweiyoudechongji，henhenzhuangzailujindexinkou。

tayuanbenyiwei，baitiandexunlian，shitalengkuwuqingdezhuanyeyaoqiu。tashenzhizaixinlianzifufeiguotadeyanke。

kexianzaitacaimingbai，neimeiyigekansiweibuzudaodezhiling，nei“conglingdaoyi”demubiaobeihou，

shitabumianbuxiu、zaihaohanyixuewenxianhebinglengshujuzhong，weitacongjuewangliyingshengshengbaochudeyitiaoshenglu！

tabushizaimomietadeyizhi。tashizaiyongtazijidequanbuzhuanyehexinxue，weitadeyizhipulu。lujindemuguang，

zuizhongluozaitashuizheshirengweiweicuqidemeixinshang。

yisijixiweide、hunzazhekuijiu、zhendonghemouzhongnanyiyanyudexinteng，qiaoranmanshangxintou。tameiyoujinqu，

yemeiyoujingdongta。zhishijingjingdi、zaimenwaineipianhunandeyinyingli，kanletahenjiu。ranhou，tacaokonglunyi，

rutonglaishiyiyang，qiaowushengxidilikaile。huidaobingfang，chuangwaideyueguangqinglengdisaru。

zuotuidetengtongsihuyijiu，danlujindexinjingquejieranbutong。tabishangyan，

naohailibuzaishibaitiandecuobaihezishendetongku，ershineizhangudengxiapibeideshenying，

shibaibanshangneigebeiwushuxinxuehuanraodemingzi。diertianqingchen。jiangxunzhunshichuxianzaibingfang，

yanxiadaizhedandandeqinghei，danyanshenyijiuqingmingruili。taruchangdizhunbeizhechuanganqihedanlidai。

“jintianjixuchangshijihuogusitouji，womenxuyaokandaogengwendingdexinhao……”tadehuayinweiluo。

lujinhurankaikou，shengyindichenqueyichangqingxi：“jiangyisheng。”jiangxuntaimoukanta。tayingzhetademuguang，

meiyoulezhiqiandeshenshiyuduikang，zhiyouyizhongchendianxialaidepingjingyujianding。“jintianxuyaowozenmezuo？

”tadunledun，buchongdao，“wohuijinquanli。”jiangxunnazhechuanganqideshouweiweiyidun，

youxieyayidikanletayiyan。zheigenanren，sihuyounalibuyiyangle。

neiguzaodongde、jiyuzhengmingshenmedehuoqixiaoshile，querdaizhideshiyizhonggengchenwen、gengneiliandeliliang。

tabudongshengsedichuixiayanlian，jiangchuanganqitieshangtadetuibu。“henhao。neime，womenkaishi。”jijingdeshenye，

zhaojianleyigerendezhizhe，yeqiaorangaibianleyichangjiaoliangdedise。

kangfuxunlianzaiyizhongxinde、weimiaodepingjingzhongtuijinlejitian。

lujinzhanxianchutazuoweidingjiantezhongbingdelingyimian——jueduidezhuanzhuyuzhixingli。

tabuzaizhiyijiangxunderenhezhiling，meiyigedongzuodouliqiujingzhundaowei，

napadaijiashijieshuhoujinhuxutuodepibeiheyelijiajudetengtong。jiangxunjiangtadenulikanzaiyanli，

jiludeshujuyexianshizhehuanmandanqueshicunzaidejinzhan，jidianxinhaobuzaishiyipiansiji，

ouerhuichuxianduanzanerweiruodehuoyueqi。dantalianshangyijiumeishenmebiaoqing，zhishiouerzaidiaozhengqixiejiaodushi，

huiduojieshiyijuyuanli。zheitianxiawu，xunliangangjieshu，hushizhengbangluhecashihanshui，bingfangmenbeiqingqingqiaoxiang。

weidenghuiying，yigechuanzhechangfu、shenzitingbarusongdenianqingnanrenbiantanjintoulai，

lianshangdaizheshuanglangyouxiaoxinyiyidexiaorong：“touer！womenlaikannile！”tashenhou，

genzhejijinlailingwailianggetongyangjingqishenshizudenianqingren，shoulilinzheguolanheyingyangpin。

tamenshi“leiting”tujiduideduiyuan，houzi、daxionghedingzi。kandaobingfanglidejiangxun，

jirenlikeshoulianlexiaorong，xiayishiditingzhiyaoban，xiandeyouxiejujin。

tamendoutingshuoguozheiweikongjiangdekangfuzhuanjia，qichangtaiqiang，rangrenbuganzaoci。lujinkandaozhanyou，

yanzhongshanguoyisizhenzhengdenuanyi，danhenkuaibeiyanshiguoqu，zhidandandiantou：“laile。”“touer，nizenmeyang？

”waihao“houzi”dezhenchabingcoushangqian，muguangluodaotadazhehouzhongshigaodetuishang，xiaorongkualexialai，

“xiongdimendoukuaixiangsinile，duilimeileni，

ganjuedoubuyiyang……”tadehuabeipangbian“daxiong”yongshouzhouzhuangleyixia，jiaranerzhi。qifenyishiyouxiechenmen。

jiangxunzhenglihaoqixie，duilujinshuo：“jintiandaociweizhi，shidangxiuxihenzhongyao。”shuowan，tabianzhunbeilikai，

jiangkongjianliujitamen。jiuzaitayujigeduiyuancajianerguoshi，“houzi”sihuweiledapoganga，

naozhetouduilujingankaidao：“touer，kannizheiyang，wojiuxiangqidangnianni……”“houzi！

”lujindeshengyindouranbagao，daizheyizhongburongzhiyidelise，daduanleta。

neishengyinlideyanliheyisi……jihunanyichajuedejinghuang，rangzhenggebingfangshunjiananjingxialai。houziheleyitiao，

houmiandehuashengshengyanlehuiqu，youxiewucuodikanzhelujin。jiangxundejiaobu，zaimenkoudunzhule。tahuanhuanhuiguotou，

muguangpingjingdisaoguoshunjianbiaoqingguanlishikongdelujin，youkanlekanyilianmengranyouweiqudehouzi。

“xiangqitadangnianshenme？”takaikou，shengyinbuda，queqingxidichuanrumeigerenerzhong。kongqifangfoninggule。

lujinfangzailunyifushoushangdeshou，zhijieyinweiyonglierfanbai，tabikaijiangxundemuguang，

xiahexianbengdexiangyikuailengyingdetie。houzizhanglezhangzui，zailujinjihuyaosharendemuguangbishixia，

yigeziyebuganzaishuo。jiangxundeshixianzailujinjinbengdecelianshangtingliuleliangmiao，neishuangqinglengdemouzili，

shanguoyisijidandeyilv。tameiyouzaizhuiwen。“nimenliao。”tashouhuimuguang，zhuanshenlikailebingfang，

bingqingqingdaishanglemen。menyiguanshang，lujinfangfotuoliban，xianghoukaojinlunyi，bishangyan，

zhangzhangdi、wushengdituchuyikouqi。“touer……wo、woshuocuohualema？”houzitantediwen。

lujinmeiyouzhengyan，zhishipibeidihuilehuishou。“yihou……bietidangniandeshi。”menwaidezoulangshang，

jiangxunbingmeiyoulikelikai。tazhanzaichuangbian，kanzhelouxiajigeshenglonghuohudeduiyuanlaishiliuxiadejiaoyin，

meitouweicu。“dangnian……”qinianqiandefenshou，taneiburongzhiyidejuejue，

takouzhongneige“gengshihe”tadejiashixianhedeweihunqi……nandao，neichangkansijiandande“yiqingbielian”beihou，

haiyinzangzhetabuzhidaode“dangnian”？yigebeidangshirenhuimorushende“dangnian”，

rutongyigenqiaorantanchudeyinxin，wushengwuxidimairuletabenyiweizaoyipingjingdexinhu。“dangnian”lianggezi，

xiangyiketourujinghudeshizi，zaijiangxunxinliyangkaiquanquanlianyi。tashituyongguanchangdelengjingjiangqifuping，

jiangzhuyilizhongxinjizhongzailujindejidianxinhaotushang。neiyuanbensijidexiantiao，jinlaiqueshiyouleweiruodeshengji，

rutongbingxuechurongshi，dixiaanliudediyiciyongdong。raner，dangtazaicizoujinbingfang，

kandaolujinchenmojianyidecelianshi，neilianggezibianbushoukongzhidifuxian。tabizhiqiangengpeihe，

shenzhichengdeshangshuncong，danneishensuiyanmouzhongouershanguodefuzaqingxu，rangtaminruidichajuedao，zheishuncongzhixia，

yayizhejingtaohailang。xunlianshi，tagengjiapinming。hanshuijintoubinghaofu，jintiezaitabizhangdebeijishang。

meiyicifali，ejiaoqingjinbaoqi，taqueyaojinyaguan，lianmenhengdoulinyufachu。“jiroudaichangle。

”jiangxunqinglengdeshengyindaduantajinhuzinvedefali，“yongnidehexinheyinianyindao，bushikaomanli。

”tazoushangqian，gezhebobodeyiliao，shouzhijingzhundianzaitadatuimouchujirouqunshang。

weiliangdechuganranglujinshentijibukechadiyijiang。“zheili，”tadeshengyinhenjin，qixifuguotaerpan，

daizhexiaodushuiheyisijidandelengxiang，“ganshouzheilideshousuo。xiangxiangnengliangcongzheiliguanzhudaonidetuibu。

”lujinbishangyan，quanbudeganguanquebushoukongzhidijizhongzaitazhijianchupengdeneiyixiaokuaipifushang。neiweiliangzhixia，

fangfoyouxixiaodedianliucuanguo，raoluanletayinyiweiaodeyizhili。tayiyanchangshi，

dongzuoquebizhiqianzhiselexuduo。“budui。”jiangxunweiweicumei，shouzhishaoshaoyongli，“fangsong，biedikangwo。

”biedikangwo。zheijuhuaxiangyigenyumao，qingqingsaoguaguolujinxinshangneidaochenfengyijiudeliehen。qinianqian，

taxuanzeyongzuicankudefangshirangta“dikang”ta，henta，likaita。tamengdizhengkaiyan，

zhuangrutajinzaizhichide、chuncuizhuanzhuyuyixuewentideyanmou。neilimianqingchejiandi，

yingchutacikelvexianlangbeidedaoying。yiguhunzazhekuijiu、kewangyujuewangdeqingxu，

rutongyanjiangbanzaitaxiongqiangneibenyong，jihuyaochongpotalaolaozhuqidexinfang。tajihushicangcudibiekailian，

shengyinshaya：“……zhidaole。”jiangxunminruidibuzhuodaoletaneiyishunjiandeshitai。tashouhuishou，

zhijiancanliuzhetashentidewenduhejinbengdechugan。tameiyouzhuiwen，zhishituikaiyibu，

huifuleanquandezhiyejuli。“jintianjiudaozheili。”tazhuanshenzhengliqixie，beiyingyijiutingbaliluo。

kezhiyoutazijizhidao，gangcaineiyike，lujinyanzhongfanyongde、jihuyaojiangtatunshidejulietongku，rangtadexin，

yegenzhemomingdiquansuoleyixia。lujinkaozailunyili，pibeidibishangyan。zuotuidetengtongyijiu，

danyuanbujixinkouneisiliebandeduntong。tadezhuanye，tadelengjing，taouerliuluchude、budaizazhideguanqie，

douxiangzuiwenrouyezuifenglidedao，yicengcengbokaitajianyingdewaiqiao，luchulimiancongweiyuhedexueroumohu。

tahainengzaitamianqian，weizhuangduojiu？tazhuqidejiangubaolei，zaitabujingyidechupengxia，yiranliekaixiwen。

guangtoujinlaideshunjian，yezhaojianleneilicongweiyuhedechuangyi。neigenmingwei“dangnian”deyinxin，

zaijiangxunxinzhongqiaoranranshao。takaishiliuyilujinmeiyigexiweideyichang——tazhouranzhongduandehuayu，

takanxiangtashiyandishenzangdetongchu，haiyoutaduiyuanneiyuyanyouzhideshenqing。tabudongshengse，liyongzhiwuzhibian，

diaoyuelelujingengzaoqide、feibencishoushangdeyiliaojilu。xitongquanxianzaitazheigejibiebuchengwenti，

danqinianqiandejilu，youqishishejimouxieteshurenwude，wangwangbeifengcunhuojianhua。xiansuoliaoliao，

danbingfeiwujikexun。tazhaodaojicibumingyuanyinde、shijianbuduandezhuyuanjilu，zhenduanyuyanbuxiang。

haiyouyifenxinlipinggubaogaodezhaiyao，tidaole“zhongdachuangshanghouyingjizhangai（ptsd）fengxian”，shijiandian，

qiahaojiuzaitamenfenshouqianhou。yigemohude、rangtaxinjingdecaixiang，zhujianchengxing。zheitianxunlian，

neirongshizaipingxinggangnei，changshiwufuzhongxiadetuibuweixiaojiaodutaisheng。lujinwanchengdebiyuqihao，

jidianxinhaodiyicichuxianlechixushumiaodewendingdipinbodong。lianjiangxundourenbuzhukaikou：“henhao，baochizhu。

”tanandedeyijukending，xiangyidaoguang，shunjiandianlianglelujinchenjideyanmou。tataitoukanta，

zuijiaoshenzhibushoukongzhidi、jiqiweiruodixiangshangqiandongleyixia。neishiyigejihusuanbushangxiaorongdebiaoqing，

quedaizhehaiziqide、chuncuidexiyue，yutapingrililengyingdexingxiangxingchenglejudadefancha。jiangxundexin，

xiangshibeishenmedongxiqingqingzhuangleyixia。jiuzaizheishi，bingfangmenbeiqiaoxiang。zhiqianlaiguode“houzi”youlaile，

zheicitaxueguaile，xiantantoutannao，kandaojiangxunzai，likeguiguijujuzhanhao：“jiangyisheng！touer！

womeidaraoba？”“youshi？”lujinxunsushoulianleqingxu，huifuchangtai。houzinaonaotou，

youxiebuhaoyisi：“touer，zhiqiannirangwobangnizhaodeneibenlaobande《danbingyewaishengcunshouce》，wozhaodaole，

jinisongguolai。”tashuozhe，congbaolitaochuyibenfengmianmosunyanzhongdejiushu。lujinjieguo，

suishoufangzaiyipang：“xiele。”jiangxundemuguangquedinggezaineibenshushang。zheibenshu……taiyanshule。qinianqian，

tahelujinhaizaiyiqishi，jiuchangjiantafanyue，

shuyelihaijiazhetadangshisuishoujitaxiedeshuqian……houziwanchengrenwu，heiheiyixiao：“zhaodaolejiuhao！

touernidangniankeshikaozhezheibenshu……”tadehuazaicijiaranerzhi，zheicibushibeilujindaduan，

ershitazijimengdiwuzhulezui，jingkongdikanxianglujin，youfeikuaidipiaolejiangxunyiyan。

lujindelianseshunjianchenlexialai，yanshenruilirudao，wushengdijinggaozhehouzi。

houzihedeyisuobozi：“wo、wohaiyourenwu！touerjiangyishengnimenmang！”shuowan，jihushiluohuangertao。

bingfanglizaicizhishengxiatamenliangren。kongqifangfoninggule，chenzhongderangrenzhixi。jiangxunhuanhuanzoudaoneibenjiushuqian，

naqi。shuyeziranfanluodaomouyiye，yizhangfanhuangde、bianyuanyouxiejuanqudebianqianzhilulechulai。shangmian，

shitadangnianqingxiudeziji：“jiwodeyingxiong。pinganguilai。——xun”shiguang，fangfozaizheiyikezhouranhuisu，

youhenhenzahuixianshi。jiangxunnaqineizhangbianqian，zhuanshen，kanxiangliansecangbai、xiahebengjindelujin。

tadeshengyinhenqing，quedaizheyizhongdongchuanyiqiedeliliang，zaijijingdebingfangliqingxidihuidang：“lujin，”tawen，

“nidangnian，jiujingshiqulenali？shouleduozhongdeshang，cairangnifeideyong‘bianxin’zheizhongfangshi，bawotuikai？

”lujinmengditaiyan，zhuangshangtaqingchequefangfonengkantouyiqiedemuguang。

tagouzhuleqiniande、ziyiweijianguwubidefangxian，zaizheiyike，

zaitapingjingdezhushiheneizhangfanhuangdebianqianmianqian，hongrankailie，yaoyaoyuzhui。jiangxundeshengyinbugao，

quexiangyibazhongchui，henhenzazailujinxinshangneidaochenfengqinian、zaoyihuanongdeshangkoushang。talianseshabai，

suoyoudexueyefangfoshunjiantunqu，lianzuichundoushileyanse。takanzhetashouzhongdeneizhangfanhuangbianqian，

kanzheshangmianqingxiruzuodeziji——“jiwodeyingxiong”。meiyigezidouxiangshaohongdeluotie，

tangdetalinghundouzaizhandou。tazhanglezhangzui，xiangfouren，xiangzaicizhuqibinglengdeweiqiang。

kemianduitaneishuangqingliede、fangfonengdongchuanyiqieweizhuangdemouzi，suoyoudehuangyandouxiandeneimecangbaiwuli。

qiniandeyayi，qiniandehuihen，qinianderiyejianao，zaizheiyike，zhongyuchongkualetasuoyoudefangxian。

tamengdidixiatou，shuangshousisizhuazhuzijidetoufa，zhijieyinweiguoduyonglierfanchuqingbaise。

kuankuodejianbangwufakongzhidijuliezhandouqilai，xiangyigenishuizhiren，zhongyufangqilezhengzha。“……shi。

”yigeposuideyinjie，congtahoulongshenchujilechulai，daizhexuelinlindetongchu。jiangxunniezhebianqiandeshouzhi，

weiweishoujin。tazhanzaiyuandi，meiyoudong，zhishijingjingdikanzheta，dengdaizhetaqinshoujiekaineigecankudezhenxiang。

“neici…shijingwaimimiqingsaorenwu…”tadeshengyinshayadelihai，duanduanxuxu，

meiyigezidouhaofeizhetajudadeliqi，

“women…zaoyulefuji…weileyanhu…houzitamenchetui…wo…”tadehuxizhouranjicu，

yanqianfangfoyoumimanqidangniandexiaoyanyuxuexingwei，erbianshizheneryulongdebaozhashenghezhanyoudemenheng。

“wozhonglesanqiang…congshijimigaodexuanyashang…shuailexiaqu…”tamengditaiqitou，

chihongdeyanjinglishiyipianjuewangdehuangyuan，leishuibushoukongzhidiyongchu，hunzazhehanshui，

langbeiditangguotagangyidelianjia，

“jizhu…yaozhui…duochufensuixingguzhe…yishengshuo…wokeneng…yongyuandouzhanbuqilaile…”tasisidingzhejiangxun，

xiangshiyaotongguozheizhongfangshi，rangtaganshoudaotadangniandejuewang。“yige…feiren…wozenme…zenmenengtuoleini？！

”tadeshengyindouranbagao，daizheqixuebandesiya，

“nineimeyouxiu…nideweilaiyinggaiyougenghaoderen…erbushishouzheyige…lianshenghuodoubunengzilidecanfei！

”suoyi，taxuanzelezuicanrendefangshi。taganzoulesuoyoulaitanwangdezhanyou，

lianheleyiweiqiafengqihui、jiashixianhedenvxingpengyou，yanleyichang“yiqingbielian、lingpangaozhi”dexima。

tayongzuiedudeyuyan，qinshoujiangtazuiaidenvhai，congtadeshengminglituikai。tayiweineishibaohu。quebuzhidao，

neishiduilianggeren，zhangdaqiniandelingchi。bingfangli，zhishengxiatayayibuzhude、rutongshoushangyeshoubandewuyansheng。

zheigezaiqianglindanyuzhongdoumianbugaisedenanren，cikequansuozailunyishang，kudexianggemiludehaizi。

jiangxunzhanzaiyuandi，shentijiangying。takanzhetabengkuidemoyang，tingzhetaqixuedetanbai，

xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshoujinjinzuanzhu，tengdejihuwufahuxi。yuanlai，bushibuai。yuanlai，shitaiai。

aidaoningyuanzijiduorudiyu，yeyaobatatuixiangtarenweideguangming。tayizhiyiweidebeipan，

jingranshiyichangjingxincehuade、yiaiweimingdexisheng。tahuanhuantaiqishou，kanzheneizhangchengzaizhenianshaoailiandebianqian，

zhijianweiweizhandou。qinianlaideyuanhen、bujie、bugan，zaizheiyike，rutongyangguangxiadebingxue，kaishiqiaoranxiaorong。

zhenxiang，wangwangbihuangyangengrangrentongchexinfei。qiniandebingshanhongrandaota，luchude，

shishenmaiqixia、zaoyixueroumohudezhenxin。lujindewuyansheng，xiangshoushangyeshouzuihoudeaiming，zaibingfanglidihuai，

ranhoujianjianchenjixiaqu，zhishengxiacuzhongeryayidechuanxi。tatanzailunyishang，

fangfogangcaineichangbengkuihaojinletasuoyoudeliqi，liantaitoudeyongqidouyishiqu。jiangxunzhanzaiyuandi，yidongbudong。

chuangwaidetiansebuzhiheshianchenxialai，wuyunyajing，menleishengyouyuanjijin。canbaidedengguanglongzhaozhebingfang，

jiangyiqiedouzhaodeqingxierbingleng，baokuolujinlianshangweigandeleihen，hetacikecuiruodebukanyijidebeiying。

tashouzhongdeneizhangbianqian，bianyuanyibeitawuyishiniedezhezhou。shangmiandeziji，“yingxiong”erzi，

cikekanlaiwubiciyan。tayizhiyiweidebeipan，yuanlaishiyichangziyiweishide、canliedexisheng。qinian。

tadaizhebeiniansuidexinheyigubufushudehenyi，zaiyixuelushangpinmingkuangben，

chenglerujinnengzhuzaitakangfumingyundezhuanjia。erta，

zebeifuzhe“fuxinhan”dezuiminghekenengzhongshencanjidejuewang，zaishentiyuxinlingdeshuangzhonglianyuliduzizhengzha。

meiyouyingjia。tamendouzaizheichangyoutayishoudaoyandebeijuli，shanghenleilei。“suoyi，”jiangxunzhongyukaikou，

shengyindaizheyizhongguoduqingxuchongjihoudeqiyipingjing，shenzhibipingshigengleng，“nijiudanfangmianjuedinglewodeweilai？

renweilikaini，jiushiduiwohao？”lujinshentimengdiyizhan，quemeiyouhuida。“lujin，”tawangqianzouleyibu，

shengyinbugao，queziziqingxi，zazaitaxinshang，“nidangnianwendoumeiwenguowo，zenmezhidao，

wobuhuixuanzeheniyiqimiandui？”zheijuhua，birenhezhizedougengranglujinwudizirong。tamengditaitou，

yanzhongshijudadetonghuihemangran。shia，tadangnianpingshenmetitazuojueding？pingshenmeyongneizhongzuishangrendefangshi，

cuihuiletaduiaiqingsuoyoudexinyang？buguoshizhangzhetaaita，zhangzhe……taziyiweishide“weitahao”。

“wo……”tazhanglezhangzui，quefaxianzijilianbianjiedeliyoudourucicangbaikexiao。jiuzaizheishi，

“hua——”deyisheng，yunniangyijiudebaoyuzhongyuqingpenerxia，mijideyudianhenhenzazaibolichuangshang，

fachujicuerchenmendeshengxiang，fangfoyaojiangzhenggeshijieyanmei。yushengyangailebingfangneilingrenzhixidejijing。

jiangxunmeiyouzaikanta。tajiangneizhangzhezhoudebianqian，qingqingfanghuileneibenjiushushang，dongzuohuanmanerzhengzhong，

xiangshizaimaizangyigeshidai。ranhou，tazhuanshen，chaobingfangmenkouzouqu。“jiangxun！”lujindeshengyindaizhekonghuang，

xiayishidixiangyaozuzhitalikai，shentiyidong，zuotuichuanlaizuanxindetengtong，rangtashunjianmenhengyisheng，