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《tashouzheyifuzi，woshouhuogua》xiaoshuoyouzuozhexinandabocaisuoxie，qingjiebolanqifu，xijiemiaoxiedeweimiaoweixiao，xiaoshuodezhurengongshifulinyuanchengsuizhouyang，jiangshule：nizaibaofuwo……」tayaozhetou，yanshenhuansan，xiangshinishuiderenzhuazhuzuihouyigenfumu，「tazhishishengwodeqi……tazhishi……

精彩章节

jiehunjinianri，taqucanjiabaiyueguangdezangli。zanglishangtatuxuehunmi，xinglaiqueduduwanglewoshitaqizi。

fujiarangwobanyantade“zhiyou”，zhiweibaozhubaiyueguangfuzhong“yifuzi”。worenrupeihezheichanghuangdandaxi，

zhidaotasihouzhezhiwen：“chengsui，niyizhizaipianwo！”zhenxiangsikaideshunjian，tapenzhexuedaoxia，

huanwoyijubinglengde“womenlihun”。houlai，tazhuirushenyuanchenglehuosiren，

chuangtouquebaizheyizhangfahuntuntanshang——wodecelianzhao。yuanlaitajideyiqie，zhishibujideaiwo。chenyuanzhixia，

meiyouyingjia，zhiyouwopinsizhengchudeyidianweiguang。1jiangwanyizanglineitian，

shiwohefulinyuanjiehunsanzhouniandejinianri。fengcidexianglaotianyeqinshouxiedejuben。lingtangsumu，

heibaizhaopianshangdenvrenyijiumeidejingxindongpo，meiyanjiandaizhefulinyuanzuimiliandeneizhongposuigan。

tashibaozheguhuihehuilaide，yishenchunheigaodingxizhuang，chendetaliansebizhihaibai。

pingriliyisibugoudetoufacikeyouxielingluan，shensuideyanwoxiashinongzhongdeyinying。binkemendishengchuoqi，

shuozhe“hongyanboming”、“tianduyingcai”。fujialaoyezizhuzheguaizhang，laoleizongheng。

fulinyuandemuqingengshikudaozaiyixiangqian，hanzhe“wokumingdewanyi”。

kongqilimimanzhebaihehunhezhexiaodushuideweidao，menderenchuanbuguoqi。wozuoweifulinyuanmingyishangdeqizi，

anjingdizhanzairenqunbianyuan，xianggejuwairen。fulinyuandemuguangkongdongdisaoguozhongren，zuihouluozaiwoshenshang。

neiyanshen，meiyouwendu，zhiyouchendiandiande、jihuyakuarendepibeihe……mouzhongwokanbudongde、nongchoudehenyi？

huozhejinjinshimoran？tachaowozoulai，jiaobuyouxiexufu。「suisui。」takaikou，shengyinsiyadelihai。

woxiayishidishenchushou，xiangqufutayouxieyaohuangdeshenti。jiuzaiwodezhijianjijiangchupengdaotashoubeideshunjian，

taxiangshibeishenmedongxitangdao，mengdiyisuo。xiayimiao，tazuochuleyigerangzhenggelingtangshunjiansijidedongzuo。

tawushilewoshenchudeshou，zhenggerenzhizhidixiangqiandaoqu。quebushidaoxiangwo。ershizhongzhongdi、haowubaoliudi，

pudaozailejiangwanyineizhangjudadeheibaiyixiangqian。etouhenhenkezaibinglengjianyingdedalishigongzhuobianyuan。

「wanyi……biediuxiawo……」xianxue，congtaguangjiedeejiaowanyanerxia，cimudidiluozaichunbaideditanshang，

yinkaiyiduojuewangdehua。2suoyourendouheshale。fujialuanchengyituan。jiatingyishengchongshanglaijijiu，

baobiaoshitugekaihunluanderenqun。fulinyuanbeijinjisongwangfujiatouzidedingjisirenyiyuan。

chubuzhenduan：qingweinaozhendang，waijiaqingxujidubengkuidaozhidezanshixingshiyi。shide，shiyi。

tajidezijishifulinyuan，jidefushijituan，jidetadefumuqinren。weidu，wangjilewo，chengsui。

yewangjilejiangwanyiyijingsilezheijianshi。3vipbingfangli，xiaodushuiweigengnong。fulinyuantoushangchanzheshabu，

lianseyijiucangbai，danneishuangzongshishengmanshulihesuanjideyanjing，cikequexiangmengleyicengwu，mangranyoucuiruo。

zheizhongcuiruo，shiwohetajiehunsannianlaicongweijianguode。fumuzuozaichuangbian，jinjinwozhetadeshou，

yanleijiumeitingguo。「linyuan，niganjuezenmeyang？touhaitengma？」fulinyuanzhouzhemei，

shixianzaibingfanglimangrandisaoshi，zuihoudinggezaiwoshenshang。takanlewohenjiu，yanshenmosheng，daizheyisitanjiu。

「ma，」tazhongyukaikou，shengyinyouxiechiyi，「tashishei？」fumudekushengdunleyixia，

lianshangshanguoyisifuza，suijiduiqiyigeanfudexiao，qingqingpaizhetadeshoubei。「linyuan，zheishisuisui，chengsui。

」tadunledun，shengyinfangdegengrou，xianghonghaizi，「shini……shinihenzhongyaodepengyou。nishoushangle，

tateyilaikannide。」pengyou？wodexinxiangbeiyizhibinglengdeshouzuanjin，youhenhenshuaizaidishang。fulinyuantingle，

meitouzhoudegengjin，sihuzainulihuiyishenme，zuizhonghaishifangqi。taduiwochechuyigejiqiketaoshulideweixiao，

dianlediantou。「cheng**，mafannile。」cheng**……zheisangezi，xiangcuilebingdezhen，

mimimamazhajinxinzang。sannianlai，tacongweizheiyangjiaoguowo。jishishichaojialengzhan，

tayezhihuilianmingdaixingdihan“chengsui”。rujin，wochengletakouzhongmoshengde“cheng**”。

4fumubawoladaobingfangwaidexiaohuiketing。shehuadezhenpishafazuozheluoren。tabaoyangdeyidelianshangleihenweigan，

yanshenqueyijinghuifuleshangjienvqiangrenteyoudejingmingheburongzhiyi。「suisui，」tatanlekouqi，

yuqidaizheyizhongchenzhongdewunai，「nikandaole，linyuanxianzaizheigeyangzi。

yishengshuotaqianyishilishoudaotaida**，xuanzelefengbizuitongkudeneibufenjiyi……wanyidesi，

haiyou……haiyounimendeguanxi。」taguanchazhewodelianse，zhenzhuozheciju。「yishengshuo，

qiangxing**tahuifujiyi，fengxianhenda，kenenghuichedibengkui。xianzaizuihaodebanfa，jiushishunzhetadejiyilai，

rangtamanmanjieshouxianshi。」wohoulongfagan：「ma，nindeyisishi……」fumubikaiwodemuguang，

kanxiangbingfangdefangxiang，shengyinyadehendi，queziziqingxi。「wanyiduzilidehaizi，shilinyuanweiyideguroule。

」wohunshenyijiang。jiangwanyihuaiyunle？zaisizhiqian？「neihaizi……yijingsigeduoyuele。

linyuanchushiqiancaizhidao，haimeilaidejigaoxing……」fumudeshengyingengzhu，yanquanyouhongle，「wanyibuzaile，

zheihaizijiushifujiaweilaidezhiwang！shilinyuandeminggenzi！zaiyebunengyourenheshanshile。」tazhuanguotou，

muguangruilidisuozhuwo，daizheyizhongjinhulengkudekenqiu。「suisui，nishilinyuanfalvshangdeqizi，

shizheigejiadenvzhuren。xianzaitazheigeyangzi，zhijidewanyi，bawanyidangcheng……dangchengtazuizhongyaoderen。

weilehaizi，weilelinyuannengwendingxialai，yeweilefujia……」tashenxiyikouqi，zhuazhuwodeshou，

liqidadejingren。「weiquni，zanshi……zanshibanyanhao‘pengyou’dejiaose。denghaizipinganshengxialai，

denglinyuanqingxuwendingxie，womenyidinghuimanmangaosutazhenxiang！daoshihou，fujiajuebuhuikuidaini！」weiqu？

banyan？wokanzhefumubaoyangdeyideshou，neishangmiandaizhedeshuodafeicuijiezhiluodewoshengteng。yuanlai，

zaifujiayanli，wozheigemingmeizhengqudeqizi，zuidadejiazhi，jiushizaizheizhongshihou，

banyanyigeshidatide“pengyou”，jihuaizhezhangfuguroudebaiyueguangtengweizhi，zuobaomu？fulinyuanshiyile，

bujidewo。fujiaweileneigeweichushidehaizihefulinyuandeqingxu，xuanzerangwoyinshen。neiwoni？wozheisannian，

yousuanshenme？5fulinyuanchuyuanhou，beijiehuilefujiashandingneizuorutonggubaobandezhuangyuan。

jiangwanyishengqianzhude“tinglanyuan”，beijingxinbuzhichengleliaoyangzhongxin。fulinyuanzhulejinqu。erwo，

zuoweita“zhongyaodepengyou”chengsui，ye“shouyao”zhulejinlai——zhujinlelizhulouzuiyuandexicefulou。

傅临渊的记忆，

guzhiditingliuzaileyigeqiguaidejiedian：tahejiangwanyishibicishenaidanzaoyujiazuzulideqinglv，

erwoshita“xinrende”、bangzhutahejiangwanyianzhonglianxide“pengyou”。duomehuangmiudejuben。

takaishipinfandizhaowo。「cheng**，wanyijintianweikouzenmeyang？taxihuanheworangrendundeyanwoma？」

tazuozaiwoduimian，chuanzherouruandejiajufu，yanshendaizheshiyizheteyoudeneizhongchuncuixunwen。

yongrenmeitiandouhuibadingjixueyansongdaotinglanyuandexiaochufang。fulinyuanhuiqinzikanzhehuohou。

xushanglouqukan“yangtai”dejiangwanyi——fumuheyishengpatajinjulijiechuyige“bucunzai”derenhui**ta。

tazhinengtongguowozheige“zhongjianren”chuandiguanxin。wokanzhetaneishuangcengrangwochennideyanjing，

cikeshengmanduilingyigenvrendedanyou，xinzangxiangbeidundaozifanfuqiege。「ta……tinghaode。」wochuixiayan，

zhijiajihuqiajinzhangxin。「neijiuhao。」tasonglekouqi，zuijiaoluchuyisihaiziqidexiaorong，suijiyoucuqimei，

「womazongburangwoshangqukanta，shuopawochaodaotaxiuxi。cheng**，nibangwoduopeipeita，

tayigerenkendinghenmen。」wochelechezuijiao，suanshihuiying。jiangwanyisile。

guhuihejiuzaifujiadecitangligongzhe。erwo，meitianyaoduizhetadezhangfu，

bianzhizheguanyutade、huoseshengxiangdehuangyan。6neitian，

woqutinglanyuanjifulinyuansongyifenxuyaotajinjiqianzidewenjian。gangzoudaoshufangmenkou，

xuyandemenfenglichuanlaiyayidezhengchaosheng。shifulinyuanhefumu。「ma！weishenmeyaobawanyiguanqilai？

tadaodizenmele？weishenmewolianjiantayimiandoubuxing？」fulinyuandeshengyindaizhejiaozaohetongku。「linyuan，

nilengjingdian！」fumudeshengyintouzheyanli，「yishengshuole，nixianzaixuyaojingyang！wanyita……tataixiangbuwen，

qingxuyehencuiruo，nimenjianmianzhihuihuxiang**！mashiweinimenhao！」「weiwohao？

weiwohaojiubawoqiziguanzheburangwojian？」fulinyuandeshengyindouranbagao，daizheshikongdebianyuan，

「tashibushichushile？manigaosuwo！wanyidaodizenmele！」「peng！」yishengmenxiang，

xiangshiquantouzazaizhuozishangdeshengyin。「tahenhao！tazhishixuyaoxiuxi！」fumudeshengyinyejianliqilai，

「ninengbunengdongdianshi！xiangxiangniba，xiangxianggongsi！xianzaiwaimianduoshaoshuangyanjingdingzhefujia？

nixiangrangquantianxiadouzhidaofushizongcaifengle，baozhegeguhuihehanlaopoma！」kongqishunjianninggu。menwaidewo，

rutongbeibingshuicongtoujiaodaojiao。guhuihe……fulinyuanshiyile，danfumuqingjizhixiatuokouerchudezheisangezi，

xiangyibacuidudebishou，henhentongpoleneicengxujiadepaomo。shufanglisiyibandejijing。jimiaozhonghou，

chuanlaifulinyuanjidutongku、rutongkunshoubandesihou，haiyoudongxibeifengkuangsaoluozaididesuiliesheng。「a——！」

「gun！doujiwogunchuqu！」yongrenhebaobiaohuangluandichongjinqu。wozhanzaimenwai，quanshendexueyedouliangtoule。

yuanlaifujiaderen，baokuofulinyuanzijiqianyishili，doushizhidaode。tamenzhishizaiheliyanyichanghuangdandedaxi。

erwo，shixilizuibeiweidedaoju。7neiwanzhihou，fulinyuandeqingxumingxiangengbuwendingle。

tabuzaiwenwoguanyu“jiangwanyi”deshi，zhishibiandegengjiachenmoyinyu。kanwodeyanshenli，

neizhongmoshengdetanjiujianjianbeiyizhonggengshenchen、gengfuzadedongxiqudai，xiangshimimang，youxiangshi……huaiyi？

takaishizuoyixieqiguaideshi。biru，tahuituranchuxianzaiwozhudexiloufujin，zaiwoduzisanbushi，

yuanyuandikanzhewo，yanshenkongdong，xiangshizaiwoshenshangxunzhaomougebucunzaideyingzi。biru，

tahuipairensonglaiyixieangguiquewanquanbudadeshoushi，difunideyaochixianglian，kadiyadedingzishouzhuo，

fenggejiongyi，yikanjiubushijiwode。「cheng**，fuxianshengshuo……zheishiji……jiwanyi**de。」

songdongxilaidezhuliyilianganga，「tarangnin……daiweibaoguan，huozhe……zhuanjiao。」womianwubiaoqingdishouxia。

jiangwanyixihuanshenme，wotaiqingchule。taxihuanxiaozhongshejishidezuopin，xihuanzhenzhudewenrun，

xihuanyushidehanxu。zheixiezhangyangdeshechipinpai，conglaibushitadefengge。shifulinyuandejiyichedihunluanle？

haishi……tazaishitanshenme？gengrangwoxintoufalengdeshi，wofaxianfulinyuanshufangdechoutili，duoleyipingyao。

yaopingshangdebiaoqianshiyingwen，wotoutouchale，

shiguowaiyongyuzhiliaoyanzhongchuangshanghouyingjizhangai（ptsd）hefenlixingzhangaideqiangxiaozhenjingyaowu。fujia，

zaijitayongmengyao。8zhenzhengyakualuotuodezuihouyigendaocao，shizaiyicifujiadejiayanshang。

weileanfufulinyuandeqingxu，yeweilezaiwaijiemianqianweichi“yiqiezhengchang”dejiaxiang，

fumuzaizhuangyuanlijubanleyigexiaoxingwanyan，yaoqingdedoushifujiahexindeqinqiheshijiao。

wozuowei“zhongyaodepengyou”，ziranyezaixi。fulinyuanbeizhusheleyaowu，kanqilaipingjinglexuduo，

chuanzhejiancaiwanmeidexizhuang，zuozaizhuwei，shenqingyijiushineizhongdaizhejuligandedanmo，

ouerchedongzuijiaoyingfuyixiapangrendewenhou，dishuibulou。jiuguosanxun，qifenkansirongqia。yigeyuanfangbiaoshen，

dagaishiheduole，yekenengshitaijiumeijianguojiangwanyi，youhuoxushifulinyuanjinwandepingjingjiletacuojue。

taduanzhejiubei，xiaozhekanxiangfulinyuan。「linyuana，wanyizenmemeixialai？zheidoujigeyuele，

haixiyegaihaoxieleba？shangcijianta，neihaizikezhenshi，yuezhangyuexiangnile！」kongqishunjiandongjie。

suoyourendemuguangdoujingkongdikanxiangneiweibiaoshen，ranhouyouqishuashuadizhuanxiangfulinyuan。fulinyuanduanzhejiubeideshou，

mengdiyidun。beizhongdehongjiuyemianjuliedihuangleyixia。talianshangneicengpingjingdemianju，

yirouyankejiandesuducuncunguilie。tadeyanshen，congmangran，daokunhuo，

zaidaoyizhongbeijudahuangyanyunonghoude、huoshanpenfaqiandesiji。tahuanhuandi，jiqihuanmandizhuanguotou，

muguangxiangcuilehanbingdelijian，zhizhishexiangwo。neiyanshen，buzaishishiyihoudemoshenghecuiruo。

ershichongmanlebeibeipandezhenjing、taotiandenuhuo，heyizhong……zhongyukan**xiangde、lingrenxinjidejuewang。

「cheng、sui。」tayaozheya，yiziyidun，shengyinbuda，quexiangjingleizhaxiangzaisijideyanhuiting。

「niyizhizaipianwo。」「wanyita……daodizaina？」9zhenggeyanhuitingyaquewusheng，luozhenkewen。

fumulianseshabai，shoulidecanjindiaozaidishangdouhunranbujue。qitaqinqigengshihededaqibuganchu。

fulinyuansisididingzhewo，neishuangbumanhongxuesideyanjingli，fanyongzhejingtaohailang。

shiyidepingzhangsihubeizheicankudezhiwensikaileyidaojudadekouzi，tongkuhehunluanrutonghongshuibanqingxieerchu。

「shuoa！」tamengdizhanqishen，dongzuotaida，daidaoleshenhoudegaobeiyi，fachucierdemocasheng。

tajibukuadaowomianqian，gaodadeshenyingdailaichenzhongdeyapogan，daizhejiuqiheyaoweidezhuoreqixipenzaiwolianshang。

「nigaosuwo！wanyitarenni？taduzilidehaizini！」tashikongdizhuazhuwodejianbang，

lidaodadexiangshiyaoniesuiwodegutou，「nimenbatazangdaonaliqule？nimenduitazuoleshenme！」「linyuan！

nilengjingdian！」fumujianjiaozhechongguolai，xiangyaolakaita。「gunkai！」fulinyuanxiangyitoubeichedijinudeshizi，

henhenshuaikaifumudeshou。fumuliangqiangzhehoutui，beipangbiandeqinqifuzhu。tadeyanlizhishengxiawo，

zhishengxiabeiqipiandekuangnu。「chengsui，huidawo！」tayaohuangzhewo，shengyinsiyaposui，

「nibushishuotahenhaoma？nibushimeitiandouzaipeizhetama？tarenni？！」jianbangchuanlaijutong，

gutousihudouzai**。wokanzheyanqianzheizhangyinbaonuerniuqudejunlian，

kanzhetayandineipianbeibeipande、shenbujiandidetongkuwangyang，xindizuihouyisijiaoxinghewenduyechediximie。

yuanlai，jishishiyile，taduijiangwanyideai，yijiushitalinghunlishaobujindeyehuo。erwozheige“pengyou”，

buguoshitazaihuangyuanshang，suishouzhuazhudeyigendaocao。yidanfaxiandaocaoshijiade，neitaotiandenuhuo，

bianhuijiangwofenhuidaijin。「tasile。」woyongjinquanshenliqi，qingxidituchuzheisangezi。shengyinbuda，

quexiangyibabinglengdebishou，shunjiancipolesuoyouxujiadexuanxiao。「jiangwanyi，sangeyueqian，

zaicongruishihuiguodesirenzhishengjishang，zhuijishenwang。yishiliangming。」「nibaozhetadeguhuihehuilaide。

niwangle？」「nideqizi，zaojiusile。」10shijianfangfobeianxialezantingjian。

fulinyuanlianshangsuoyoudebaonu、zhiwen、fengkuang，douzaiyishunjianninggule。tadetongkongzhouranfangda，

xiangshitingdaoleshijieshangzuihuangmiu、zuibukenengdeshiqing。「bu……bukeneng……」tanannanzhe，

zhuazhuwojianbangdeshou，lidaoquebuyouzizhudisongle。「nipianwo……chengsui，nizaipianwoduibudui？

nizaibaofuwo……」tayaozhetou，yanshenhuansan，xiangshinishuiderenzhuazhuzuihouyigenfumu，

「tazhishishengwodeqi……tazhishiduoqilaile……tabuhuiside……」tamengdisongkaiwo，

liangqiangzhehoutuiyibu，yanshenkuangluandizaiyanhuitinglisouxun，

sihuxiangcongneixietongyangzhenjinghekongjudelianshangzhaodaofoudingdedaan。「ma！nigaosuta！tazaisahuang！」

tazhuanxiangfumu，shengyinlidaizhejuewangdeaiqiu，「wanyimeiyousi！tameiyou！」fumuzaoyileiliumanmian，

wuzhezui，qibuchengsheng，zhinengyonglidiyaotou。qitaqinqiyedoubiekailian，burenzaikan。zuihouyisixijipomie。

fulinyuanlianshangdexuesetundeyiganerjing，zhishengxiayizhongsijidehuibai。tagaodadeshenquhuanglehuang，

xiangyizuohongrandaotadeshanfeng。「pu——」yikouxianxue，haowuyuzhaodi，congtakouzhongpenyongerchu！

xinghongdexuedianjianluozaitaangguidebaichenshanshang，chumujingxin。yejianlejidizaiwobingliangdeshoubeishang，

daizheguntangde、lingrenzuooudewendu。「linyuan！」「kuaijiaoyisheng！」jianjiaoshengzaicizhakai，

bizhiqiangengjiakonghuang。fulinyuandeshentizhizhidixianghoudaoqu，yanjingsisidizhengzhe，

wangzheyanhuitingneicuicanquebinglengdeshuijingdiaodeng，yanshenkongdongdexianggebeitaokongdepobuwawa。chedibengkui。

11fulinyuanbeijinjisongjinlezhongzhengjianhushi。yishengshuoshijinugongxin，

jiashangzhiqiannaozhendangheyaowudiejiadefuzuoyong，yinfaleyanzhongdeyingjixingxinnaoxueguanfanying。

qingkuangyidufeichangweiji。fumuzaibingfangwaikuyunguoquliangci。fujiachediluanletao。erwo，

zheige“zuikuihuoshou”，zaifujiayipianbinghuangmaluanzhong，huidaolexilou。fangjianliyipianqihei。womeiyoukaideng，

zhishizoudaojudadeluodichuangqian。chuangwaishifujiazhuangyuanjingxindalidehuayuan，yeseliyingyingchuochuo，

xianggehualidelaolong。shoubeishang，neijidianyijingganhefaandexueji，xiangchouloudeluoyin。wodakaishuilongtou，

binglengdeshuiliuchongshuazheshoubei，yibianyouyibian，pifubeicuodefahongfatong，danneiyinjisihuyijingshenrulegusui。

fulinyuanneikoupenchudexue，tadaoxiashineichediposuideyanshen，buduanzaiwonaohaizhonghuifang。wobaofulema？

shuochulezhenxiang，sipolefujiajingxinbianzhidehuangyan，kanzhefulinyuanzaiwomianqianchedibengkui，wogaigandaokuaiyima？

weishenmexinkoudeweizhi，quexiangshipoleyigedadong，guanmanlebinglengdeyefeng，youlengyouteng，kongkongdangdang？

shiyinweizheisanniandefuchu，zhongjiuweilegou？haishiyinwei……zaikandaotatuxuedaoxiadeshunjian，

neigeshenmaixindi、lianzijidoutuoqideniantou，

jingranhaishibushoukongzhidimaolechulai——patazhendejiuzheimesile？zhenshi……jiangutou。

12fulinyuanzaiiculizhengzhalesantiansanye，zhongyutuolileshengmingweixian。tabeizhuanruledingjivipbingfang，

youzuidingjideyiliaotuanduiheanbaotuandui24xiaoshikanhu。fujiaduiwodetaidu，jiangdaolebingdian。

fumuzaiyemeizhengyankanguowoyici。tasuoyoudejinglidoufangzailefulinyuanshenshang，yiji……**，

wendingfushijituanyaoyaoyuzhuidegujia。yigeshixinfengdezongcai，duirenheqiyelaishuodoushizainan。

wobeichediyiwanghuozheshuoyiqizaixilou。chuledingshisongfandasaodeyongren，meiyourenzaitazuzheili。

yongrenkanwodeyanshenyechongmanlebiyihekongju，fangfowoshidailaizaihuodewenshen。yehao。luodeqingjing。

wokaishishoushidongxi。qishiyemeishenmekeshoushide。zheisannian，

wojiuxiangyizhuyifuzaifulinyuanzheikedashushangdetengman，wodesuoyou，doubeidashangle“futaitai”debiaoqian。

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