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精彩章节

wogehenlewoshinian。tashuo，dangnianchehuo，zenmecanfeidebushini。yushi，wozhendecanfeile。

yizhonghanjiandeshenjingshuaituizheng，wodeshouzaiyewufapuqu。taquefengle。kewoyijingsile。zaiwopuxiede，

beitayuweitiancaizhizuodejiaoxiangleshengzhong，sizaitataitoujiunengkanjiandeguanzhongxishang。

1jiedaoshenyixuandianhuadeshihou，wozhengzuozaichuangqian，kanyipiankuyeyouyoudangdangdizhuiluo。shoubiandezhenduanshushang，

yishenglongfeifengwudezijixiangyidaodaowufapojiedezuzhou。“jinxingxingjisuixingjiweisuozheng。”tongsudianshuo，

wodeshentihuiyidiandianbushoukongzhi，congzhijiandezhenzhankaishi，zhidaoquanshentanhuan，huxishuaijie。

wojiangchengweiyigebeijinguzaizijishentilidehuosiren。erwo，shiyigezuoqujia。

yigekaoshuangshouzaiwuxianpushanggoujianzhenggeshijiedezuoqujia。“badeshengriyan，niyouxiangwanshenmeshizongdebaxi？

”dianhuaneitoudeshengyin，xiangtazhihuibangxiazuilengliedexianyin，meiyouyisiwendu。shenyixuan，

wotongfuyimudegege，yigebeiyinlejiefengweishenzhidetiancaizhihuijia。tacongbuzhudonglianxiwo，

chufeishiweilexingshiwenzui。“buxiangqu。”wohuidadeyanjianyigai，shengyinyouxiefapiao。“youshizheitaoshuoci。

”talengxiaoyisheng，“shenqingge，ninengbunengbiezongshizheimesaoxing？weiweicongweiyenatedifeihuilaiweibaqingsheng，

nizuoweinver，jiuzheimedianbiaoshi？”linweiwei，womenjiashijiaodenver，congxiaogenzaitashenhou，

rujinshitaletuandeshouxixiaotiqinshou，yeshitagongzhiyuzhongdelingganmousi。“youtazheige‘zhunerxi’zai，

bujiugouleme。”wodezhijianzaizhuomianqingqinghuaguo，yidaowuxingdezhandourangwoxinkouyizhi。

“nifeiyaoyongzheizhongyinyangguaiqideyudiaoshuohuama？”tadebunaifanchuantoudianliu，“nijiuneimejianbudeweiweihao？

jianbudewohao？”“shenqingge！”woguaduanledianhua。chuangwai，zuihouneipianyezi，zhongyuhaishiluoledi。

woditoukanzhezijiweiweizhandoudeyoushou，jiangneizhangzhenduanshuyidiandiansisui，suixiexiangdongridediyichangxue，

qiaowushengxidifugailezhuomian。shoujipingmuliangqi，shishenyixuanfalaidexiaoxi。——xiageyueletuandenianduhuiyan，

bielaile。wobuxiangkanjiannineizhanghuiqidelian。2shenyixuanhenwo，shicongshinianqianneichangchehuokaishide。

neiniantashibasui，shigangqinjiezuiyaoyandexinxing，shuangshoubeimeitiyuwei“shangdideqinwen”。erwo，shiliusui，

gangnadaojiazhao，zuozaitashenpang，xingfendigentamiaohuiwoxiechudediyishouwanzhengdexiezouqu。

yichangturuqilaidezhuiwei，taweilehuzhuwo，youshoubeiposuidechechuangbolihuadeshenkejiangu。

shenjingyongjiuxingsunshang。tadegangqinjiashengya，zaineiyitian，jiaranersheng。erwo，haofawushang。zheichangzainan，

yiwoweiyouyin，moushaletazuiyinyiweiaodetianfu。congneitianqi，wochenglejialidezuiren。

babashiquletazuijiaoaodeerzi，yigeweilaidegangqindashi。ershenyixuan，shiquletadeyiqie。

tabuzaidanqin，zhuanernaqilezhihuibang，pingjiezhewuyulunbideyinletianfu，

yijiuzailingyigelingyuzhanshangledingfeng。kewozhidao，neishuangwufazaizaiqinjianshangchichengdeshou，

shitaxinliyongyuandeba。erwo，jiushineibashibushihuijiekaizheidaoshangbade，dundao。taburangwopengyinle，

buxuwotimengxiang。tashuo：“shenqingge，niyoushenmezigetanyinle？nihuilewo，jiugaiyibeizihuozaiyinyingli，

zheishiniqianwode。”zheichangmanzhangdeshuzui，congwoshiliusuikaishi，mianyanzhijin。

wobushiguyibuqubabadeshengriyan。zhishineitian，wodeshoudoudelianbeizidounabuwen。buguo，wobuqu，

tamenyijiasankou，huoxuhuigengxiangyijiaren。3shenyixuanmeiyouzailianxiwo。wozhanzaiguojiadajuyuandemenkou，

shenxileyikouchudongweiliangdekongqi。biyehou，wochengleyige**zuoqujia。weigezhongyingshiju、guanggaopeile，

shushangbierendemingzi，huanquweibodeshengji。woheshenyixuan，yigezaijuguangdengxiajieshouwanrenjingyang，

yigezaidoushiliyuwuxianpuweiban，huozailianggeyongbuxiangjiaodeshijie。zhidaolinweiweidechuxian。

tachengleshenyixuanletuandeshouxi，yechengletalezhanglizuidongrendeneigeyinfu。

tayanzoudemeiyishou“yuanchuang”xiaotiqinduzouqu，doujingyanlezhenggeyinlequan。zhiyouwozhidao，neixiequzi，

douchuziwodeshou。shiwoxiejita，rangtaqutaoshenyixuanhuanxinde。suanshiwo……shuzuideyizhongfangshiba。

zoulanglipengjianleletuandejingli，takanjianwo，reqingdidalegezhaohu。“qinggelaoshi，

youlaijiweiweisongpuzia？”tayadishengyin，daizheyisibaguadexiaoyi，“waimiandoushuo，

weiwei**jiushishenzhihuidemousi，wokana，nicaishiwomenweiwei**demousi。nimenliangzheiguanxi，kezhenhao。

”woxiaolexiao，buzhikefou。guanxihaoma？huoxuba。bijing，tashiwoheshenyixuanzhijian，weiyideqiaoliangle。

wobazuixindepuzijiaojita，zheifenpuzi，shiwoaolesangetongxiao，zaiyoushouhainengmianqiangkongzhideshihouxiewande。

linweiweijieguopuzi，meiyanwanwan，yirujiwangdewenwandongren。“qingge，xinkunile。yixuangeshuo，

xiageyuedenianduhuiyan，jiuyongzheishouquzizuokaichang，tatebiexihuan。”tadunledun，youxieweinandikanzhewo，

“zhishi……shumingdeshi……”“haishixienidemingzi。”wotitashuowanlehoubanju。“qingge，nizhenhao。

”taqinnidiwanzhuwodegeطbo，“yixuangezongshuonixingzileng，budongshi，woshuoneidoushitaduiniyoupianjian。

nibuzhidao，niweiwoxiedequzi，tayouduobaobei。”taliangjingjingdeyanjingli，

shanshuozheyizhongwokanbudongdeqingxu。shixuanyao，yeshilianmin。tahaoxiangzaishuo，nikan，

shenyixuansuoyoudewenrouhezanmei，doushitongguowo，caizhuandadaonizheilide。erni，shenqingge，

yongyuanzhinengzuogejianbudeguangdeyingzi。4wozaihoutaidexiuxishiheshui，wenredeshuiliuguohoulong，

quesihaohuanjiebuleweilidejingluan。zuijin，wodeshentiyuelaiyuecha，bujinjinshishou。

tongshimenzaiwaimianjijizhazhaditaolunzhe。“nimentingshuolema？

shenzhihuineishouxindexiaotiqinxiezouqu《yongtandiao》，beitiminglejinniande‘jinzhongjiang’zuijiayuanchuangqumu！

”“neihaiyongshuo，weiwei**yanzou，shenzhihuiqinzipuqu，tianzuozhihe，budejiangcaiguai。”“shuoqilai，

shenzhihuizhenshipianaiweiwei**a，nimenkan，taduiqitaren，shenmeshihouyouguohaolianse？”《yongtandiao》，

neishiwoxiedediyishouwanzhengdequzi。shiliusuineinian，zaicheshangxiangjiangjitating，quemeilaidejijiangwande，

neishouquzi。wocengbashougaosongjilinweiwei，rangtazhuanjiaojishenyixuan，jiudangshi……yifenchidaodeshengriliwu。

womeixiangguoyaoshuming，gengmeixiangguo，zheishouquzi，huibiancheng“ta”dezuopin。weilifanjiangdaohai，

wochongjinxishoujian，tudehuntianheidi。jingzilidenvren，miansecanbai，yanwoshenxian。wohaoxiang，

kuaiyaochengbuzhule。shouji**tuwudixiangqi，shishenyixuan。tadeshengyinzaikongkuangdexishoujianlihuidang，

daizheyayidenuhuo：“shenqingge，niyouduiweiweishuoleshenme？laiwobangongshiyitang！”wofuzhebinglengdecizhuan，

dishengyingxia：“hao。”5shenyixuandezhihuixiuxishili，linweiweizuozaishafashang，yankuanghonghongde，

shoulizuanzheyizhangrouzhoudelepu。ershenyixuan，beiduizhewo，zhanzaijudadeluodichuangqian，

shenyinglengyingdexiangyizundiaosu。“niweishenmeyaogaosuletuanderen，《yongtandiao》shinixiede？”tazhuanguoshen，

yishuanghewojiqixiangsidefengyan，cikecuimanlebing。“nijiuzheimexianghuileweiwei？haishixianghuilewo？

”“shenqingge，nidejiduxin，nengbunengbuyaozheimechoulou？”buguoduanduanyigexiawu。wokanxianglinweiwei，

taqiahaotaiqitou，yanshenwuguyouweiqu，leizhuzaiyankuanglidazhuan，yuluobuluo。youshizheiyang。shinianlai，

wushuci，doushizheiyang。yichangzaoyipailianhaodenaoju，zhidengwozheigefanpaidengchang。kewojintian，

shizaimeiyouliqizaipeitamenyanxiaqule。“womeishuo。”wopingjingdikaikou。“nimeishuo？

”shenyixuanxiangshitingdaoletiandadexiaohua，“neinizenmejieshiweiweishoulidezheifenshougao？zheishangmian，

younideqianming！niganshuozheibushiniguyixieluchuqude？”neifenshougao，shiwoshiliusuishidebiji。zhinen，

quechongmanleduiweilaidechongjing。wokanxianglinweiwei，talikedixiatou，jianbangweiweisongdong，xiangyizhishoujingdexiaolu。

“womeiyou，yixuange，nibieguaiqingge，takeneng……kenengzhishiyishihutu，

xiangdedaodajiaderenke……”“goule！”shenyixuanlishengdaduanta，suijiyibubuxiangwobijin。

gaodadeshenyingjiangwowanquanlongzhao，yapoganpumianerlai。“xiangweiweidaoqian。”taminglingdao。wokanzheta，

huranjuedeyouxiehaoxiao。“ruguowoshuobuni？”“shenqingge！”tamengdizuanzhuwodeshouwan，

lidaodadexiangshiyaojiangwodegutouniesui。“nifeiyaonaodezheimenankanma？nishibushijuede，

niqianwodehaibugouduo？”shouwanchuchuanlaijutong，kegengqingxide，shiyoushoubushoukongzhide，yufajuliedezhandou。

woqingxidikandao，shenyixuanlianshangdenuhuo，zaichujiwozhandoudeshoushi，shunjianninggu，huaweiyisicuoe。

taxiayishidisonglexielidao，meitoujincu：“nideshou……zenmehuishi？”woyonglishuaikaita。

“buguannideshi。”wocongbaolinachuyitalepu，qingqingfangzaitadezhihuitaishang。

neishilinweiweixiayichangyinlehuiyaoyongdesuoyouqumu。“zheishizuihouyici。”woshuo，“yihou，

wobuhuizaixiele。”shenyixuanlengzhule，sihumeimingbaiwodeyisi。“nishenmeyisi？niyouzaishuashenmepiqi？

”“bushishuapiqi。”wokanzheta，yiziyiju，qingxidishuodao：“shenyixuan，woxiebudongle。

”“congjinyihou，nihenidemousi，haoziweizhiba。”guanshangmendeshunjian，

wotingjianlimianchuanlaiboliposuidejuxiang。6congdajuyuanchulai，tianyijingheitoule。

lengfengxiangdaoziyiyangguazailianshang。wodeshoudoudeyuelaiyuelihai，liandaizhezhenggeshentidouzaifaleng。

qishizuikaishideshihou，woheshenyixuandeguanxi，bushizheiyangde。mamaqushidezao，babachangnianmangyushengyi，

jializhiyouwomenlianggeren。tahuibenzhuodijiwozhabianzi，huizaiwobeiqifushitiwochutou，

huibasuoyouhaochidedouliujiwo。neishihou，tashiwoweiyideguang。zhidaoneichangchehuo。guang，ximiele。

takaishiyongzuiedudeyuyangongjiwo，yongzuilengmodetaiduhushiwo。tabawokunzaitaqinshouzhizaode，

mingwei“kuijiu”delaolongli。woyuezhengzha，taledeyuejin。houlai，linweiweilaile。wocaifaxian，

yuanlaitadewenrou，tadenaixin，tadexiaorong，douhaizai。zhishi，zaiyebushuyuwole。

takeyinaixindizhidaolinweiweimeiyigeyinfu，quelinyukanwoyiyan。

takeyiweilelinweiweideyidiyanleierleitingdanu，queduiwodetongkushierbujian。tabushibudong，tazhishi，

buyuanyi。yinweizaitaxinli，linweiweishixuyaobeihehudezhenbao。erwo，shizuiyouyingdedefanren。woyiwei，

zhiyaowoyizhixie，yizhiweita，weilinweiweixiexiaqu，zongyouyitian，wodezuikeyibeishuqing。

kexianzaiwocaimingbai。wohaibuqingle。wodeshou，wodeshenti，buyunxuwozaijixule。fubuchuanlaiyizhenjiaotong，

woquansuozailubian，lenghanshunjianjinshilehoubei。yiliangheisedechetingzaiwomianqian，chechuangjiangxia，

luchushenyixuanneizhanglengjundelian。“shangche。”7chelidenuanqikaidehenzu，kewoyiranjuedeleng。

womenyiluwuhua。zhidaochezitingzaiwojialouxia。“nideshou，daodizenmehuishi？”tazhongyuhaishiwenle，

yuqishengying。“meishenme。”“meishenme？”tabagaoleyindiao，“shenqingge，nidangwoshixiazima？

gangcaidoudexiangshaikangyiyang！”womeiyouhuida，shenshouqukaichemen。chemenbeitasuosi。“qukanyishenglema？

”“kanle。”“yishengzenmeshuo？”“shenjingjinzhang，xiuxiyixiajiuhaole。”wosuikousalegehuang。

tachenmole。chexianglizhishengxiawomenlianggerendehuxisheng，yayiderangrenchuanbuguoqi。liangjiu，tacaizhongxinkaikou，

shengyinlidaizheyisibuyichajuedepibei。“《yongtandiao》deshi，wohuichulihao。ni……bieduoxiang。

”“yihou，biezaizuozheizhongshanghaiweiwei，yeshanghainizijideshile。”wodexin，

xiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu。daotoulai，tahaishibuxinwo。“woleile，xianghuiquxiuxile。

”tameiyouzaijianchi，jiwokailesuo。xiachedeshihou，tahuranjiaozhuwo。“shenqingge。”wohuitou。

“niandidejinzhongjiangbanjiangdianli，nilaikanba。”takanzhewo，yanshenfuza，

“neishi……womendiyiciyiqinajiang。”“women”。duomefengcidelianggezi。womeiyouhuida，

zhuanshenzoujinleloudao。heianjiangwotunshideshunjian，wotingjiantaqingshengshuoleyiju。“jiudangshi……weilewo。

”8.shenyixuanzoule。wohuidaojia，bazijishuaizaishafashang。kongdangdangdefangjian，zhiyouqiangshangguazhongdedidasheng。

wohaoxiang，henjiumeiyouhaohaochiguoyidunfanle。bingxianglikongkongruye。wozhengzhazheqishen，xiangquchufangzhaodianchide，

shuangtuiquexiangguanleqianyiyangchenzhong。zuizhong，wohaishifangqile。jiehetengtongjiaozhizaiyiqi，

yidiandiankenshizhewodeyizhi。woxiangqilewodezhuzhiyisheng。yigehenwenhedezhongniannvren。

takanzhewodejianchabaogao，tanlekouqi。“shen**，nizheigebing，fazhandehenkuai。muqianmeiyoushenmetexiaoyao，

womennengzuode，zhiyoujinliangyanhuanbingcheng。”tafulefuyanjing，renzhendikanzhewo。“jiarendepeibanhezhichi，

duinidebingqinghenzhongyao。”“duohetamengoutong，rangtamenlejienideqingkuang。buyaoyigerenkangzhe。”jiaren。

wokanzhechuangwaiqiheideye。womeiyoujiaren。wozhiyouyige，henbudewocongzheigeshijieshangxiaoshidegege。

tacengjingqinkouduiwoshuo：“shenqingge，shinianqianneichangchehuo，zenmecanfeidebushini。”xianzai，rutasuoyuanle。

wozhongyu，yeyaobianchengyigefeirenle。wonaqishouji，fankaitongxunlu，

zhaodaoleyigexujiumeiyoulianxiguodemingzi。——zhouran。woweiyidepengyou。tazaiguowaidubo，

womenyijingkuaiyinianmeiyoulianxile。liaotianjilutingliuzaiquniandongtian，tawenwo，xinxiedequzi，

youmeiyoujishenyixuanting。womeiyouhuifu。yemeiyouzainadaozhenduanshudeshihougaosuta。woxiang，jiuzheiyangsuanleba。

buyaozaijitatianmafanle。woyigeziyigezidi，shandiaolehetadesuoyouliaotianjilu。zheigeshijieshang，

zuihouyidiannengzhengmingwocengjingbeiaiguodehenji，yebeiwoqinshoumoqule。

9wozaijialihunhuneeditanglehaojitian。shentideshuaibaisuduchaohuwodexiangxiang。congyikaishidezhijianzhenzhan，

daoxianzai，wolianwobidoubiandekunnan。ouer，wohuizuozaigangqinqian，xiangzaidanyiqu。kewodeshouzhi，

quezaiyewufatingcongdanaodezhihui。tamenjiangying、chihuan，qiaoxiademeiyigeyinfu，douchongmanleposuihebukan。

wohaoxiang，zhendeyaoshiquwoweiyiyongyoudedongxile。jinzhongjiangbanjiangdianlineitian，wohaishiqule。

wohualeyigehennongdezhuang，zhezhulianshangdeqiaocuihebingqi。tiaoleyitiaoheisedezhangqun，xiangbazijizangzairenqunli。

dianlixianchangxingguangyiyi，daochudoushishuxiyoumoshengdemiankong。wozhaoleyigezuijiaoluodeweizhizuoxia。dapingmushang，

zhengzaibofangzhegegejiangxiangdetimingzuopin。dang《yongtandiao》dexuanlvxiangqishi，quanchangdouanjinglexialai。wutaishang，

linweiweichuanzheyixibaiqun，youyadilazhexiaotiqin。tashenpang，shenyixuanchuanzhebitingdeyanweifu，shouchizhihuibang，

shenqingzhuanzhuershenqing。tamenshitianzaodishedeyidui。shiyinlejiedejintongyunv。meiyourenzhidao，

zheishourangtamenbeishouzanyudequzi，beihouzangzheyigezenyangbukandemimi。“xiamian，woxuanbu，

huodebenjiejinzhongjiangzuijiayuanchuanglequjiangdeshi——”“shenyixuanxiansheng、linweiwei**，《yongtandiao》！

”quanchangbaofachuleimingbandezhangsheng。juguangdengxia，shenyixuanjieguojiangbei，tameiyoukanlinweiwei，

ershimuguangjingzhundi，chuanguoyongjiderenchao，luozailewoshenshang。tadeyanshen，shiwocongweijianguode，

chire、mingliang。daizheyisi，jinhukenqiudeqidai。taqingleqingsangzi，duizhehuatong，huanhuankaikou。

“xiexiezuweihui，xiexiewodeletuan。”“danjintian，wozuixiangganxiede，bushirenheren，

ershizheishouquzizhenzhengdezuozhe。”wodexin，mengdiyitiao。quanchanghuaran。suoyourendemuguang，