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meiyigezidouchongmanleshiquzhiaidejuewang。

weishenme……taweishenmeyaozheimexiangbukai……mingmingzuotianwomenhaizaijihuaxiageyuedejiehunjinianrilvxing……」

suqingzetitiedifuzheta，yongkuhongdeshuangyanduijingchashuo：「wenyishengzuijinyalitaidale，

haojitaishoushudoushibaile，qingxuyizhihendiluo。womendouquanguota，meixiangdao……」zhenshiyichangwanmeidebiaoyan。

zaichangdemeiyigeren，douduizheiweitongshiaiqideyouxiuyishengbaoyishenshendetongqing。zhiyouwozhidao，

zaineifubeitongyujuedepinangzhixia，tiaodongzheyikezenyangangzang、edudexin。wotangzaizhengwudaili，wufanahan，

wufabianbo。wujindefennuheyuanhenxiangyanjiangyiyangzaiwodeyishilifangun，jihuyaojiangzheipianxiaoxiaodejinshuronghua。

jiangchen，suqing。nimendengzhe。zhiyaowohaishizheibadao，zhiyaowohaiyouyishi，wojiuhuixiangyigezuinaixindelieren，

dengdaizhefu_blankchoudeshiji。wohuirangnimen，qinshouweizijidezuixing，huashangjuhao。

wobeidaililexianchang，songwangshijudefazhengzhongxin。zhouweishigezhonggeyangdezhengwu，

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yigedaizhebaishoutaodenanrenjiangwonalechulai，tadedongzuohenqing，daizheyizhongduiwupindezunzhong。

「zhengwubianhaoa043，xiongqi，shoushudaoyiba。」yigeqinglengdenanshengxiangqi。wobeifangzailejiepoutaishang，

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tazixidijianchazhewoshenshangdemeiyichuhenji，youduibizhewoshitishangdeshangkou。「shangkoubianyuanpingzheng，

qiekoushendaxinshi，yidaobiming。congjiaoduhelidulaikan，queshixiangshizisha。danshi……」tatingdunleyixia，

meitouweiweizhouqi。「……youdiantai『wanmei』le。yigeyixinqiusideren，

hennanzuodaozheimejingzhun、wending、meiyousihaoyouyudechuangkou。

zheigengxiangshiyigejingyanfengfudewaikeyishengcainengzuochudeqiekou。」wodeyishimengdiyizhen！tafaxianle！

takanchuleyidian！wojidongdixiangyaonahan，xiangyaogaosuta，meicuo，nishuodedui！xiongshoujiushiyigewaikeyisheng！

jiushiwodezhangfujiangchen！kewofabuchurenheshengyin。linmonaqiwo，couzaidengguangxiazixiguancha。

tadezhijiangezheshoutao，qingqinghuaguowodedaofeng。jiuzaineiyishunjian，yijianyixiangbudaodeshiqingfashengle。

tadeshoutaoshang，youyigejixiaodepokou，zhijiandepifu，yuwodedaofeng，youleyichaneidejiechu。

weng——wodeyishishunjianbeiyigujudadexinxiliuchongji！wushumoshengdehuamian、shengyin、qingxuyongruwodenaohai。

neishiyigenanhaicongxiaodaodadechengzhangpianduan，shitazaijiepoutaiqianxuexidezhuanzhu，

shitamianduiyijujubinglengshitishidelengjingyubeimin……neishilinmodejiyi！

wojingran……nengduqudaojiechuzhedejiyihesixiang！zheigefaxianrangwozhenjing，suijierlaideshikuangxi。

zheishiwodejihui！shiwofuchoudeweiyixiwang！linmosihuyeganjuedaoleshenme，tamengdisuohuishou，

yihuodikanzhewo，youkanlekanzijideshouzhi。neiguyishanerguodexuanyunganrangtazhouqilemei。「qiguai……」

tadishengziyu。zuizhong，tayaoleyaotou，jiangwozhongxinfanghuizhengwudai。shijianbaogaodejielun，zaigefangyalixia，

zuizhonghaishibeidingxingwei「yingongzuoyalidaozhideyiyuzisha」。jiangchenhesuqinganranwuyangdituozuile。erwo，

zuoweiyiba「zisha」yongdeshoushudao，beifengcun、guidang，rengjinlebinglengdezhengwushitiejuli，

xianrulemanzhangdechenji。wobuzhidaoguoquleduojiu，yitian，haishiyinian。zaizheili，shijianmeiyouyiyi。

woweiyinengzuode，jiushiyibianbiandizainaohaizhonghuifangwobeishahaidechangjing，yongchouhendamowodeyishi，

rangtabiandebidaofenggengjiaruili。wodengzhe，dengzhezhongjiantianrideneiyitian。【2】zaizhengwujudechenjizhong，

woxiangyikuaibeiyiwangdehuashi，ganzhibudaoshijiandeliushi。chouhenshiweiyizhichengwoyishibusanderanliao。

wofanfujujiaozhejiangchenhesuqingdemeiyijuhua、meiyigebiaoqing，rangneifenbeipandecitongganyongbuxiaotui。

zhidaoyouyitian，jumenbei「kada」yishengdakaile。ciyandeguangxianyonglejinlai，

wobeiyizhidaizheshoutaodeshouzaicinaqi。shilinmo。shigexujiu，zaici「jiandao」ta，

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jieanbaogaowokanguojishibianle。」taduizhekongqi，yexiangshizaiduiwoziyanziyu，

「suoyouzhengjuliandouwanmeibihe，dongji、xianchang、zhengrenzhengci，haowupozhan。kewojiushijuedebuduijing。」

tajiangwocongzhengwudaizhongquchu，fangzaibaisedetuopanshang。「wentidaodichuzainali？」

tadeshouzhizaicifushangwodedaobing，zheiyici，tasihushiguyide，zhijianzaidaoshenshanghuanhuanhuaguo。

wodejihuilaile！wojizhongquanbudeyinian，jiangwojiyizhongzuishenke、zuitongkudehuamian——jiangchenniuqudelian，

suqinglengmodeyanshen，neiju「bieguaiwo，yaoguaijiuguainifaxianlebugaifaxiandedongxi」——xiangyigudianliuban，

henhendituixiangtadezhijian！「e！」linmomenhengyisheng，shentimengdiyizhan，xiangshibeidianjileyiban，

liangqiangzhehoutuileyibu。tafuzhezhuozi，liansefabai，yanshenzhongchongmanlezhenjinghebukesiyi。

「gangcai……neishishenme？」tachuanzheqi，sisididingzhewo，「huanjuema？」youxiaoguo！zhendeyouxiaoguo！

wosuiranbunengjiangwanzhengdejiyishusongjita，danwonengchuandizuiqiangliedeqingxuhezuiguanjiandehuamiansuipian！

wozaijiezaili，jiangneifenbeibeipandejuewang、beicichuandejutong，huazuoyigubinglengdehongliu，zaiciyongxiangta。

zheiyici，linmomeiyouzaichupengwo，dantakanzhewodeyanshenyijingchedibianle。buzaishifayikandaizhengwudeyanshen，

ershixiangzaikanyige……huowu。tachenmolehenjiu，zhenggefangjianlizhishengxiatachenzhongdehuxisheng。

「faxianlebugaifaxiandedongxi……」tanannandizhongfuzheneijuzaiwonaozhonghuixianglewushucidehua，「wenyisheng，

nidaodifaxianleshenme？」takaishizhongxindiaocha。buzaishicongwodeanzibenshenrushou，

ershicongjiangchenhesuqingshenshang。wobeitamimididaihuilejia，fangzaitadeshuzhuoshang。wochengletazuiyinmidehuoban。

meitianwanshang，tadouhuijiangdangtiandiaochadaodeziliaotankaizaiwomianqian，yibianfenxi，yibianwozhuwo，

shitucongwozheilihuodegengduode「linggan」。erwo，yejianjianxuehuileruhekongzhiwode「nengli」。

wobuzaishicubaodiguanshuqingxu，ershichangshizhechuandiyixiegengjutide「yixiang」。linmofaxian，

jiangchenzaiwo「si」hou，feidanmeiyouxiaochen，fanershiyeshanggengjiashunfengshunshui。tajietilewodekeshizhurenzhiwei，

bingqiehenkuaijiuhesuqing「yinweigongtongdebeishang」erzoudaoleyiqi，zaiyiyuanlichushuangrudui，yanranyiduibiren。

tamenshenzhimeiyoubanliwohejiangchendehunfang，yijiushuizaiwomencengjingtongchuanggongzhendeneizhangdachuangshang。

meidanglinmodiaochadaozheixie，wodouhuixiangtachuanditaotiandehenyiheexingan。neiguqiangliedefumianqingxu，

rangtayicicidiqueren，wodesi，juebujiandan。「tamenbiaoxiandetaiwanmeile，

wanmeidejiuxiangyichangjingxinbianpaidexiju。」linmoduizhewoshuodao，「erni，wenyisheng，

jiushizheichangxijuliweiyidepozhan。」yitianwanshang，linmodailaileyigexindexiaoxi。

「jiangchenzuijinheyigeyiyaodaibiaozoudehenjin，neigedaibiaodegongsi，beijingyouxiebuganjing，

sihuheyixiedixiaqiguanjiaoyiyouqianche。」qiguanjiaoyi！zheigecixiangyidaoshandian，pikailewohundundejiyi。

woxiangqilaile！zaiwosiqiandeyizhou，wozhudaodeyitaixinzangyizhishoushu，neigejuanxianzhedexinzanglaiyuan，

dengjixinxishangyouduochumohubuqingdeyidian。wodangshiqileyixin，

sixialidiaoyueleyiyuanjinbannianlaisuoyouqiguanyizhidedangan。wofaxianleyigekepadeguilv。

haojigedengdaiyizhidefuhaobingren，zongnengzaijiduandeshijiannei，qijibandidengdaowanmeipeixingde「yiwainaosiwang」

juanxianzhe。erzheixiejuanxianzhedeshenfenxinxi，doujingrendixiangsi：waidiwugongrenyuan，shehuiguanxijiandan，

wuqinwugu。wobawodehuaiyigaosulejiangchen。dangshi，tazhishixiaozheanfuwo，shuowoxiangduole，

shiyiyuanyunqihao。xianzaixianglai，tadangshideyanshenli，shanguoleyisiwoweicengchajuedejinghuang。yuanlairuci！

wofaxiande，shitamenliyongyiyuandeziyuan，jinxingfeifaqiguanjiaoyidezuieliantiao！wodesi，shiweilemiekou！

wojiangzheifenxinxiangqilaidejiyi，hunhezheduineixiewugushizhedebeiminheduijiangchencaojianrenmingdefennu，

yigunaodichuanjilelinmo。linmowozhewo，bizheyanjing，jiujiumeiyoushuohua。dangtazaicizhengkaiyanshi，

neishuanggujingbandemouzili，yijingranqilexiongxiongdehuoyan。「womingbaile。」tachenshengshuo，

「womingbainifaxianleshenmele。」tazhidao，zheibuzaishiyiqidanchundeqingshaan，

ershiyizhuangqianlianshenguang、zuietaotiandelianhuanmingan。jiangchenhesuqing，bixuweicifuchudaijia。

dantamenyinzangdetaishenle，suoyoudezhengjudoubeiqinglideganganjingjing。linmodediaochahenkuaijiuxianrulepingjing。

erjiuzaizheishi，yigezhuanji，huozheshuoyigegengshendeweiji，qiaoranjianglinle。shililaileyiweizhongyaodewaibin，

tufaxinzangshuaijie，jixujinxingxinzangyizhishoushu。quanshizuihaodexinwaikezhuanjia，wuyijiushijiangchen。

erzheichangbeishouzhumudeshoushu，jianghuizaiquanyuanjinxingguanmozhibo。jiangchenweilezhangxianzijidequanweiheyishu，

xiangyiyuanshenqing，yaoqiyongyitaotazui「dexinyingshou」desirenshoushuqixie。neitaoqixie，jiucunfangzaizhengwushili。

qizhong，baokuowo。【3】dangzhengwushidemenzaicibeidakai，lairenbingfeilinmo，ershiyimingmoshengdejingyuan。

tanazheyifengaizhehongzhangdegongwen，quzouleneitaobeifengcunde、shuyuwodeshoushuqixie。wode「xin」

mengdichenlexiaqu。jiangchenyaoyongwole。tayaoyongshasiwodezheibadao，quzhengjiulingyigerendeshengming。

zheishihedengdefengci！wobeisonghuileneijiawoshuxideyiyuan，huidaoleneigewoweizhifendoulebansheng，

yezuizhongmingsangyucideshoushushi。qixiehushijiangwocongmifengdaizhongquchu，xiaodu，cashi，

ranhouzhengqidibaifangzaiqixiepanshang。wonengganjuedaozhouweishuxideyiqie。wuyingdengdechire，xiaodushuideweidao，

jianhuyiguilvdedidisheng……zheixiecengjingrangwogandaoanxindeyuansu，cikequexiangyizhangwuxingdewang，

jiangwojinjinbaoguo，rangwozhixi。touguoshoushushideboliguanchachuang，wokandaolejiangchen。tazhengzaishuashou，

dongzuoyouyaercongrong。suqingzhanzaitashenbian，wenroudititazhenglihaoshoushufudeyiling。liangrenxiangshiyixiao，

moqishizu，fangfoyiduijijiangxieshouzhengjiushijiedeyingxiong。wodeyishizaidaofenglifengkuangdipaoxiao。weijunzi！

guizishou！wohenbudelikehuazuoyidaoligui，pushangqusisuitamenxuweidemianju。kewobuneng，

wozhishiyibabinglengdedao。woweiyidexiwang，jituozailinmoshenshang。tazhidaowobeiquzoulema？tahuizenmezuo？

jiuzaishoushujijiangkaishideshihou，guanchashidemenbeituikaile。linmozoulejinlai。tachuanzhebaidagua，daizhekouzhao，

yi「shijufayiguwen，guanmoxuexi」demingyi，chuxianzailezheili。

tademuguangdiyishijianjiuluozaileqixiepanshang，luozailewodeshenshang。simuxiangdui，suirangezherenyuwudejiexian，

danwonengqingxidiganjuedaotachuandiguolaidexinxi：lengjing，dengdaishiji。wodexinshaoshaoandingleyixie。

shoushukaishile。bingrenbeituilejinlai，mazui，kaixiong……yiqiedouyoutiaobuwendijinxingzhe。

jiangchendejishuqueshiwuketiaoti，tademeiyigedongzuodoujingzhunrujiaokeshu。tanaqilediandao，

huakailebingrendexionggu。xuexingweimimankailai。dangneiwenredexueyejiandaowoshenshangshi，

yizhongqiansuoweiyoudeganjuefashengle。wobuzaizhinengduquchupengzhedejiyi，

wohainengqingxidiganzhidaoshoushutaishangneigebingrendeshengmingtizheng！tadexintiao，tadexueya，

tatineimeiyigenxueguandebodong！gengkepadeshi，yigumoshengdeyishi，shuyuneigebingrendeyishi，

kaishiweiruodixiangwochuanlai。neishiyizhongduishengmingdejidukewang，heduisiwangdeshenshenkongju。zheiguqingxu，

yuwozishendeyuanhenjiaozhizaiyiqi，xingchengleyigupangdaerhunluandejingshenfengbao。woganjuezijikuaiyaobeisiliele。

「shoushudao。」jiangchendeshengyinxiangqi。suqinglikejiangwodidaoletadeshoushang。

dangjiangchendeshouzhizaiciwozhuwodeneiyike，shijianfangfoninggule。neishuxidechugan，

neicengjingfumoguowozhangfa、yongbaoguowoshentideshou，cikequewozhewode「linghun」，

yaoqupoukailingyigerendexinzang。chouhen，zaineiyikedadaoledingfeng。

wojiangsuoyoudeyuannian、suoyoudetongku、suoyoudefennu，ningjuchengyigenwuxingdejianci，

henhendizhajinletadeyishishenchu！「a！」jiangchendeshoumengdiyidou，

daojianzaibingrenxinbaomoshanghuachuleyidaojihuawaidekouzi。「jiangzhuren！」pangbiandezhushoujinghuchusheng。

「zenmele？」suqingyejinzhangdiwendao。jiangchendelianseshunjianbiandecanbai，etoushangshenchuleximidehanzhu。

taganggangkandaolehuanjue。takandaoshoushutaishangdebingren，bianchengleyizhangcanbaidelian——wodelian。「meishi，

shouhualeyixia。」taqiangzuozhending，shengyinqueyouxiefazhan。tashenxiyikouqi，shituzhongxinjizhongjingshen。

danwozenmekenengrangtaruyuan？wokaishifengkuangdixiangtachuandigezhonghuamian。wobeitacisideshunjian，

neixiebeitaquzouqiguandewuguzhejuewangdeyanshen，haiyoulinmoneizhanglengjingerruilidelian……zheixiehuamian，

xiangchaoshuiyiyangchongjizhetadedanao。「bu……bushiwo……」takaishinannanziyu，yanshenbiandehuansan，

「shitamenzijigaisi……」「jiangchen！nizaishuoshenme！」suqingdeshengyinbiandejianruiqilai，

tayishidaolebuduijing。guanchashili，linmodequantouyeqiaoqiaowojinle。

shoushushilideqifenshunjianjinzhangdaolejidian。suoyourendoukanzhetamendezhudaoyisheng，xiangshizaimengyouyiyang，

wozheshoushudao，duizhebingrendexinzang，shuozhehuhua。「shini……wennian……shinihuilaile……」

jiangchendemuguangchuantoulewuyingdeng，fangfokandaolezhanzaiduimiandewo，「niyiweinibianchengledao，jiunengbaofuwoma？

wogaosuni，meiyongde！tamendougaisi！neixiejianmin，tamendeqiguannengyongzaizunguidekerenshenshang，

shitamenderongxing！」tafengle。zaijudadejingshenyalihewodeyishichongjixia，tadefangxianchedibengkuile。

tadangzhesuoyourendemian，jiangtaneixinzuishenchudezuie，sihoulechulai。「jiangchen！」suqingchongshangqu，

xiangyaoduoxiawo，danyijingwanle。jiangchenmengditaiqitou，bumanxuesideyanjingsisididingzhesuqing，

lianshangluchuleyigezhengningdexiaorong。「haiyouni，suqing！womenshigongfan，niyigeyepaobudiao！hahahaha！」

takuangxiaozhe，wozhewodeshou，zaikongzhonghuluandihuiwu。guanchashideboliwai，suoyourendoujingdaile。

zhiboxinhaozaidiyishijianbeiqieduan，danyijingtaichile。jiangchendezibai，yijingtongguowangluo，

chuanbianlemeiyigejiaoluo。linmodezuijiao，gouqileyimobinglengdehudu。tanaqileshouji，botongleyigehaoma。

「keyixingdongle。」shoushushidemenbeimengdizhuangkai，yiqunheqiangshidandejingchachonglejinlai。「buxudong！jingcha！

」jiangchendexiaoshengjiaranerzhi。takanzheheidongdongdeqiangkou，youditoukanlekanshouzhongzhanmanxianxuedewo，

lianshangdebiaoqing，congdiankuangbianchenglechegudekongju。erwo，jingjingditangzaitadeshouzhong。daoshenshangdexue，shiwende。

wodechou，zhongyubaole。【4】hunluanzaishoushushilidadaoledingdian。jiangchenbeijingchasisianzaidishang，

taxiangyitoukunshou，haizaifengkuangdizhengzhahepaoxiao。「shita！shineibadao！wennian！shinideguihunzaizuosui！」

meiyourenlihuiyigefengzidehuyanluanyu。suqingtanruanzaidi，mianrusihui。tazhidao，yiqiedouwanle。

dangjiangchenhouchuneiju「womenshigongfan」shi，tadeshijieyesuizhibengta。

wobeiyimingjingchaxiaoxinyiyidicongjiangchenshouzhongquzou，zhongxinzhuangruzhengwudai。zheiyici，daizishangtiedebiaoqian，

buzaishi「zishaanzhengwu」，ershi「tedalianhuansharenanxiongqi」。touguomohudesuliao，

wozuihoukanleyiyanshoushushi。neilidenaojuyijingjiejinweisheng，erlingyichangguanyuzhengyideshenpan，caiganggangkaishi。

wodeyishi，zaibaofuchenggongdeshunjian，bingweigandaoyuxiangzhongdekuangxihejietuo，

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jiexialaiderizi，wochengleyigezuiteshude「tingzhong」。linmodebangongshichenglezhuananzudelinshizhihuizhongxin。

wotingzhetamenduijiangchenhesuqingdeshenxunjilu，tingzhetamengenjuxiansuo，

daohuileyigeyouyigeyinzangzaichengshiyinanjiaoluolidefeifaqiguanjiaoyiwodian，jiejiuleneixiebeiqiujinde「gongti」

。wotingdaolejiangchenhesuqingdechedibengkuihequanpanzhaogong。yuanlai，tamencongyixueyuanshijiushiqingren。

jiangchenweilededaowomenwenjiadecailiherenmai，caipaoqisuqingzhuiqiuwo。ersuqing，zeyizhiyi「guimi」

deshenfenqianfuzaiwoshenbian，zuotamenliangrenzhijiandechuanshengtong。tamenlianshou，liyongjiangchendezhiweizhibian，

hejingwaidefeifazuzhigoujie，jianliqileyitiaoxuexingdeliyilian。neixiebeitamenpandingwei「shehuidiceng」

deliulangzhe、wuyiwukaodewailaiwugongrenyuan，douchengletamenshoushudaoxiadexishengpin。erwo，

yinweiwuyizhongchupengdaolezheitiaoliantiaodehexin，chengletamenbixuqingchudezhangai。suoyoudezhenxiang，

douhewotuicedeyiyang，shenzhibiwoxiangxiangdegengjiaangzanghecanren。wojingjingditingzhe，yishilibuqiyisibolan。

chouhenyijingxiaosan，shengxiade，zhiyouwujindebeiliang。weiwoziji，yeweineixiewugudeshizhe。

anjiandediaochachixuleshuyue。zuizhong，jiangchen、suqingjiqibeihoudezhenggefanzuijituanbeiyiwangdajin。

dengdaitamende，jiangshifalvzuiyanlidezhicai。xiaoxigongbudeneitian，zhenggechengshidouweizhizhendong。

wosuozaideyiyuanyejinglileyichangcongshangdaoxiadedaqingxi。yiqiechenailuoding。yitianwanshang，

bangongshilizhishengxialinmoyigeren。tajiangsuoyoudejuanzongzhenglihao，fangjindanganju。ranhou，tazouguolai，

naqilewo。tameiyoudaishoutao。tadezhijianwennuanerganzao，qingqingdichupengzhewodedaoshen。「wenyisheng，

doujieshule。」tadeshengyinhenqing，xiangshizaiduiwoshuohua。

wojiangyishilizuihoudeqingxu——yilvdandande、rushizhongfudeganji——chuandijileta。

linmodeshentiweiweiyidun，suiji，taxiaole。neishiyizhongfazineixinde、qingsongdexiaorong。

「wobuzhidaonishiyizhongshenmeyangdecunzai，shizhinian，shilinghun，haishibiedeshenme。」takanzhewo，

yanshenqingcheerzhencheng，「danwozhidao，nibushixieede。nizhishiyigexiangyaotaohuigongdaodeshouhaizhe。」

「xiexieni，wenyisheng。shini，bangzhuwomenjiekailezheiyiqie。」tadunledun，jixushuodao：「nideanzi，

yijingzhongxindingxing。nidemingyu，yeyijinghuifule。yuanfangweinijubanlezhuidaohui，henduorendouqule，

tamendouweinigandaowanxihebuping。」wodeyishifanqileyisinuanyi。「xianzai，nikeyianxinle。」

tashuowan，jiangwozixidicashiganjing，fangjinyigejingzhidemuheli。hezilipuzherouruandeheisetianerong，

tangzailimian，bitangzaibinglengdezhengwudailiyaoshufudeduo。「zheihuoxubuheguiju，」linmogaishanghezi，

qingshengshuo，「danworenwei，nibuzaishiyijianzhengwu，ershiyiweiyingxiongdeyiwu。wohuiweinishenqing，

jiangniyongjiufengcun，buzairangrenherendarao。」wojingjingditangzaiheianerrouruandehezili，tingzhetadehua。

yiguqiansuoweiyoudekunyixiangwoxilai。wodeyishi，zaiwanchenglefuchou，xishualeyuanquzhihou，

kaishibiandemohu、huansan。zhichengwocunzaidezhinian，yijingxiaoshile。woganjuezijixiangyikeronghuadebing，

zhengzaimanmandi、yidiandiandihuiguidaoxuwuzhizhong。zaiyishichedixiaosanqiandezuihouyike，wo「kan」

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wobuzaishineibabingleng、fenglidedaole。wozhongyukeyianxile。【5】woyiweineihuishizhongjie。

yishidexiaosan，linghundeanxi，yiqiezuieyuchouhendouguiyuchentu。danwocuole。

dangneigushuxidekunyijiangwotunshi，dangworenweizijijijianghuiguixuwushi，

yigugengjiaqiangda、gengjiabinglengdeliliang，quexiangyizhiwuxingdedashou，jiangwohuansandeyishizhongxinzuanjin，

henhendituohuilezheijujinshudelaolong。「xiangzou？meineimerongyi。」yigeshaya、yinleng，

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zheishengyinchongmanleyuanduhegulaodeqixi，fangfolaizidiyudeshenyuan。womengdi「jingxing」，

faxianzijiyijiubeikunzaizheibashoushudaoli，tangzailinmoweiwozhunbeideneigetianerongmuhezhong。「nishishei？！」

woyongjinquanlizaiyishizhongnahan。「woshishei？」neigeshengyinchixiaoleyisheng，「wojiushinia……huozheshuo，

woshizheibadao，zhenzhengde『hun』。」woshunjianruzhuibingku。「shenmeyisi？」「yisijiushi，ni，wennian，

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wo，jiushizheixieyuanniande**ti。」wodedanaoyipiankongbai。woyizhiyiwei，shiwosihoudeyuannian，

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「ni……nixiangyaoganshenme？」wogandaoleqiansuoweiyoudekongju，zheizhongkongju，

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neigeshengyinyincecedixiaoleqilai，「nidechouhenhenmeiwei，wennian。tarangwocongchenshuizhongsuxing，

bingqiebiandegengjiaqiangda。danxianzai，nidechouhenxiaoshile，niduiwolaishuo，yijingmeiyouyongle。」「buguo，

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tadelinghun，wenqilai……feichangkekou。chongmanlezhengyiganheshengmingli，zheikeshizuidingjidebupin。」「bu！

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「taxianzaishiwodechiyouzhe。zhiyaotajixujiechuwo，tadeshengminglijiuhuibeiwoyidiandiandixishiganjing。erni，

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jiangwochediyanmei。wopinjinquanlibaolechou，quemeixiangdao，zhishihuanxingleyigegengjiakepade，chenshuideemo。

erwozuixiangbaohuderen，queyinweiwo，chenglezheigeemodexiayigemubiao。zheisuanshenme？mingyundewanxiaoma？bu，

wobunengfangqi！wobixuxiangbanfajinggaolinmo！wokaishifengkuangdichongjizhezheijujinshudeshufu，

shituxiangwaijiechuandinapayisiyihaodeweixianxinhao。danneigebeichengwei「daohun」dedongxi，xiangyizhangjudadewang，