第5章 现实困境与虚拟慰藉

wangzuocongyouxizhongtuichu,pibeidizhaixiavryanjing。xunishijiedeguangyingzaitayanqiancanliupianke,xiangyouyouwenroudexiaoyanyejianjianxiaosan,querdaizhideshichuzuwulihunandedengguanghebizedekongjian。canliudepaomianweiheyiguhuizhibuqudemeiweihunhezaiyiqi,cijizhetadexiujue。tawulidikaozaichuangtou,xianshidebinglengxunsubaoguoleta,youxizhongdeduanzanxiyuerutongfeizaopaobanpomie。

diertianqingchen,naozhongcierdelingshengjiangtacongqianmianzhongjingxing。weibuyizhenjingluan,taganoulejixia,queshenmeyemeituchulai。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtashibuxiayan,jinlaigengshirijianxiaoshou,yuanbenheshendechenshanrujinkongdangdangdiguazaitashenshang。tazhengzhazheqichuang,duizhejingzilidezijikuxiaoleyixia。cangbaidelianse,aoxiandeyanwo,luanzaozaodetoufa,huoxiangyigetuifeideliulanghan。

qiangrenzheshentidebushi,wangzuojishangleyongjidegongjiaoche。chexianglihunzazhegezhongqiwei,rangtagandaoyizhenexin。tajinjinzhuazhufushou,nulibaochipingheng,shengpazijihuisuishiyundao。haoburongyidaolegongsi,taquefaxianzijiyijingchidaole。

“wangzuo!nikankanxianzaijidianle?”shangsilijinglideshengyinrutongzhaleibanzaibangongshixiangqi,tafeipangdeshentiduzaimenkou,xiangyizuoroushan。“zheidoujidianle?nihaihaoyisilaishangban?zuijinnisantianliangtouqingjia,gongzuojinduyanzhongzhihou,nidaodihaixiangbuxiangganle?”

wangzuodizhetou,buganzhishilijinglideyanjing,tazuichunnieruzhe,xiangyaojieshi,quefaxianzijishenmeyeshuobuchulai。zhouweidetongshimenfenfentoulaiyiyangdemuguang,youtongqing,youbiyi,yeyouxingzailehuo。taganjuezijixiangyizhibeiboguangleyifudehouzi,baoluzaizhongmukuikuizhixia。

“wo…wo……”wangzuodeshengyinxiruowenying。

“woshenmewo?nikankannizuijindezhuangtai,xianggexingshizourouyiyang!gongsibushicishanjigou,bushirangnilaiyanglaode!yaoshizaizheiyangxiaqu,nijiuzijidijiaocichengba!”lijinglihaobuliuqingdixunchidao。

wangzuomomodihuidaozijidegongwei,ganjuezhenggeshijiedoutantale。tawulidipazaizhuozishang,weilifanjiangdaohai,yizhenzhendeexinrangtajihuwufahuxi。zheishi,shoujilingshengbuheshiyidixiangleqilai。

“ninhao,zheilishishirenminyiyuan,tixingninjinkuaijiaonazhuyuanfeiyong,nindeqianfeiyida……”dianhuaneitouchuanlaibinglengdejixienvsheng,meiyigezidouxiangyibajiandao,citongzhetadeshenjing。

wangzuoguaduandianhua,wuliditanzuozaiyizishang。xinyongkayijingtouzhi,qinqipengyouyedoujiebianle,tabuzhidaohainengxiangsheiqiuzhu。judadeyalirangtachuanbuguoqilai,juewanghewuzhuxiangchaoshuibanjiangtayanmei。tajixiedifanzheshoujitongxunlu,kanzheyigegeshuxidemingzi,queyigeyebuganbochuqu。cengjingdejiaoaohezizun,zaibingmomianqianbeiniandefensui。

xiabanhou,wangzuotuozhechenzhongdebufahuidaochuzuwu。hunandefangjianlimimanzheyigulingrenzhixidejuewangqixi。tatangzaichuangshang,ganjuehunshendegutoudouzaiteng。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtacheyenanmian,meiyicihuxidoubansuizhejuliedetengtong。tabishangyanjing,yanqianfuxianchuxiangyouyoucanlandexiaorong,neixiaorongrutongheianzhongdeyisiweiguang,daijitayisiweijie。

wangzuotuozhepibeideshenquhuidaochuzuwu,hunandefangjianlimimanzhepaomianhemeiweihunhedeguaiyiqixi。tawuliditanzuozaichuangbian,weibuyizhenjingluan,rangtaganoulejixia,queshenmeyemeituchulai。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtashibuxiayan,shentirijianxiaoshou,yuanbenheshendechenshanrujinsongkuadiguazaitashenshang。

tajixiedinaqishouji,diankaile“menghuanlingyuan”detubiao。dengluyouxihou,yigexitongtishidanlechulai:“gongxinin,yuyinjiaoliugongnengyijiesuo!”wangzuolengleyixia,suijiyigunuanliuyongshangxintou。tapobujidaididianjile“kaiqi”anniu。

“qianbei,jinrixiulian‘qingfengjue’,youyouganjuetineilinglishunchangxuduo,duoxienindezhiyin。”yigeruannuoqingcuideshengyincongshoujilichuanlai,rutongshanjianqingquanbanyueer,rangwangzuoyuanbenmamudexinweiweizhandong。zheishixiangyouyoudeshengyin,buzaishilengbingbingdewenzi,ershizhenzhenqieqiedeshengyin。

wangzuodeyankuangyouxieshirun,taqingqingkaikou,shengyindaizheyisishaya:“nizuodehenhao,rihouruoyudaokunnan,suishizhaowo。”

xiangyouyoudeshengyinlidaizheyisixinxi:“zhendema?qianbei,nengtingdaonindeshengyin,youyouhaokaixin!”

neiyike,wangzuoganjuezijihexiangyouyouzhijianbuzaigezhebinglengdepingmu,ershizhenzhengdilianjiezaileyiqi。takaishijiangshuzijizaixianshishenghuozhongdezhongzhongburuyi,gongzuodeyali,bingtongdezhemo,xiangyouyouzejingjingditingzhe,ouerhuifachuyixieanweideshengyin。

“qianbei,zaicangyunjie,youyizhongmingwei‘xuelian’delingcao,keyizhiyubaibing,ruoshinengzhaodaota……”xiangyouyoudeshengyinlidaizheyisiyouyu。

wangzuoxiaolexiao,tazhidaoxiangyouyoushizaianweita,taqingshengshuodao:“xiexieni,youyou,wohuinulide。”

cihoudemeigeyewan,wangzuodouhuizhunshijinruyouxi,hexiangyouyouliaotian。xiangyouyouhuijiangshucangyunjiedeqiwenyishi,birushenmideshangguyiji,qiangdadexiuxianzhechuanshuo,tashuohuadeshihou,shengyinyiyangduncuo,fangfozhendezhishenyuneigeqihuandeshijie。wangzuozehuiqingsuxianshizhongdefannao,gongzuodeyali,bingqingdezhemo,xiangyouyouzongshinaixinditingzhe,jiyutaanweiheguli。

yitianwanshang,xiangyouyoudeshengyinlidaizheyisijusang:“qianbei,wozuijinxiulianyudaopingjingle,linglitingzhibuqian,buzhigairuheshihao。”

wangzuoxiangqizhiqianwanchengyouxirenwushihuodedeyixiexiulianzhishi,tarenzhendifenxilexiangyouyoudeqingkuang,bingjichuleyixiejianyi:“youyou,nishishijianglingliyunzhuanyizhoutian,ranhoujizhongyudantian,ganshoulinglideliudong……”

xiangyouyouanzhaowangzuodejianyichangshi,guolepianke,tadeshengyinlichongmanlejingxi:“qianbei,wotupole!linglibiandegengjiachongpeile!xiexieni!”

wangzuoyegenzhexiaoleqilai,tagandaoyizhongmomingdechengjiugan,fangfozijizhendechengweilexiangyouyoudeyikao。neiyike,tamenbuzaishigudumianduikunjingdegeti,ershibicizhichengdexinlingyikao,zaixunideshijieli,zhaodaolezhenshideweijie。wangzuokanzheshoujipingmushangxiangyouyoudejiaose,tashenchuanyixisuyi,zhanzaiyueguangxia,lianshangdaizhewenroudexiaorong,fangfochushoukeji。