“啊？”
jiaoxiaodeshenyingmengdiyizheng，xingyanyuanzheng，yingmanleyihuo。
“纸笔？”
nianqingdexiaohushizaiduquerenleyibian，xiuqidemeimaoweiweicuqi，xianranyouxiebujieluchenweiheturanxuyaozheixie。
raner，dangtabuzhuodaoluchenneishuangyanmoushenchuranshaodejuejueguangmang，neishiyizhongjinhufengkuangdezhizhe，fangfoyaozhuazhushengmingzuihouyisiguangliangdeqianglieyizhi，hushidexintouzhouranyilin，suoyouyiwenshunjianxiaosan。
tabugandaiman，likezhuanshen，caizhexisuidebuzi，kuaibuzouxianghushizhan。
cike，yigumomingdebuanganrutengmanbanzaitaxindizishengmanyan。
nandao……nandaoluchenzheishiyao……jiaodaihoushi？
写遗书？！
zheigeniantouyidanfuxian，bianrutonghuizhibuqudeyinying，jinjinjuezhuletadesixu，rangtayuanbenqingkuaidebufayebiandechenzhongqilai。
xiaohushibugandangepianke，jicongcongdipaochubingfang，xiangzhibanzhurenyishihuibaoleluchendeyichangjudong。
suihou，taxunsuqulailezhibi，bingdaizhejiweishenchuanjiebaidaguadeyishi，shensecongcongdizhefanhuidaobingfang。
yaozhidao，luchenzaididoudiyiyiyuanxiangshoudeshidingjideyiliaodaiyu，tademeiyicixiweibianhua，douqiandongzhezhenggeyiliaotuanduideshenjing。
jiweiyishikuaisuyongrubingfang，sumudeqifenshunjianmimankailai。
tamenshouxianzuode，bianshimiqieguanzhuluchendegexiangshengmingtizheng，zixichakanzhejianhuyishangtiaodongdeshuju。
zhidaoquerenpingmushangdegexiangzhibiaoshangqiepingwen，luchenzanshimeiyoushengmingweixian，jinbengdeshenjingcaishaoshaofangsongxialai，jincudemeitouyeweiweishuzhankai。
“纸笔……”
luchendeshengyinzaicixiangqi，daizheyisibuyichajuedejiaozao，xuruoqueyoujiandingdicuicuzhe。
taxinzhongqingchu，liujizijideshijianbuduole，meitianjinjinersanshifenzhongdeqingxingshijian，meiyifenmeiyimiaodoumizuzhengui，bixuzhengfenduomiao。
xiaohushibuganzaidange，lijijiangzhibiqingroudididaoluchenshouzhong。
luchenzhandouzhejieguozhibi，zhijiangangyichupengdaobinglengdebishen，yigurutongdianliubandejutongshunjiancongzhijianmanyanzhiquanshen，fangfoyaojiangtadegusuidoucuncunniansui。
raner，qiangliedeqiushengyuwangzhichengzheta，tayaohuoxiaqu，weilehuoxiaqu，tabixuzhuazhuxitongfuyutadexumingjihui，tabixuxiege，zhiyougehuole，tacainenghuoxiaqu，caineng……heliuruyantanbaiyiqie，zhongxinshenghuo。
nanyiyanyudejutongruchaoshuibanyiboyouyibodixilai，jinjinzhishixiangyaozhichengzheshentizuoqishen，zheigeduiyuchangrenlaishuoqingeryijudedongzuo，luchenquefangfozaipandengyizuowufayuyuedegaoshan，meidongyixiadourutongkuxingjiashen。
tazuzuhaofeilewufenzhongdeshijian，caimianqiangcongbingchuangshangzuoqilai，etouzaoyibumanledoudadehanzhu，zuichunyinweijidudetengtongershiqulexuese，biandecangbairuzhi。
hushiyanjishoukuaidinalailekeyidongdexiaozhuoban，taxiaoxinyiyidikanlezhurenyishiyiyan，zaidedaozhurenyishimoxudeyanshenhou，caiqingshouqingjiaodijiangxiaozhuobanfangzailuchenshenqian，youxizhidijiangjiebaidezhizhangpingpuzaizhuobanzhishang。
咔咔咔——
jijingdebingfangzhong，xiangqilebijianyuzhizhangmocadexiweishengxiang，xiandegewaiqingxi。
luchenjinyaozheyaguan，rutongyigezaizhanchangshangfushangdezhanshi，yongjinquanshendeliqi，zaizhizhangshangjiannandishuxiezhegequdexuanlvhegeci。
meiyigebihua，meiyigeziji，meiyigetiaoyuedeyinfu，doufangfoshicongtalinghunshenchuzhengzhaerchu，doubansuizhesixinliefeidetongku，shenglishanghexinlishangdeshuangzhongzhemo，rutongliangzuochenzhongdedashan，henhendiyazaitadexiongtangzhishang，yadetachuanbuguoqi。
etouqingjingengenbaoqi，rutongqiulongbanzhengningkebu，yuanbenjiucangbaidezuichun，cikegengshicanbaidemeiyouyisixuese，rutongsirenyiban。
“主任……”
nianqingdexiaohushizaiyewufarenshouyanqianzheilingrenzhixidechangjing，tayankuangfanhong，daizhewuzhudemuguang，kanxiangshenpangdedezhurenyishi，shengyingengyan。
“别管我……”
luchendeshengyinxuruoderutongfengzhongcanzhu，quedaizheburongzhiyidejianding，daduanlexiaohushideqiuzhu。
jianzhuang，zhurenyishiweiweiyaoleyaotou，yanzhongshanguoyisifuzadeshense，zuizhonghuaweiyishengwunaidetanxi。
talijieluchencikedexinqing，yemingbailuchensuoshengdeshijianbuduole。
duiyuyigejiangsizhireneryan，huoxucikenenggouzuode，jiushijinlimanzutazuihoudeyuanwang，rangtaderenshengbuliuyihan，jibianzheigeyuanwangzaipangrenkanlaishirucidebukesiyi。
沙沙沙——
bingfangneidunshibiandeluozhenkewen，suoyoudeshengyindouxiaoshile，zhishengxiaqianbijianhuaguozhizhangdeshashasheng，yijiluchenneirutongpojiufengxiangyiban，jieliyayizhetongkudexuruochuanxisheng。
xingedeciqu，rutongjuanjuanxixue，yidianyididizaijiebaidezhizhangshangxianxianchulai。
xinlidetongku，yushenglidetongku，zaizheiyikejiaozhichanrao，dadaolejizhi，fangfoyaojiangluchenzhenggerenchedisilie。
“嘉宾……”
“fenshouhoudiyigedongji。”
“今天是星期几？”
“偶尔会想起你。”
“nituruqilaidejianxun”
“让我措手不及。”
“愣住站在原地。”
“……………”
“ganxienitebieyaoqing。”
“laijianzhengnideaiqing……”
“woshiketixingziji，bietaobi！”
“…………”
xiaohushihezhurenyishidemuguang，buzijuedibeizhizhangshangdegecisuoxiyin，dangtamenkanqingluchenbixiaxiechudeneirongshi，xinzhongbujinshengqiyigunanyiyanyudejingya。
“这……”
“病人是在写歌？”
xiaohushijinghuchusheng，qingchedeyanmouzhongchongmanlebukesiyi。
zhurenyishiyetongyangmanlianchayi，tayuxiaohushijiaohuanleyigeyanshen，bicidoucongduifangdeyanzhongkandaoleshenshendezhenhan。
douyijingshishengmingchuiweizhiji，jingranhaizaijianchixiege？！
jinjinzhishikanzhezhishangdegeci，yizhongnongliedetongku、beishang、mimangdeqingxubianpumianerlai，zilixingjiandoutouluzheyizhonglingrenzhixideyayi，fangfoyouyikuaijushizhongzhongdiyazaixinkou，rangrenchuanbuguoqi。
zailianxiangdaobingfangwaimantianfeiwudeemaodaxue，yijiluchencikecangbairuxuedezuichun，yizhongnanyiyanyudejidongzailiangrendexinjianqiaoranzisheng。
“woliujinsuoyouhuiyi。”
“laiqingzhunidehunli。”
“queshizhongmeiyouyongqi，zhufuni。”
“………”
“zhishaowohainenggouchengweineige。”
“jianzhengnimenaiqingdejiabin。”
“yujiannidetazhendehaoxingyun。”
“danyuantahuibiwogengaini。”
“………”
“zuoci……luchen，zuoqu……luchen。”
luchenjinjinwozheshouzhongdebi，tadeshentiyijingdaodalebengkuidebianyuan，meiyicunjifu，meiyigenshenjingdouzaifachutongkudeaiming，dantayiranyaojinyaguan，pingjiezhejingrendeyili，zaigequdemowei，zhandouzhexiexialezuihouyixingzi：
“qinyuan，qitiannei，changhuozheishouge。”
dangzuihouyigeziluoxia，luchenfangfobeichoukonglesuoyouliqi，yizhijinbengdexianzhongyuduanlie，tashouzhongdebiwulidihualuo，zhenggerenrutongpobaidebuouyiban，xutuoditandaozaibingchuangshang，zaiwujindejutongqinxizhixia，chedishiquleyishi，yunsiguoqu。
“快……”
“jianchabingrenshengmingtizheng！”
zhurenyishilikehuiguoshenlai，jishengminglingdao。
xiaohushiyexunsuxingdongqilai，liangrenmoqipeihe，shuliandicaokongzhelianjiezailuchenshenshangdegezhongbinglengdeyiliaoguanxianheyiqi，jinzhangdimangliuzhe，miqieguanzhuzhejianhuyishangdeshujubianhua。
zhidaojianhuyishangxianshi，luchendeshengmingtizhengzanshihuifupingwen，meiyoujixuehuadejixiang，liangkexuanzhedexincaizhongyushaoshaofangxia，zhangzhangdishuleyikouqi。
“zheige，yinggaishiyaojibingrenpengyoude。”
mangliuguohou，xiaohushizhilezhizhuomianshangdeneizhangxiemangecidezhizhang，qingshengshuodao。
“ng，nixiannazheba，dengbingrenpengyoulaile，jiaojita。”
zhurenyishipibeidicalecaetoushenchudehanzhu，yuqichenzhongdishuodao：“bingrendeqingkuanghenbuleguan，gujizuiduoyejiushengxiayigeyuedeshengmingle，zaizheizuihouderizili，zhiyaoshibingrentichudehelixuqiu，womendoujinliangmanzu，woqupeiyaofangkankan，youshenmetu**kuang，limajiaowo。”
“好的，主任。”
xiaohushishenseningzhongdidianlediantou。
weileluchendebingqing，yiyuanzujianleyigeyoushiqibaweidingjizhuanjiazuchengdeyiliaotuandui，riyelunliuzhishou，miqieguanzhuzhetadebingqingbianhua。
zhishiweilebujibingrenzaochengyapogan，pingshibingfanglibuhuiyoutaiduoren，tongchangzhiyouyiweixiaohushizaibingfangneizhiban，erqitadezhuanjiazezaigebideguanchashidaiming，tongguogezhongjingmiyiqi，shikefenxizheluchendeshengmingtizhengshuju，yibianzaidiyishijianyingduikenengchuxiandejinjizhuangkuang。
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wugexiaoshizhihou，musesihe，mantianfeixueyufasinve。
shenchuanheisezhangkuandayideqinyuan，dingzhelinliedehanfeng，maozhemantianfeiwudexuehua，congconggandaoledidoudiyiyiyuan。
tayilujiaojididatingzheluchendebingfangsuozai，zuizhonglaidaoleluchensuozaidezhuanshulouceng。
zaiyuzhibanzhurenyishiheduiguoshenfenxinxizhihou，qinyuanzheicaibeiyinlingzhe，kuaibuzouxiangluchendebingfang。
“bingrenzaixiuxi，qingbuyaodaraobingren，baochianjing，keyima？”
zhurenyishifanghuanjiaobu，qingshengdingzhudao。
“好，好的。”
qinyuanyibiankuaibugensuizhezhurenyishi，yibianmeitoujinsuo，yuqijiaozhuodiwendao：“yisheng，luchenta……daodizenmele？qingkuanghenyanzhongma？”
“嗯？”
zhurenyishitiaoletiaomei，lvedaiyihuodikanleqinyuanyiyan，fanwendao：“nibushibingrenjiashuba？”
“ng，bushijiashu，suanshi……tongshiba。”
qinyuanyingleyisheng，xinqingyufachenzhong。
“骨癌。”
zhurenyishitanlekouqi，yuqizhongchongmanlewanxi：“guaiwanqi，caiershiqisui，zhengshirenshengzhongzuimeihaodenianji，que……ai，mingyunnongrena，zuiduoyejiushengxiayigeyuedeshijianleba，xianzaimeitianzhiyoubanxiaoshizuoyoudeqingxingshijian，youshenmehuaxiangduibingrenshuode，keyixiexialailiuyan，dengbingrenqingxingle，womenhuizhuanjiaojitade。”
咔嚓！！！
zhurenyishidehuayu，rutongqingtianpili，shunjianzaiqinyuandexintouzhaxiang，zhendetaermowengming，danaoyipiankongbai。
骨癌？！
luchenjingrandeleguai？！
“shenmeshihoudeshi？！zhei……zheidaodishizenmehuishi？”
qinyuanrutongbeichouzoulequanshendeliqi，shengyindoubiandezhandouqilai，jiqiedizhuiwendao。
“zaizheijiayiyuanzhuyuanyijingyinianduole。”
zhurenyishiyaoleyaotou，yuqidichendishuodao：“womenyanzhengzhengdikanzhetacongzuichuhainengmianqiangxiachuanghuodong，daohoulaizhinengwochuangbuqi，zaidaoxianzaimeitianzhiyouduanzandeqingxingshijian……ai，zheicaodandemingyun，zhenshikexilezheimehaodeyigenianqingren。”
“……”
qinyuandeyanjingshunjianbiandetonghong，yigunanyiyizhidebeitongyongshangxintou，xiongqiangzhizhongfangfofanjiangdaohai，wuweizachen。
一年！
整整一年！
yinianzhiqian，buzhengshiluchenheliuruyanfenshoudeshijianma？
难道说……
luchenzheigebeiquanwangkouzhubifa，beiwushurentuomade“zhanan”，zheigebeiliuruyanhenzhirugude“fuxinhan”……
qishi……qishitasuozuodeyiqie，doushiweile……
qinyuanbuganzaijixuwangxiaxiang，tadeshuangshoukaishibushoukongzhidizhandouqilai，yigujudadebeilianghekuijiuganrutongchaoshuibanjiangtayanmei。
tabeizhurenyishidaidaolebingfangmenkou，gezhemingliangdebolichuang，qinyuankandaolejingjingditangzaibingchuangshangdeluchen，shenshangchuanzhekuandadelanbaitiaowenbinghaofu，xiandeyichangdanbo。
yujiyizhongneigeyiqifengfa、caihuahengyi、meilisishedeyinlecaizijieranbutong，yanqiandeluchenxingrongkugao，qiaocuizhiji，shouxuederutongkulouyiban，yuanbenchongmanguangzedetoufayeyijingquanbutuoluo，guangtutudetoudingxiandegewaiciyan，zuichungengshicangbaidemeiyouyisixuese，zhenggerendoulongzhaozheyigunongnongdebingtaihesiqi。
“yaojinqukankanbingrenma？”
主任医师轻声问道。
“bu……bule，wo……bujinqule。”
qinyuandezuichunyezaiweiweizhandou，yankuangzhongdeleishuizaiyewufayizhi，duokuangerchu，shunzheyanjiaohualuoxialai。
tapa，tapazijikongzhibuzhuqingxu，tapazijihuibengkui。
“ng，bujinquyehao。”
zhurenyishidianlediantou，biaoshilijie，tayaoleyaotou，yuqihuanhedishuodao：“duile，bingrenjiniliuleyizhangzitiao，haoxiangshiyishouge，nikankanba。”
“hao！xiexieyisheng，xiexienin！”
qinyuanrutongzhuazhulejiumingdaocaoyiban，ganmangyonglidiantou，shengyingengyandishuodao。
piankezhihou，zhurenyishinazheluchenxiexiadegepu，congbingfanglizoulechulai，shensefuzadidijileqinyuan。
qinyuanzhandouzheshuangshoujieguoneizhangbobodezhitiao，xiaoxinyiyidizhankai，dangtakandaozhishangneishoumingwei《jiabin》degequshi，yankuangshunjianbiandegengjiashirun，leishuirutongduanxiandezhenzhuban，zhibuzhudiwangxiadiao，xiongqiangzhonggengshiyongqiyigunanyiyanyudebeitong。
**的！
贼老天！
dangkanwanzhengshougecideneiyike，qinyuanyijingbaifenzhibaidiqueding，luchendangchuzhisuoyihuixuanzeheliuruyanfenshou，zhisuoyihuibeifu“zhanan”demaming，zhenxiangzhiyouyige，neijiushi……luchenweilebutuoleiliuruyan，weilerangliuruyannenggouxingfu，xuanzeleyinmanzijishenhuanjuezhengdeshishi，yiranjuerandiyiyige“zhanan”deshenfen，congliuruyandeshijieli，anrantuichang。