第三章 挣扎

touyihui,moqulianshangdeyanlei,muguangdinggezailecanzhuoshangdexiguadao。

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我女儿就叫李书画。

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“laotianye,ninengbunenggaosuwo”?

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“laotianye,shahaishibusha”?

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jiusuanlilehun,yiyanghaishihuibeibierenchaoxiao“talaopobeizhetagenbiedenanrengaozaiyiqile”wozenmehuo?wobama,nver,zenmehuo?”

youjinlejinshouzhongdedao,“gancuidajiadoubuhuo,jiubuyongzhidaotamenzenmehuole”

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“er,buguanshenmeshi,buyaoshanghaibierenyuziji,maguixialaiqiuni。

我……

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“baofu”,dui,“buyidingyaoshasitamen,yaozhuxin”,yaobawocishicikedetongkubaibei,qianbeidehaijitamen。

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ruguochongdongshimogui,neimelengjingxialaidemoguijianghuishitamenyishengdeemeng。