第1章
dianliuchuantoushentideshunjian，shenzhuomengdizhengkaileyanjing。
ciyandebaichidenghuangdetashixianmohu，erbianshijianruidejiqisheng。tafaxianzijibeibangzaiyizhangjinshuyizishang，shouwanhejiaohuaidoubeipidaijinjinguding，dongdanbude。
“xingle？”yigemoshengnanrendeshengyincongtoudingchuanlai。
shenzhuojiannanditaitou，kandaoyigechuanzhebaidaguadezhongniannanrenzhanzaitamianqian，shoulinazheyigedianjiqi。tazheicaizhuyidao，zheigefangjianmeiyouchuanghu，sanmiandoushimibutoufengdeqiangbi，tianhuabanshangmanshishanshuodehongdian。
“ni...shishei？zheishinali？”tadesangyinsiya，daizhejifenkongju。
“nilaogonghepopomeigaosunima？”nanrenliezuiyixiao，neixiaoyitouchujifenyinsendekongbu，“huanyinglaidaoyangguangwangyinjiaozhengzhongxin。”
jiyiruchaoshuibanyonglai。zuotian，jiehunwuniandezhangfulinshijiepotianhuangdishuoyaodaitaqujiaowaisanxin，popolifengyingyenandeheyanyuesedibangtashoushixingli。
shangcheqian，linshijiedijitayibeireniunai，tahexiahouhenkuaijiushiquleyishi...
“bukeneng...”shenzhuojuliezhengzhaqilai，“shijie...tabuhuizheimeduiwo，tabuhuizheimeduiwode！”
fangjiandementuranbeituikai，lianggeshuxideshenyingzoulejinlai。
shenzhuodetongkongzhouranshousuo，lairenbushibieren，zhengshitadezhangfulinshijiehepopolifengying！
“yo，xingle？”lifengyingbaozheshoubei，lianshangdaizheshenzhuocongweijianguodezhengningxiaorong，“zijixingleyehao，miandewomenhaidefeiliqinongxingni。”
linshijiezhanzaimuqinshenhou，yanshenshanduo，quemeiyourenheyaoshangqianjiejiutadeyisi。
“weishenme？”shenzhuodeshengyinzhandouzhe，“wodaodizuocuoleshenme？”
“nihaiyoulianwen？”lifengyingturanbaonu，chongshangqianhenhenshanletayierguang，“sannianle，liangedandouxiabuchulai！womenjiaquniyoushenmeyong！”
shenzhuodelianjia**laditeng，erduowengwengzuoxiang。takanxianglinshijie，aiqiudao，“shijie，nibangbangwogenmamashuoshuohaobuhao，zhendebushiwodewenti!”
linshijieyandiyinyinyoubeirenchuochuanweizhuangdenuqi，shengyinlengmodekepa，“shenzhuo，bietianzhenle。womashuodedui，nijiushigemeiyongdefeiwu。”tadunledun，“xinghaonihaitingjiankang，qiguanhainengmaidianqian，chabuduogoubuchangwomenjiazheixieniandesunshile。”
shenzhuoruzhuibingku，quanshendexueyefangfodouninggule。taxiangdaolinshijiecikejingnengshuochuzheiyangdehua。
“kaishiba，yisheng。”lifengyingduineigebaidaguashuo，“liantamadoubuguantale，zheizhongbuxiaonv，sileyemeirenzaiyi。”
yishengdiaozhengzhedianjiqideqiangdu，kanleyanshouzhongdexieyishu，manbujingxindishuo，“genjuguiding，womenhuixianjinxingxingweijiaozhengceshi，dengquedingtajingshenshichanghou，zaizouqiguanjuanxianchengxu...”
“nimenzheishimousha！"shenzhuoxiesidilidijianjiaoqilai，"jiuming！jiu——”
dianliushunjianguanchuanquanshen。neishiyizhongwufaxingrongdetongku，fangfomeiyigenshenjingdoubeimeitanshaoleyibian，sumagancongjiaodizhichongnaomen，tazhenggerendouyizhibuzhudijingluan。
yishimohujian，tasihukanjianneizhangxieyishuyouxiajiaodeqianming——shenhuifen。
那是她妈妈的名字。
“dianyadiaogaoyidian，”lifengyinglengyanpangguan，fangfozaikanyigehaobuxiangganderen，“huozheyeshilangfeiliangshi，haiburusileshengxin。”
gengqiangliededianliuxilai。shenzhuodeyishikaishimohu，zaixianruheianqiandezuihouyike，takandaolinshijiezhengzaiheyishengtaolunzheshenme，lianshangshenzhidaizheqingsongdexiaorong...
ruguonengzhonglaiyici...
我绝不会...
zaiguozheiyangderensheng...
zheishishenzhuonaohaizhongzuihoudeniantou。
shenzhuomengdizhengkaiyanjing，xiongkoujulieqifu，lenghanjintoulehoubei。taxiayishidimoxiangzijideshouwan，neiliyuanbenbeipidailechudeyuqingxiaoshile，zhiyuxiaguanghuadepifu。
tazhandouzhezuoqishen，jiebaidetianhuabankanbudaoyigehongdian，qiangshangtiezhejizhangmingxinghaibao，shuzhuoshangsanluozhekebenhehuazhuangpin。zheishitadaxueshidesushe！
“zenmehuishi...”shenzhuonannanziyu，shenshoumoxiangzhenbiandeshouji。pingmuliangqi，xianshideriqiheranshi2025nian4yue16ri。
tadakaiqianzhishexiangtou，jingtoulidezijinianqinglexuduo，meiyouyanjiaodexiwen，zhiyouxieweideqiaocuihedandandeheiyanquan。
发生了什么？
weishenmeshenbiandeyiqiedouhuidaoleta19suishidemoyang。
难道是...
“zhongshengle？”shenzhuoqialeyixiazijidedatui，tengtongganzhenshideburongzhiyi。tasisizuanzhuchuangdan，shubuqingdefuzaqingxuzaitadexinlifanyong。
shoujituranxiangqicierde**，pingmushangtiaodongzhede“mama”erzirangshenzhuohunshenyizhan。
zheigemama，shineigezaiqiguanjuanxianxieyishangqianzidemuqin，neigeyanzhengzhengkanzhetabeisongjindiyudemuqin！
**chixubuduan，fangfocuimingbanlingrenzhixi。shenzhuoshenxiyikouqi，zhandouzheanxiajietingjian。
“shenzhuo！nizheihaizizenmebujiedianhua？nizhidaomamadaleduoshaogema？"shenhuifenjianruideshengyinchuantouermo，"wozaiwaimiandanxinnidanxindebudele，nidaohao，zhizhidaowanshoujishiba？”
shenzhuodetaiyangxuetutuzhitiao，qianshibeikongzhi、beijianshidezhixiganzaicixilai。“ma，wozaisushenengyoushenmeshi？”tanulikongzhizheshengyindezhandou。
“nengyoushenmeshi？niyigenvhaizizaiwaimian，sheizhidaohuichushenmeshi！"shenhuifendeshengyindourantigao，"wojinifadeweixinweishenmebuhui？zuotianrangnihuibaoyirisancanchileshenme，nidaoxianzaidoumeifa！”
shenzhuobishangyanjing，qianshidejiyiyuxianzaizhongdie——muqinmeitianyaoqiutahuibaoxingzong、yinshi、jiaoyouqingkuang，shenzhiyaoqiutapaishemeidunfandezhaopianfaguoqu。shaoyouyanchi，jiuhuizaodaowuxiuzhidedianhuahongzha。
“wowangle。”shenzhuojianduandihuida。
“wangle？wokannishigenbenmeibamamafangzaixinshang！”shenhuifendeshengyindaizhekuqiang，“wohanxinrukubaniyangda，nijiuzheimeduiwo？nizhibuzhidaomamayouduodanxin？”
shuxidedaodebangjiarangshenzhuoweibujiaotong。qianshitazongshiqufuyumuqindezheizhongqingganlesuo，yibubulunweimeiyouzijizhujiandeshehuikongxinren。
“woxianzaiyoushi，wandianzaishuo。”shenzhuozhunbeiguaduandianhua。
“niganguadianhuashishi！”shenhuifendeshengyinzaicibiandelingli，“woyijingdaonisushelouxiale，ganjinxialaijiewo！”
shenzhuodexinchendaogudi。takanxiangsushemen，yizhongbuxiangdeyuganlongzhaozheta。guoran，budaoyifenzhong，sushemenbeimengdichuaikai，menkuangfachubukanzhongfude**。
shenhuifentuozheyigegugunangnangdeshepidaijinlewu，xiangzaixunshizijidelingdiyiyangzuokanyoukan，zuihouxuanzelezoudaoshenzhuodechuangweipangbian。
tashunshounaqishenzhuofangzaichuangtouderijiben，“youxiezheixieluanqibazaodedongxi？mamagennishuoguoduoshaoci，yaobazhongxinfangzaixuexishang，biezuoneixieluanqibazaodeshi，nijiushibuting！”
shenzhuoyanzhengzhengkanzhemuqinfankantaderiji，yigunuhuocongxindishaoqi。qianshitajiushiyinweishishidoubuganfankang，cairangmuqindekongzhibianbenjiali，zuizhongjianjiededaozhitaxianruneiduankepadehunyin。
“haijiwo！”shenzhuoshenshouquqiang。
shenhuifenlingqiaodiduokai，kuaisufanlejiye，lianseyuelaiyuenankan，“‘jintianmamayoudadianhuachagang，ganjuechuanbuguoqi’‘haoxiangtaolizheizhongshenghuo？’shenzhuo，mamazheimeguanxinni，nijiuzheimexiangwo！”
“neishiwodeyinsi！”shenzhuoshengyinfadou。
“yinsi？zaiwomianqiannitanshenmeyinsi！”shenhuifenpadiheshangrijiben，“woshinima，nishenshangshenmebushiwode？kankannidouxielexieshenme，guaibudegaozhonglaoshishuonixinliyouwenti，doushizheixienixiedezheixiedongxihaide！”
shenzhuozuanjinlequantou，qianshidejiyiruzoumadengbanzhongxian——muqinfankantashouji、guanzhutadeweixinbushu、jiantingtadedianhua...suoyouzheixiedoushiyi“weinihao”demingyi。
“wozheicilai，jiushiyaojiejuezheigewenti。”shenhuifencongshepidaidailitaochuyigefangxinghezi，lianshangfuxianchuguiyidexiaorong，“kan，mamajinimailezuixinkuandezhinengshexiangtou，haiyouyuyingongneng，zheiyangnizaisusheliliaoleshenme，mamayenengtingdaole。”
shenzhuodexueyeshunjianninggu。takanzhemuqinbanlaiyizi，dianqijiaojianzaisushetianhuabanjiaoluoanzhuangshexiangtou，neigeweizhikeyiwanmeijiankongtadechuangweiheshuzhuo。
“congjintianqi，nimeitianshuijixiaoshi，gensheishuoleshenmehua，mamadounengkandao。”shenhuifendiaozhengzheshexiangtoujiaodu，yuqizhongdaizhebingtaidemanzu，“zheiyangwojiufangxinle，miandenitiantianwanshoujibuxuexi。hainengkankannimeitiandouchixieshenme，neixiewaimailajishipinyikoudoubuxupeng！”
shenzhuokanzheneigeheidongdongdejingtou，fangfoyouhuidaoledianjishi，tianhuabanshangneixieshanshuodehongdianjianshizhetadeyijuyidong。kongjuhefennujiaozhizaiyiqi，tadehuxibiandejicu。
“ma，nizheiyangwosheyouhuibuleyide。”shenzhuozuozhezuihoudezhengzha。
“tamenbuleyishenme？woyoubukantamen！”shenhuifenchizhiyibi，“tamenaichiwaimaichiqu，nishiwonverwocaiguanni。”tacoujinshenzhuo，yadishengyin，“wogaosuni，biezongkaolvbierenganshou。tamenaishuonishuoqu，nibulijiushile。nigaozhongneishenmeyiyuzheng，wokanjiushinitaizaiyibierenyanguang，zijizuochulaide！”
jiankongshexiangtoufachuqingweidekacasheng，hongsedezhishidengxiangyizhibuhuaihaoyideyanjing，lenglengdizhushizheshenzhuo。
“bu...”shenzhuoyaozhetouhoutui，“wobuyao...”
“shenmebuyao？mamazheidoushiweinihao！”shenhuifenlishengdao，“nikankangebiwangayidenver，duotinghua，mamarangwangdongjuebuwangxi。nizaikankanni，zhengtiangenmamaduizhegan，nanguai——”
shenzhuodemuguangluozaishuzhuoshangdebolibeishang。zaishenhuifendiediebuxiudezhizezhong，taturanchaoqishuibei，yongjinquanlichaomuqindefangxiangzaqu。