wopiaodaotashenhou,shitanxingdexiangquchupeng。
xiayanbennengdetuihoubanbu,pifufanqixieweizhanli。
tazhizhuxiaosheng,mianlufengci:
“youzaishuashenmexinzhao?weilexiyinwozhuyili,nijiuzheimemeidixian?”
“zenmehuiyounizheimezheizhongdenvren!”
“yaobushiwozhidaonizhuanghuaiyun,chadianjiubeinipianle!”
“xianzaigenglipu——gaochuyijuhuaiguoyundefulanshiti,jiuweilerangwowuyiweishini,haorangwohouhuimoji?”
“shenzhiqiu,nishizaishitaixiazuole!”
taduixiashuidaorenglegeyantou,zhuanshenshangche,touyebuhuidelikai。
wushuibianyuanfanqixieweilianyi。
wodehunpogenzhexiayanyiqihuijia。
xushizhinian,wodeguihunyizhikunzaitashenbian。
tashuocuole,wobushizhuanghuaiyun。
我是真的怀上了。
kewobumingbaiweishenme,wulunwozenmezizheng,tashizhongrenweiwoshizhuangde。
xiayanhuideshitazaishizhongxindehaohuagongyu。
zheilimeiyouwodehenji,zhiyoutahejiniannian。
jiniannianyishenzhensishuiyi,sanluanzhetoufacongwofangchulai。
“ayange,saozideshi,woyebuzhitazenmejiuwuhuilewomenguanxi,qishiwo……”
“biezaititale,huiqi!”
jiniannianshunshiyizaitahuaili。
“wozhendehaoxianmuzhiqiujiea,womenyiqiduguonianshaochunhua,youneimeduomeihaohuiyi,keyezhishihuiyi,taquenengyongyouquanbudeni。”
tamingrundeyanzhuyimanjingying。
liangrenmuguangduishi,fangfoyoushenmeyayiyijiuganqing,jijiangxiongyongerchu……
我不明白。
linghunyehuiganzhidaotongkuma?
weishenmecike,woganjuezijikuaiyaosuidiaole。
woshiaita,aicanleta,kewobingbujian!
genxiayanzaiyiqideshihou,wobingbuzhidaotahaiyougexiaoqingmei。
woouerganjuedaotadejingshenpiaoyi,danbumingsuoyi。
youyicizuihou,tajiangwohanchengle“niannian”。
jiangwozhemoleyiwan,zhengzhengyiwan……
wocaizhujianyishidaoneigejiaonianniandexiaoqingmeizaitaxinlideweizhi。
houlai,jiniannianhuiguo,tajingshenhuanghudeshihouyuelaiyueduo。
yankanzhetadexinyuezouyueyuan,yuezouyueyuan。
wochulekuqi,haowubanfa。
duoshaocile,gentachao,gentanao。
congyigedulinvxing,bianchengyigedufu。
henduocizhaozhejingzi,wodoujuedezijimianmukezeng。
wozenmehuibianchengzheifumoyang?
wohuihenmoji,queyouyuexianyueshen。
shenzhichongdongxiazuochulezijidoukanbuqideshi。
……
neitianwodabanhao,chongquxiayangongsi,xiangzaisuoyourenmianqianguanxuanzijizongcaifurendeshenfen。
danshilaibujikaikou,jiubeibaoanjijiazou。
wotingjianxiayandezhuliduibangongqudeyuangongjieshi。
“qingdelinshigongbaojieeryi。naoziyoudianwenti,zhengtianhuanxiangzijishizongcaifuren。”
yuangongmenhuangrandawudeeleyisheng。
“yuanlaishibaojieayia!guaibudechuanshangzhengtaoxiangnaieryebuxiangfuren。”
“yifuweiweisuosuobutandangdeyangzi,chadianbeitajipianle。”
“zheiniantounaoziyouwentideayizhenduo!”
wobeibaoantuochuqu,wushengluoxiayanlei。
我畏畏缩缩不自信?
xiayanconglaimeiguanxuanwoshenfen,wonaliyouzixin?
taheshijiguowoanquangan!
youyiwan,wochileanmianyao,shuile,banyequeyoujingxing。
wokandaoxiayanzaiyangtaishanggenxiaoqingmeidadianhua。
“ayange,niyaojiehunle。congjinyihou,neigenvrenhuizhanjunixinlizuizhongyaodeweizhi,neiwoyousuanshishenme?”
xiayanjimangxuanshizijizhenxin:
“bu,jiusuanwojiehunle,nizaiwoxinzhongshizhongshidiyiwei,sheidouwufaqudai!”
dianhuaneibian,xiaoqingmeikudelingrenxinsui。
xiayanwunaidezhangtanyisheng:
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neiyishunjian,woruzaoleiji。
xiayanzhuiqiuwo,bushiyinweixihuanwo。
juedingquwo,yebushiyinweiaiwo。
ershiyinweiwoliyongjiazhigao。
zaitachuangyezhichu,wobamajiushequlaoben,jitajiqianwandangqidongzijin。
youpingjiezijideteshushenfenguanghuan,jitaqianxiandaqiao,datonggegehuanjiederenmai。
yinweiaita,wozuojinlesuoyou,woxinganqingyuan!
kezheibushitaqingjianwodeliyou!
zineiyihou,womenlengzhanlexujiu。
zhishiwomeixiangdao,houlai……
jiniannianzaiguowaiyudaozhanan,shidaiqiuhuiguode。
peitazhouqichanjian,xiayanhuihuibuluo,paodehenqinkuai。
youcitashizaihuibulai,rangwotile。
kexiao,neishiwogentalengzhanhenzhangshijian,dalaidiyigedianhua,jinghaishiweilexiaoqingmei。
wozhidaoxiayanduizheigehaizishiruozhenbao。
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wodayingle,weicidangeleyigeguanhuqiantudebisai。
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tazhangzhezijishiyunfu,bawobidaoleloutijian。
“woyiwaihuaiyun,ayangexintenghuaile,taduiwochengnuo,yaobazheihaizidangchengqinshengdeyiyangpeiyang,bingjichengtadeqiye!”
“nidongshenmejiaolinghunbanlvma?”
“zheihaizisuiranbushiayangedexuemai,danqueshiwohetalinghunqihezhixiadejiejing,biqinshengdehaiqin!”
“niyiwei……jiuninengsheng?”
womeikonggentabaiche,zhuanshenjiuzou。
danmeiliaodao,caizoujibu,houmianjiuchuanlaitadejinghu。
yuanlaishijiniannianzheigehaiguijingying,zijibazijifansuozaileloutijianlimian。
xiangdaoloutijianlimianlianzhemuyingshi,limianyouyunfuxuyaodequanbupeizhi。
woyouzhejiqudabisai,jiucongconglikaile。