第5章:谎言

wotoubeizhuangdewengwengluanjiao,kulechulai,“xiunian!nifangshou!”

guxiunianjiuxiangtouyeshou,tayijingshiqulelizhi,“nitamaxiangyao!wojini!sheirangnitamafanjiansongshangmenqurangjianghucaode!”guxiunianbawoenzaishafashang,pinmingzaiwoshenshangsinve!

tayibianqiangxingyaowo,yibianfaxiesidemawo,yijubiyijuzang,yijubiyijuhen,woyijingkubuchushengyinlai。

“xiunian,nixiangxinwo,womeiyoubeipanni,wobuzhidaozuotianfashengleshenme,woxinglaideshihoujiuyijingneiyangle!”

womingmingshigeji.nv,womingmingdayingguolinxiuhuayidingyuanliguxiunian,kewoquexiangzhebunengbeipanta。

zheizhongganjuehaoxiangkejinleguxue。

wopinmingqiurao,keshiguxiuniangenbenbutingwodejieshi,takandaoshipin,kandaolewohejianghuzaiyiqideshipin。

wobuxiangxin,wojianjuebuxin。

guxiunianhaizaiwodeshentili,tahenhenqianzhuwodexiaba,bashoujilideshipindiankaijiwokan。

meiyoukanjianshipindeshihou,wohaixiangxinyiqiedoushijianghupianwode,taxiangyaodedaowo,bianzaodehuangyan。

kewokanjianshipindeshihou,naozilisuoyoudeshenjingdoukaishidajie,toutengdefafeng。

wojiuzhutoufa,tuikaiguxiuniandeshouji,jiuxiangshishixinfengyibantuikaileguxiunian。

wobuxiangxinzheishishishi,wochongjinchufangli,nachuyibacaidao,wokanjianzhanzaifangjianlichishenluotidenanrenbushiguxiunian,ershijianghu。

wonazhedaochaozhetakanguoqu,woyibiankanyibianku,“wohenni!wohenni!”

wodedaobeiduoleguoqu,yibazhangjiangwodaxing,“suli!nideyanji,shiwojianguodeji.nvzhong,zuihaode!”

womunedezhanzaifangjianli,piantoukanzheguxiunian,womizheyanjing,chuangwaideguangzhaojinlai,youyishucongtadeerbiancaguo,neilihaoxiangyouyitiaoshikongfengxi。

wocongneitiaofengxizhongkandaoleguxiuniandetongnian,tadeshaonian,wokanjianletadezhenggeqingchunshiqi。

wokandaowoziji,yekandaolejianghu。

kandaolewomendoushinianshaodemoyang。

wohenxiangzuanjinneitiaoshikongfengxi,keshiguxiunianyidong,neishuguangbujianle,shikongdefengxiyexiaoshile,woshenmedoukanbujianle。

woxinhuangjile,zouguoqulazhuguxiuniandeshou,“wobushiziyuande。”

“yigezuopirou.shengyideren,genwoshuo,tabushiziyuanjiedeke,nishuowohuixiangxinnima?wodangchuzenmehuibaoyangnizheimegenvren!weileni,wodedinghundianlinongchenglezhenggegangchengdexiaobing!niquebeizhewogenbiedenanrenluangao!”

为了我?

他说为了我?

他是因为在乎我吗?

他心里是有我的吧?

wodexinzangyizhenjinguoyizhendeshousuozhe,yousuanyoutong。

wodeshoujilingshengzheishihouxiangqilai,wojieqidianhua,dianhualishilinxiuhuadeshengyin,“suli,nijizhu,niduanmingerzihaiyouliangtianshoushu,shisishihuo,kannidebiaoxianle。ruguonibunengrangxiuniancongnineierlikai,nijiudengzhenierzidexinzangyongyuandaobuletadeshenshangba。”

wogualedianhua,kanxiangguxiunian,xinliekai,zuijiaoguaxiao,“womenzaishenmedifangrenshidenixinlimeishuma?wochizheiwanfan,nibugaiduiwoyaoqiuzheimegao,zaishuole,bushiwodecuo,shinishuoguo,jiaowobuyaozhaoni,renheshi。”

guxiunianbiechedirenu,tajiangshouzhongdedaorengdaomenkou,zaicitiejintoupizhuazhuwodetoufa,“nizaishuoyibian!”

“guxianshengcengjingjiaowobaizhengzijideweizhi,wobuguoshigeji.nv,sheijiwoqianwojiukeyigensheishuijue,womeiwang,danshiguxianshengzijiwangjile,bushima?”woxiaorongtaiqingtiao。

guxiunianyanzhongyimotongchushanguo,taxiaolexiao,“duia,wojingranwangjile,nibenlaijiushigeji.nv,kewojingranzongshibanidangzuoshenxin,nizenmehuishishenxin?shenxinzaojiubuzaizheigeshijieshanglea,nibuguoshigeji.nv,nizhishizhangdexiangtaeryi……”

wodiyicicongguxiuniandeyanzhongkandaoleyanlei。

wodiyicitingtashuochu“shenxin”zheigemingzi。

mingmingshidiyicitingdao,kewodexinkouhaoxiangbeiyibabishouhenhenzhajin,dunshixianxuewaiyong。