langdineiju“xinxiangbeiwakong”dehua，xiangshaohongdeluotietangzaikongqili。
womengdihoutui，“xianshengrencuorenle。”shengyinyoulengyouying，“wojiaolinwan，‘luoying’delaoban。meishenmexiangrikui，ninqinghuiba。”
tazhanzhemeidong。gaodadeshenyingjihujiangwowanquanlongzhao。wonengganjuedaotamuguangdezhuore，daizheyizhongjihuyaojiangwochuantoudeshenshihetongku。
“linwan...”tadishengzhongfuzhezheigemoshengdemingzi，yuqilichongmanbuxin，“hao，linlaoban。”tahurandaburaoguoshuizi，jingzhizouxiangwoganggangzhengliguodehuajia。neili，zaijipenlvluohoumian，zangzheyigebuqiyandetaotuxiaohuapen，limiangulinglingdilizheyizhuganggangchouchunenyadexiangrikuiyoumiao——neishizuotianchulihuacaishi，woguishishenchaliuxiadeyikekuihuazi，suishoumaijintuli。
langdijingzhundibatanalechulai，zhifuqingqingfuguoneiliangpiancuiruodenenya。“meiyouxiangrikui？”tazhuanguoshen，jianghuapenjudaowomianqian，“neizheishishenme？”
woyakouwuyan。mimibeizheiyang**luodijiechuan，judadenankanhekonghuangshunjianjiangwoyanmei。woshenshouquqianghuapen：“haijiwo！”
tashouwanyitai，qingyiduoguo。huapenzaitazhangzhong，neizhurouruodeyoumiaozaikongqiliwuzhudihuangdong。
“haijini？”tabijinyibu，shengyinyayizhefengbao，“ranhouni？rangnijixuduozaizheigeqiaoli？jixujiazhuangburenshiwo？jiazhuangwomenzhijianshenmedoumeiyoufashengguo？！”tadeqingxudouranjidongqilai，yanshentongkuerkuangluan，“neixiesuipian！neixiegaiside、pinbuqilaidesuipian！cangkudeqiangsheng...nilianshangdexue...haiyou...haiyou...”tatongkudianzhuejiao，taiyangxueqingjinbaoqi，“...yigemingzi！yigewopinmingxiangzhuazhu，quezongshicongwonaozililiuzoudemingzi！yangdan！shibushini？！gaosuwo！”
“bushi！”wojianjiaozhefouren，“nizou！nizaibuzouwobaojingle！”
“baojing？”taxiangshitingdaoletiandadexiaohua，yandiqueyipianchihong，“haoa！rangjingchalaikankan，yigemankouhuangyandenvren，yigelianzijimingzidoubuganchengrendedanxiaogui！”tamengdijianghuapenguanzaidishang！
“啪嚓！”
taotuhuapensuiliedeshengyinjianruicier。shirundenitujiankai，neizhuganggangmengyadexiangrikuiyoumiaobeishuailechulai，xinendejingyeshunjianzheduan，keliandifuzaibinglengdecizhuanheshuizili。
wojiangzaiyuandi，yanzhengzhengkanzheneidianxiangzhengzhetajiyisuipianhewodewangniandenenya，zaiwushuilixunsukuwei、diaoling。
langdiyelengzhule，takanzhedishangneitanlangjie，youkankanzijiweiweizhandoudeshou，fangfobumingbaizijigangcaizuoleshenme。yandidekuangluanbeiyizhongjudademangranhegengshendezizequdai。
tazhanglezhangzui，sihuxiangshuoshenme，zuizhongquezhishitongkudibishangyan，zhuanshen，liangqiangdichongchulehuadian。menbeitashuaidezhentianxiang，zhendemanshidehuabandouzaisusufadou。
wohuanhuandunxiashen，shouzhizhandouzhe，xiangquchupengneizhuyaozhedeyoumiao。zhijianhaiweipengdao，yidiguntangdeyetixianzaluoxialai，hunrudishangdewushuihenituli。bushilei。shixue。biqiangliyongshangyigushuxide、wenredetiexiuwei。wotaishouyimo，manshoucimudexianhong。
xuanyunganpaishandaohaibanxilai。xiaofushenchuchuanlaiyizhenshuxide、lingrenxinjidezhuitong，biyiwangrenheyicidouyaomenglie。
wofuzhejutaixiangzhanqilai，yanqianquemengdiyihei，zhenggerenruanruandixiangqianzaidao。shiquyishiqian，zuihoudeganjueshijianyingdedibanzhuangshanglianjia，hebijianyuelaiyuenongyudexuexingwei。
xiaodushuideweidaocibidihuanxingyishi。yanpichenzhongdetaibuqilai。erbianshimohudejiaotansheng。
“...laoleiguodu，qingxujuliebodongyoufadejixingchuxue...taierqingkuanghenbuwending...xuyaojueduiwochuang...”
“...zhiqiandeliuchanshoushuduitashentishanghaihenda，zheicinengbaozhuyijingshiwanxing...zaiyouyiciyiwai，shenxianyenanjiu...”
胎儿？流产手术？
hunluandexinxixiangzhenyiyangzhajinhundundedanao。wobushi...yijingzuodiaolema？zaibinglengdeshoushutaishang，zailangdiyiwangdemuguangli...zenmehui？
womengdizhengkaiyan！cimudebaichidenghuangderentouyun。wotangzaiyiyuandebingchuangshang，shoushangzhazhediandi。chuangbianzhanzhewodefangdongayiheyigechuanzhebaidaguademoshengnvyisheng。
“aiyo！xiaolinnixingle！”fangdongayisonglekouqi，lianmangcouguolai，“hesiwole！huadianmeikaimen，woqukankancaifaxianniyunzaidishang，liulehaoduobixue...”
“yisheng...”wogubushangqita，shengyinsiyadikanxiangnvyisheng，shouzhandoudifushangxiaofu，“haizi...wodehaizi...”
nvyishengtuiletuiyanjing，biaoqingyansu：“lin**，nihuaiyunle，dayueshizhou。dannizhiqianzuoguoyicibuwanquandeliuchanshoushu，zigonghuanjingfeichangcuiruo。zheicichuxuejiushixianzhaoliuchandejixiang，qingkuanghenweixian。nibixuliketingzhigongzuo，jueduiwochuangjingyang，peiheyaowuzhiliaobaotai。fouze，houguobukanshexiang。”tadiguolaijizhangjianchadan，“zheishibchaodanheyizhu，shangmianyouwodedianhua，yourenheqingkuanglikelianxiwo。”
wozhandoudijieguoneijizhangqingpiaopiaodezhi。zuishangmianneizhangbchaodanshang，mohudeheibaituxiangli，yigexiaoxiaode、douyabandeyinyingqingxikejian。pangbianbiaozhuzhe：gongneizaoyun，huotai。
孩子还在！
judadezhenjinghekuangxihaimeilaidejichongshangtouding，jiubeigengshendekongjushunjianjiaomie。shizhou...shijianduideshang...shenqianqian！tajiwodegenbenbushishenmeduotaiyao！shiweizhuangchengduotaiyaode、sunshangzigongdemanxingduyao！tabujinyaochudiaohaizi，haiyaochedihuidiaowozuomuqindekeneng！erneigesuoweideshoushu...kongpazhishitaanpaide、yichangrangwochedisixindepianju！
“xiaolina，niliansezenmezheimebai？biepabiepa，tingyishengdehuahaohaoyangzhe...”fangdongayihaizaixutao。
jiuzaizheishi，bingfangmenbeiqingqingqiaoxiang。fangdongayiqukaimen，suijichuanlaitajingyadeshengyin：“xianshengnizhaoshei？”
yigegaodadeshenyingchuxianzaimenkou。langdi。
taliansebigangcaizaihuadianshigengjiacangbai，zuichunjinminzhe，muguangyueguofangdongayi，zhizhidiluozaiwoshenshang。
tadeshixian，zuizhongdinggezaiwoshouzhongniezhedeneizhangbchaodanshang。neizhangzhishang，“gongneizaoyun，huotai”jigezi，qingxideciyan。
shijianfangfoninggule。langdidetongkongzhouranshousuo，xiangshibeineixingzihenhencichuan。zhenjing、kunhuo、nanyizhixin...zuizhong，suoyoufuzadeqingxudouchendianweiyizhongshenbujiandideshenshi。tayibuyibuzoujinbingfang，jiaobushengzaijijingdekongjianlichenzhongdelingrenzhixi。tademuguang，zaiwocanbaidelianheneizhangbchaodanzhijianfanfu。
他停在我床边。
“sheide？”tazhongyukaikou。