第3章
wanshihuiyiweiqinmiaoyaofandata，xiayishiwanghoushanduo。
danqinmiaozhishijiangrenandaoyizishangzuoxia，xiayimiaoyixunleibujiyanerzhishizhuanshenpudaojiyuchuanhuaili，chouchoudadadikongsu。
“ayu，womendehunyueshijiyeyedingxiade，woyeyehaiduijiyeyeyoujiumingzhien，womingmingzheimeaini，niyetongyangaiwo，kebomushuowoshangfengbaisujinbulejijiademen，tazenmenengzheiyang......”
haibudaogen‘shijiezhujiao’fanliandeshihou。
fennubingweichonghunqinmiaodetounao。
zheiyikedetalengjingdekepa。
wanshihuiqinu：“ayunikankan，zheicaishitadezhenmianmu！wocaishuoletaliangju，tajiugannashuipowolian！”
“wonalishuocuole？tayitiantiandaochupaotoulumian，chuandegenpobumeiliangyang，bujinshangfengbaisu，haibushoufudao！jiuzheiyangtahaixiangjiajinjijia？meimener！”
“wokannimendehunyuejiuquxiaoleba！”
jiyuchuanmouguanganhanyisizeguai：“miaomiao，mashuozheixiedoushiweilenihao，nizenmenengpomashui？kuaigenmadaogeqian，zheijianshijiudangmeifashengguo。”
qiaoqiao，muziliangyichangyihe。
从前也是这样。
wanshihuiqianjiaobatamadaogouxuelintou，caidaochenaili。
zaitaxiangfankangshi，houjiaojiyuchuanjiuhuizaikoutougezhonganfuta。
zaijiyuchuandehuyouxia，wangwangdaozuihou，tahaihuizhudongbalianshendaowanshihuijiaoxia，rangrenzaicaishangyibian。
yiqiantaxiangbumingbai，zenmejiunengzheimeqiao？
现在她明白了。
yiqiedoushizheimuzilianganpaihaode。
tamenxiangdaduantadeshoujiao，baiduantadeliaoya，mengbitadesixiang，rangtachengweimeiyouziwo，zhihuishoutamenkongzhidemuou。
huixiangshuzhongjiyuchuanshizenmeyongliezhihuangyanduitapiancaipianxin，ertayoushizenmelianainaoxinganqingyuanfengshangquanbuganqinghecaichan，daozhibuzhizijixiachangqican，hailianleilebabamamadeyuchunjudong。
tabujinxiangbajiyuchuanshale！
还想把自己杀了！
fennuyicengcengyongshangxintou，qinmiaozhijiefafeng。
sanfenzuoxi，qifenbenyi。
tayibazhanghenhenshandaojiyuchuanlianshang。
“nishibushibuaiwole？nimayaoquxiaowomendehunyue！wodoushoushangle，nibujinbuanweiwohaiyaowodaoqian！woyaoquzhaojiyeye，rangjiyeyelaipingpingli！”
yibiankuhan，qinmiaoyibianzuoshiwangwaizou。
beishanlebazhang，jiyuchuanxiayishixiangfanu，danmouguangchujidaoqinmiaoetoushangguodeshabu，youtingjianqinmiaoyaozhaojizhentingpingli，henkuaifanyingguolai，lianmanglouzhetadebozianwei。
但毫无作用。
qinmiaorengjiuyoukuyounao，zhengzhazhongshundaotilewanshihuijijiao，naohualejiyuchuanlian。
taxinlishengqiyinbidetong**。
病房里乱作一团。
budeyi，jiyuchuanzhideanxianghujiaolingjiaolaiyihurenyuanjiqinmiaoshangzhendingji。
haoyitongzhetenghou，hushizaimenwaipokoudama。
“bingrennaozhendanghaizaiguanchaqi，nimenshibushiyoubingazheishihou**ta？wogaosunimen，yaozhenbarennongchushile，nimenliangyouyigesuanyigedoushisharenfan！”
“wanyimeibaren**sibaren**fengle，jingshenbingshalenimendoushibuyongzuolaode！”
“doushuoleguanchaqineibuzhuntanshi，toutoupaojinlaijiusuanlehaigannaozheiyichu！baoanni？baoanzainaer？guolaibatamenhongchuqu！”
menwaidenaojusihaomeiyouyingxiangqinmiao。
tatangzaichuangshanghunhunyushui，yibiansikao‘dazheaideqihao，zuozheshanghaideshi’defangfajinengbubengrensheyounengshixianbaofuhenkexing，yibiantingpangbianzhouyandishenggenjingjirenshenjiayangdadianhua。
“shenjiewofashi，wozhendezhishichuqudalegedianhua，likaishibingfangmenwoyesuolede，tianzhidaojitaitaishizenmejinlaide！”
“yishengshuozhendingjidexiaoguozuiduoyouliangxiaoshi，zhiyushenmeshihouchuyuandekanmiaojieshentizhuangkuang......”
tingdaozheier，qinmiaoweiweizhengyan，dishengnannan：“gaosushenjie，womingtianyizaohuijuzuluzhi，jijianeibiandeshiyebuyongtacaoxin，wonengjiejue。”
zhouyanchijing：“zheimekuai？buduoxiuxiliangtianma？”
suijiyoufenfenbuping：“miaojie，shentizuizhongyaoa！bunengyinwei‘laiwojiazuoke’zheigexiangmushijijinglitouzide，nijiuzheimebuyaoming。”
不要命？
jiushiyinweiyaoming，tacaifeiqubuke。
yankanqinmiaoyiyiguxing，zhouyanrenbuzhuduojiao：“miaojie，danglianainaoshiyaochikutoude！”
恋爱脑？
dangchujiexiazheidangzongyi，huoxushiyinweiai。
neishitatingxinlejiyuchuandetianyanmiyu，tashuozongyishiweitaliangshendingzhi，dengbochuhou，guanzhongmenyidinghuiduitayigaizhiqiankanfa......
从前她信得很。
xianzai......yijingmingbaiyiqiedeqinmiaolengxiao。
liyongtaderedushizhen，jitaxibaishijia。
weitaliangshendingzuoshijia，rangtianxishijiezongyicaitashangweicaishizhen！
爱个屁！
恋爱脑？狗都不当！
yaobushipoyujuqingyali，weileweichirenshe，tabunengzhudongtichujiechuhunyue，nahaiyoujiyuchuanbengdadefener？
qinmiaoshengyinyuelaiyuehanhu：“nifangxin，wozhishidengbujiyaoqu......”
tapobujidaidixiangjiantianxishi。
yaobushijintianfashengdeshiduitadajishizaitaida，gezhongxinxichengdetounaohunchentengtong，xuyaoshijianshuli，talimajiunengpaqilaijizhaodaotianxishijitayigedabidou。
秦渺有点遗憾。
zhuannianyixiangyouyouxiegaoxing。
suiranyaojitianxishidebazhangyanshile，dan‘tianyaoxiayu，niangyaojiaren’dedaojuyijingzaiwanshihuishenshangshengxiaole。
tajintianjiuyaogaosujiyushiyigedaoli——
tianyaoxiayu，niangyaojiaren，renlinanzu！
......
beiganchulaidemuziliangrenzhanzaiyiyuanwailiangliangxiangwang。
wanshihuimolemojiyuchuanlianshangxianhongdebazhangyin，xintengdebudele：“qinmiaofashenmefeng！yiqiandoushinishuoshenmejiushishenme，xiangtiaohabagouyiyang，jintianjuranduinidongshoule！”
jiyuchuanyanfandezhuantoubikai，yanshenyinchendefangfonengdichushuilai。
“haibushinishuocuolehua！tuzijiledouhuiyaoren！genghekuangtapiqibenlaijiubaozao，youneimeaiwo，tingjiannishuoyaoquxiaowohetadehunyuenengbufengma？”
wanshihuidurang，yuexiangyuebuduijing：“keshiyiqianwoyeshuoguozheixiehuaa，yebujiantayoushenmefanying，nandaoshibanaodaishuaihuaile......”
shuowan，tayouyouxiehaipa：“era，keqianwanbunengrangniyeyezhidaojintianfashengdeshi，niyaobatadingzhule，qianwanbierangtaquxiangniyeyegaozhuang。”
jiyuchuanchenzhelianmeihangsheng，xindidezaonuzhiduobujian。
buluncongqianqinmiaopiqiduocha，zaitamianqianyongyuandoushiwenshunde。
danjintiantabujinduitafalepiqi，haiduitadongleshou。
nandaoshizhenduiqinmiaodexunfujihuachulewenti？