gaokaochufenhou，quanbanshoudaoyitiaoqiguaiduanxin。【genjufenshu，xuanzenizaidayinhougongdeshenfen，
houfei、gongnv、shiwei、taijian……】【gonglvehuangdichenggong，kehuoqianwan，shibaisi】dajiadouyiweishiezuoju。
banhuaxihuangongdouwen，suiyixuanlezuigaodefeiwei。banzhangxuanleguanweizuidadeyidengyuqianshiwei。
woshibanjidiyiming，quexuanlezuidiweide——sandenggongnv。diertian。yijuexinglai。
dajiadouzhishenyujinbihuihuangdedayinhougong。shenfenchengzhen。banhuashifendeyi，beifengluanchunenchejieruyangxindian。
tongxuemenhenxianmu：「jiangjinyaoguibanhuale。」「zaozhidao，womenyexuanzheigefeiwei……」「jiangli，
nitaikuile，diyimingyouxian，niquezhixuanlegongnv。」meirenzhidao。
woyongsuoyoufenshuduihuanleyitiaoxinxi——jinluandianlizuozhede，genbenbushihuangdi。banhua……siluyitiao。
di1zhangzhimingdeenchong「jiangli，nitingshuolema？linweiweibeifengluanchunenchejiezoule！」「tiana，
tacaigangchenglezhaoyi，mashangjiuyaoshiqinle？」「bukuishizanmendebanhua，daonaerdoushizuishouchongdeneige。」
xiyifangli，jigetongweigongnvdetongxueweizaiyiqi，yuqilimanshizangbuzhudejiduhexianmu。wodizhetou，
yonglicuoxizheshoulideyifu，binglengdejingshuicidewozhijieshengteng。「jiangli，nikeshizanmenbandiyi，
zenmejiuxiangbukaixuangegongnvni？」shuohuadeshiwodetongzhuo，lijing，taxuanlehewoyiyangdesandenggongnv，
cikezhengyiliandewanxi。「niyaoshixuanlefeiwei，xianzaibeijieruyangxindiandejiushinile。」wochelechezuijiao，
meishuohua。youxianxuanzequan。shide，zuoweigaokaodiyiming，wokeyiyouxianxuanzerenheshenfen。erwo，
yongzheiweiyidetequan，duihuanleyitiaojiazhilianchengdexinxi。——jinluandianlongyishangzuozhede，genbenbushihuangdi。
suoyi，linweiweiyiweidewushangrongguang，buguoshiyitiaocuimingfu。tasidingle。「ai，nimenkuaikan，neishishenme？
」yigetongxuehuranzhizheyangxindiandefangxiang，shengyinfazhan。womenfenfentaitouwangqu。zhijianyangxindiandeshangkong，
buzhiheshi，jingpanxuanzheyituannongyudeheiqi。neiheiqifangunzhe，jiuchanzhe，fangfoyizhiwuxingdejushou，
zhangkailezerenershidexuependakou。gonglidenpctaijiangongnvmenquefangfoshierbujian，yijiuditoumangliu，
shenseruchang。zhiyouwomenzheixielaizixianshishijiedetongxue，caikandedaozheiguiyideyimu。
「nei……neishishenmeguidongxi？」「hao……haoexin……」dajialianseshabai，
xiyifanglifangcaihaireliedeqifenshunjianjiangzhibingdian。neituanheiqizaiyangxindianshangkongpanxuanleyuemoyizhuxiangdegongfu，
caihuanhuansanqu。ye，siyibandijijing。diertian，yigexiaoxizhenjinglesuoyouren。xinchengenchongdelinzhaoyi，
fengle。jushuotayibubitidicongyangxindianpaochulai，shenqingdiankuang，jianrenjiuzhuazhehan：「neibushihuangshang！
neishiguaiwu！tahuichiren！」gangchengweiyidengyuqianshiweidebanzhangzhaochen，diyishijiandairenganleguoqu。
ketadaihuilaide，zhiyoulinweiweibinglengdeshiti。yijiyijulengbingbingdexuangao。【wanjialinweiwei，
gonglvehuangdishibai，mosha。】binglengdejixieyinzaimeigetongxuedenaohailixiangqi。suoyourendoumengle。
qianyikehaizaihuanxiangqianwanjiangjin，xiayimiao，siwangdeyinyingjiulongzhaozailemeigerenxintou。zheibushiyouxi。
zheishizhendehuisirende。konghuangxiangwenyiyiyangmanyankailai。「zenmehuizheiyang？bushishuogonglveshibaicaihuisima？
tacaigangqushiqina！」「tahanzheyouguaiwu……nandaoshizhende？」「banzhang，nijiandaolehuangshangma？
huangshangdaodishishenmeyangde？」zhongrenbaxiwangjituozaiweiyijiejinguoquanlizhongxindezhaochenshenshang。
zhaochenchuanzheyishenyinsekaijia，liansebikaijiahaiyaolengying。tahuanshiyiquan，chenshengdao：「womeiyoujiandaohuangshang。」
「yangxindianneiwai，chulelinweiwei，meiyourenhehuoren。」tadunledun，muguangluozaiwoshenshang，daizheyisishenshi。
「jiangli，niweishenmecongyikaishijiuxuanlegongnv？」di2zhanghuoxiaqudeguizezhaochendezhiwenxiangyikuaishitou，
tourulebenjiujinghuangderenqun。suoyourendemuguang，qishuashuadijujiaozaiwoshenshang。「duia，jiangli，
nishibushizaojiuzhidaoleshenme？」「nishidiyiming，kendingyouwomenbuzhidaodexinxi！」「kuaigaosuwomen！
huangshangdaodishizenmehuishi？」tamenweiguolai，qizuibashe，qingxujidong。
wokanzhetamenyizhangzhangyinweikongjuerniuqudelian，xinzhongyipianbingliang。gaosutamen？
gaosutamenwoyongquanbudefenshu，huanlaileyitiaotamendangshichizhiyibideqingbao？ranhouni？
rangtamenxiangwutoucangyingyiyangquyangxindiansongsima？wotaiqiyan，yingshangzhaochentanjiudemuguang。「wobuzhidao。」
wopingjingdituchusangezi。「wozhishijuede，huoxiaqu，bishenmedouzhongyao。」wodehuarangzhongrenyileng。shia，
zaiqianwanjiangjinhesiwangmianqian，huoxiaqucaishizuiyaojinde。kezenmehuoxiaqu？【xitongrenwufabu：sanrinei，
huodeguanshigugudeshangshi，renwushibai，mosha。】binglengdejixieyinzaicixiangqi，bansuierlaide，
shisuoyougongnvshenfentongxuedeyishengjinghu。xianran，zheishidushuyuwomengongnvderenwu。「shenme？
haiyaohuodeshangshi？」「zenmehuodeshangyidengyuqianshiwei。？」「santianshijianyetaiduanleba！」
gangganghaitongchoudikaiduizhewodetongxuemen，shunjianzuoniaoshousan，gezipansuanqilai。zheijiushirenxing。
zhaochenshenshendikanlewoyiyan，meizaizhuiwen，zhuanshenliqu。tayoutaderenwu，woyouwodenanguan。
womenxiyifangdeguanshigugu，xingsun，shigesishiduosui，shenqingkebodenvren。tazuixihuanzuode，
jiushijidanlitiaogutou。xianghuodetadeshangshi，bidengtianhainan。jiexialaideliangtian，tongxuemenshijinlehunshenjieshu。
yourenjitasongzijitoutouzanxiadedianxin。yourenbianzhefaerdikuatanianqingpiaoliang。haiyouren，
shenzhixiangyongzijidegaokaofenshu，congxitongshangchengliduihuanzhenbaolaihuiluta。jieguokexiangerzhi。
dianxinbeirengzaidishang，kuajianghuanlaiyidunchouma，erneigeqituhuiludetongxue，
gengshibeisunguguzhizhebizimalegegouxuelintou，shuotaxinshubuzheng。yankansantianqixianjiangzhi，
suoyourendoujidexiangreguoshangdemayi。lijingzhaodaowo，kusangzhelian：「jiangli，zenmebana？wobuxiangsi……」
wopailepaitadeshou，qingshengdao：「bieji，huiyoubanfade。」qishi，zheiliangtianwoshenmedoumeizuo。
wozhishizaiguancha。guanchasungugudeyijuyidong，yiyanyixing。wofaxian，tasuiranduiwomenzheixiegongnvhenkeke，
danmeitianhuanghun，tadouhuiduziyiren，zoudaoxiyifanghoumiandeneipianfeiqihuayuanli，yidaijiushibangeshichen。
tahuiduizheyizhukusideshiliushufadai，yanshenliliuluchuhanjiandewenrouhebeishang。wohaifaxian，tameicihecha，
douzhiheyizhongjiao「yunwumaojian」dechaye。erzheizhongchaye，zhenggegongli，zhiyouyigerenyou。
neijiushi——dangjintaihou。yigejihua，zaiwoxinzhongqiaoranchengxing。disantian，yejiushirenwudezuihouyitian。
womeiyouxiangqitarenyiyangweizhesunguguzhuan，ershiquleyigedifang。taihoudecininggong。dangran，
woyigesandenggongnv，shijianbudaotaihoude。wodemubiao，shicininggongchashuifangdeguanshitaijian。
di3zhangzhimingdetoumingzhuangcininggongdechashuifang，shizhenggehougongzuiqingxiandedifangzhiyi。guanshitaijianxingwang，
zhengqiaozheerlangtui，hengzhexiaoquerdadun。wozoujinqu，gonggongjingjingdixinglegeli。「wanggonggong。」
wanggonggongyanpidoumeitaiyixia，lanyangyangdi「ng」leyisheng。「gonggong，nubishixiyifangde，fengsunguguzhiming，
laiweigugutaoxiechaye。」wodizhetou，shengyinbudabuxiao，ganghaonengrangtatingqing。wanggonggongzheicaizhengkaiyan，
xienizhewo。「sungugu？tahaodademianzi，jingganbazhuyidadaotaihoudechayeshanglaile。」
tadeyuqilimanshiqingmie。woliaodaotahuishizheigefanying，buhuangbumangdicongxiuzilitaochuyigexiaoxiaodehebao。
hebaoshiwoyongzijideyueliyinzi，qiulexiufangdejiejiebangmangxiude，shangmianshiyiduixuxurushengdejinli。
zheibushishenmezhiqiandedongxi，danshengzaixinyi。「gonggongwuhuile。」woshuangshoujianghebaofengshang。
「womensungugushuole，zhenggegongli，zhiyouninzheilidechayezuichunzheng，pangdedifang，dourubulekou。」
「guguhaishuo，tazhidaoninsulaitengxiwomenzheixiedixiaren，duanbuhuiweinannubi。」qianchuanwanchuan，mapi**。
youqishiduizheixieshenyoucanque，neixinmingandetaijian。guoran，wanggonggongdeliansehuanhelebushao。
tadianledianshoulidehebao，youshangxiadalianglewoyifan。「nizheixiaoyatou，daoshibisunpozihuishuohua。」
tazhanqishen，manyouyoudizoudaoyigehongmujuziqian，quchuyigexiaoxiaodexizhichayeguan。「re，naquba。」
「xiegonggong。」wojieguochayeguan，xinlidedashiluoxialeyiban。huidaoxiyifang，sunguguzhengyinweiyidianxiaoshi，
balijingmadetaibuqitou。wozoushangqian，jiangchayeguanchengshang。「gugu，ninchangchangzheige。」
sunguguzhouzhemeikanwoyiyan，youkanlekanwoshoulidechayeguan，yilianbunaifan。「shenmedongxi？」
「shiyunwumaojian。」woshuo。sungugudedongzuomengdiyidun。tasisididingzheneigeputongdexiguan，
yanshenlifanyongzhefuzadeqingxu。tajieguochayeguan，dakaigaizi，coudaobijianwenlewen。neiyishunjian，
taxianglaikebodelianshang，jingliuluchuyisicuiruo。「ni……congnalinonglaide？」tadeshengyinyouxieshaya。
「nubitingwenguguxihuanzheigeweidao，biandoudanquqiulecininggongdewanggonggong。」wodadedishuibulou。
sunguguchenmole。tamosuozheneigechayeguan，xujiu，caizhangzhangditanlekouqi。「niyouxinle。」
tahuilehuishou，shiyiwomendoutuixia。wolazhehaizaifalengdelijing，qiaoqiaotuilechuqu。dangtianwanshang，
naohailixiangqilerenwuwanchengdetishiyin。【gongxiwanjiajiangli、lijing……dengwuren，wanchengrenwu，
huodejiangli：jinshengweierdenggongnv。】【renwushibaizhe，mosha。】jishengduancudejianjiaohou，xiyifangli，
shaolesangeshuxideshenying。huoxialaideren，kanzhewodeyanshen，chongmanlejingweiheganji。lijinggengshibaozhewo，
youkuyouxiao。woquegaoxingbuqilai。yinweiwozhidao，zheizhishikaishi。sungugunianqingshi，
cengshitaihoudetieshenshinv，liangrenqingtongjiemei。houlai，sunguguyuyimingshiweixianglian，zhutaianjie。
zaineigeniandai，zheishisizui。shitaihou，maozhefengxianbaoxialeta，jiangtaanpaidaoxiyifang，duoguoyijie。
danneigeshiwei，quebeimimichusile。erneizhukusideshiliushu，jiushidangnianneigeshiweiqinshouweitazhongxiade。
yunwumaojian，shitamendingqingshi，tasongtadediyifenliwu。zheixie，doushiwoyongneitiaojiazhilianchengdexinxi，
fudaijiesuodenpcbeijinggushilikandaode。woliyonglesunguguzuishendeshangtong，huanlailewomendetoumingzhuang。
zheirangwogandaoyisibushi。danzaizheigechirendehougongli，bushi，shizuiwuyongdeqingxu。diertian，
wobeidiaolilexiyifang。xindequchu，shiyushufang。zheishisunguguqinzianpaide。
tashuo：「nishigecongmingdehaizi，daizaixiyifang，qucaile。」linzouqian，tajiaozhuwo，
saijiwoyigechendiandiandebubao。「zheilimian，shigongligechuzhuzidexihaohejinji，ninaqu，xingxuyongdeshang。
」wodakaibubao，limianshiyibenhouhoudecezi，zijijuanxiu，jiludemimimama。woxinzhongyizhen。
zheihezhishiyongdeshang，zheijianzhishihougongshengcundebaomingzhinan！woxiangsungugushenshendijuleyigong。「gugudaen，
jianglimeichinanwang。」sungugubailebaishou，zhuanshenjinlexiyifang，beiyingyouxiexiaose。woniezheshoulidecezi，
xinqingfuza。wozhidao，woduduile。dantongshi，woyebaziji，tuixianglegengweixiandexuanwozhongxin。yushufang，
neikeshili「huangdi」zuijindedifang。di4zhanghuorenjipinyushufangdechashi，bixiyifangyaoqingsong，
yegengaoren。womeitiandegongzuo，jiushiyanmo、zhenglizouzhang，yijizai「huangdi」piyuezouzheshi，
anjingdidaizaiyipang，dangyigeyinxingren。wozhongyujiandaoleneiweichuanshuozhongde「huangdi」。tahengao，
chuanzheyishenminghuangsedelongpao，zongshiduanzuozaineizhangjudadeshuanhou。lianshang，daizheyizhangchunjindazaodemianju。
mianjuzhezhuletasuoyoudewuguan，zhiluchuyishuangyanjing。neishiyishuang……zenyangdeyanjing？kongdong，siji，
meiyourenheqingxudebodong。xiangliangkeheisedebolizhu，xiangqianzaihuangjinmianjushang。womeiciduishangneishuangyanjing，
douganjuezijixiangbeiyitiaodushedingshang，hunshendexueyedouyaoninggule。zheijueduibushiyigezhengchangrengaiyoudeyanshen。
banzhangzhaochen，zuoweiyidengyuqianshiwei，jiushouzaiyushufangmenwai。womenouerhuiyongyanshenjiaohui，
chuandiyixiezhiyouwomennengdongdexinxi。wozhidao，tayezaiguancha。zheijitian，gonglihenpingjing。
pingjingderangrenxinhuang。xitongmeiyouzaifabuxinderenwu，yemeiyourenzaisiqu。xingcundetongxuemen，
sihudouzhaodaolezijideshengcunzhidao。xuanletaijiandejigenantongxue，zaigegegonglidangcha，xiaoxinyiyidihuozhe。
xuanledijiefeipindenvtongxue，zexiangfangshefadibichong，shengpabulelinweiweidehouchen。yiqie，
douhaoxiangburulezhenggui。danwozhidao，zheizhishibaofengyuqiandeningjing。neigejiahuangdi，
neigepanjuzaiyangxindiandeguaiwu，bukenengyizhizheimeanjing。tazaidengshenme？huozheshuo，tazaizhunbeishenme？
zheitian，wozhengzaizhenglizouzhang，zhaochenhurancongmenwaizoulejinlai。talianseningzhong，duiwoshilegeyanse。
wozhaolegejiekou，genzhetazoudaodianwaidejiaoluo。「chushile。」tayadishengyin。「zenmele？」
woxinliyijin。「woshouxiadeyigeshiwei，zuowanshizongle。」zhaochenshuo，「tayeshiwomendetongxue，jiaowanghao。
」wanghao？wojideta，yigehenneixiangdenansheng，xuanlezuididengdeshiwei。「huobujianren，sibujianshi？」
「dui。」zhaochendequantouwodegegezuoxiang，「wochalegonglidejilu，meiyourenhetachugongdejixiang。
tajiuxiang……pingkongxiaoshileyiyang。」wodexinchenlexiaqu。youkaishile。「wohuaiyi，hetayiqishizongde，
haiyouqitaren。」zhaochenkanzhewo，「jiangli，niyoumeiyoufaxian，zheijitiangonglideren，haoxiangbianshaole？」
wosongranyijing。beitazheimeyitixing，wocaimengranfajue。wulunshidangzhidetaijian，haishixunluodeshiwei，
shenzhishiluguodegongnv，shuliangshang，sihudoubiqianjitianyaoshao。yinweidajiagesiqizhi，pingshijiaojibuduo，
suoyizheizhongxiweidebianhua，hennanbeichajue。keyidanyishidao，neizhongmaogusongrandeganjue，
bianhuishunjianjuezhunidexinzang。neixiexiaoshideren，qunale？yigekepadeniantou，zaiwonaohailifuxian。jipin。
neigeguaiwu，zaiyonghuorendangjipin！tazaijinxingmouzhongxieedeyishi！wobixuzuzhita！kewonengzuoshenme？
wozhishiyigeerdenggongnv。zhaochenshiyuqianshiwei，ketayetongyangshushouwuce。
womenjiuxiangbeikunzaizhuwangshangdefeichong，zhinengyanzhengzhengdikanzhesiwangdeyinying，yidiandianbijin。bu。bunengzheiyang。
wobunengzuoyidaibi。woyonggaokaozhuangyuandefenshu，huanlaidebujinjinshiyitiaoxinxi。neitiaoxinxibeihou，
haifudaizheyigequanxian。yige……keyirangwokandaoxitongdicengluojidequanxian。zhishi，kaiqizheigequanxian，
xuyaoyigetiaojian。yigewoyizhiyouyu，buganqingyichangshidetiaojian。neijiushi——zhimiankongju。
wobixuqinziquyitangyangxindian。quneigetunshilelinweiwei，rangsuoyourenwenzhisebiandejindi。
wobawodexiangfagaosulezhaochen。taduanranjujue。「buxing！taiweixianle！nizheishiqusongsi！」
「womenzongyaozuodianshenme。」wokanzheta，yiziyijudishuo，「zhaochen，womenbunengzaidengle。zaidengxiaqu，
womensuoyouren，douhuichengweitadepanzhongcan。」wodeyanshen，yidinghenfengkuang。zhaochenkanzhewo，chenmolehenjiu。
zuizhong，taxiangshixiadinglejuexin。「wopeiniqu。」「bu，nibunengqu。」woyaoleyaotou，
「nidemubiaotaida，rongyibaolu。erqie，yushufangzheili，xuyaoniyanhu。」「neiniyigeren……」
「woyoubanfa。」woshenxiyikouqi，conghuailinachusungugujiwodeneibencezi。cezidezuihouyiye，
yongzhushahuazheyizhangjianyideditu。ditudezhongdian，shiyigewocongweitingguodedifang。——jingshenfang。
neishigonglizuiwuhui，yezuirongyibeirenhulvededifang。erditushang，congjingshenfang，youyitiaomidao，
keyizhitongyangxindiandechuangdi。zheishisunguguliujiwode，zuihoudebaomingfu。yeshiwo，weiyideshengsuan。
woxingwule。duozanghetaobi，huanbulaishengji。xiangyaohuoxiaqu，jiubixuzhudongchuji，
sikaizheipianmingwei“hougong”deheianweimu。wobixuzhidao，neigejiahuangdidezhenmianmu，daodishishenme！
di5zhangmidaojinghun「nifengle！」zhaochenyibazhuazhuwodeshouwan，liqidadejihuyaojiangwodegutouniesui。
「nizhidaojingshenfangshishenmedifangma？neilishisuoyouemengdekaiduan！」wodangranzhidao。
neishichuligongzhongduanzhi、huiwu，shenzhishiyixiewangsigongrenshitidedifang。yinqi、yuanqi、huiqijiaozhi，
shizhenggehuanggongzuibuxiangdesuozai。xunchangrenbieshuojinqu，jiushikaojindoujuedehuiqi。「wozhidao。」
woyonglizhengkaitadeshou，yanshenjianding，「danzheiyeshiwomenweiyidejihui。」「zhaochen，bangwo。」
wozhishizhetadeyanjing，neilimianyouzhenjing，youdanyou，dangengduodeshiyizhongwunengweilidezhengzha。
tashiyigejiaoaoderen，shicengjingdexueshenghuizhuxi，shibanzhang。zaizheigeguiyideyouxili，
taxuanzelezuinengzhangkongjumiandeshiweishenfen，quefaxianzijiyijiuzhishigeqizi。zheizhongluocha，
zuyicuihuiyigerendeyizhi。dantameiyou。tachenmodiyuwoduishilexujiu，zuizhong，chenzhongdidianlediantou。
「nixuyaowozuoshenme？」「bangwotuozhu『ta』。」wozhilezhiyushufangdeneidian，「zishi，wohuixingdong。
congzishidaochoushi，zheiyigeshichennei，wulunlimianfashengshenme，nidoubunengrangrenherenjinqu，
yebunengrang『ta』chulai。」「yigeshichen……」zhaochendemeitouningchenglegeda，「wojinli。」
「bushijinli，shibixuzuodao。」wodeyuqiburongzhihui。zheibujinguanxidaowodeshengsi，
yeguanxidaowomensuoyourendemingyun。ruye。huanggonglijingdekepa。wohuanshangyishenzuibuqiyandeyexingyi，
jiangsungugujiwodecezitieshenzanghao。jiezheyuese，woqiaowushengxidichuanguoyoushendegongdao，
laidaolechuanshuozhongdejingshenfang。yiguhunzazhexuexinghefulandeechoupumianerlai，xundewojiyuzuoou。
woqiangrenzhebushi，anzhaoditudezhishi，zaiqiangjiaoyikuaisongdongdedizhuanxia，zhaodaolemidaoderukou。rukouhenzhai，
jinrongyirentongguo。xiamianshishenbujiandideheian。womeiyousihaoyouyu，shenxiyikouqi，zuanlejinqu。
midaoliyinlengchaoshi，jiaoxianiannishihua，buzhicaidaoleshenmedongxi。
kongqizhongmimanzheyigunanyiyanyudemeiweihexingqi。wozhinengkaozheqiangbi，mosuozheqianjin。buzhizouleduojiu，
qianfanghuranchuanlaiyizhen“xixisuosuo”deshengyin。woliketingxiajiaobu，pingzhuhuxi。neishengyinyuelaiyuejin，
haoxiangyoushenmedongxi，zhengzaiheianzhongkuaisupaxing。wodexintidaolesangziyan。shilaoshuma？bu，budui。
laoshudeshengyinmeiyouzheimemiji，zheime……lingrenyasuan。woxiayishidiwojinlezangzaixiuzilidebishou，
neishizhaochentoutousaijiwode。heianzhong，yishuangshuanglvyouyoudeyanjing，mengdiliangleqilai。shirenlianzhizhu！
yizhongzhizaizhiguaixiaoshuolikanguodeguaiwu！tamenyouzherendelian，zhizhudeshenti，batiaozhangtuishangbumanledaoci，
zhengfeikuaidichaowoyonglai！wotoupiyizhenfama，xiangyebuxiang，zhuanshenjiupao！danmidaoxiazhai，wogenbenpaobukuai。
yizhirenlianzhizhumengdipudaowodebeishang，zhangkaibumanzhanyedekouqi，jiuyaoyaoxiangwodebozi！qianjunyifazhiji，
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