第五章 强大的意志

womomodezhuanguotou,guorankandaoyanqianneigelaisonglideheiyirenyebianchengleyigedaocaorendemoyang,zhilenglengdechuozaiwomianqian,liwodejuliyejiuyigeshouzhangneimejin。

dangshidewo,zhijuedexindouyijingbutiaole,shentishiliangde,quebushiyinweimaolenghan,ershiganzhidaolezhoushendeyiguziyinlengdeqi。

wotingzhebeihoumuqinneiyanshibuzhujidongxiangbierenxuanyaozhetadeerzideyuqi,xinzhongzhidaowojuebunengmaoranchuopocishi,fouzemuqinhenyoukenengzicifengdian,suoyiwopieledamenkouyiyan,jiukandaoleneigezhuzaimenbianshangdeyibachutou。

neichutoushimuqinxinmaide,renshangfanzheyinguang,wojuzheshoulidelihehuanglehuang,jianneidaocaorenmeishenmefanying,bianlikechaoqineibachutou,yizhaochaozheneidaocaorenhuiqu。

zaiwodeyujizhong,woyiweitahuibeiwoliluodeyidaozhanduannaodai,danshilingwozhenjingdeshi,taquezaiyidaohanguangzhong,zhijiehuazuoleyilvheiyanxiaoshibujianle。

neiyikewofangyishidao,zheixiedongxibushizhenshicunzaide,ershiyizhonghuanxiang,tamencongheerlaiwozanqiebuzhi,danshiwozhidaozijibixudaizhemuqinlikelikai。

wozhejidexiangzhewodemuqinkanqu,quejianbuzhiheshineiqundaocaorenbianhuanleweizhi,tamenliwodemuqingengjinle,jujizailemuqinzhouweideneijizhuo,mimishishi。

woxinhuangleqilai,xiangyaohanta,quejianneiqundaocaorenweiweiyouledongzuo,tamenxiangshibeishenmedongxicaokongyiban,qiqidezhandouzhe,manmande,tamendeliandouzhuanxianglewo,wocairuguocishitamenyouyanjingdehua,neiyidingshidoudingzhewode。

yinyunzaiyiciyalexialai,tiankongxiangshishanzhejiguangyiban,neiguiyideyansehaosiyoumingdadian,woyishijianshouzuwucuo。

jiuzaizheishi,wohuranxiangqileshoulidedongxi。

neigexiezhe‘jiuyan’erzidehezihaizaiwodeshouli,tadakaizhe,limiankongkongruye。

zheidongxishiyeyedemimi,yeshiwodemimi,zhishaozaiwoderenzhili,tajueduibuhuibeiwairenzhidao。

erhuanxiang,shiyizhonghenxuanmiaodedongxi,yexurenhuibeicaokongyishijinruhuanxiangzhizhong,danruguoshiyigeliandizaohuanxiangderendoubuzhidaodedongxi,neimetayidingbuhuichuxianzaihuanxiangzhizhong。

suoyizheigejiangwohemuqinyinruhuanxiangzhongderenhendakenengyeshibuzhidaotadecunzaide。

neimetaweishenmehuicunzaizaizheilini?

woxianglexiang,zhiyouyigeyuanyin。

neijiushiwodeyishifeichangdeqiangda,zheigexiezhe‘jiuyan’erzidehezi,shiyeyeshengqianzhufuguowodejianglaiduiwofeichangzhongyaodeyigedongxi,suoyiwoxiayishilirenweitashinengzhuwoduguoyiqiekunnanshenzhishizaiwoweinanzhishijiejiuwodedongxi。

suoyi,wobeirenyinrulehuanxiang,erzheigehezi,quezaiwodeyishili,tashibeiwodaijinlaide。

neiyikewohuranmingbaile,zouchuhuanxiangdeguanjian,jiushiwoshoulidezheigehezi,tashilaidaohuanxiangzhongtixingwode。

ranerjiuzaiwoxiangmingbaizheixieshiqingzhihou,neiqunbenhaiweiraozhemuqindedaocaorenturanzhanleqilai,tamenbufaxunjiedechaozhewoweigongleqilai,shenzhibenmeiyoumianrongdelianshangturanchuxianleqingmianliaoya,fangfoyaojiangwosisuiyiban。

wokankandebiguoletamendeweigong,quehuertingjiandaocaorenwaidemuqinchenguaidehandao:“qimu!dajiadoushixianglixiangqinde,bienaoxingzi,jinijingjiunijiuhebei!”

wotingzhemuqindehuayishihuangshen,turanjiumingbaileyigedaoli,neixiedaocaorenzaiwohemuqindeyanzhongshibuyiyangde,huozheshuo,muqinxianzaixinzhongzuizuizaiyideshiyebuguoshiwojiabujiaren,zheixiedaocaorenzaitaxinzhongnengzuodezuiedeshiqing,yebuguoshibawoguanzuibale。

neiyikewodexinanleyishun,xiangzhezheiyangyehao,wozongnenganxindeduifutamenle。

suiwoyigeshanshenduochuleweigongdedaocaoren,ranhouzhaixialeyanjing。

guoran,wodeyanjingkandaodeshijieshiwubideganjing,chulebuyuanchuzhanlidemuqin,shenmedoumeiyou,erneixiedaocaoren,yezaibunengshanghaidaowo。

wozuanzhehezidatabudezouxianglemuqin,huanhuandeqianqitadeshou,chaozhewuzilizouqu。

womenjiadexuanzhihezhuangxiudoushiwoyeyeqinshoujingguande,suoyoudongxidebaishedouyoumodadejiangjiu,yaobushiyuanziwaidedongxizaiyeyezouhoubeimuqingaidongguo,xianzaiyebuhuichuxianzheizhongwenti,suoyijinlewuzi,jueduinengpochuhuanxiang。

zhishizaiwomengangxiangyaoshangtaijiedeshihou,wodeshixianlituranchuxianleyigeqiguaideyingzi。

shuotaqiguai,shiyinweineiyingzisuiranshigerenying,queyoubushihenxiang。

yinweimeiyourendejianbanghuichengxianyigezhijiaodeyangzi,yemeiyourendewuzhihuizhangdeyibanzhangduan,qieneirenyingdebianyuanmohuyichang,hewoshenbianmuqinneiliuchangderenyingxiantiaojieranbutong。

tagengxiangshiyigechuxianzaidiannaolidexiangsuren,queshibeiyigebutaichengshudehuashouzhizuode,suoyizhangchengleyigebulunbuleideyangzi。

danshibuguantashishenme,wodounengjibenqueding,tajiushineigebawohemuqindairuhuanxiangdezuikuihuoshou。

wojiangmuqintuijushangletaijie,suikoushuodao:“ma,woheruxueshuoshuohua。”

muqinwenyanxinweidediandiantou,touyebuhuidejinqule。

qishiwobuzhidaoyanqianderenyingshibushineigesuoweide‘sunruxue’,woyezhishizaidubale,bijingzheichanghunlizishizhizhongtadoumeiyouchuxianguo。

erzaiwodeduimian,neigejiao‘sunruxue’derenyinghurandongledong,jingqideshiqingjiufashengle,wofaxiantadeshouyoubianleyangzi,bianchengleyigehenxiangrendeshou,zhishibianyuanhaishimohude。

woxinzhongjingqi,xiangbumingbaitadaodishigeshenmedongxi,jingrannengbianhuanzijideshenxing?

suoyiwonachuleyanjing,manmandedaizailebiliangshang。

zheiyici,woqingchudekandaoleta,guoranshisunruxuedemoyang,tachuanzheyishenhongyishang,chaozhewoxiao,quebushuohua。

ercishidetian,yeyijinghuifulezhengchang,wofangyanwangqu,yuanziligenbenjiumeiyourenhejiuxidehenji,zhishiwulunlanganhaishimuqinyangdezhizhu,doulongzhaoshangleyicenghouhoudebaisedewuzhi。

erwoshouzhongdehezi,yebuzhizaishenmeshihou,xiaoshibujianle……

“likaizheili。”wolengjingdeshuodao。

‘sunruxue’haizaixiao,tadebiaoqingsihuzhihuixiaoyiban,tinglewodehua,taweiweidetaiqijiao,manmandechaozheyuanziwaimianzouqu。

tazouludezishiguaiyijile,haosibuzhidaorenzouludeshihoushishenmepinlv。

zhishitazhongjiuhaishiguaiguaitinglewodehua,likailewojia。

womusongzhetalikai,zaizuihouyike,tahuimoukanlewoyiyan,neiqiheideyantongkenengshizheishijieshangzuiheideyanse,erhouneimohongsejiuxiaoshibujianle……