neifendnajiandingbaogaojiutanzaiwomenjianeizhanglaojiudiaoqidechajishang，yizhangbobodea4zhi，quebiwoguoqushibanianderenshengjiaqilaihaiyaochenzhong。shangmian，heizhibaizixuangaoleyigehuangdandaojinhuezuojudeshishi：wo，jiangnian，zheigechuanzhexidaofabaidexiaofu、weilewufanqianjingdaxisuanhuozhedenvhai，shibenshishoufusujiadeqinshengnver。woderensheng，yitiaopingdanwuqi、shenzhiyouxieganhedexiaoxi，jijiangbeiqiangxinggaidao，huiruyipianbotaoxiongyongdemoshenghaiyang。tamenshuo，woshi“zhen”qianjin，zheiyiweizhe，youlingyigeren，dangleshibaniande“jia”qianjin。womeiyoutonghualigongzhuzhaodaochengbaodekuangxi，fanergandaoyizhencigudebingleng。yinweiwoqingchu，zheibuzhishiyichangshenfendehuigui，gengshiyichangzhanzhengdekaishi。
liuyuedetian，xianggebeiguanhuaidehaizi，shuobianlianjiubianlian。
shangyimiaohaishilieridangtou，xiayimiao，wuyunjiuxiangdafandemozhi，xunsujinranlezhengpiantiankong。wogangcongyongjidegongjiaocheshangxialai，doudadeyudianbianpilipaladizalexialai。woxiayishidibahuailigangcongtushuguanjielaidefuxiziliaobaodegengjinlexie，yongshubaodingzaitoushang，yitouzhajinleyumuli。
womenjiazhude“binjiangxiaoqu”，mingziqideqipai，shijishangshishizhongxinbianyuanzuilaojiudejuminlouzhiyi。loudaolichangnianduimanzawu，qiangbishangtiemanletongxiashuidaodexiaoguanggao，kongqizhongmimanzheyiguchaoshihefancaihunhedefuzaqiwei。
woyongyaochidakaineishanxiujibanbandetiemenshi，jialideqifenyouxiebuduijing。
womawanghuifenmeizaichufanglimanghuo，wobajiangjianguoyemeixiangwangchangyiyangtanzaishafashangkandianshi，jiulianwoneigezhengshangchusan、shiyouxirumingdedidijiangrui，dounandedimeiyoudaizheerjidahoudajiao。
sangerendouzuozaishafashang，shenzitingdebizhi，biaoqingyansuyoudaizheyisiyanshibuzhudejucu，fangfozaidengdaishenmezhongyaorenwudeshenpan。
ertamendeduimian，zuozhelianggemoshengren。
neishiyiduizhongniannannv，yizhekaojiu，qizhifeiran。nandechuanzheyishenjiancaidetideshenhuisexizhuang，shouwanshangdaizheyikuaiwojiaobuchupaizidanyikanjiujiazhibufeideshoubiao。nvdezeshiyishenxiangnaierdejingdiantaozhuang，bozishangdezhenzhuxianglianwenrunguangjie，chendetabenjiubaoyangdeyidepifugengjiabaixi。
tamenhewojiazheijianbuzuqishipingmi、jiajulaojiudefangzigegeburu，jiuxiangshidianyingliderenwuzoucuolepianchang。
wodechuxiandapoleketingliningzhidekongqi。
“niannianhuilaile？”wanghuifendeshengyindaizheyisibuyichajuedezhandou，tazhanqishen，xiangguolaijiewodeshubao，dongzuoqueyouxiejiangying。
“wohuilaile。”wodiandiantou，muguangzaineiduimoshengdenannvshenshangduanzantingliuhou，youluohuichajishang。neilitingzheyiliangheisede、zaoxingliuchangdexiangshiyishupindecheyaochi，pangbianhaiyouyigekanqilaijiuhenguidenvshishoubao。
“zheiweishisuxiansheng，zheiweishisutaitai。”jiangjianguocuozheshou，jieshaodao，yuqilimanshitaohaohejinzhang，“tamen……tamenshilaizhaonide。”
找我？
woxinlishengqiyisikunhuo。woderenshengguijijiandandaofawei，liangdianyixian，xuexiaohejia，renshiderenlijuebukenengyouzheiyangjiecengderenwu。
neiweibeichengwei“sutaitai”denvren，congwojinmenqi，muguangjiuyishunbuyidinianzaiwoshenshang。tadeyanshenhenfuza，youzhenjing，youxinteng，youkuijiu，haiyouyizhongwokanbudongde、jihuyaomanyichulaideqinggan。tadeyankuanghonghongde，sihuganggangkuguo。
“ni……nijiaojiangnian，duima？”tazhanqishen，shengyinyinweijidongerweiweifazhan，xiaoxinyiyidixiangwozoulai。tashenshangdexiangshuiweihenhaowen，shiyizhongqinglengyouwenroudemuzhixiang，hewomashenshangchangnianbusandeyouyanweijieranbutong。
woxiayishidihoutuilebanbu，dianlediantou。
tadeyanleishunjianjiuyonglechulai，shenchushou，sihuxiangchumowodelian，queyouzaibankongzhongtingzhu，nannanziyu：“xiang，taixiangle……meiyanjianzhihewonianqingshiyimoyiyang……”
“mengwan，biejidong。”pangbiandesuxianshengyezhanleqilai，tafuzhuqizidejianbang，shengyindicheneryouli，muguangzexiangxguangyiyangshenshizhewo，ruiliershensui。
wobeizheiguiyidechangmiangaodeyitouwushui，zhinengkanxiangwodefumu，xiwangtamennengjiwoyigejieshi。
raner，wanghuifenbikailewodeshixian，jiangjianguozegankeleyisheng，jiejiebabadishuo：“niannian，neige……nixianzuoxia，zuoxiashuo。”
wobeianzhezaishafazuoxia，zhenghaozaineiduifuqideduimian。
suxiansheng，yejiushisuchengyi，congyigejingzhidepizhigongwenbaolinachuleyifenwenjian，qingqingdifangzailechajishang，tuidaowomianqian。
“jiangniantongxue，wozhidaojiexialaidehuakenenghuirangnijuedenanyijieshou，danzheishishishi。”tadeyuqihenpingjing，quedaizheyizhongburongzhiyidequanweigan，“shibanianqian，shiyiyuanyinweihushideshuhu，nongcuolelianggexinshenger。ni，bengaishiwomendenver。”
kongqifangfozaizheiyikeninggule。
woganjuezijidedanao“weng”deyisheng，xiangshibeizhongchuihenhenzaleyixia，shunjianyipiankongbai。
wobengaishi……tamendenver？
zheishishenmedianshijulicaihuichuxiandegouxueqingjie？
woxiayishidiniutouqukanwanghuifenhejiangjianguo。wanghuifendeliansecanbai，zuichunduosuozhe，yijuhuayeshuobuchulai。jiangjianguozedizhetou，butingdiyongshoucazheetoushangdehan。
tamendefanying，bisuchengyidehuagengjushuofuli。
“bukeneng。”wodeshengyingansedexiangshazhi，“nimenshibushigaocuole？huozheshishenmexinxingdepianju？”
“womenmeiyougaocuo。”suchengyideyuqiyijiuchenwen，tazhilezhineifenwenjian，“zheishiwohenidednaqinzijiandingbaogao，xiangsidu99。99%。ruguonibuxin，womenkeyisuishiqurenheyijianizhidingdequanweijigouzhongxinzuojianding。”
wodeshixianbushoukongzhidiluozaineifenbaogaoshang。“qinquanguanxichengli”neijigejiacudeheitizi，xiangshaohongdeluotie，henhenditangshanglewodeyanjing。
wodenaoziluanchengyituanjianghu。
十八年。
wohuoleshibanian，turanyourengaosuwo，woderenshengcongyikaishijiushigecuowu。wodefumubushiwodefumu，wodejiabushiwodejia。
难怪……
nanguaicongxiaodaoda，wanghuifenhejiangjianguodougengpianaididijiangrui。jiangruidasuilejializuiguidehuaping，tamenzhihuixiaozheshuo“suisuipingan”；erwonongdiuleyizhiwukuaiqiandegangbi，queyaobeimashangyigexingqi。jialiyouhaochide，diyigexiangdaodeyongyuanshijiangrui；xinyifu，yezongshixianjinzhejiangruimai。
woyizhiyiweishitamenzhongnanqingnv，xianzaixianglai，huoxuzhishiyinwei，jiangruishiqinshengde，erwobushi。
neixienianli，wowushucizaishenyelihuaiyizijishibushibugouhao，bugounuli，bugoutaotamenxihuan。yuanlai，daancongwochushengdeneiyikejiuyijingzhudingle。
yizhongnanyiyanyudeweiquhesuanseyongshangxintou，rangwodeyankuangyegenzhefare。
“nei……neinimendenverni？”wotingdaozijiyongyizhongjinhumamudeshengyinwendao。
tidaozheigehuati，sutaitaimengwandelianshangshanguoyisitongkuhezhengzha，dangengduodeshiyizhongxiguanxingdechongni。
“yaoyao……suyaota，zheixienianyizhigenwomenshenghuozaiyiqi。”taqingshengshuo，“tashigehaohaizi，henguaiqiao，henyouxiu。women……womenbatajiaodehenhao。”
苏瑶。
zheigemingziwotingguo。tashiwomengebishiyizhongdexiaohua，changnianbazhannianjidiyidebaozuo，qinqishuhuayangyangjingtong，shisuoyoujiazhangkouzhong“bierenjiadehaizi”。jushuotajiashixianhe，shizhenzhengdetianzhijiaonv。
yuanlai，tajiushineigezhanjuleworenshengderen。
tazhuzhebengaishuyuwodepiaoliangfangzi，chuanzhewozhizaizazhishangjianguodeangguiqunzi，beiwodeqinshengfumupengzaishouxinli，xiangshouzhewozuomengdoubuganxiangdeyiqie。
erwo，jiangnian，chuanzhejishikuaiqiandexiaofu，meitianweilejikuaiqiandefanqianhefumudouzhidouyong，jizhehanchouweidegongjiaoche，zhuzaizheidongpojiudejuminlouli。
judadeluochaxiangyizhiwuxingdeshou，jinjindiezhulewodexinzang，rangwojihuchuanbuguoqilai。
“womenduibuqini，haizi。”mengwankanzhewo，yanleiyouyicihualuo，“shiwomenmeiyoujindaozuofumudezeren，rangnizaiwaimianchilezheimeduoniandeku。nifangxin，congjintianqi，womenyidinghuihaohaobuchangni。suoyoukuiqiannide，womendouhuijiabeihaijini。”
tadeshengyinlichongmanlezhenchengdeqianyi，danwoqueganjuebudaosihaodewennuan，zhijuedefengci。
buchang？woshiqudeshibanian，neixiexiaoxinyiyikanrenliansederizi，neixieyinweipinqiongerchanshengdezibeihemingan，yaozenmebuchang？
“suoyi，nimenjintianlaishixiangzuoshenme？”woqiangpozijilengjingxialai，taitouzhishizhesuchengyi，zheigejushuoshiwodeqinshengfuqindenanren。
suchengyizanxudikanlewoyiyan，sihuhenmanyiwodezhending。
“henjiandan，jienihuijia。”tayanjianyigai，yuqiburongzhihui，“nidefangjianyijingzhunbeihaole，jiuzaiyaoyaodegebi。nidehukou，womenyehuijinkuaiqianhuisujia。congjintianqi，nijiushisujiadeer**，jiangnianzheigemingzi，ruguonibuxihuan，yekeyigaihuinidebenming，sunian。”
tadehuaxiangyikezhadan，zaiwohunluandenaohailizaicizhakai。
回家？
回哪个家？
woxiayishidihuanguleyixiazheigewoshenghuoleshibaniandedifang。xiaxiaodeketing，fanhuangdeqiangbi，zhiyazuoxiangdedianfengshan……zheilideyiqiedouchongmanlepinqionghesuosuideqixi，queyechengzailewoquanbudejiyi。
ertamenkouzhongdeneige“jia”，shiyigewocongweijianguode，fulitanghuangdelaolongma？
haiyousuyao……ruguowohuiqule，tazenmeban？womenliangge，yigezhenqianjin，yigejiaqianjin，yaoruhezaiyidongfangzilihepinggongchu？
“zhiyujiangjia……”suchengyidemuguangzhuanxiangjiangjianguohewanghuifen，neiyanshenshunjianbiandebinglengershuli，“ganxienimenzheixienianduinianniande‘zhaogu’。zuoweibuchang，zheizhangkaliyouyibaiwan，lingwai，jiangruiweilaidexuefeihenimendeyanglao，sujiayeyibingfuzele。zhiyouyigetiaojian，congjinyihou，nimenheniannian，buyaozaiyourenhewanglai。”
一百万。
wokandaojiangjianguohewanghuifendeyanjingshunjianliangle。
neishiyizhongwocongweijianguode，hunzazhetanlan、jingxihejietuodeguangmang。
wanghuifenshenzhiwanglebeishang，tajidongdicuozheshou，zuichundongledong，sihuxiangshuoshenme，quebeijiangjianguoyongyanshenzhizhile。
zheiyike，woxindizuihouyidianduizheigejiadeliulian，yechediyanxiaoyunsanle。
yuanlai，woshibaniandeyangyuzhien，zhizhiyibaiwan。
yuanlai，tamenkeyizheimeqingyidi，jiubawo“mai”diao。
“niannian，ni……nijiugensuxianshengtamenhuiquba。”wanghuifenzhongyukailekou，tabikaiwodeyanjing，shengyinqueyichangdiqingkuai，“sujiatiaojianneimehao，niguoqule，jiuzaiyebuyongchikule。women……womenyeshiweinihao。”
“shiashia，”jiangjianguolianshengfuhe，“niqinshengfumulaizhaonile，zheishitiandadehaoshia！womenzenmenenglanzhenini？”
wokanzhetamenpobujidaixiangbawotuichuqudezuilian，zhijuedeyizhenfanwei。
womeiyouku，yemeiyounao，zhishijingjingdikanzhetamen，ranhouhuanhuandizhanqishen，muguangzuizhongluozailesuchengyihemengwandelianshang。
wozhidao，congtamentaruzheigejiamendeneiyikeqi，wojiuyijingmeiyouxuanzele。
huozheshuo，woweiyidexuanze，jiushizouxiangtamenweiwopuhaodeneitiao，zhuimanzuanshiyujingjidedaolu。
“hao。”wotingdaozijipingjingdituchuyigezi。
mengwanxijierqi，yibajiangwoyongruhuaizhong。tadehuaibaohenwennuan，daizhedandandexiangqi，querangwogandaowubidemoshenghekangju。
“taihaole，taihaole……wodenver，mamazhongyunengdainihuijiale……”
worenyoutabaozhe，muguangyueguotadejianbang，kanxiangshafashangrushizhongfudejiangjianguohewanghuifen，yijiyanshenzhongchongmanlejiduhexingzailehuodejiangrui。
congjintianqi，zheilibuzaishiwodejia。
erneigejijiangyaoqudedifang，yeweibihuishi。
suchengyisihuduiwodegancuihenmanyi，tanachushouji，dalegedianhua：“zhangsiji，keyishanglaile。”
takanzhewo，yuqirouheleyixie：“niannian，niyoushenmedongxiyaoshoushima？”
wohuangusizhou。wodedongxishaodekelian，jijianxidefabaideyifu，yishujiadejiushuhefuxiziliao。zheixiedongxi，yutamenkouzhongneige“jia”dehuali，xiandeneimegegeburu。
“buyongle，”woyaoleyaotou，shengyinlitingbuchuyisiqingxu，“womeishenmekedaide。”
guoqudeshenghuo，jiurangtachediliuzaizheiliba。
suchengyidiandiantou，sihuzaojiuliaodaowohuizheimeshuo。
“yehao。jialishenmedoujinizhunbeilexinde，doushianzhaonidexihaotiaoxuande。”
wodexihao？woxindilengxiaoyisheng。tamenshenzhibuzhidaowoxihuanchishenme，chuanshenmeyansedeyifu，youzenmehuizhidaowodexihao？dagaishibaduisuyaodexihao，zhijiefuzhizhantieleyifenjiwoba。
menwaichuanlaileqiaomensheng，yigechuanzhezhifudesijizoulejinlai，gongjingdijieguosuchengyishouzhongdecheyaochi。
“zouba，niannian。”mengwanlaqiwodeshou，tadeshouzhangrouruanerwennuan，querangwogandaoyizhenbingliang。
wobeitaqianzhe，yibuyibudizouxiangneishanshengxiudetiemen。
我没有回头。
wobuxuyaohuitouqukanneiyijiasankoulianshangshihezhongbiaoqing。
wozhidao，dangwotachuzheishanmendeshunjian，woderenshengjiangbeichedigeliechengliangduan。qianyiduan，jiaojiangnian。houyiduan，jiaosunian。
erlianjiezheiliangduanrenshengde，bushixueyuan，bushiqinqing，ershiyichangzhangdashibaniande，huangmiudecuowu。
louxia，neiliangheisedemaibahezaipojiudexiaoquli，xiangyitouchenmoergaoguidejushou，xiyinlesuoyoulurendemuguang。sijiweiwolakaichemen，wozuolejinqu，rouruandezhenpizuoyijiangwozhenggerenbaoguozhu，gejuelewaimiancaozadeyushenghekuitandeshixian。
chezipingwendiqidong，shililezheigewoshenghuoleshibaniandedifang。
wokanzhechuangwaifeisudaotuide、shuxidejiejing，xinzhongmeiyoubushe，yemeiyouduiweilaidechongjing。zhiyouyipianjudade，kongdongdemangran。
“niannian，ebue？womenxianquchifanhaobuhao？”mengwanxiaoxinyiyidiwenwo，shitudapocheneidechenmo。
“buyongle，wobue。”wodandandihuida。
“nei……huijiayihou，nixiankankannidefangjian，younalibuxihuande，womenmashangjiaorengai。”tajixutaohaodishuo。
womeiyouzaihuida，zhishijiangtouzhuanxiangchuangwai。
wozhidao，zhenzhengdetiaozhan，congxianzaicaiganggangkaishi。neigejiaosuyaodenvhai，neigebeitamenjingxinpeiyangleshibaniande“jia”qianjin，huiyongshenmeyangdezitailaiyingjiewozheigeturanchuangrude“zhen”qianjinni？
erwodeqinshengfumu，tamenduiwo，jiujingshizhenxintengai，haishijinjinchuyuxueyuandailaidekuijiuhezeren？
chezishiguoshizhongxinzuifanhuadediduan，zuizhong，zaiyigebeigaodawutongshuhesenyanbaoantingbaoweidebieshuquqiantinglexialai。
zheilishiyundingshanzhuang，benshizuidingjidefurenqu，jushuozhuzaizheilidefeifujigui，yitaobieshudejiageshiwolianxiangdoubuganxiangdetianwenshuzi。
wode“xinjia”，jiuzaizheili。
chezihuanhuanshiru，chuanguoyipianxiujianzhengqidefashiyuanlin，zuizhongtingzaiyidonghongweiderutongchengbaobandebaisebieshuqian。
yigechuanzhejingzhilianyiqundenvhaizhengzhanzaimenkou，tashenziyaotiao，zhangfapijian，lianshangdaizhedetiyoushulideweixiao。
jishigezhechechuang，woyenengganshoudaotashenshangneizhongyushengjulaideyouyueganhejingzhigan。
她就是苏瑶。
wodexinzang，zaineiyike，bushoukongzhidimenglietiaodongqilai。