woshuochu“wotuixue”sangezishi，xiaozhangshilineitaiangguidelishikongdiaofangfodoutingdunleyixia，zhishengxiabinglengdekongqizainingzhi。
xiaozhangdeliansecongjiangyingbianchenglecuoe，suijishibukesiyidehuangluan。takanxiangxuzhiqiang，xiangshizaixunqiuzhishi。
xuzhiqiangquexiaole。neishiyizhongchengnianrenkanxiaohaizifapiqide、daizhejifenwanweidexiaorong。tazhongxinzuohuishafashang，qiaoqierlangtui，yongshouzhiqingqingqiaojizhezhenpifushou。
“tuixue？nianqingren，buyaoyongzijideqiantulaiduqi。”tadeyuqihenpingdan，quetouzheyiguburongzhiyideaoman，“wozhidaonixinlibushufu，zheihenzhengchang。danniyaomingbai，yiqiyongshishizheigeshijieshangzuilianjia、zuimeiyongdedongxi。”
tadunledun，yanshenxiangzaikanyijianshangpin：“zheiyang，wogangcaidetiaojianzaijiama。chuledaxuesiniandefeiyong，wozaijiniershiwan。nikeyinaqulvyou、chuangye，huozhesuibianzuoshenme。zheibiqian，zugourangnibibaifenzhijiushidetonglingrenyougenggaodeqidianle。nazheqian，quyisuobucuode985，sinianhouchulai，niyiranshigerencai。hebini？”
二十万。
zaitazuili，wodezunyan，wosanniandexinxue，wobeiqiequderensheng，jiuzhizheimegejiama。
womeiyoulita，zhishisisididingzhexiaozhang，zhongfuleyibian：“woyaobantuixueshouxu，xianzai。”
xiaozhangdeetoushangyijingshenchuleximidehanzhu。yigebanshangdingdingyaoshangqingbeidejinpaixuanshou，zaijuligaokaobudaoyigeyuedeshihoutuixue，zheijianshiyaoshichuanchuqu，duita、duizhenggexuexiaodeshengyudoujiangshihuimiexingdedaji。
“linmotongxue，nilengjing，qianwanyaolengjing！”tajihushipaoguolailawodegebo，zitaifangdejidi，“zheijianshi，shiwomenxuexiaodegongzuoyoushuhu，woxiangnidaoqian。niyoushenmeyaoqiu，keyiti，womendoukeyitan。tuixue……tuixuekewanwanshibudea！”
“wodeyaoqiuhenjiandan，”woshuaikaitadeshou，“bawoyingdededongxihaijiwo。”
xiaozhanglianshangdexueseshunjiantunjin。tazhidao，zheishitazuibukenengbandaodeshi。
xuzhiqianglianshangdexiaorongyexiaoshile，querdaizhideshiyisibunaifandeyinleng。“kanlainihaimeixiangmingbai。yehao，nianqingrenzongyaozhuanglenanqiangcaizhidaoteng。xiaozhang，rangtaqu。wodaoxiangkankan，lilenizheisuozhongdiangaozhong，meiyoulegaokao，taneidianxiaocongminghaishengxiashenme。”
tadehuaxiangshiyidaomingling。xiaozhanglianshangdejirouchoudonglejixia，zuihoutuirandikualexiaqu，bailebaishou，shiyiwochuqu。
wozhuanshenjiuzou，meiyousihaoliulian。shenhouchuanlaixuzhiqiangbinglengdeshengyin：“jizhu，jintianshinizijifangqidejihui，yuanbudebieren。”
我没有回头。
dangwozouchubangongloushi，xiaoxiyijingxiangbingduyiyangchuanbianlezhenggegaosannianji。woconggonggaolanqianjingguo，neiliderenqunyijingsanqu，zhishengxianeizhanghongsedegongshi，zaiwuhoudeyangguangxiaciyandexiangyitanxue。
zoulangli，jiaoshili，wushudaomuguangtouxiangwo，fuzadeyanshenlihunzazhetongqing、zhenjing、xingzailehuo，shenzhihaiyouyisibiyi。tamendagaijuedewofengle，shigeshubuqideshazi。
wangpangzizailoutikouduzhulewo，tayanjingtonghong，zhuazhewodejianbangshijingyaohuang：“mozi，nishibushifengle？tuixue？nixiangganshenme？jiusuanbaosongmeile，nipingzijideshiliyenengkaogeqingbeia！xianzaituixue，nizheisannianbujiuquanbaifeilema？”
wokanzhetajiaojidelian，xinliyongqiyigunuanliu。zheishiweiyiyigezhenzhengweiwozhejideren。
“pangzi，bubaifei。”wopailepaitadeshou，shengyinpingjingdelianzijidougandaoyiwai，“youxiedongxi，bishangyisuodaxuegengzhongyao。ruguojintianworenle，neiwozheibeizidoudehuozaibierendeshishehelianminli。”
“keneishiqingbeia！”wangpangzijidekuaikule。
“shia，neishiqingbei。”woxiaolexiao，neixiaoronglidaizheyisishuobuchudecangliang，“danbushiwodele。”
woraoguota，jixuwangwaizou。banzhurenlaoliucongbangongshizhuilechulai，zaizoulangjintoujiaozhulewo。
“linmo……”taqichuanyuyu，liansebiwohainankan，“bie……biechongdong。laoshiduibuqini，laoshimeiyong……danshinibunengnazijideweilaikaiwanxiaoa！”
wotingxiajiaobu，huitoukanzheta。zheigewocengjingzunjingguodelaoshi，cikezaiwoyanli，zhishengxiayigenuoruo、keliandeyingzi。
“liulaoshi，”wokanzhetadeyanjing，yiziyijudishuo，“kaiwanxiaode，bushiwo。”
shuowan，wotouyebuhuidizouxialelouti。
huijiadelu，wozoulehenjiu。womeiyouzuogongjiaoche，ershiyibuyibudizou。lubiandeshangdian、chuansuodecheliang、xingsecongcongdeluren，zheixieshuxidejingxiangzaijintiankanlai，doubiandemoshengeryaoyuan。tamenshuyuyigezhengchangyunzhuandeshijie，erwo，xiangyigebeixitongtichudeloudong，yijingbeineigeshijiepaoqile。
wonaozilifanfuhuixiangzhexuzhiqiangdehua：“youxieguize，niyihouzoushangshehui，manmanjiuhuidong。”
wodongle。suoweideguize，jiushitamendeguize。zaitamendeshijieli，quanli、jinqian、renmai，keyiqingyidiniansuiyigeputongrensuoyoudenulihecaihua。tamenshenzhibuxuyaoqinzidongshou，zhixuyaodongdongzuipi，jiunengrangwushuxiangxiaozhanghelaoliuyiyangderen，xinganqingyuandiweitamenfuwu，quqipianhexishenglingyigewuguderen。
我输了吗？
congshisudeyanguangkan，woshudeyibaitudi。woshiqulezuihaodedaxue，fangqilegaokaodezige，zaisuoyourenyanzhong，chengleyigeqiantujinhuidexiaohua。
danwodexinli，queyouyituanhuozaishao。neituanhuo，jiaobugan。
huidaojiashi，yijingshiwanfanshijian。womazhenghengzhexiaoquzaichufanglimanghuo，fancaidexiangqipiaomanlezhenggewuzi。wobazuozaishafashangkanxinwen，jianwohuilai，xiaozheshuo：“jintianzenmezheimewan？shibushigentongxuetiqianqingzhuqule？”
womaduanzheyipanhongshaoroucongchufangchulai，lianshangyangyizhexingfudexiaorong：“erzihuilaile！kuaiquxishou，majintianjinizuolenizuiaichidetangcupaiguhehongshaorou，haohaobubunaozi。mingtianmingdanyigongbu，zanmenjiadedagongchenjiukeyichedifangsongle！”
kanzhetamenmanshiqidaidelian，wozhunbeileyiludehua，turankazailehoulongli，yigeziyeshuobuchulai。
wobakanchulewodebuduijing，guandiaoledianshi，zhouqilemeitou：“zenmele，momo？liansezheimenankan，chushenmeshile？”
womayefangxialepanzi，jinzhangdizoudaowoshenbian，molemowodeetou：“shibushibushufu？haishi……xuexiaoneibianyoushenmebiandong？”
woshenxileyikouqi，zhongyuhaishikailekou。woyongzuipingjingdeyudiao，jiangshulejintianfashengdeyiqie，conggongshimingdanshangdemingzi，daoxiaozhangshilideneichangduihua，zuihou，woshuochulewodejueding。
“ba，ma，wotuixuele。”
huayinluoxia，zhenggeketingsiyibandejijing。
womalianshangdexiaorongninggule，tananyizhixindikanzhewo，zuichunzhandouzhe，bantianshuobuchuyijuhua。
“啪！”
wobamengdiyipaichaji，huoranzhanqi。tashuangmuyuanzheng，xiongkoujuliediqifuzhe，zhizhewodebizi，shengyinyinweifennuersiya：“nizaishuoyibian？tuixue？linmo，ninaozishibushibeimenjiale！tamenbugong，tamen**，nijiuyonghuidiaozijidefangshiqubaofutamen？nizhibuzhidaoweilegongnidushu，wohenimazheijinianshizenmeguolaide？ni……”
tashuobuxiaqule，qidehunshenfadou。
“laolin！”womazhongyukulechulai，tayibabaozhuwo，yanleishunjianjinshilewodejianbang，“erzi，nigaosuma，zheibushizhende，nigenmakaiwanxiaodeduibudui？zanmenbushangneigebaosongle，zanmenqugaokao，pingnidebenshi，zhaoyangnengshangqingbei！tuixue……zankeqianwanbunengzouzheitiaolua……”
fumudefanying，xiangliangbazhongchui，henhendizazaiwodexinshang。wobirenherendouqingchu，tamenzaiwoshenshangqingzhuleduoshaoxinxuehexiwang。wodechengji，shizheigeputongjiatingzuidadejiaoao。
womeiyoudong，renyouwomabaozhewoku。dengtadekushengshaoshaopingxileyixie，wocaiqingqingdituikaita，kanzhewobatonghongdeyanjing，renzhendishuo：
“ba，ruguowojintianjieshouletamende‘buchang’，nazheneibiqian，qutamenanpaihaodelingyisuodaxue。neime，zaitamenyanli，wolinmo，wolinmodenulihezunyan，jiushikeyibeimingmabiaojiade。wojieshoule，jiudengyuchengren，tamenshiduide，woshicuode。woditoule，jiudengyuchengren，womenzheiyangmeiquanmeishideputongren，huogaibeitamencaizaijiaoxia。”
“woyanbuxiazheikouqi。”
“wojintiantuixue，bushiduqi，yebushiweilebaofushei。wozhishixianggaosutamen，wolinmo，buwanle。nimenzhidingdeneitaoyouxiguize，wobuzunshoule。woderensheng，wozijishuolesuan。”
wodeshengyinbuda，danmeiyigezidouqingxiwubi。
ketinglizaicixianrulechenmo。wobasisididingzhewo，yanshencongbaonu，daozhenjing，zaidaofuza，zuihou，tayanzhongdenuhuojianjianximie，querdaizhideshiyizhongshenshendepibeihexinteng。
tazhangzhangditanleyikouqi，tuiranzuohuishafashang，xiangshishunjianlaoleshisui。
“ni……nirangwomenzenmebana……”tayongshouwuzhulelian，shengyinlidaizheyisigengyan。
wozhidao，wodejueding，niansuidebujinjinshiwozijideweilai，gengshitamenduiwoweilaidequanbugouxiang。
neitianwanshang，womenyijiasankousheiyemeiyouchifan。wobazijiguanzaifangjianli，tingzheketinglifumuyayidetanxihechuoqisheng，xinrudaojiao。
wozuozaishuzhuoqian，kanzhemanqiangdejiangzhuanghezhuoshangduijirushandejingsaishuji。zheixiecengjingrangwoyinyiweiaodedongxi，cikekanlai，quexiangyigegejudadefengci。tamenzhengminglewodeyouxiu，quemeinengbaohuwomianshouzuiwuqingdejianta。
zheitiaolu，zhendezoudaolejintou。
neime，wodexiayitiaolu，zainali？
xuzhiqiangdehuayouyicizaiwoerbianxiangqi：“lilezheisuozhongdiangaozhong，meiyoulegaokao，taneidianxiaocongminghaishengxiashenme。”
是啊，我剩下什么？
wodemuguang，luozailezhuojiaoneitaiyijingyonglewuniandejiubijibendiannaoshang。pingmushanghailiangzheyigedaimabianjiqi，shangmianshiwoxieleyibandechengxu。
neiyishunjian，wodedanaohuorankailang。
duia，woshengxiade，shizheixie。shineixiekezaiwonaozilidesuanfa，shiwoqiaoguodeshangbaiwanxingdaima，shiwoduizheigeyou0he1gouchengdeshuzishijiezuishenkedelijie。
gaokaohebaosong，zhishitamenjiwohuadingdeyitiaosaidao。danzaizheigeshijieshang，haiyouwushutiaoqitadesaidao，neixiesaidao，tamenwufazhangkong，yewufayongjinqianhequanlilaiganshe。
yigedadande、jinhufengkuangdeniantou，zaiwoxinzhongmanmanchengxing。
zaiguoqudeyinianli，woliyongkeyushijian，yizhizaiyanjiuguoneizuidadehulianwanggongsizhiyi，“tengshijituan”dedicengxitongjiagou。chuncuishichuyuxingquhetiaozhan，woxiangyigebuzhipijuandekuanggong，zaitamenneihaochengguruojintangdedaimahaiyangliwajue。
yigeyueqian，wozhendewadaoledongxi。yigejiqiyinbide、queyouwubizhimingdeluojiloudong。zheigeloudongxiangyigeyoulinghoumen，keyiraoguosuoyoudeanquanxieyi，zhidatamenzuihexindeyonghushujuku。yidanbeieyiliyong，houguobukanshexiang，zuyirangzheijiashizhiwanyidejutoushunjianbengta。
wodangshifaxianlezheigeloudong，zhishichuyuyigejishuaihaozhedebenneng，jiangqijilulexialai，bingmeiyoushengzhang。yinweiwozhidao，zheizhongjibiedefaxian，yidanchulibudang，huijiwodailaitiandademafan。
danxianzai，qingkuangbutongle。
zheibuzaishiyigejishufaxian，zheishiwoweiyidewuqi，shiwoxianfanpaizhuodezuihouyizhangdipai。
wodakaidiannao，shuangshoufangzaijianpanshang。zhijianchuanlaideshuxichugan，rangwohunluanleyitiandexin，zhongyuchediandinglexialai。
womeiyoulikekaishixieyoujian，ershixianxinjianleyigewendang，jiangneigeloudongdeyuanli、fuxianbuzhou、yijikenengzaochengdeweihai，yongzuizhuanye、zuiyanjindeyuyan，xiechengleyifenxiangxidejishubaogao。meiyigejishuxijie，meiyigetuiyanguocheng，douqingxidewukebianbo。zheifenbaogaobenshen，jiushiwonenglidezuihaozhengming。
ranhou，wokaishixieyoujian。
shoujianrenneiyilan，womeiyoutiantengshijituanduiwaigongbuderenheguanfangyouxianghuoanquanxiangyingzhongxin。wozhidao，neiyangdeyoujianzhihuibeiyanmeizaixinxidehaiyangli，huozhebeicengcengshangbao，zuizhongluodaomougezhongcengganbushouli，tamenzhihuiyongyitaobiaozhunhuadeliuchenglaiyingfuwo。
woyaozhaode，shineigenengzhijiepaibanderen，shineigezhenzhengdongjishu、yezhenzhengnenglijiezheigeloudongjiazhideren。
tengshijituandechuangshiren，mateng。
yigecongchengxuyuanchengzhangqilaide、zhijinrengranjianchixiedaimade、zhongguohulianwangjiedechuanqirenwu。
wocongyigeyinbidekaifazheluntanli，zhaodaoleyigejushuoshuyutadesirenyouxiangdizhi。meiyourennengbaozhengtadezhenshixing，danzheizhidewoduyiba。
youjianzhengwen，woxiedebubeibukang。
“尊敬的马先生：
wojiaolinmo，yiminggaozhongsheng。
qingshuwomaomei，tongguofeiguanfangqudaolianxinin。yinweiwofaxianleyigekenengguanxidaotengshijituanshengsicunwangdeyanzhonganquanloudong。fujianzhongdejishubaogao，xiangxichanshulegailoudongdeyuanlijiqianzaifengxian。woxiangxin，yinindejishudongchali，nenggoupanduanqiyanzhongxing。
wobuqiurenhegongkaideloudongshangjin，yinweiwoxiangyaode，bushiqian。
woganggangfangqilewodegaokaozige。woxuyaoyigexindeqidian，yigenengrangwodejishuhecaihuazhenzhengfahuijiazhidepingtai。
woqingqiude，shitengshijituanjishubuyigeteshurencaidemianshijihui。
wojiaolinmo。wojianxin，wodejiazhi，yuanbuzhiyuyizhangdaxuewenping。”
xiewanzuihouyigezi，wofanfujianchalesanbian，querenmeiyourenhecuolou。ranhou，wojiangneifenxiangxidejishubaogaozuoweifujian，tianjialejinqu。
wodeshouzhixuantingzai“fasong”anniushang，xinzangbuzhengqidikuangtiaoqilai。
zheiyifengyoujian，chengzaizhewoquanbudeweilai。tayaomeshichendahai，rangwochengweiyigechetoucheweidexiaohua；yaome，tajiangweiwodakaiyishantongwangquanxinshijiededamen。
wobishangyanjing，naohailishanguoxuzhiqiangneizhangaomandelian，shanguoxiaozhanghelaoliuduoshandeyanshen，shanguofumujuewangdeleishui。
ranhou，wozhengkaiyan，yanshenlizhishengxiapofuchenzhoudejuejue。
woyonglidianxialeshubiao。