第3章
疼！
congerloufanchuangpaochulai，bujinqiandongleshouwanshangdeshangkou，gengshiliandaizhequanshendoushicigubandetengtong。
keshenshangsuoyoudetengyounalibideguoxinlidejuewang？
liruoruowuzhexiongkou，youxiebuandikanxiangtingzailubiandeheisemaibahe，zhanzhanweiweidizouguoqu，qiaoxianglechechuang。
xiayimiao，chemenjiubeidakai，yizhishougujiefenmingdeshoukuaisuercubaodijiangtazhuaijinlecheli。
yilushang，fengchenyanyemeiyoushuohua，zhishishouzhifangfoguyidijinjindiniezaitashouwandeshangkouchu。
liruoruotengdezhimaolenghan，queyebuganzhengzha，zhinengyaoyamomorenshouzhe。
yaobushifengchenyanyonggegedexingmingzuoweiweixie，tazenmekenengbendaocongerloufanchuangxialaijianta？
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bangexiaoshihou，chezizhongyutinglexialai。
yebudengtakaikou，fengchenyanyijingjiangtacongcheshangzhuailexialai。
“ayan，women......”
taitoukanjian‘minzhengju’jigezi，liruoruoxianshiyijing，jiezheyoushiyixi。
nandaotayijingzhidaozhenxiangle？
buran，tazenmehuidaitalaizheili？
danfengchenyanjimeiyouhuidata，yemeiyoujitahaolianse，zhishizhuaizhetajinqujiangliuchengzouwan，bianzaicijiangtasaijinlecheli。
yihuidaobandao，fengchenyanbianjiangliruoruozhuaidaoerlou，ranhouhenhenshuaidaochuangshang，fushenniezhutadexiae，lengshengdao：“liruoruo，congjinyihou，niyaoshigantachuzheigefangmenbanbu，woyidinghuirangnikanzhelilingfengsi！”
yitinggegedemingzi，liruoruoshunjianhuangleshen，lianmangaiqiudao：“ayan，qiuqiunile，buguanruhebiedongwoge，haobuhao？”
lijiacengjingyesuanshihaichengdemingmenguizu，keziconglifuqushihoubiankaishizouxiapolu，sannianqianruobushifengjiachushoubangzhu，pashizaojiupochanle。
suoyi，tahenqingchu，congshilishanglaishuo，gegegenbenbushifengchenyandeduishou。
erduiyutalaishuo，hegegexiangyiweimingzheimeduonian，gegejiufangfobangefuqinyiyang，tayouzenmenengranggegechushi？
“ayan，buguannixinbuxin，shenjiarenshuodeneixieshiwodoumeiyouzuoguo，tagenbenjiushizaisahuang，tazhishibuxiangwohenijiehun，nixiangxinwohaobuhao？”
liruoruozhidao，tashuozaiduobianfengchenyanyebuhuixin。
ketahaishihenguzhidiyoujieshileyibian。
duici，fengchenyanzhishilengxiaoleyisheng，jiangganglingdejiehunzhengzazailetadelianshang：“buxiangwohenijiehun？xianzaijiehunzhengyijinglingle，wokannihaiyoushenmeshuoci！”
“niheshenjiarenshuolelingzhengdeshime？”
“jiarenbeininvedailesannian，tashoubuleciji，suoyiwofengquannibiepaodaotamianqianluanshuohua，fouzenizhidaohuishishenmexiachang。”
huoxushiweilegege，liruoruohuranyouleyongqi：“nizhidaotashoubulecijihaihewolingzheng？nibushishuohunliquxiaome？ayan，nidaodixiangzenmeyang？”
takanbudong，tazhendekanbudongzheigenanren。
zaijiaotangdeshihou，shitaqinkouquxiaolehunli，rujinyoushitaqiangpozhetalinglezheng，haiweixietabuyaogaosushenjiaren，tadaodixiangganshenme？
“我想做什么？”
fengchenshuangmoucuizhebing，hunshendaizhehanqi：“woyaorangniyechangchangbeiqiujindeziwei，bangjiarenbaochou。”
cihuayichu，liruoruobiandaleyigelengzhan，bukesiyidikanxiangta：“nihewolingzhengjiushiweilebaofuwo？”
“buranni？nandaoniyiweiwozhenxinxiangqunizheigedufu？”
fengchenyanchixiaoyisheng，zhuanerfangfodiyuguilaideyanwang，fuzaitaerbiandishengdao：“liruoruo，zhiyaoyoujiehunzhengzai，ninaliyebiexiangqu，burantiannandibei，woyeyiyanghuibanizhuahuilai。”
mingminghuayutingqilaishineimerouhe，keliruoruoquetingdexinlizhidazhan。
shiwunianlai，tamengmeiyiqiudehunyin，rujinquechengletadeyidaojiasuo，duomekexiao......
modi，takuxiaoyisheng：“ayan，jiusuanmeiyoujiehunzheng，woyegenbentaobuchunideshouzhangxin，niyouhebiweinanzijini？”
tamingmingneimehenta，queweilebangshenjiarenbaochoulaihetalinglezheng。
tayidingaicanleshenjiarenba。
可，这有必要么？
tadeshengsibuguotayinianzhijiandeshi，youhebirucizhemoziji，quyigelingzijiexinderen？
sheiliaofengchenyanqinzheyimoyiweibumingdexiaoyi：“liruoruo，niqiujinjiaren，feijinxinsipashangwodechuang，rangnainaibiwoquni，weidebujiushifengtaitaideweizhime？xianzaiwojiurangnizaizheibuweirenzhidefengtaitaiweizhishang，haohaodishuzui，zhidaosi。”
直到死？
liruoruoxinmengdiyichou，cengjingtashineimedekewangchengweifengtaitai，kerujintaqueqilexiangyaotaolideniantou。
“buguannixinbuxin，yigeyueqiandeneiwan，wozhendemeiyoushejini，yiqiedoushiyigeqiaohe。”
“qiaohe？liruoruo，nizijixinme？”
fengchenyansihushilandezaihetafeihua，zhiqishenzi，chelechexizhuangwaitao，ranhoulenglengningletayiyan，moranzhuanshenzoulechuqu，zhongzhongdiguanshanglefangmen，jiezhebiantingdaomenbeifansuodeshengyin。
buyihuier，louxiachuanlaifadongjideshengyin，jinjiezheshengyinbianyuelaiyueyuan，zuihouxiaoshibujian。
liruoruomengliedikesoulejisheng，taishoukanxiangzaoyibeixianxueranhongdeshabu，bujinkuxiaoleqilai。
shenjiarenshoushangdeshangnayoutadeyanzhong？
ketajiuhaoxiangyanxiayiyangkanbudao......
youhuozheshuo，tashixuanzexinghushiba。
zaitadeyanlihexinli，zishizhizhongzhiyoushenjiarenyige，napasannianqianneigenvrenqitaerqu，tayeyijiuneimechixinbugai。
ruguorangtazhidaoyiqiedezhenxiang，tahuibuhuiyeshoushangni？
kexiangdaozheili，liruoruodexinbianyuefadetengle。
taaileshiduoniandenanren，shahuhudibeilingwaiyigenvrenshuadetuantuanzhuan，ketabujinshenmeyezuobule，haibeiyuanwangchengleyigezuiren。
tawulidikaozaimenshang，juewangdichuixialeyanmou。
yizhidao，shouwanshangdeshangkouchuanlaicitong，tacaixiangdaoqishenzhaoyiyaoxianghuangeshabu，ketaitouhuanshileyiquanzheicaifaxian，zheijianfangjuranshizheisannianlifengchenyanyangshangshuidefangjian。
kandaozheiyimu，tadexinyuefacitong。
jiulianqiujintadedifang，yeshitajingxintiaoxuanzuinengshangtadedifang。
tahaijide，taganggangkangfudeshihou，duitashineimewenrou，neimehao，haishuohuiquta......
kerujin......shenmedoubianle。
huran，tadedianhuaxiangleqilai。
tayiweishigege，xiayishijiuxiangbadianhuajiguale，keyikanlaidianxianshicaifaxianshigemoshenghaoma。
weilebimianshifengchenyandekaoyan，tazhinengjiangdianhuajieqi。
kegangjietongbianchuanlaiyidaocierdesihousheng：“liruoruo，shiwoxiaokannile，xiangbudaozhishizheimeyixiaohui，nijuranjiuxiepoayanhenilinglezheng，nihaizhenyoubenshini！”
“womeixiepota，shiayanzhudongde。”
shenjiarensihumeiliaodaoliruoruohuizheimeshuo，dunshihuomaosanzhang：“jianren，nijiwodengzhe！wobuhuifangguonide！”
shuoba，shenjiarenbian‘pa’diyishengguaduanledianhua。
liruoruolengleyixia，xinbuyoudilianglebanjie。
shenjiarenyidinghuiquzhaofengchenyangaozhuang，daoshihouhubianluanzaoyidui，pashiyou......
xiangdaozheili，tabuyoudidaleyigelengzhan。
tadaoshimeishenme，kegegeneibian......
taganggangjiubugaiduishenjiarende......