shizhongbuxiangxin，yigerendeguoqu，keyiquedingtadexianzai，yebuxiangxintadexianzaikeyiquedingweilai，keyichedifoudingguoqu，gengbuxiangxintamougeshunjianbujingyijiandedongzuokeyiyingxiangtadeyisheng，zhixiangxinmougeshikeyanqiankandaodezhenshifashengdeshiqing。
keshi，jiuzaitazhenzhengyiyichuxianzaiwodeshijie，wocaifaxian……zijiyijinghuibuqule！
摘自任晓城日记
doushuogaosanshenzhiyugaokaonaishirenshengzhongzuizhongyaodezhuanzhedian，yinweigaosanyinianlininulile，bingzaigaokaolikaochulehaodechengji，ranhouqulegenghaodezhongdiandaxue，zairanhoudaxueshunlibiyele，niyihouderensheng，nidezhiyedouhuigengduogenghaodexuanze。
suiranbuzhidaozheishishenmeyangdesixiang，keyidaichuanyidaide，jiuzheimechuanxialaide，ershijishangni？chengjihaodexueshengyiranhao，buhaodexueshengzhaoyanghunrizi，ranhoubiyele，gaokaoluobangdeneixiejiupaodaogezhongdachengshilidagong，guozheqizaotanheidedurirunianderizi，rizishiyitianburuyitian，keyouyoushenmebanfani？xianshiruci！
buguozheixie，duiyutongyangshigaosanxueshengderenxiaochengeryan，takezhendejiushiyixiaoerguo，yinweizaitayanlizaitaxinli，tashishizhongjuede，zheigeshijieshang，biqixuexi，biqigaokao，shenzhiyuweilaidefangxiang，tahaiyougengganxingqudeshiqing，huoxushizangzaitaxindiyijiubuyuanyigenrenherentiqidemimi，youhuozheshitakandaizheishijiededutedemuguang。
jintianshixuexiaokaixuededibatian，lijiaoshijiehaiyoubudaoliangtiandeshijian。
bangwanchiwanfandeshihou，tajiushoudaoletajiebaidagechenlongyingyuetaqucaochangpingpangqiuzhuojianmiandexiaoxi，xiaoxishibanshangdexiaolingtongliujingkundailaide，zhiyushenmeneirong，xiaolingtongyebuzhidao。
buguo，renxiaochengcaixiang，kendingshihexiaoshimeicengqingyueyouguan。
xiangdaocengqingyue，tabuzijuedexiangdaolecengqingfeng，zheigezaitazhenggechuzhongliweiyigentaguanxibijiaohaodenvtongxue。
zhishiruguochenlongyingyinweicengjiadeshiqingzhaota，kebuyiweizheyaozaiyiciyaogencengjunhaozuodui？
kanlai，shiqingyuanbixiangxiangzhongdefuza，erqiejishou。
buguozheiyangyilai，renxiaochengjiugengjiayouxingqule。
chiguowanfan，bingqiexiwanzao，renxiaochengjiuzhishenqianqulechenlongyingyuehaodedifang。
cishi，chenlongyingzhengkaozhepingpangqiuzhuo，xiangshizaisikaozheshenme。
zoujinhou，tinglezheijiahuoshuoleyidaduidehua，renxiaochengyezhongyutingchulezhongdian。
yuanlaishiqingzhenderutongtaxiangdeneiyang，zheijiahuohaizhenzhenjiushixiangyaoduicengqingyuexiashou，yuanyinyerutongsannianqianzaichuzhongdeshihou，zhaocengqingfengmafandeshihouyimoyiyang。
xianzai，xianbushuozaozaikaixueqian，renxiaochengjiushoudaocengqingfengdexinxi，rangtahuixiaozhihou，duobangmangzhaokanyixiacengqingyue，zhongdianshibierangchenlongyingzhileidezhaotamafan，jiushuorujinzheijiahuodeshenfen，jiashangneijianbuderendemude，renxiaochengjiushiwangebuqingyuanle。
he！haixiongdiqingfen？jiusuanshiqinxiongdiyemeikeneng。
dangxia，renxiaochengzhijiefengqingyundandehuileju：bukeneng。
zenmekeneng？zenmeyangdoumeikeneng！
任晓城心里冷笑着。
“nijiubupawobaolunishenfen？”chenlongyinglengxiaodefanwen。
“nijuedebaolulewo，duiniyouhaochu？”renxiaochengshuo。
renxiaochengmeiyouzhijiehuidachenlongyingdewenti，yinweitazhidaotongyangdeshiqing，fangzaizheijiahuoshenshang，huoxuzheijiahuoyeshitongyangdeganshou。
“suoyi，niquedingbubangle？”chenlongyingzaiwen。
“bangbule！”renxiaochengzhijiehuida。
huoxu，zhenzhengdeyuanyin，haishishihouweidao。
“wotingshuoniyougebiaomeihenkeai！”chenlongyingsixiaofeixiaodeshuo。
“ni……”renxiaochengzhengzhu，buguojinjinyimiao，tayouhuifuleyuanlaidebiaoqing，“neiniquba！ruguonijuedenixianzaideshilikeyigenxiejiakangheng。”
“neijiumeibanfale！”chenlongyingzuijiaozaicikeluchuleyisiguiyidexiaorong，“wobenlaibudasuanduinideganmeimeixiashoude，bijinggaoerdeshihou……buguo，jirannibudaying……huozhe，haiyougongzhu，woxiangzainihaimeigentabiaobaizhiqian，nideshiqing，ta……”
“zhijieshuoba！yaowozenmezuo？”renxiaochengshitingbuxiaqu，suoyizhijiedaduanlechenlongyingdehua，bingbahuaqiangleguolai。
chensiyingdaoyehaikeyi，bijingcengjunhaohetanqingweihaiyoulizhihuidoubushihaorede，keshigongzhu，tashishizaimeibanfa。
dangran，yebuwanwanquanquanshiyinweitaxihuanta，zhishi，shuodaodi，haishitadeshenfen，yidanrangtazhidao，tamenlianghuoxudouhuihenkunraoba！
suiranzaicizhiqian，tahaibingbuzhidaotazhenzhengyiyidexiangfa。
“jiandana！”chenlongyinglianshangguiyidexiaoronggengshengle，“zheicideshiqing，nibucanyujiukeyi！”
chenlongyingshipa，shiqinghaimeizhenzhengkaishi，renxiaochengjiuchulaidaoluan，ranhou……zhijiedaluantadejihua，zairanhou，dabudaotaxiangyaodejieguo，neikezhendejiushigongkuiyikuile。
chenlongyingkebuxiangzuozheizhongmeixiaoguodeshi。
“……”renxiaochengwuyule，danhaishizaixinlianandezuolegejueding。
yinweizaitaxianglai，yidanchenlongyingduicengqingyuexiashou，neixiaoyatoudiyigexiangyaozhaodebangmangdeduixiangyeyidingshita，suoyi，daoshihou，tazailaigefanjianjiyeweichangbuke。
zhiyuchenlongyingdeqingqiu，renxiaochengkeyoudeshibanfahunongguoqu。
diertian，tongyangdeshijiandian，xiaoxiaodecengqingyuechiguowanfanbingxiwanzaohou，bianhuidaojiaoshi，naleyingyushu，qucaochangshangdezuqiuchang“fengkuangyingyu’”。
zhishibanlushang，zaitajingguocaochangdesujiaopaodaoshang，neiyiketaohuaxinmushuyinxiazhiqian，yingmianjiupengshanglechenlongying，zheigetaxiangduodouduobujidenansheng。
suoyi，zheicitagancuiyelandeduole，huozhetaozou，ershizhijietingzhujiaobu，zhanzaichenlongyingzhengduimian，bingbayingyushubaozaihuaili，xiangshizaikeyidengdaizheshenme。
“xiaoyueyue，zuijinkehaihao？”lianshangxiaorongjiqishenmi，younairenxunwei，chenlongyingxiangshisuikoufuyanleyiju，youxiangshizaikeyideanshizhecengqingyueshenme。
“tuoxuezhangdefu，xiaoyueguodehaibucuo。”cengqingyuedaoshibubeibukangdehuileju，lianshangyipianlengmo，bingmeiyoubiededuoyudebiaoqing，“daoshini，pingbaiwugudelan**ma？”
“meishenme？”chenlongyingmanbujingxindeshuo，“wozhishituranfaxian，qishinizhangdehaibucuo，yewanquanfuhewozeoubiaozhun，woxiangnidainihuijiashengwa！”
“e？”cengqingyuexiayishidewanghoutuileyibu，jingtidekanzhechenlongying，“keshiwocaishiliusui，shengbuchude，erqiewoyebushihenxihuanni！”
“neijiusuanle！”chenlongyinglandejiuchan，jiezheshuochulemude，“bafuxiqinjiwoba！”