ruguoshenghuo，huibeisuoweidexianshidabai，neimewomendenuliyouyoushenmeyong？wochangchangzaixiang，ruguokeyi，woshifoujiukeyibeilizheigeshijie，ranhouquwangbiedeyujieshengcun？
kexideshi，genbenmeiyouzheizhongkeneng……
至少，现在还不行！
摘自任晓城日记
qiannvyouhemeimeidouwufarangchenlongyingdongyaolema？
ng？tingwanliumingchendehua，renxiaochengcaisuanmingbai，yuanlaishiqingzhendeyuanbitaxiangxiangdehaiyaokepa，buguorenxiaochengbingmeiyoukeyidiguoduodedanxin，zhishishuo：“suitamenba！nizhiyaojiwodingzheneigecengjunhao。”
“buyonggenzongchenlongyinglema？”liumingchenyouxielengzhu。
“nikenengyijingbaolule！”renxiaochengmeiyoujieshishenme，ershisuiyidishuoleyiju，erhouzhijiezhuanshenlikai。
“e……”liumingchenzhijieshayan，zheirenxiaochengdaodixiangyaoganma，zenmeyihuidingzhechenlongying，yihuigenzongcengjunhao？
buguo，jiranrenxiaochengmeiyoushuoshenme，tayelandezhuiwenle。
dairenxiaochengzouhou，tayezhuanshenhuidaolejiaoshi。
tongyishijian，gaoer12ban，zuozaijiaoshilizuoweishangzhengzaixiezuoyedecengqingyue，xinlituranxiangqileyigeshuxidewenroudenvsheng，neishiliangxinwen。
tazenmelaile？suiranyihuo，dancengqingyuehaishifangxiabi，zhanqishen，zouchulejiaoshi。
“xinwenjie，nizenmelaile？”kaozheyangtai，zailiangxinwenshenbiantingxiajiaobu，cengqingyueweixiaodiwen。
“neijiahuoshibushizhaonile？”liangxinwenmeiyouduoshuoshenme，queshizhijiefanwen。
guoranshiqingrutongtaxiangxiangdeyiyang，ebu，yinggaishibitaxiangxiangdelaidehaiyaokuai，yehaiyaojishou，zheicaibuguosannian，chenlongyingzheijiahuojuran……
tazhidaohouguo，zhishibuzhidaozheihuozhenzhengmudebale。
“a……”cengqingyueyileng，tameixiangdaoliangxinwenjuranzhidaodezheimekuai，erqiezheimekuaijiuzhaoshangmenlaile，tabushisheidoumeishuoma？zenme，tashenbianhaiyouyanxianbucheng？
buguo，jingyaguijingya，tahaishirushidiandiantou：“ng！”
“shifuxiqinba！”liangxinwenshenshendikanlecengqingyueyiyan，ranhouzhuanguoshenqu，kanxiangleneiningjingdeyekong，“wojiuzhidaoshita，suoyi，xiaoyue，nixianzaidasuanzenmeban？”
banfabushimeiyou，dankexingma？
yongtajixiandemimihechenlongyingyihuanyi，suiranjiqimaoxian，danweilecengqingyuebaituozheigemeibiyaodemafan，jinliyishiyeweichangbuke。
buguo，youshizhizhong，taxiangbumingbaihaishineigerendezhenzhenglichang，haiyouneigerendaodishishei，yesuiranzaixujiuyiqian，tayeyinyinyueyuedizhidaolexieshenme，haiyougengzhongyaodeshicengjunhaoxianzaizaiganma。
qingmeizhumama？liangxinwenlengxiaobuyi，huoxuzheicishijianjieshuzhihou，tamenliangyeyaojieshuleni！
“wozhaolerenxiaochengxuezhang，buguo，tazhijinmeiyoujiwodafu！”shuoqirenxiaocheng，cengqingyuebuyoudeyouxiechuitousangqi。
“ta，tayoushenmeyong？”liangxinwenmeihaoqideshuo。
erjiuzaicishi，yigejingmeidezhidiehuaguoyidaomeilidehuxian……
ng？liangxinwenmeitouyizhou，danhaishikuaisudijieguozhidie，tongshihaishishunzhezhidiefeiguolaidefangxiangkanguoqu……
那是曾俊艺？
tazheishiganma？youshibunengdangmianshuo？
buguoxiangxiang，haishisuanle，jiezhebiandakailezhidie，zhijianshangmianxiezhe：biequzhaorerenheren，nideshenfenbunengpuguang！haiyou，xiaoyuedeshiqing，womenhuigaoding。yi
shenme？kanwanneirong，liangxinwenzhijienule，jiezhejiangzhitiaorouchengyituan，henhendidiuzaidishang，ranhouzouren。
e？cengqingyuehanyan，danhaishidixiashen，bazhituanjianleqilai。
kejiancaishifenzhong，shijianbenlaijiuduan，xianzaiyouyinweizhaocengqingyueyongquyidaban，shengxiazheidianshijianyounengganma？
likaicengqingyuehou，yiduziqideliangxinwenzaihuijiaoshilushangfenfendixiangzhe。
yaoshitadeshilizaiqiangyixiejiuhaole，zhishaoneiyangjiubuhuirangshenbianderenrangneigechenlongyingqifule，keshixianzai，neijiahuoaoqilingrende，tahaizhendewukenaihe。
raner，jiuzaitazoudaojiaoshimenkouwaidezoulangshi，yigeshuxideshenying，guimeiyibanchuxianzaitademianqian，rangtatingzhulejiaobu。
zheirenbianshigaosanshiliubandewangxinli。
“liangxinwen？”wangxinlimianwubiaoqingdishuo，“kanlainihaizhendeshisixingbugai！”
“wangxinli，woshuole，wodeshiqingbuyongniguan！”liangxinwensihaobukentuirang。
“youxieshizhongjiubushininengzuozhudebushima？”wangxinlijiezheyinyangguaiqidishuo。
wangxinlidemudeyehenjiandan，jiushiburangliangxinwenchanhezheizhengjianshi，yinweizheijianshiduitabandianhaochudoumeiyou。
dangran，ruguozheinvrenfeiyaojinlaichayijiao，neitayebujieyijizheinvrenlaidianmengliao。
“nidaodixiangshuoshenme？”liangxinwendebiaoqingyuefaningzhong，suirantashizhenxinmingbaizheiqizhongdelihai，danshitajiushibuganxin，tayounengzenmeyang？
chenlongyingxiangyaofuxiqin，tayouhecengbuxiangyao。
suiranjiuxianzaideqingkuangeryan，tadechenggonglvjihuweiling。
“nizaogaituichule！”wangxinlizheiyangshuozhe，shixianzhishizhizhongmeiyoulikaiguoliangxinwenneiqingchuntuosudelianjia。
tazhidao，jiushiweilexieqiongtianyehao，weileliangjiadeweilaiyehao，liangxinwendoumeiyoubiyaoweiledangniandeliangxinya，youyiciyuchenlongyingzuodui。
xianbushuozheishilichaju，jiushuoliangjiadedajieyouhecengyuanyi？
zheigewenti，shijishangxiangdoubuyongxiang，liangxinronggenbenbukenengmeimeizuozheige。
“woshuole，wodeshibuyongniguan！”liangxinwenqiangyazhexinlidenuqi，yiziyidunshuoshuo。
wangxinlidedequequeweitazhexiang，tayouzenmekenengganjuebudaoni？
danjiushi……huanyanzhi，ruguobushifeirucibukededibu，tazenmehuimaozheigexian。
“nifeiyaowoshuochuneigerendemingzi，nicaikenfangxiama？”wangxinlishiyouxiebunaifan。
tazheisuanchedishibaileba！renpingtazenmequanshuodoumeiyouyongleduima？liangxinwenzheimejue。
zhiyuneigeren，maosiquanshijiedouzhidaode，danshimeirenhuikeyitiqi，yinweimeiyoubiyao，erqie……
buguohaishisuanle，jiuzheiyangyetinghao。
“nizouba！”liangxinwenlenglengdikanlewangxinliyiyan，ranhouzhijieraoguota，huidaolejiaoshi。
he！wangxinlibuyoudekuxiaoyisheng，jiezheyemaikaitui，xiangzijidejiaoshizouqu。
quangaoshibai，jihuashibai，kanlaidelingxiangtafale。
可是别的办法……
wangxinlixiangdaozheige，tadetoudouyaozhaleni？danyuandaoshihouliumingchennenggoubangbangtaba！huoxuneiyang，tayekeyixinmanyizule。