第4章 我是怎样的女人

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【zhiwei,liangnianqiandeshiqingshixiaoyiduibuqini,xiwangninengyuanliangwo!ruguodajiazhidaoshixiaoyibanituilechuqudikangneixiewangmingzhitu,neixiaoyizheiyishengjiuyouwudian,jiuwandanle,danshinibuyiyang,nizhishigehaizi,nidangniancaishiqisui,nifanlecuoshinengbeiyuanliangde。genghekuang,niyemeishoudaoshizhixingdeshanghaiduibudui?dangnianweilejiwomenbaochou,yuqingtashaletamendelaoda。zheixierenzhefuleliangnian,yaolaibaochoule。xianzaizhiyouninenglaijiuwo!qiunile!nibulaidehuaxiaoyizhendehuiside!!!】

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jiantou,shunjianzhizhilingzhiwei。

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suyuqingganlaile,qiahaokandaozheiyimu。

qiahaokandaota“wudongyuzhong”dizhanzaixuanyabian,qiahaotingdaozouxiaoruneishengqilizhijidenahan:

【zhiwei,niweishenmeyaozheimeduiwo?】

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“meiyou!womeiyou!sanshu,womeiyou!”

“meiyou?nidangwoshilongzima?xiaorudieluoxuanyadeshihouhanchulaile,tazaiwenni,‘zhiwei,niweishenmeyaozheimeduiwo’,dangshitagaiyouduojuewangyouduotenga?”

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【zhiwei,niweishenmeyaozheimeduiwo?】

taxiangbutong,xiaoyiweishenmeyaoniuqushishi,hetayigexiaoyatouzuoduini?

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“嗯…”

nanrenqiazhutadexiyao,henlididingzheta,“zenmebuganhuidale?beiwoshuozhongleshibushi?”

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“wobuguanneixierenzenmexiang,wozhizaihunidexiangfa!nijiumeixiangguoruguowozhendebaxiaoyituixiaxuanyale,neijingchaweishenmebuzhuawoquzuolao?”

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“niyiweiruguobushiyinweinifuqin,wodehaodagezaiwoxiaoshihoujiulewoyimingzheleyitiaotui,wohuirongrennizheizhongnvrenxiaoyaofawai?”