第1章

“wodiyicishuoxihuannideshihou,nishishenmeganjue?”shengzhiwen。

xieyuchenyangmeikanta,yuqiqianzou:“yandebuxiang。”

“那现在呢?”

“不像演的。”

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jiuyuemobangwandetianqiyijiuzaore,jiaoxueloulikongdiaoyunzhuandeshengyinchenmenerrongza。

shengzhibeifudaoyuantangfancongbangongshiganchulaishi,shoulihainiezheneizhangmeibeiqianzidetuixueshenqing。

tangfanbohuiletadeshenqing,yuanyinshitadeliyoubuchongfen。

shengzhitanlekouqi,yibianzhuanshenlikaiyibianditoukanleyanshenqingshushangxiezhede“sirenyuanyin”sigezi。

xinxiangyaoshihuancheng“sirenyuanyin”,tangfangujijiubuhuizheimejiuzhetabufangle。

……

yizhouqian,moujielaibujichizaocandezaobakeshang,shengzhipazaizhuoshangshuidehuntianheidi。

zaixinglaishi,renyijingzaiyiyuanle。

gengxiqideshicongqianshizijirukongqideqinrenmen,yixizhijianjingranquandouwenleshanglai。

bishishengzhihaiyoudianerbushiyingbeizheimeduorenweizhedeganjue,chelechezuijiaocongchuangshangzuoqilaikailegefeichangzhuoliedewanxiao:

“nimenzenmedouzheimekanzhewo?buzhidaodehaiyiweiwodeleshenmejuezhengyaosileni。”

“……”

他们一个也没笑。

xujiubujiandemuqinyuanhekanzheta,yandimanshijucuhexinteng。

fuqinshengmingjieyishenbanzhengxizhuang,zhanzaipangbian,shenseningzhong。

jiulianpingshihetabuduifudetongfuyimudedidishengyi,cikeyeminzhechunyiyanbufa。

shengzhiyinyinyouzhongbuhaodeyugan,tabujingyiditou,kandaolediaozaichuangjiaoneizhangzhoubabadezhenduanshu。

胃癌,晚期。

sizui,zhenrangzijishuozhongle。

dagaishidaomeixiguanle,shengzhixinlijuranguiyidepingjing。

yishengshuotazuiduoyejiuzhishengyiniankehuole,rangtachenzhezheiduanshijianzuodianerxiangzuodeshiqing。

zhidaoyuanhebatajiedaozijijialideneiyike,shengzhicaizhujianyouleshigan,tashizhenyaosile。

nanguokendingshiyoude,dantahaishimanmanjieshoulexianshi。

jibianyishengshuoshengzhimeijiule,danyebufangaitameitianzaixinlimomoxuyuan:

laigebazong,taxianzairuodekepa!

xiwangyougebazongcongtianerjiang,batadizaiqiangjiao,hongzheyanqiazhetadeyaoshuoyaobamingjita。

她真的没活够!

tacaiershisui,zheigenianji,shenzhidoumeidaorenshengdeqidianban。

……

shengzhimomojiangshenqingshuduizhezhongxinzhuanghuikoudai。

tuixuedejuedingtakaolvleliangtian,jiranhuobuzhangle,neiyemeibiyaojixudushule。

tayouquanlizhipeishengxiaderensheng,yuanheziranbuhuiganshetadexuanze,shenzhijintianteyitengchuyitianshijianpeitalaixuexiaobandongxibanshouxu。

shengzhiyeshuobuqingchu,zijiweishenmebuyuanyixiangtangfantanbai。

dagaishizheixietianlai,tabeipochengshouletaiduorendetongqing,daxindijuedeyouxieyumenleba。

suanle,haishirangyunvshihuitoulaigendaoyuanjiaosheba。

tayibianhusiluanxiangzhe,yibianwangxiaomenkoudefangxiangzouqu。

chuanguofaxueyuanmenkoudeneipianlinyinxiaodaoshi,tayiwaitingjianlexiebiedeshengyin。

“xieyuchen,woshizhendexihuanni……”

nvshengdeshengyinlidaizhejifenyinqiedeqidai,“ninengbunengdangwonanpengyou?”

shengzhixiayishifanghuanlejiaobu,shixianxunzheshengyindelaiyuankanqu。

bijingrenleidebenzhishichigua,taziranbunengmiansu。

muguangsuojizhichushiyiduinannv,nvshengbeiduizheta,kanbuqingyangmao。

daoshinanshenggezihengao,jiezheludengfanhuangdeguangxian,qiahaonengkanqingneizhangjingweitianrendelian。

suigaiweifen,zangzaieqiansuifaxiademeigushenke。yanmouxiazhang,shensuidetongkongzhongtouluzhexielengdandeshuli。bilianggaoting,bochundailexiexushangyanghudu,hunshensanfazhesanmanbujidejinger。