写在旧书扉页的告白第2章

chuangwaideyushengjianjianmiji,qiaodazheboli,yeqiaokailejiyichenfengdezhamen。chenmujinzuanzheneimeibinglengdejiezhi,muguangchuantouyanqianhunhuangdeguangyunhecengcengdiediedeshujia,fangfodiehuileshinianqianneigetongyangshiluludexiamochuqiu。

neishide“museshuwu”,sihubixianzaimingliangjifen。suiranyijiuchenjiu,shujiashangdeshujiyedaduomosun,dankongqilishaoleneiguhuizhibuqude、beishiguangyiqidemeiwei,duoleyizhongjiumutoubeiyangguangshainuanhousanfachude、ganzaoertashideqixi。laochen——chenmudefuqin——haihuozhe。tabichenmugengchenmo,xiangyikuaibeixishuichongshualeqianwanniandeeluanshi,wenhediqianzaijutaihoumian,shouzhezheifangxiaoxiaodetiandi。

yeshiyigebaoyutian。yuxiadehaowuzhengzhao,qianyimiaohaishimenrenianchoudewuhou,xiayimiaodoudadeyudianjiupilipalazaxialai,shunjianjiangxiangzijiaochengyipianbaimangmangdeshuilian,dimianzhengtengqidaizhechentuxingqidewuqi。

jiuzaizheishi,yigeshouxiaodeshenyingdiediezhuangzhuangdichongjinleshudianxiazhaidewuyanxia。xiangyizhibeituruqilaidebaoyudameng、jinghuangshicuodexiaodongwu。

她就是林小雨。

shibajiusuidenianji,queshoudejingren,kuandadexiaofukongdangdangdiguazaitashenshang,shitoule,jinjintiezaidanbodejibeishang。yushuishunzhetalingluantiezailianjiadetoufawangxiatang,huaguocangbaide、daizhejinghuangdelian。tabaozheyigexidefabai、bianjiaomopodejiushubao,shangmianyinzheyigejihutunsedaokanbuqingdekatongtuan。shubaoyeshitoule,chenzhongdizhuizhetadeshoubei。tajicudichuanxizhe,xiaoxiaodexiongtangjulieqifu,xianggangtaolilelierendezhuibu。

tabuganwanquantarudiannei,zhiqieshengshengdisuozaimenkuanghewuyanjiaojiedeyinyingli,bangeshenzihaibaoluzaixiepiaojinlaideyusizhong。tadongdeweiweifadou,zuichunmeishenmexuese,yishuangshiluludedayanjingxiangshoujingdexiaolu,daizhejudadebuanheyidiandiandehaoqi,feikuaidisaoshizheshudianneibu——neimanqiangmanjia、duijirushandeshuji,duitaeryan,wuyiyuyizuojudaeryourendebaozang。

jutaihoudelaochenkandaoleta。tafangxiashoulizhengzaiqinglideyibenjiuzidian,dongzuobujibuxu。tameiyoushuohua,zhishizhuanshen,congjutaixiamianmosuochuyitiaobanjiude、houshidemaojin。maojinyouxiefaying,dagaishixidecishutaiduo,danhenganjing。tazoudaomenkou,dileguoqu。

“caca。”laochendeshengyinbugao,daizhelaonianrenteyoudeshaya,quehenwenhe,xiangyizhenchuanguogulaochuanglingdefeng。

linxiaoyuxiangshibeizheituruqilaideshanyijingdaole,shentimengdiyisuo,yanshenlidejingtigengnong。takankanlaochen,youkankanneitiaoganzaodemaojin,youyuzhe,shouzhizaishitoudeyijiaoshangjiaojin。

“jinlaiba,menkouyoufeng。”laochenyoushuoleyiju,yuqiyijiupingdan,quedaizheyizhongburongzhiyideanwen。

yexushineiganzaomaojindeyouhuotaida,yexushilaochenpingjingdeshengyinqusanletabufendebuan,linxiaoyuzhongyuqieshengshengdixiangqiannuoleyixiaobu,wanquanduojinlewuyanxia。tafeikuaidijieguomaojin,xiaoshengdi、hanhudishuoleju:“xiexie……”shengyinxiruowenna,jihubeihuahuadeyushengyanmei。tayongmaojinhuluandicazhetoufahelianjia,dongzuoyouxiebenzhuo,danhenyongli,fangfoxiangcadiaosuoyoulangbeidehenji。

chenmudangshijiuzhanzaishujiazhijianzhenglishuji。taershichutou,bixianzaigengxianqingse,lunkuogengyinglangxie,danneifenchenmoheshuliganyijingkejinleguzili。takanzhemenkoufashengdeyiqie,xiangzaikanyimuwushengdedianying。fuqindichumaojindedongzuo,nvhaijieguomaojinshidesesuoheganji,douqingxidiluozaitayanli。tameishenmebiaoqing,zhishishouzhiwuyishidinianzheyibenjiushudeshuye。

laochentuihuijutaihou,kanzhelinxiaoyucadechabuduole,toufabuzaidishui,danyijiushiluluditiezaiejiaohejinghou,yifuyehaishishide。tamuguangluozaitahuailineigeshitoudeshubaoshang,youkanlekantawangxiangshujiashi,neishuangyanjinglinanyiyanshide、jinhutanlandeguangliang。

“xihuanshu?”laochenwen,shengyinbugao,zaiyushengdebeijingxiaxiandegewaiqingxi。

linxiaoyuxiangshibeichuozhonglexinshi,shentiyoushiyibeng,suijiyonglididiandiantou,dongzuofuduhenda,daizheyizhonghaiziqidejiqie。danjinjiezhe,neidianguangliangxunsuandanxiaqu,beijudadejiongpofugai。tadixiatou,shengyingengxiao,daizheyizhongjihuyaokuchulaidexiunan:“wo……womeiqianmai。”

zheijuhuaxiangyikexiaoshizi,touruleshudianchenmendekongqili。chenmuzhenglishuyedeshouzhitingzhule。

laochenquexiaole。bushichaoxiao,ershiyizhonghendande、daizhelijiehekuanrongdexiaoyi,zhouwenzaitayanjiaoshuzhankai。“meishier,”tabaibaishou,yuqiqingsongdexiangzaitanluntianqi,“shufangzheyeshifangzhe。kanba。”tataishouzhilezhishudianzuishenchu、kaojinhouqiangdeyigejiaoluo,“neieryoudengzi,anjing。”

linxiaoyumengditaiqitou,neishuangshiluludeyanjingshunjianbeinanyizhixindejingxidianliang,bishudianlineizhanhunhuangdedengpaohaiyaoliang。tashenzhiwanglezaishuoxiexie,zhishiyonglidi、zaicizhongzhongdidianlediantou,baozhetaneishiluludeshubao,xiangzhizhongyuzhaodaoanquandongxuedexiaodongwu,feikuaidi、jihushidianzhejiaojian,paoxiangleneigejiaoluo。

jiaoluoliqueshiyouyizhangxiaofangdeng,aiaide,dengmianyouxiekengwa,pangbianhaiyouyizhangtongyanglaojiudexiaomuzhuo,shangmiansanluandiduizhejibendaixiubudejiushu。linxiaoyuxiaoxinyiyidibashishubaofangzaizhuozidixia,burangtanongshidimian。ranhou,tajihushidaizheyizhongqianchengdezitai,zaineizhangxiaofangdengshangquansuozhezuolexialai。tademuguangzailitazuijindeshujiashangsuoxun,henkuai,dinggezaiyibenfengmianposunyanzhong、shujiaojuanqideshushang——《xiaowangzi》。

tashenchuhaiyouxieshiluludeshou,jiqixiaoxindi、xiangchupengyijianyisuidezhenbaoyiyang,jiangtacongshujiashangchoulechulai。fankaifeiye,zhizhangyouxiefanhuang,daizhejiushuteyoudeqiwei。talikechenjinlejinqu,jiangshilengdeyifu、langbeidechujing、shenzhimenwaixuanxiaodebaoyudouwangzailenaohou。shitoufatiezhetacangbaidexiaolian,zhangzhangdejiemaodichuizhe,zaiyanjianxiatouxiadandandeyinying。zhiyoufandongshuyeshifachudejixiweide“shasha”sheng,hetaoueryinweikandaoshenmeerweiweiminqidezuijiao,zhengmingzhetacikedezhuanzhuheneixindebolan。

chenmuzhanzaibuyuanchudeshujiayinyingli,momodikanzhezheiyimu。neigequansuozaijiaoluo、rujisikeyuedudeshouxiaoshenying,neibeihunhuangdengguanggoulechude、daizhecuiruoyouyichangjianrendelunkuo,xiangyifuhua,bujingyididingjinletadeyandi。tayikaimuguang,jixuzhenglishujia,dongzuoquesihubigangcaimanleyixie。

congneitianqi,shudianneigezuibuqiyandejiaoluo,jiuchenglelinxiaoyude“zhuanshulingdi”。tazongshizaifangxuehou,huozhezhoumodemougexiawuchuxian。xiangyimoanjingdeyingzi,qiaowushengxidiliujinlai,jingzhizouxiangtadejiaoluo,quansuozaixiaofangdengshang,pengqiyibenshu,yizuojiushijigexiaoshi。tahenshaoshuohua,duilaochenyezhishizaijinlaihelikaishixiaoshengdiwenhouyiju“chenbobohao”、“chenbobozaijian”。duichenmu,zeshizhongbaochizheyizhongjinhujingweidejuligan。ouerchenmuzhenglishujiakaojinneigejiaoluo,tahuilikejinzhangdisuoyixiajianbang,batoumaidegengdi,fangfolianhuxidoufangqingle。

danchenmuzhuyidao,neigexiaofangdenghexiaomuzhuoshang,sihuzongshi“qiahao”fangzheyiliangbenshu。youshishishangcitakanleyibande,youshizeshiquanxinde、fengmianxiangduiwanzheng、neirongyegengshihetazheigenianjiyuedudeshu。biruyibenchahuajingmeide《antushengtonghua》,huozheyitaopinxiangshangkede《halibote》jiuban。tamenjiuneiyanganjingditangzaineili,fangfoyizhizaidengdaitadefanyue。

chenmuzhidao,neishifuqinfangde。laochencongweimingshuo,zhishizaitazhenglishujiashi,huikansisuiyidichouchujiben,fangdaoneigejiaoluodezhuozishang。

youshihou,dangchenmuzaijutaihoukanshuhuoxiubushujishi,yanjiaodeyuguanghuipiejianlinxiaoyukanshukandetaijiu,zuichunyouxiefagan。tahuichenmodiqishen,zoudaojiaoluoneigereshuihubian,daoshangyibeiwenkaishui,ranhouzoudaoneigejiaoluo,bufayiyan,zhishibabeiziqingqingfangzaixiaomuzhuokongzhedeyijiao。

linxiaoyuzonghuixiangshoujingdetuziyiyang,mengdicongshuyelitaiqitou,kandaoshichenmu,yanshenlidejinghehuixunsuzhuanhuaweiyizhongshouchongruojingdehuangluan。tafeikuaidi、xiaoshengdishuo:“xiexie……ge。”shengyinqingdexiangyumaoluodi。ranhouxunsudixiatou,pengzhebeizixiaokoudichuoyin,fangfoneibeishuishishenmeqiongjiangyuye,liandaizheergendoufanqiyicengbuyichajuedebohong。

“……我叫陈暮。”

chenmuzezaitadaoxiehoubianyizhuanshenlikai,beiyingchenmodexiangyikuaiyidongdejiaoshi。meirenzhidao,zaitazhuanshendechanei,neikansipingjingwubodeyandi,shifouyelveguoyisijiqixiweidelianyi。

chuangwaideyu,haizaixiazhe。xianshizhongdechenmu,yiranjinwozheneimeibinglengdejiezhi。jiezhibianyuanluozhezhangxindewenlu,dailaiqingxidetonggan,queqiyidiyushinianqianneigeyutiandechaoshiganzhongdiezaiyiqi。neigexiangchumaobanchuangrutashijiedenvhai,daizheyushuihejiushudeqixi,zaijiyidejiaopianshang,zhongxinxianying。